Schumann Resonance ~ 10/19/17


I knew awakening there were a lot more intense spikes.  Today I feel that as aches in my body so heat and massage are forthcoming.  


Feeling The Experience of Freedom


As I progress, as I purge, as I remember – Remember – I become more in tune with the frequencies of Freedom.

I remember hearing David Icke’s definition of Freedom about 15 years ago. It resonated so strongly with me ~ awoke something within me.  The Goddess.  The Source.  The Lioness.  The Warrior.  His words have remained with me ever since.

“Freedom is the right to live as one pleases and chooses in so long as that choice does not interfere with another’s right to the same freedom.”

Today I may have less words and perhaps different words, but that doesn’t matter.  The explanation.  The definition.  For me it is a feeling.  An energy.  A feeling energy of experience.  I know what Freedom feels like.

And I know that is why I (and so many of us) are here.  To see a return to our State of Freedom.  Certainly it is why I am here.

Back when I first heard David’s definition, there was a lot of static in my head.  A lot of questions.  Stories.  I see it as an exploration through my doubts.

Today when I awoke, I felt the experience of Freedom.  And I knew – the static has been cleared.

A growing inner “roar” has manifested within me when I read things like “we have to know hate to know love” or “we agreed to that” (fill in the blank traumatizing experience). Karmic contracts.  Reincarnation. Lessons.

ALL of these violate inherent Freedom.

Unless of course once chooses to go that route.  You will of course continue the reincarnation cycle as was artificially created (die, return, mind erase, endless searching to “remember” so you can “get it right”).

Who wants that?

Well, maybe some of you do.  And I would never think to apply force to have that experience.  I honor the Freedom in All.

I am ending this experience for me.  And at the same time, because I so long to see all of us truly Free, I will now speak out, passionately at times, when I see (what I feel are) people still locked into old programming that was NOT Source created but instead was someone else’s definition for our way of Being.

It isn’t necessarily the experiences I have an issue with.  It is the “this is the way it is and you have to go along with it” freedom-destroying energy program.

Source requires NOTHING of us.  Just Be.  Create.  Experience.  Freely.

Allow others the same experience.

Creating and experiencing as we go.

I for one am ready to return to my Original State of Pure Freedom Being.



Sandra Walter: Light Tribe Action Request ~ Assisting The Collective Timelines


Editor’s note:  Ask and ye shall receive.  In these times, almost instantaneous.  Earlier, prior to reading this beautiful piece by Sandra Walter I received in my e-mail box, I was having a little bedtime chat/snuggle with my girl.  We were setting our minds and hearts to create those things we want.  For her it was getting some stuff from the American Girl Doll catalog.  For me, it was knowing I had the means to buy her anything she wanted in the catalog.  I also went on to speak more about this sudden desire the past several days to be a Healer. (something seems to have been released and opened during my shamanic healing session last weekend) I set some feeling thoughts around that, what I would begin doing now, then asked the Universe to give me a message that this is something that is in my Highest and Best interest.  In other words, girl don’t wanna waste any more time on pursuits that do not go as I desire.  It must ALL come from the Highest parts of Me and the All for me to follow a new direction.  So as I tuck her in bed, giving her one last of a million little kisses and snuggles, listening to the profound wisdom that she shares (she really humbles me at times – she is so tuned in!), I wipe my eyes and walk out to my computer, open up my e-mail to read the message below.  There was my message from the Universe: Right now, this week, this Gateway, take as many steps as possible (please, just one will assist) in moving forward with your creative expression, new service work, anything that you have been procrastinating. …  New Service Work.  Ok then. Let it flow…  That part aside, I love this piece ~ in particular the talk about using the energies of the New Moon and this week’s gateway to END any time delays around the crumbling of the old systems.  As I released tonight in my body this sole/soul and collective energy that said “THE OLD ENDS NOW!”  We can do this.  It is done!  


Blessings Beloved Light Tribe ~

Our next acceleration and collective timeline choice-point arrives October 21-25. Gatekeepers opened yesterday for the influx (very strong on Mount Shasta last evening), and this morning the SUN began to get active, right on schedule.

As mentioned in last week’s article, these incoming amplifications hit much higher levels during the 21-25 in both October and November. Last week’s Divine Feminine influx provided a strong geomagnetic storms, prompting a strong release of Divine Feminine expression in the external (the Me too revelations and disclosure dynamics increased). Notice how quickly magnetic field stimulation causes polarity releases in the collective. This sets us up for the second half of October’s shifts; let us actively participate in this unfoldment.

We, as the High-Vibe Tribe, hold tremendous vibrational influence in the collective choice because of our activated Hearts and highest intent. Remember the quantum effect of raising our vibration; it pulls many others up. Highest trajectories are being attained by many; the Primary Christed Timeline has us locked into the experience of pure Presence. Our intent to lift as many with us into this new experience – right now – can assist the Secondary timeline tipping points. In brief, we can end the delay tactics by utilizing our pure intent through grounded activity.

Assisting the Collective Timelines

Let us use this New Moon (Thursday, 12:11pmPT) and the Gateway (October 21-25) to assist in OVERIDING and OVERWRITING the programs used to stretch time dynamics to delay the inevitable fall of old systems and the full experience of Ascension for all concerned. This is part of completing our Ascension; learning to use our collective consciousness to create what we desire in the Now.

Right now, this week, this Gateway, take as many steps as possible (please, just one will assist) in moving forward with your creative expression, new service work, anything that you have been procrastinating. One small energetic shift from each of us pushes the envelope to break through any remaining blockages to the highest timelines and outcomes – in the NOW.

Let us end the old waiting game through our collective action. Just one grounded, physical action in this reality to override the procrastination programming will help. Whatever it is for you: a conversation you put off, a new creation you’ve been desiring, an action to move forward, a Unity Meditation you’ve intended to participate in, a change you have delayed, something you always wanted to create … anything shifting the personal reality assists the global shift-point. It doesn’t have to be huge (although that is appreciated), just forward momentum in the Now.

Changes in the SUN

We continue to go deeper into this highly-charged area. I AM sure you have noticed the different quality of SUNlight as Solaris receives this consciousness-shifting energy. Gatekeepers ask if we can collectively call forth the flashing activity we have seen in our visions into the Now. Events are quickening – even with the manipulation – for the Secondary timelines. Our collective nudge will greatly assist this unfoldment of needed events. Certain things must occur to tidy up the lower experiences, and it can be quickened by benevolent action.

With the bifurcation in progress, many of us are beginning to experience the intended consciousness shifts which the Solar flashing activity will create on a global level. Many have seen the SUN flashing this year, both in vision and external reality, and this activity is opening our Hearts to the more palpable, consistent Now Presence. We are receiving the encodements and reality-shifting frequencies already. We are anchoring this, through embodiment, into the HUman heart collective to make it easier for all when the brilliant moment arrives. In this Now, that series of flashes already exists.

Global Unity Meditations on SUNday

It is our 18 month anniversary of this weekly activity! Let us utilize our collective empowered BEingness to co-create the return of peace and the Christ consciousness, shift the timelines into high gear, and assist this influx of Divine Light. The energy field during these meditations is palpable, healing, and activating. Add your light, every Heart is witnessed. Join us on SUNday at 8:11am11:11am and 5:11pmPT. Details via the banner below.

We Love You, We Bless You, We Thank You for your service and dedication to HUmanity, Gaia and Source.

Read the Full Article HERE

In Love, Light and Service,

Steve Olson/WSO: Sun Explodes Again


WSO – Sun Explodes Again…

Published on Oct 18, 2017

The Mandela Effect and Alternative Universes


Editor’s note:  My memory says BerenstEIn…  Fruit (loops)… Billy Graham died (saw his funeral on television).  Then there are my own experiences, unique to just me.  (Still cannot find that radiator heater and now another item of mine has gone missing.)  I feel many of our dizzy/woozy/”where am i??” experiences are due to the merging of dimensions.  


The ‘Mandela Effect’ is a curious,  mysterious and fascinating phenomenon whose term was coined by Fiona Broome. It is the where masses of people clearly recall either a specific event in history or the  name or spelling of an item  as being a particular way, however all public historical records and other people contradict what you remember as being a fact.

It is like what all these people remember never actually happened, yet you are so sure that it did and you have clear memories of it. This leaves the people experiencing the anomalies as feeling completely perplexed, puzzled and even weirded out, like reality has changed.


What is interesting about this is that it is not just the odd person. In some cases it is thousands of people who share the same memory that contrasts current historical data or timelines.

There are literally people all over the world who are not related or connected to each other at all, that are collectively  recalling the exact same historical information – yet all written information whether in books , newspapers or online sources of information contradict this.  So it is not a sole, subjective experience – making it harder to disprove and debunk.


Why is it Called the ‘Mandela’ Effect?

The name ‘Mandela’ links to Nelson Mandela and the fact that thousands of people recall seeing the news in the 1980’s, that Nelson Mandela died in prison during that time. Some even recollect being there and seeing him buried! They distinctly remember seeing the actual memorial.


The rest of us do not have such a recollection. All the other people of the world who found out about his death will agree with what all current public information reports – that he actually passed away in December 2013. 

Which Reality Do You Recall?

Test Yourself on Other Common Examples of the Mandela Effect:


​Famous People – When Did They Die, or Did They Die At All?

Apart from the questioning of Nelson Mandela’s death, the death of other famous people has also been questioned.:

  • ​Muhammed Ali passed away on 3rd June 2016 – some people recall him dying before that already
  • Billy Graham – many people recall that he died around the time of Ted Kennedy’s death. They watched the funeral on TV! As of July 2016 he is reportedly alive and well.
  • Shirley Temple died in 2014 – some recall that she died as a child


The Spelling or Word Change of Books, Movies & Products

  • A big one that people recall differently is the old children’s book – remembered as ‘The Berenstein Bears’, however in this reality the books are called: ‘The Berenstain Bears.’ Do you recall it spelled with an ‘e or an a?


  • The iconic TV  series / movie is named ‘Sex and the City ‘– however many of us are sure it the name was “Sex in the City” when it first aired.
  • Most people will recall the title “Interview with a Vampire” – Aparently not. Now everywhere it is referenced as “Interview with the Vampire”!


  • Who doesn’t remember the famous line from the movie Forest Gump as being: ​“Life is like a box of chocolates.” I remember reciting it that way many a time. Apparently not! Believe it or not, if you watch the movie in this reality timeline, Forrest actually says “Life was like a box of chocolates!”
  • ​​​We all know Star wars – according to your historic recollection, was Darth Vader’s famous  line: LUKE, I am your father” now: No, I am your father”?Believe it or not, it is the latter!


  • This is a cereal I never buy for my kids, however I am pretty sure I recall it being spelt as ‘Fruit Loops’, not ‘Froot Loops’! How about you? (and no – it hasn’t had a name change!)


Colour Changes

  • The colour chartreuse – many people including artists remember this colour to be a kind of pinky blue/red/purple shade, now it is  apparently a yellowy green colour, named after the liquer!

Geographical Shifts

  • NZ on the left (West) or right (East)  of Australia? NOW I am a Kiwi now living in Au. I lived in NZ for the first 25 years of my life, and I recall clearly NZ was in the LEFT of Au! (or that its shifted further Nortth??)​​


Other Reported Oddities:

  • ​Which way do you spell this word: dilemnor dilemma? As an excellent speller plus an English Teacher, I KNOW that its spelt ‘dilemna’ with an ‘n‘!  But no, check any dictionary – apparently its spelled dilemma!
  • Did 9/11 really happen on that date? There are people who believe it actually happened on the 10th!
  • It is interesting to note that there are alternate reality excerpts of the bible which are different, and scholars and priests are even commenting about that and the link to the mandela effect online!

​                                                                                     ​Which reality are you in?


So WTF is Happening?

The predominant theory  out there about this whole phenomenon is that it is a byproduct of the fact that there are multi dimensions and parallel universes, and thus a limitless number of alternate realities. This is a theory that is also supported by modern quantum physics.

Is the fact that there are a number of people who have alternative memories actual proof of parallel / alternative realities / universes?


The Concept of ‘Alternate Realities’?

We are collectively becoming more and more aware that we all have multiple alternative realities happening at once. You can read more about that here. In fact the angels recently told in a channeling me as follows:

“Be the Divine creature that you are in all spheres of life, the after life, all directions of ‘time and space’, because it is all happening instantaneously. All of your past, present and futures is happening all at once Dear Ones, and you will begin to understand this more as quantum Physics and breaks through the ‘surface’ of reality and throws old perspectives askew.”

Even though this sounds like the stuff of science fiction, those who are into the theories or are quite conscious of the ‘reality’ around them, really feel that it is real and happening. This has certainly been the case for me.


Many people are starting to question reality and experience what current quantum physics is actually suggesting – that we  are all living in a holographic and computer simulated world of multi dimensions. The theory is that the people that remember alternative facts had tapped into an alternative universe.

​So the alternate reality where Mandela died in the 80s no longer exists, or isn’t the one that we are in right now. It is said that the more ‘dominant’ history takes over, the one that is stronger – and that eventually we forget or acclimatize – and it all becomes one though glitches in the system, although some still recall – and they are the ones questioning things.


A Merging of Dimensions

Things are rapidly changing. Reality is shifting before our eyes. Now, with the quickening of energies and energetic revolution on earth, some people might be moving in and out of or sliding between various alternative realities, and either not be conscious of it at all, or be somewhat conscious of small idiosyncrasies, glitches, oddities, or even a shift in the feel of the energy. Something feels different or out of place.

As we move into different timelines, our consciousness is moving too. And with shifting timelines, history changes also. Our reality is changing before our eyes, including the written word, right down to how we spell things. Timelines and blurring, dimensions are merging. Some say that there are two earths – the old earth and the new earth, and they are converging, coalescing into one.


A ‘Glitch’ in the System

Is there a glitch in the matrix? Whatever ‘reality’ you are in today might not be the one you are in tomorrow.

In one reality, Nelson Mandela died in prison in the 80s. In another, he passed in 2013.

Which news event did you see?​


Finding Proof of the Mandela Effect

Is there a way we can test and prove this that the mandela effect is real? Surely we can go back into old records and find anomalies?

While some people have found samples of old newspaper articles or actual products with the alternative spelling or the different name of a product to what it is now (such as an old advertisement that shows Fruit Loops spelt with UI not OO), however,


other people swear that an old item they had which they absolutely thought would show the old word, has changed to the new word. People have done this by looking at old tops, books, videos, maps etc.

This is showing that objects are potentially  morphing and changing as the realities change. You can actually believe this if you consider the findings of quantum physics that objects (matter) aren’t actually solid.


Debunking the Mandela Effect – What do the Critics Say?

·         These are ‘false memories’
·         The brain is mixing things up
·         Over time, your database of memories can be tainted, clouded or confused.


The Case for ‘Mind Control’

Some Christians believe that this is the sign of the devil, that we are being deceived and illusions are being created on a grand scale.

Others believe that government agencies & secret power groups are mind controlling us.

Steve Quayle from the Hagmann & Hagmann report claims that the mandela effect is but a deliberate deception by those in power and control. He reports that this whole phenomenon is based on:


“False memories which is an off shoot of the mind control MK Ultra experiments-alternate histories and shared memories which are being intentionally broadcast to change our perception of what’s real and what’s not-a virtual “devil’s mental playground.” [….] The U.S. military and intelligence agencies are spending vast amounts of money to program the brain and to be able to both read your thoughts and control them and or implant them.”

​Written by Natalia Kuna, copyright 2016
​Natalia Kuna is a psychic medium, spiritual consultant, angel communicator, energy healer, writer.

Sourced from here.

A Reminder From The Universe To Let Things Unfold


Solar System, Emergence

I’m sure I could save myself some unnecessary anger, frustration and toddler-induced tantrums by learning to Trust in the flow and let things unfold as they need to, even if nothing makes sense in the moment of angst.

As I shared last night, yesterday’s meeting did not go as I had hoped for. I was really feeling the brunt of that this morning.  The years of disappointment.  The honest efforts I have made over the years to share my talents with the world and be successful with it only to experience this sense of “the world doesn’t want me”.  This morphed into “maybe the Universe doesn’t want me either.”

That pain of not being seen nor wanted.  Oh wow ~ that is a deep one, isn’t it?  Not being wanted.  The orphaned one.

Another life long wound that came festering up to the surface.  I don’t believe I have dealt with this one before.  Certainly not fully.

So here I was, in my state of angst and despair, feeling absolutely unwanted.  I just let myself be with it.

Later on, I went to the store where I ran into one of the coolest couples around.  They are retired farmers, still active in the local organic food community.  I have mentioned them before on this site.  They are open with their minds and hearts and I love them both.  The female half is a Capricorn, just like myself, so I have always felt a special connection with her.  It isn’t often I meet another Capricorn and when I do, I feel “home”. It’s a feeling of “you get me!”  At least those parts of me that tend to annoy others.  :::ahem:::

I ask how they’re doing.  They ask how I’m doing.  With her arm around me, I started to cry.  I cannot contain my emotions any longer.  It is quite liberating.  I used to be the exact opposite.  Ask me how I am in the past and regardless of how I was feeling, I would smile and say “fine”.

I was a seriously simple unfettered person on the outside.  Like all the time.

Now?  Not at all.  Ask how I am and I will tell you the truth.  (And I deeply value that when others do that with me.)

So here my beautiful friend has her arm around me, her compassion authentic and palpable (which only makes the tears flow even more).  As quickly as I could, I told her about my meeting yesterday, how deeply weary I am of trying to find the help I need to make the money I equally need.

Well, as it turns out, they know of a program through the local university run by college kids who have expertise in all things media and website related.  They will be passing along the information to me.

What’s interesting is the one good thing that came out of my meeting yesterday is as we spoke, I suddenly had the idea to contact students at the University.  It was a quiet thought, but enough so that I wrote it down in my notes I took.

We continued our conversation.  We spoke of Shamanism and the local Shamanic community, how they were aware of these people and how I had just very recently been introduced into it.  I shared my desire to study energy healing with them and possibly go on and study Shamanism as well.

My girlfriend has a chronic health condition and she has gone through a huge variety of medical and non-traditional treatments to make herself well.  A very similar experience of my mate.  Putting my hand on my heart I said: “Nothing would give me greater meaning than to be able to put my hands on you and heal you,” I told my friend.  I could barely speak.  I was so full of emotion and a sense of purpose.  My friend’s eyes welled up with tears which triggered mine again as well.  I noticed a couple of other customers glancing our way, smiling, obviously moved by what they were witnessing.  It was a deeply moving, beautiful moment.

There has been far too much suffering of humanity.  Far too many with chronic disease.  We are designed to be whole and healthy.  I am embracing my deepest desire as a Healer.  I have done it in past lives.  And I am doing it again in this one.

So……..deep breath……sometimes when Life opens a door it doesn’t necessarily mean that when you walk through it and it seems to shut that there is just the one door that opened.

Sometimes you have to wait (there’s that patience thing again) and TRUST that the next one will appear.  



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Schumann Resonance ~ 10/18/17


There is weirdness in the air today.  We had a strange emergency broadcast system warning from the national weather service.  They said it was a required regular test.  We have never had one of those “tests”.  


A Vision for Asking and Giving


I love this one…


The Vision Alignment Project

A Vision for Asking and Giving

As the new paradigm opens up before us, we see a world where people realize that everyone needs help on occasion, and that asking for it is one of the best ways for us to receive the things we want and need in our lives. Not only do we ask for help from our fellow travelers, but we also have learned that it is wise for us to ask Great Oneness / God / The Holy Spirit / for help and direction when we feel lost or confused or unsettled.

Now, all shame and guilt is gone as we freely ask for the support we need. All resistance to our receiving has disappeared – and another by-product of our asking has come to the surface: the people who help us are presented with opportunities that they need to further their own growth processes. Indeed, there are many in our world who benefit greatly from being asked for help, because it allows them to practice giving and enjoy all the rewards that their giving brings to them.

Such is the way of the new world. The Love which is born out of the cycle of asking and giving is known to all, accepted by all, and practiced by all. As a result, our selfishness and turned to selflessness, and our feeling of being alone has turned to a feeling of being at One.

As you line up with this Vision, it becomes your Vision too! 
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The Invisible Career Of The Lightworker


There is a fiery rage burning inside me today. And it is much needed. Because the past few days I have gone down – way down – into a very dark pit of absolute unworthiness, and this rage is lighting the fires of my self worth once again.


Let me start from the beginning. I haven’t had a ‘job’ since the end of 2012. Yup, for almost 5 years I have not been doing what I did from age 17 to age 25 – going to work 5+ days a week and receiving a paycheck for it.


From the outside it would be easy to assume that I’ve been ‘living the life’. I spent the first several months of my ‘retirement’ travelling, then stayed with my parents for 15 months in beautiful Raglan. I then went on the benefit and lived in amazing New Plymouth for 18 months. And now I am living in a gorgeous home in stunning Whangamata, and my husband works to support us both. He pays ALL the bills and often works big hours to be able to do it. Meanwhile I do the housework, laundry, cooking and cleaning – basically making his working life as comfortable as it can possibly be – but I also spend a lot of my time sleeping, reading, walking on the beach and generally relaxing. On the OUTSIDE.


The way that 99% of society views my life and my history for the past 5 years really affects me, and it has been one of the reasons why I have gotten really down in the past few days. I have no idea what people say about me behind my back, but I know that in many circles I am perceived as lazy, selfish, a ‘bludger’ and someone who expects everything to be handed to them on a plate. This idea of me fucking KILLS me inside, and it hurts because it is far too easy to see how people come to these conclusions. In the face of so much conviction in this outward illusion, I find it hard to stand my ground and remember the worth in what I am REALLY doing. I slip so easily into judging myself harshly, feeling that I should be doing more – especially in the times when my husband (who actually LOVES working and would go crazy if he couldn’t do it) gets tired and stressed about money. I try to stop those negative thoughts in their tracks but I inevitably become weighed down with guilt and caught up in the illusion that my life is one long holiday while my husband slaves away every day just to keep us afloat.


Let me paint you a different picture from the INSIDE. Since 2012 I have been on an INTENSE path of spiritual awakening and healing. The start of my awakening was euphoric and blissful, but it wasn’t long before I started the process of healing myself and clearing away all that is not in alignment with my higher self. The clearings were periodic at first; maybe once a week or every few days I would have a big emotional outpouring that lead to new revelations about myself. But as I fully woke up and stopped jumping between my old world and the new spiritual world I’d tapped into – I began to spend ALL my time in a state of spiritual awareness, and my spiritual healing became a round-the-clock job. Yes, JOB. I swapped a well paid, society-approved 3D-world position of employment for something that was almost completely invisible – for which I would receive no pay, no thanks, no annual leave and holidays, no awards and accolades; and to top it off, my greatest success would be viewed by almost everyone in my life as a mental breakdown. GREAT.


On the other hand, I had finally found what I was put on this planet to do. And it felt SO FUCKING GOOD. It also felt terrible a lot of the time, because the very nature of the work is uncomfortable to say the least. But I THRIVED on it, I was GOOD at it – really good – and I knew that healing myself was not just about myself; I was healing my family, my ancestral line, and the whole collective consciousness too. Every time I made a big shift in myself, I created a pathway for everyone else to shift in the same way. I was transmuting outdated patterns of energy right left and center, I was busting through glass ceilings like a superhero on a mission, and unravelling centuries old programming every damn day. I was lighting up this planet with my blazing soul, and showing EVERYONE that there was another way – a BETTER way.

Continue reading here.

Today’s Thoughts. Today’s Purge. Today’s “I AM WORTHY” List.



Today I met with a potential mentor.  It did not turn out the way I had hoped for.

(Good thing I went into this with a fairly neutral perspective.)

However, it did bring me back to a core wound that I wish to expel for good:  NOT BEING HEARD.

I had (and have) clearly stated I need someone to PROMOTE me.

I’m not a sales person.  That is what I need.

I had (and have) clearly stated I need someone who can help me monetize this site.

What came out of me later was intense purging and rage.  How do I ever find peace with the system out there?  How do I actually find it within me to be ok with this pay to live system?

I don’t see how I can achieve this for myself.

At this point I surrender.  Maybe I am giving up.  Who knows.  It is difficult to tell the difference in this moment.  As I told my mate, if I have to live in my car alone because the limited income I do have has to go to creditor’s instead of the rest of my expenses to survive, SO BE IT.

I am literally sick from being kept awake at night over this shit.

I am literally sick inside from the ongoing stress and worry.

I just fucking want someone to fucking promote me and my products.

I just fucking want someone to help me monetize this site.

And why?  I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DO THESE THINGS in ways that provide the financial success I seek and need.

This is not rocket science here.  (rolling my eyes throwing up arms in frustration)

Most of all I would like someone to step up and actually DO THESE THINGS instead of trying to tell me what THEY think I need.


Do people not LISTEN??!!

Do I have something about me that says “Don’t really listen to her words. Instead feel free to inject your OWN perceptions and words of how you think her life SHOULD be.”

And the big question:  Why did the Universe align me with this situation? I clearly stated what I was seeking ~ let it go ~ and this is the result?

Another dead end?

Another space where I am once again on my own with all of this money-making promotion bullshit?

I trust myself.

Is the Universe not to be trusted?

Is it all just a giant game ~ a sucker punch for the most sensitive, the most compassionate, kind people who just want to make a difference in the world AND make a living at it?

I am reading an article about a woman – much like myself.  Except her husband is healthy and makes good money to pay all of their bills.  I could chill and relax if I had that life BUT I DO NOT.  (other than that one part that is triggering me at the moment, it is an awesome piece which i will share)

My mate is disabled and our income is limited and fixed.  The two of us worked yesterday afternoon doing yard work for our neighbor (only because we need the money) and he can barely move today.  I would have done it all only my mate has the ability to prune professionally and I don’t and our neighbor is selective on how his trees/bushes look.

Let me tell you ~ I feel like I have been an underpaid slut for the system and I just am not having it.  Instead of finding peace in this I am finding a growing raging lioness who is saying NO MORE.  As a prisoner in this matrix I DEMAND TO BE RELEASED.

For this is Who I Really Am:

I am deserving and worthy of having a monthly massage.

I am deserving and worthy of having a tutor and part-time nanny for my child.

I am deserving and worthy of having a part-time chef.

I am deserving and worthy of having an energy healer.

I am deserving and worthy of having my hair professionally cut every couple of months (instead of the hack job I must do myself).

I am deserving and worthy of getting a spa treatment when I feel the need.

I am deserving and worthy of having a big house on 5 acres.  Off grid. Complete with food replicator, a hot tub, in the trees, on a quiet road in a small community of like-minded/like-Soul and heart people.

I am deserving and worthy of ALL OF THIS.

And more.

And THAT ~ that is what I put out to my Highest Selves, my multi-dimensional Selves, The Source that is Me and to ALL of the Love Frequencies of the Cosmos.