I had an experience last night with a neighbor, for whom in many ways has felt like family to us since we moved in. However, this past year he has shown his dark side with me and I made the decision today to pull back and away. It is more important than ever, at least for me, to protect my personal space, which means I am not interacting with any person unless I have to and if I choose to, only if they are of my vibe tribe.
On one occasion last summer I was showing him a chemtrail, which he insisted was a normal jet contrail. I attempted to explain my point of view and he turned hostile and told me flat out I was wrong and when it was shown how I and others are wrong on this issue, we will owe him an apology. I shook my head and said “no it is folks like you who will owe us an apology.”
During the election, he was a staunch Hillary supporter. He knew my thoughts on her and on Trump and on the whole swamp that is DC politics. I finally told him the conversation was not open for further discussion. Put my foot down. Was not going to partake of his grilling. One afternoon, as I headed out for a walk, he stopped me and while we exchanged the normal neighborly pleasantries, he laughed and said “ok so WHO are you voting for again?” I said “knock it off – you know I’m not going there” and as I turned to walk away he says “if I held a gun to your head and you had to make a choice, who would you vote for?” Wow! I spun around and said “Fuck you. That is a horrible thing to say to me. I would never say something like that to you.” He smiled and said quietly, “I know.” I put up my hand and walked away.
A few days ago he made reference to my cooking (of which I have cooked for him on several occasions as he is elderly and widowed) and it was not a compliment. Later in the evening he came to apologize. I said “thank you for that.” But then he ruins it by saying “You seem to know how to take it.”
I know how to TAKE IT??!!
The urge to punch him right in the face was overwhelming.
I HAVE TAKEN IT MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE CYCLE!
I told him not to mistake my passivity in the face of such encounters as a sign of knowing how to “take it”.
He is not going to be receiving anymore of my home-cooked meals.
And next asshole response, if there is one, I will not be holding back on my gut instincts.
Where do these people come from? A fucking hole in the ground? I seriously do not resonate nor understand such behavior. Soulless perhaps? So controlled by the dark they cannot see light? I am fucking fed up with getting attacked. FED UP. I can stand up for myself now but I SHOULD NOT FUCKING HAVE TO. God damnit. Be kind. Be thoughtful.
As “time” continues on, I withdraw further from the fray of society. Unless I vibe with another, I prefer solitude. Nature. My mate and child.
And this little virtual world here.
Speaking of, any one of you care to swap homes w/my neighbor? Or move into the vacant house a block away?
This emotionally void town could sure use some more Light.
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