A Request To My Readers…

I have an issue I don’t talk about much.  Call it embarrassment, call it shame, I just don’t share it much with others.

And yet it plagues me every day and has, off and on, since I was in my early 20’s.

My issue is agoraphobia.  A term that still seems vague to me as my issue with it is complex.  In a nutshell, I get feelings of panic and claustrophobia in certain situations.  In crowds.  Driving too far from my home.  Driving in traffic.  Freeways.  Being in the car even as a frickin’ passenger now has become a huge challenge.  Basically in ANY situation where I suddenly feel trapped and not in control (possibilities include: in line, other people’s houses, stores – anyplace outside of my home – i say “possibilities” because this is not a CONSTANT thing – it varies, depending upon time of day, how i am feeling – and yet even if I can partake of such normal activities without panic, it is always in the back of my mind “you may have a panic episode”).  Throw in all of the extra stimulation’s of noise and light and too many people and activity, that just adds to the claustrophobic/GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE feeling.

It feels like I have this unwanted energy ball attached to me.  And I want is GONE.  Here is what I have tried to alleviate me of this issue:

  1. EMDR
  2. Rapid eye therapy
  3. Holographic repatterning
  4. Hypnosis
  5. Cognitive behavior therapy
  6. Subliminal’s
  7. Binaural’s
  8. Energy/reiki
  9. Homeopathy
  10. Somatic Therapy
  11. Exposure therapy
  12. Pleading praying and more pleading and praying

You get the picture.  I have tried it.  And I don’t know what else to do for it at this point.  I had it under control – in remission you could say – about 20 years ago.  At the time I used exposure therapy and pure will power. Lasted for several years.  Without going into detail, stress and trauma’s and general feelings of unhappiness/lack of purpose lead to it to flare up where it has remained.  The fact that the issue reappeared showed I never had it fully healed to begin with (when I thought I did).

Is past-life experiences a part of this?  Likely, yes.

I realize self-talk is important.  I realize good nutrition, exercise and the like – equally important.  Sense of purpose.  Love and Support (I have needed much more of that).

So I am asking you – my readers – for ideas.  For help.  Suggestions. Support. Please private message me here.

I am so ready to shine “out there” and not just through a computer screen from the comfort of my home.  I am so ready to share All Of ME and my gifts with the world.  I know I have much to offer.  It is time.  And I need help getting there.

Thank you and much love and blessings.  

Victoria

 

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Goddess. Starwoman. Freedom and Justice Creator. Writer. Musician. Composer.

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