They keep on bringing up all of this STUFF. I don’t want no more STUFF coming up. lol But that’s how it is and yes I am grateful for the opportunity taken to release.
I had a dream last night that brought forth a life long, old wound/issue that I have not visited in some time. The focal point of pain was in my heart ~ no surprise there. I awoke feeling so comforted in the pain that was being released, I was whimpering like a small child.
Within minutes I began to itch ~ a very common experience the past many weeks. I was grumpy, on edge and knew at some point today I was going to have to take the time to be in my own space to hear the rest of the story.
I took the opportunity by taking my kiddo to the park and releasing her into the hands of a small group of girls. I set myself up in the sun on a bench, put out my food, drink, drawing pads, colored pencils and journal. Picking up the journal I began to write. And write.
Tears flowed big time. I shivered and shook. Nose ran. I spoke out loud to myself. (I do this quite often ~ as much as it has annoyed my mate at times it is simply what I must do. Plus it’s a sign of deep intelligence and high IQ. Seriously. Look it up. lol)
It was a beautiful mess I was creating. There were others around but I was obviously in a bubble of protection as not one person noticed me.
I was grateful for that. Not that I would have cared. I stopped caring about things like that quite some time ago.
As I wrote I was guided to bless everything.
Give thanks for everything.
I made a long list of things that have bothered me and pained me for so very long. I blessed every one of the issues.
After doing so, the following came through me of which I decided to share:
the way home is inward
the first step is acceptance through blessing
then forgiveness through gratitude
and then change through allowing.
After that, my itching was gone.
And so it is on this day – whatever day that is.