Anyone else wondering where you are now?  I haven’t been able to feel stable/grounded today.  This whole “whatever it is playing out experience” has gone to another level of ridiculous and I feel more detached.  Is that possible?  Sleep last night was off even though I drifted into a nice cbd/magnesium supported sleep only to wake up an hour or so later – agitated and shaking.  WTfrig?  I went within – and got nothing.  NOTHING.  I reached within and up and out to Source/Divine.  NOTHING.  I grabbed a big crystal – placed it under my pillow.  Did the same – NOTHING.  I could not comfort myself or find center – so I just let myself BE.  Eventually I returned to sleep.  Slept in fits.  When it was time to get out of bed for the day, I said “nope – staying here” and tried to rest/sleep for an hour or two.

Nope.  Not happening.  So I got out of bed and just tried to “do” whatever this is I am doing.  My body felt sloppy and didn’t want to function properly.  After dinner I tried to rest and nap for an hour – slept in fits – lightly.  So what the H is going on now?  For a visual I feel like this:

Everywhere I look now – I see chaos.  I see things that don’t align.  I see things not making sense.  I see a variety of responses and a variety of “scenes” here.  As brother Rick said tonight (and I think he’s spot on) – something about a lot of experiences each person is having/participating in.  (I may have completely missed his point – I am just flatlined today mentally.)  I am left within feeling empty, without attachment, have (as Sister D said today) no clue what I am doing.

The whole “not feeling attached to a thing – not even myself” is new and strange.  Am I allowing or steering the vehicle?  What the H do I control now?

One of you mentioned something LMH said last fall.  I’ve been hearing that one lately myself.  Allegedly “years” end in March – which could explain why March has been the “go to” month for me (and LMH) as a moment of ending/new/transition.  Anyway, she could not see anything past March.  Who knows?  All I DO know is that as time passes I feel more detached – overall – and it has kicked into high gear this month.  Of course it is totally possible – probably likely – March will end and April will enter and all will still continue to roll on here.  My “faith” in change “out there” has waned due to weariness.  And frankly my dears, I am dayem tired of going within and changing me.  That sheot “out there” – the controls, the toxins, the systems that harm – THEY can all go KAPOOF.  And all who have enforced them knowingly – THEY are the ones who need to change.  The rest of us – we are fine just as we are.

Other than that………..Elvis has been in my space almost continuously the past 36 hours.  Hearing his music on the radio….hearing his music play in my head.  Been seeing his face on social media as anons try to figure out if he’s still alive (as that Pastor – anything is possible – I’ve heard him sing – the similarities are amazing).  I have always felt a connection with him – going back to when I was a little girl.  I know, odd isn’t it?  I found out in my 20’s he shares my numerological numbers (27/9) and is also a Capricorn.

Who knows?  I obviously don’t know a thing atm so I remain confused, tired and staying as detached as I can from the variety of movies playing on the world stage.  No time has that Rush song lyric rang more true:  All the world’s indeed a stage.

How are you all feeling?  Can you relate to what I have shared?

Here are some finds…

Love,

Victoria

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https://www.zerohedge.com/political/two-more-women-accuse-cuomo-harassment-lets-review-partisan-fawning-during-nursing-home

Saving israel for last….I had an insight about that the other day – a new one – which I have since forgotten.  

https://www.zerohedge.com/geopolitical/well-level-tel-aviv-iran-responds-israel-updating-plans-strike-nuclear-sites

Another character from my childhood on the naughty list:

https://www.zerohedge.com/political/cancel-culture-mob-goes-after-cartoon-skunk-pepe-le-pe-normalizing-rape-culture

https://www.zerohedge.com/covid-19/greyhound-ceo-tells-dhs-head-migrants-must-test-negative-covid-19-boarding-buses

https://www.zerohedge.com/technology/billionaire-olivier-dassault-frances-10th-richest-man-dies-helicopter-crash

https://www.zerohedge.com/markets/senate-passes-19-trillion-stimulus-package

Insurrection! ANTIFA Sets Fire to Portland Public School Headquarters and Torches Vehicles in A Series Of Malicious Terrorist Attacks

I cannot bring myself to share anymore of the headlines at The GP. At this point, I don’t want to see any of this chaos anymore.  I have had enough.  So let’s find some happenings that align with the experience I want and command in my mental spaciness.  lol

I’ll take a leap forward 25 years instead.  But I appreciate the sentiment:

I wonder if there are fact-checkers for Alexa….wait for it….

Don’t know how well these things work – unless the majority get some “smarts, balls and ta ta’s” and do it…..speaking as a solo individual even citing law – these businesses could care less:

Sister D passed this one along ~ from a social media group – taken in NZ before the earthquakes occurred:

We watched another Little House show.  In this episode, Pa discovers he has inherited a fortune from an Uncle.  After putting several things on credit, in the end, it turns out the Uncle had a lot of debt and the only thing left to Pa was a box full of money – confederate money.  Worthless (at that time).  A lien was put on his property, and to pay off the debt, their house and farm are put up for auction.  The town comes together – sending away outsiders for the bidding – leaving only local friends to do the bidding.  The total amount bid for all items was just 6 cents.

Beautiful.

That is true community.  True friendship.  And that is what I long for.  This is what I need.  I cried – wept – still am inside.  I need a small community like this – one that will welcome me and my family.  Nothing drains the Human Heart and Soul more than isolation and lack of real connection – and I know every one in this house is running on empty in this regard.  

We had some of that real sense of community with Grandpa Don.  We were there for one another and visits were regular and often.  BBQ’s.  Dinner’s.  And always good conversation.

GOD I miss that!!

After he passed, a month or so, my girl and I talked about visiting the local Assisted Living Home – see if we could find an elderly person who had no local family and was alone.  She warmed up to the idea.  Then this f’ing “virus” hit and no one is allowed inside those places.  I cannot begin to express the trauma, the pain and the rage I have within over knowing these parasites here stole our entire life one year ago this month.

We have done it all wrong here.  “They” knew that.   City living destroys all that is organic and divine and real.  Business.  Coming and going.  And the past year has intensified the disconnect even more with this ugly putrid horrifying lockdown.  We are in a prison inside of a prison.

I am tired of not fitting in.  I am tired of not being able to exchange a real smile with someone in a store.  I am tired of the distancing and fear.  Tired of pay to live.  Tired of the struggle.  Tired of BEING tired.

Yeah….You get where I am.  lol  I’m human.  I pull myself up by being in Gratitude for what I do have – which includes every exchange I have with each of you.

Here are some finds.

Love,

Victoria

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From@MaggMountains on Gab:

https://theconservativetreehouse.com/2021/03/05/rosenstein-now-admits-recording-trump-was-discussed-with-andrew-mccabe/