Today’s Reflections

 

Headed out earlier to get some supplies for the house.  I had been in a rather somber space, chalking it up to old stuff coming up to release as well as a collective whole, given what I read from other’s experience of today.  The need to just reflect was almost overwhelming.  I had given myself about 20 minutes to do that but I knew I had to go much deeper. Aaahhh, for an entire week away in a cabin by myself!

As we arrive at the first store, I noticed two couples walking past.  I watched the one in front, arms around each other.  The man, stroking the woman’s back.  For whatever reason, the tenderness of that moment took over me and next thing I know, tears are in my eyes.  I wanted to know their story.  How did they meet?  What was the reason for the arms around each other?  What was going on in their lives?

I pondered the amazing ability of the Universe.  What conspired to bring these two together?  What has kept them in each other’s life?

Turning up the radio, I heard REM’s “Everybody Hurts”.  This song always gets me.  Every. Single. Time.  Sitting in the car, ignoring my child’s “moooom come ON already let’s go INSIDE” request, I turn up the song and let myself go.

The words of this song, like these people I saw, show the tenderness of life.  The vulnerability.  The REALNESS of our humanity.  Every moment, so fleeting, over so quickly, onto the next.  How often are we fully in each moment?  I don’t know if this couple was fully in their moment but I know I was full in it – from my own perspective.  Like an unintentional peeping patty.

The image of REM’s lead singer enters my mind next.  I recalled watching him sing “Everybody Hurts” on an MTV Concert in the 90’s.  He was wearing his grandpa’s hat as a tribute to his recent passing.  Suddenly I’m missing my own grandpa, who also wore a similar hat.  The tears come. Hard.  And would not stop.  I tried to get myself together before going into the store.  Was not happening.

Screw it, I thought, getting out of the car.  I don’t care if I’m crying, who sees me.  I’m human and I’m having a moment.  Into the store I go.  It was crowded ~ no one noticed my “moment”.  Or if they did, did what the rest of us do and pretend we don’t see.

We get what we need.  I’m feeling a bit depleted.  Feelings of being used and unappreciated suddenly hit me.  Shit.  Here we go again, I think.

Onto the next store.  I’m on the lookout for a father’s day card for my mate.  I don’t see a single one that resonates with me.  Most were sarcastic.  Others so over the top.  In fact, the entire holiday brings up nothing but obligation and pain.  Don’t have a solid emotional connection with my father, try as I have.  My own relationship with my mate is a challenge, given we’re both longing for a new reality, both of us feeling trapped in our own ways.  It’s been a long, very bumpy journey together.

Why celebrate anything that I do not feel like celebrating?

So I walked away from the cards.  Child is nagging me incessantly to look at this, look at that.  “We’re here for you dad,” I said, giving her the look. (See how utterly boring my “real” life is?  My inner world of stories and such is far more interesting!)

I finally picked out some chocolate, walked to the register.  The clerk, a woman probably in her 60’s, is a lovely person.  I always enjoy speaking with her when I have gone into this store.  She asked my girl about school, to which my child referred the question to me.

“We home school now,” I said.

She holds up her hand and says “Well Mom deserves a high-five for that!” and proceeds to share her perspective on motherhood and moms who work in the home.  I told her if I ran this whole show, I would give every parent who stays home to raise their child a stipend.  She gives me a thumbs up and asks for another “high-five”.  The most important job ~ raising a human being.

I thanked her for her words.  She said she had a feeling I needed to hear them, words of appreciation.

Wow.  Talk about the Universe arranging a beautiful, much-needed moment for me.

Who of us IS appreciated enough?

In this house we seem to focus more on what is going wrong instead of what is working.  I have a feeling many households are like that.

Spouses.  Children and parents.  Couples.  Siblings.  Work relationships.

I know it is up to ME to determine my emotional experience.  And yet, sometimes, like today, when I am particularly tired and feeling somber, an old issue or two rearing it’s head for further re-examination, sometimes it is helpful and healing, in some way, to have the change in emotional experience directed through another Human Being.

Through seeing.

Through kindness.

Through sharing.

We could all use much more of that.

 

 

On Discernment…

 

Yoga, Buddha, Wave, Deity, Shiva

 

I was forwarded a piece this morning that made me laugh.  You can read it here.  I seem to always appreciative the narrative of his/her writings.  It was also a good reminder and allowed me to reflect on some things, namely the UFO phenomena and our obsession with it.  Ok, my obsession with it.

I used to be one of those who not only saw a variety of craft in the skies, I was also the type to greet them randomly without discernment, often calling for them to come pick me up.

Yikes!

After years of doing this, last year higher self had had enough and more or less yelled in my ear “HEY!  What are you doing?  You wouldn’t catch a ride with a stranger on the street.  Why would it be any different if they are flying a craft?”

Good point.  So I stopped.

Today when I see something, I know that it may be government.  It may be from another dimension.  Another galaxy/planet.  They may be benevolent (of which I am still quite open to meeting such Beings). They may be malevolent.  Or they may just be simply observing (for a variety of reasons).

And no longer do I call out for a ride outta here ~ no matter how low I get.

I also used to get excited upon thinking one day I would get to go aboard one of their ships and step inside one of these healing chambers I kept reading about.  This excitement continued for me until I listened to a piece where the woman (saying to channel prime creator ~ another thing that raises the alarm bells for me) spoke of ALL of us coming on board these ships (as though we would have no choice) where we would spend upwards of 6 months inside being healed and, get this, “reprogrammed”. Reprogrammed into WHAT?  And using what devices?

NO THANK YOU.  I’m grateful for listening to that particular program because it really helped me look at my own thoughts on this and enabled me to realize I was just blindly following this particular program.

I think we will do just fine “reprogramming” ourselves with written/spoken/shared information that we can weigh against our OWN inner guidance and then we choose whether we wish to incorporate a particular bit of information as our own.  I also thought “isn’t it more important we REMEMBER instead of just surrendering our will to some reprogramming machine?”

Again – NO THANK YOU.  Sounds far too creepy reptilian disguised as pretty unicorns to me.  We are equals to all Beings – whether they reside in this dimension or the 5th, 6th, 7th, etc. etc..  Period.

Help is help when it is presented as an option.  And Love is Love when the one seeking help/healing is asked what he/she feels they need.

The tech already exists for us to heal ourselves.  Let me check it out on my own, if I feel I wish to use it, show me how and I will do it in the privacy of my own home or in a healing center.

The kind that stay on the ground.

Discernment 101: Fly high but keep thy feet well grounded.  

A Vision

 

Some of you will have noticed I uploaded a new piece last night, only to remove it.  I decided to do that because the words I had written were primarily for me to read.  I also am needing to move on and away from letting personal differences and what I feel/perceive as an attack knock me off my Center.  Before going to sleep, I did a new meditation/focus on healing those parts of me that experienced pain around this.  I was too tired to do it with the intention needed so somewhere along the way I drifted off to sleep, only to wake up several hours later.  Agitated.

I know when this happens not to ignore it so I did some work with that part of me in pain.  Soothing.  Accepting.  Then I called in my Higher Self and simply said “send this part of me that feels hurt some Love.”  What came next surprised me at first.

A vision suddenly appeared in my mind – a slowly growing vision of the infinity symbol, which I knew was a representation of time.  I then saw a higher version of Me – with each of my wrists being wrapped with each of the ends of the loop.  I then saw myself break this symbol of time apart, my face looking upwards, energies being released as I seemed to roar over the release.

Trapped in time?

No real surprise there.

Able to break free of that illusion?

Yes.

More focus to be spent on processing that one.  It was powerful though.  It relaxed me.  I was able to return to sleep.

No longer am I satisfied to “wait” for this shift or wave or event or fill-in-the-blank before I find my relief, my healing, my happiness, my purity.

I am more powerful than that.

We all are.

Putting The Pieces of the Puzzle Together

 

Puzzle, Heart, Light, Luck, Puzzles

The last 48 hours have guided me to several videos showing very interesting and unusual occurrences.  I linked two of them last night on the site.

  1. The launch of NASA’s Sofia, which only gets launched when something big needs monitoring.  I read today where she is monitoring the sunset/sunrise. Those of us following the trajectory of the sun know she is quite off (as is the moon).  MrMBB333 just released a video on this as of this writing, which you may check out here: https://youtu.be/coC3P0sR1p8
  2. A massive armada of aerial data balloons were launched.
  3. A very interesting and very large “pulse” – showed up on some ground instruments on a meteor monitoring site which coincidentally appeared around the same time as the pulse of energy in the description in #4, below.  Here’s the link to this one: https://youtu.be/Eqyqsez6ti0
  4. The latest pulse of energy (which looks like scalar waves, perhaps microwaves) seen coming out of Anarctica headed towards, interestingly enough, Tiksi, Russia (where the unusual heliplot reading has been ongoing for weeks.  Coincidence?).  Of note, the signal at Tiksi has changed in the last 2 weeks, the main signal switching from left to right. Here’s the link to this one: https://youtu.be/ikb96Ri1CxY
  5. AND…lol…(i knew there was a reason for me to wait on posting this one) …today the same pulse of energy referenced above in #4 seen 24 hours ago in the Pacific is now showing up in the Atlantic. Here’s the link. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqkOm260BHA

My analysis of this ~ we have more or less a competition going on, although I do not play the duality game anymore.  The scalar waves being the weapons of choice of the last ditch attempts by the dark to stop our Transformation.  But I will tell you this ~ NO ONE or NO THING can stop Source and the Power Of Our Unity.  Enough of us have awakened to bring this Transformation about.  Tiksi could be one of the Sacred areas in the world sending out Energies of Source Origins (returning us to how we were some 25,000 years ago – a number I have repeatedly received in meditations and the like for over 10 years).

Along the lines of Tiksi, Russia, reading Lisa Brown’s piece last night where she talks about our ability to manifest whatever we need immediately brought to mind the book Anastasia (book 1 of the Ringing Cedars Series) by Vladimir Megre.  I had not heard of it until it started “coming” to me in weird, random experiences about a year ago.  As I have mentioned before, this book is based on a true story/account (to which the author attests to repeatedly – stating “everything I have written in these books I either heard from Anastasia, or saw and experienced myself.”) The books share the experience he had with a woman who calls herself “Anastasia” whom he met in the Siberian taiga of Russia in 1995.  She is fit, very healthy and lives off the land.  In fact, the people of that region, who are said to be a part of a very ancient tribe, according to the author, live very long lives and look much younger than their physical human age. Anastasia always has plenty to eat, shelter and she has complete trust the Universe/Source will always provide for everything she needs.

She has not been corrupted by doubt.  Or forgetfulness.  She has retained the knowledge of Who She Is.  Who we ALL are.

I have wondered since picking it up, what’s the message for me?  For Humanity?  Why did the Universe keep putting that book in my path?

So last night after reading Lisa’s piece, for some reason Anastasia came to mind and her ability to have all of her needs provided for, easily.  Imagine all of us doing this?  This is our Natural Ability.

There seems to be a special energy to this region.  Reading the book has left me with the strong impression that much like Anastasia, the energy of this region has been kept pristine and pure ~ the way we all once were. The Ringing Cedar trees were given their name due to their age (over 500 years old) and the idea that given their age, their energy accumulates over time thus giving out a “ringing” sensation.  How far does this “ringing” travel, I have wondered.

I keep wondering if there is a connection between the Ringing Cedars and their energy emanation and the powerful Tiksi heliplot signal?  It’s a distance of around 1000 miles given what I have ascertained, so it may be a bit of a stretch but it is something that keeps coming to me: There is a connection.

Seeing this strong heliplot signal in Tiksi, that doesn’t even alter when a strong earthquake has appeared, (according to my following of the heliplots), which continues to emanate week after week, and now within the last 24 hours has been targeted by a scalar-type wave emanating from the Antarctic tells me certain individuals want this signal altered, maybe shut off. Perhaps it’s because too many people have noticed it?

Or perhaps it’s due to something else.  Let’s say this signal has something to do with this incoming pulse energy wave so many of us are waiting for and anticipating?  Could this location be a holding point?  Or the source origin?

I don’t know.  I’m just trying to understand and put it together.  My mind wants proof, you know?

And yet Lisa’s words, “Linear mindsets need physical proof to believe, focus on a physical thing to see,” are comforting to me as I share this piece.  My heart and Higher Self share these insights and observations while my mind says “prove it”.  This stops me from sharing things at times on this site.

But not tonight.  I literally feel called to share these words so together, maybe we can feel this thing out.  For now, this is what I have.

As I shared tonight on my facebook page (I really put myself out there in a way never before done on my f/b page): gridworkers/keepers/lightworkers whatever you refer yourself to ~ putting myself out there risking looking like a fool to all of the other people in my life who don’t follow this same/similar journey ~ it is IMPERATIVE that right now we ALL intend for this Energy Pulse – DAILY. i have seen it. i have felt it. i have dreamed it. it has been prophesied and for whatever reason(s) i am a part of it (which totally tweaks my left-brain self). at the moment i am writing up a piece on this in more detail which i will share later but let’s just say the system controllers are doing all they can to stop this or get their hands on it or distract the masses – who knows. in the last 24 hours they have launched sophia as well as over 60,000 balloons (in highly densely populated regions interestingly enough) as well as a very strong pulse signal showing up (i feel it could be HAARP) in russia targeting the tiksi russia area (which as my followers know – i have been monitoring that heliplot station for weeks now – it has been showing highly unusual signals, almost like sacred geometry – and this signal output has not stopped – totally unheard of). something wonderful and beautiful and sacred is going on – those of us on this path know this and feel this – and now it is time to STEP UP and intend for this Moment.  intend for this incoming energy.  we are the anchors.  i know we aren’t alone – but we ARE a part of this transformation. chosen? i’d say volunteered. my higher self is literally kicking me in the ass to share this – so i am. (which means if you have an issue with these words i have shared – take it up with her. lol) please feel free to share too.

You too may share wherever you so feel inclined.  And please, let me know your observations and perceptions on what you feel and see happening. My social media page is full the past 2 days of people on this awakening journey all saying the same thing ~ this Transformational event is just *right* there.  Something one can feel within the cells ~ as though they are now awakening along with the rest of our Being.

Victoria

The Energies Keep A-Comin’…

 

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From what I have gathered, as in the graph above indicates, it’s strong gamma waves entering.  And my experience tells me this is what makes my bones and joints hurt.  Muscles ache.  And a much needed nap as well as sleeping in 3 hour intervals.  Today was a new one – tops of my feet hurt rendering me needing to cut short my usual long walk my kiddo and I take each day.  Heat, rest and a sudden release of deep held tears on an issue I haven’t faced alleviated the discomfort.

I have been told these graphs are unreliable as they are government-created.  This fact of course makes me highly skeptical as well as I question everything that is system-based.  However, my body is almost always in complete alignment with unusual symptoms (as in not felt daily) when these graphs show such readings so no coincidence there.

Working on a piece on putting the pieces of the puzzle together in terms of something big going on and will be linking here shortly.  Just received another link showing something indeed is big occurring in this NOW moment.

In the interim, I always love to hear from all of you especially when it comes to how you are feeling and what your thoughts are on this whole awakening/ascension/timelines emerging/splitting/something-big-is -going-on-i-feel-it experience.

Victoria

 

Energy Update

 

Good afternoon good peeps and warriors.

Now this is a new one.  I want to share and see if anyone else had this experience ~ or has had one similar.

I went to bed a little after 11:00 last night, crashed hard and awoke at 1:00am – wide awake.  As I lay there, I felt something come up from the earth, into the bed and at first I thought “earthquake” – only this time my entire body began to vibrate at levels never experienced.  (I checked for earthquakes – nothing local.)

Panic attack? I wondered.  Nope.  I felt calm.

I thought ok either an energy weapon pulse or another energy wave.  Then I remembered the article I posted here last night by Jenny Schiltz, where I read something I had never read before.  She spoke of incoming energies also coming from Inner Earth.  I remember reading those words last night and they stuck to my brain like glue.  That always means something to me and usually leads to the words I read becoming part of my experience of Truth.

After several moments, the shaking subsided and I was left feeling very serene.  I visualized moving the energy to the places in my body it was designed to go and let myself just BE.

About 20 minutes later, I noticed my mate stirring so I asked him if he felt something strange.  He said yes ~ about a half hour ago he noticed the bed shaking then his whole body.  He just went with it and chalked it up to incoming energy waves.

And there you have it.

Below is the nearest heliplot for our region.  It shows an energy pulse hitting between 1-2am.

Another “there you have it” moment.

Be well.  

Heliplot Image

Intending The Event

 

Escape, Race, Freedom, Hope

Awhile back I wrote a piece on Intending New Earth.  I am feeling it is equally important on intending The Event.  As I have seen it and feel it, it is a special (for lack of a better word) energy pulse that returns us to our heart-space, elevating our consciousness so that we fully remember who we really are.  It affects us all and it is immediate (although the need to get clear on what just happened will be necessary ~ along the lines of awakening from a deep state of sleep suddenly.)  I don’t have all the specific left-brain analysis of this ~ I am a visionary and receive visions which I attempt to analyze.  While I know awakening does require us to use some of our brain matter, it is mostly a higher mind and heart/feeling journey.

In the dream experience/vision I had of this, I was surprised at not only what I saw as the Event (which until this dream I was leaning more towards the arrival of other Beings) but also how it transformed people – even those who I thought would take years to awaken/open up.  Not only that, I also saw where this Event crumbled dimensional veils, revealing the other planets that always surround our system.  I can confidently say there will be far more to that story once it is revealed.

However you view this, whether as a story or something that is really going to happen or even as disinfo, we are master creator’s, so let us create this scenario by intending the illusions drop.  Our hearts, awaken. Our awareness of Self, returns.

And so it is.

 

Ensuring We Stay In Our Full Power

I am spending some time re-reading some material I have read at times throughout the past year.  Here is the link.  I believe the following phrase is of the most importance for us all:

Not to belabor this, however, an important key to remember in all situations is to preserve your Life force, your personal power – as directed with your full intention – by retaining the Self Sovereignty and Freedom of your Being. You are God, Period. You are the Cosmic Sovereign Law Made manifest, and it is your divine right to state your claim as such! Stay away from anything that is sucking on your energy, wanting your worship or claiming power or elitism over you.[4]

Awakening to our Higher Consciousness does not mean all is love and light, all the time. Returning to Unity does not mean you will mesh with everyone around you.  Coming from the heart does not mean one must be “nice”.

All of this work is about Remembering Our Eternal Source Within.

Each of us is Source.  We are One, but we are not the same.  (Love that line by the U2 song.)

As we continue on this journey of awakening, remember the words “You Are Source”.  Be conscious of your energy.  I have been noticing how I give mine away, at times quite easily ~ easily because I am not fully conscious of what I am doing.  Bad habit that must be scrapped now.  I will not let others words and behaviors dictate my own Sense of Self.

Deep within I simply know no one can tell me who I am.  No one can proclaim to know something about me.  The only one who holds my truth is ME.

I have been practicing, diligently I might add, by noticing when I do give my energy away, give my attention elsewhere, asking myself “is this what you want to do with your personal energy?”  I am also doing this when I am in social situations.  Pay attention to the body.  Check in.  It doesn’t lie. Only the brain plays tricks with rigid rules, should’s and fear-based programming.

I have also been practicing, just as diligently, noticing when I suddenly feel “small” and then saying “Source Is NOT Small.  I Am Source.  I Am here to be Fully Me.”  Share it.  Shine on Brightly.

Be in the heart and of the mind.

We got this.

 

The Homecoming ~ A Bedtime Story Poem

Youth, Active, Jump, Happy, Sunrise
Once upon a moment
in a time so very close you see,
there is to be a grand gathering, a feast,
to celebrate our return to Unity.
After a most glorious event,
humanity is to be gifted you see,
to be on the receiving end
of a Universal kiss from the most highest of Divinity.
For after thousands of years
of playing the separation game
of forgetfulness and control,
humanity finally will return Home Again.
Home to the heart,
a return to Love.
With freedom and sovereignty
our inherent gifts from within, below and above.
On the day of this celebration,
reunions from all over take place.
Humanity, male, female, young and old
tearfully, joyfully, embrace.
Dancing and feasting.
Laughing in delight.
The celebration continues on,
Long into the night.
And as the break of dawn
takes the shape of a New Day
humanity in its Wholeness knew,
the Love is now to be the Only Way.
Happy Soon-To-Be Homecoming EveryOne

We’re All Wise Warriors Of Source

 

Beach, Beauty, Body, Peace, Carefree

Earlier today, as I created a quite space for myself, I was thinking about my connection with Source.  I began my usual “I Am Source” ritual when something deep within said “don’t just speak the words ~ feel them in your body.  Feel them in your cells.  In your heart.”  Doing so required me to slow down as I said the words.  As I did, a growing Awareness took place within.  I could feel it expand from my heart and solar plexus, which then traveled throughout other parts of my body.  A growing joy and solid sense of connection, the Knowing that I Am is not alone continued to expand until I slowly began to smile.

It was a beautiful experience.  But it wasn’t over.  Nope.  What came to me rather surprised me for I have had the thought before but always chalked it up to my ego.  What I heard went something like this.

I learn and expand as you do, I heard.  Source stated I was not to think again that Source is All Knowing.  Like us here in these bodies, Source is constantly changing.  Morphing.  Expanding.  Experiencing.  This is a symbiotic relationship.  As we grow in awareness, so does Source.  

Wow.  Really?  Hmmm…  Ok…

For one thing, I heard, those of us who have been a part of this dark takeover and following reincarnation trap (when true rebirth really needs to include our Sovereignty) and who have agreed “no more” to such an experience have created a new paradigm, a new perspective if you will, for Source.  And as such, I deeply believe Source will never allow for such an experiment again ~ because enough of us have said “no more”.  None of this “1000 years of peace” b.s.  That’s just more dark speak.  This is a permanent shift in Universal Experience.

I was still not convinced this wasn’t just my ego or wishful thinking and quietly asked for validation what I was hearing was Pure.  Two hours later, my friend Rick sent me an article, which I will link next.  Here’s what this blogger, Lisa Gawlas, had to say about what I just wrote above:

As cells in the awakening body of God, we have a responsibility here as well. God has invited our suggestions on how the Incarnation can occur with a minimum of disruption. As God’s cells we have a more comprehensive knowledge of our immediate environs than does the Spirit responsible for the coordination of the Whole Body.

Can you imagine God seeking OUR suggestions???  We are so programmed to seek Him out and yet, that which we seek, seeks us!  This is our game, true partnerships share the load, share the experience, not one telling the other what to do or worse, always doing it for the other.

We ARE Partners,  All Is One.  Individuated only by personal experience and emotions.

Another experience of Divine Synchronicity.

The next time you feel small, or in doubt, or in fear, remember YOU ARE SOURCE.  Source doesn’t need to “do” doubt or any of those other lower vibrational behaviors.

I will struggle with this, and yet I know I will also release this struggle at the same time.  For as I reminded myself when I was at a crowded, noisy, brightly-lit store earlier this evening and began to think oh my god get me out of here this environment is so insane until I caught myself.  Paused. Wait a minute.  I am not just me.  I am Me.  I Am Source.  

And slowing down my speak and movement, I remembered and finished up my shopping minus the mind chatter.

And with practice, this will become the Experience.  The way of Being.

For every one of us.