UPDATE: Scratch that. I don’t have filters to put on my camera.
Being as I am in the path of 100% totality, I am charging up my video camera and will be recording it tomorrow, linking it on my youtube site and sharing here. Intending for clear weather. The bastards were chem’ing throughout the day – no surprise really. Anyway, just to let you know if you aren’t in the states or in the 100% totality area, I will be sharing it from our vantage point.
So………… deep breath…..
I made myself get out of the house and we took our child to a local street fair. Thousands of people. In the heat. A recipe for discomfort for me but I made myself do it as I knew it would not only be a good experience for my girl, but it may bring me something useful as well.
Walking around, I noticed a yoga class in the grass. A ha ~ I can do that. So while my mate took our girl to the play equipment, I plopped down on the grass and said “ok Self Source, guide me, let me release”. As the instructor spoke (in this beautiful, gentle but also powerful voice, which was just what I needed), she guided us to “release what is weighing on you deeply at this moment. See if you can relax it some.” Immediately I think of my thoughts and emotions I had earlier, brought them up and breathed it out loudly. Tears began to form and fall. I didn’t care. Crying in public no longer an issue, thankfully (thank goodness screaming in public is something I refrain from because I wanted to do a bit of that as well). I stretched, breathed and cried. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Over and over I said this.
After some time, I was guided to look up. There in the sky was a cloud in the shape of a dove. Wow. So much gratitude filled me. I was seen. I was not alone. (Yes, I know this is true. But sometimes, well sometimes we all need these moments to remind us of this truth.)
I did some more guided moves and again was told “look up”. The cloud dove was still there, in spite of the winds and other clouds changing shape. Wow. The “I’m sorry” part of me was changing back into the “thank you” space.
After we came home, my girl and I delivered a little hand-made card and flowers to a neighbor whose birthday was yesterday. On the way to her house, I noticed two birds – doves – that flew up onto the roof just as we entered the property. ♥
I can now fully admit that letting myself feel love for myself – from myself – from others – from Source of ALL – is hard. Really hard, which explains so much of this life and a few of my memories of previous incarnations.
And I can fully admit I create this experience. I certainly participated in it.
And that was then. And this is now.
I am right on that cusp of letting go and being willing to dive into something new. Self love. The kind that permeates. Without doubt. To REMEMBER again.
Letting love IN. Oooh, I could just take a year long bath in that energy. Unconditional love. This has been missing on this planet ~ among all of us ~ for far too long. And I have a feeling that for myself, I am just touching this energy.
More than anything, I want is to remember it and feel it and Be it once again.
This experience is of no coincidence given what I believe is coming in now and strengthening with the eclipse tomorrow. Every month or so I have this come up again for me – it used to come up once in a long while – sometimes years would pass. The year of 2017 it has been monthly. The urgency to feel it and let it go to let the NEW in NOW is palpable.
I intend this experience for me. And for all of you.
Let’s intend this unconditional love experience for one another.
Not accepting today. When will this end? When will I feel good for more than one day at a time? This up and down shit is, well, I have had enough of it.
I had a dream last night ~ a reoccuring dream I have had since childhood. A bear wants to come after me. Harm me. Or so I think. Once I gave it a hug and it melted into me. It was much calmer back then. Today it goes up and beyond rage. In my dream I called on a friend who passed. He came with a shotgun. I said “take it out”.
Was this the answer? Who knows. I don’t know anymore. I don’t have any answers. I feel sick. My body hurts. Inflammation throughout. Weak. Heart area especially feels very weak. Winded easily.
I just want to BE LEFT THE FUCK ALONE by hassles. I want to FEEL ME. FEEL the ME I was before I decided to come to this shit hole.
Pardon the expletives. Not feeling the “love and light” energies. Or as I hear “bullshit” in my mind.
Good on those who have mastered this. They have had more help.
Some of us have walked alone for eons. Dismissed. Disrespected. Raped. Tortured.
Today I thought – perhaps I did this to some people along the way.
Dumping my pain on another person. Horrible thing to do.
Letting myself by manipulated into engaging in such darkness.
Horrible thing to do.
Am I forgivable?
Are any of us?
My belief within says everyone else is forgivable except for me.
In fact, I am pretty sure Source or an Angel could show up and tell me I am forgivable and I wouldn’t believe any of it.
Am I beyond healing?
The deep dark stuff coming out.
Who put this shit in me?
And WHY DID I LET IT STAY??
How is one person supposed to deal with so much heaviness?
Peel back the onion, get some relief, think you are going to be able to BE for awhile – then some fucking spiritual”lesson” kicks you in the ass again.
I never should have come here in a physical body.
I don’t understand the systems of being here. Of being a person.
Of being ANYTHING OTHER than the “live and let live” philosophy.
Can I just admit that I failed?
I wave the flag, Universe.
I did my best. And I failed.
Somewhere within I am pure.
Feeling it though is like walking through fire.
And I am tired. Tired of the journey.
So be it.
WSO BREAKING – SOMETHING HUGE blocking SUN, and its not the MOON!
Very intriguing… Sourced from here.
These are from some notes I took watching the video put out by Allison Coe, QHHT, in which she shares testimonies from her clients going back to January on the eclipse, it’s energies and what we can do to help anchor them in. Words in parenthesis are my own addition.
This eclipse is bringing forward a portal to bring about huge transformation ~ individually and collectively. Big advancements. Acceleration in human consciousness. This was described in January as a late summer natural event.
Four days in advance, intend the event will change us all. Keep this in our heart space. Hold this intention within without ceasing. (be gentle with yourself of course)
This tidal wave of energy is #2 of 3. The frequency is one of unconditional love and allows for each of us to recognize our Oneness/likeness. Hold this energy. This is like a “power washer” – washing away the “dirt” – increasing our Shine. Those not in the path of totality can participate and receive as well. It is not necessary to be in this path to receive the frequencies.
We will be able to speak with more impeccability. What we hold in our body will come out through our voice and heart.
By having this global event, where all around the world will tune in, increases the likelihood of these energies becoming fully anchored by our work and intention/acknowledgement.
Tap in through the entire event ~ invite and ground the portal.
Two days before (that would be today), empty out your thoughts. Flush our bodies, mentally, physically and emotionally. (again be gentle – no need to seek perfection or judge)
The lower frequencies still remaining in this realm need this portal to make space for the Higher Energies.
This energy is going to reshape Gaia and Us.
By Sanna Tarnstrom, guest writer
Sweet family of loving light!!!
Now that we have entered the August Gateway passage and a new golden energy wave is coming in, we step into complete new territorial energies and the first stepping stone to activate The NEW archetype and meaning of the sacred feminine.
Great Sphinx of Giza have had many different faces over the ages. One of them was the sacred feminine divine goddess with the wings. She was and still is The rise of the golden Phoenix. She represent a golden era that has never faded in the sand. She is reborn and activated in each and everyone of us in our DNA.
The divine sacred feminine is not a female. It is the inner counterpart of the inner divine sacred masculine. It all stems from the true core of our sacred higher heart that is located in the chest area. Only from there you will enter and embrace the Divine Balance.
Last year in September of 2016 the powerful golden energy of the NEW sacred masculine energies soaked our multi-dimensional planet and everything on it. In March, Friday the 13 of this year, the Planet opened up it’s crystalline doors for the divine feminine to enter the scene. Today, in beginning of August, the last stage of the merging has begun for the NEW to balance out. This happens collectively as well as in every living thing on Our New creation. It has to happen, it needs to happen, it IS happening.
In March on the Spring Equinox of this year, Earth (or Gaia) also went through her own death. She decided to use my essence as the Gateway out and so I saw her leave through me and I had one of the most strongest intense death feeling and downfall within me that I’ve ever experienced. Old Earth died energetically and Gaia’s essence left for her New higher incarnation to The New Earth. Gaia went to the other side of the veil, but that is completely another article in itself.
This will reveal lots of things, both individually and externally. Collectively, if you’re not in your own awareness and in knowing of your development, you can literally be shaken up.
Underneath all that is your divine golden flame burning stronger than ever. This is a good time for movement, body activities. Let those energies flow through.
You might need a few days to balance out. New energies is always coming in, but right Now we have an intense peek of this Energy Golden dance happening.
Feel this fresh divine energy of the NEW embrace and harmonize your inner and outer senses fully and completely. We will meet in the middle and give each other and ourselves a BIG loving bear hug!!!
I wish you a wonderful time in the days and weeks to come, full of beauty and grace.
“Walking in Shades of Grey is to Walk in Grace”
My love to you!
Sent in by reader Joann. I resonate with her thought on intending New Earth. In her words: “Last November I felt compelled to put this Pinterest Board together and I feel it is even more important at this time to really hold our focus on what we want to manifest with the New Earth. Feel free to share it.”
Here is the link along with a few of her pics: