Tonight’s Message ~ We Are

 

Universe, Creation, Spirituality

I will begin by saying it was a rather challenging day.  First I felt the energies pummel me in a new way (which I understand now means the old is shedding so the new can be made visible).  Secondly, it was a late night last night as my mate sliced his hand open and had to go to the ER for what turned out to be surgeon’s glue.  No stitches.  I was grateful it wasn’t worse ~ and also annoyed that this meant additional work for me (certain chores he cannot do for a week).  I know- petty in a way ~ but i am already overly taxed these days, longing for a real vacation away from this daily grind.

And then later today I was questioned and laughed at as to my world view and visions I hold for the new.  All of that added up to me reaching a point where I said “eff this ~ you can have your own reality ~ i am done with sharing my thoughts that you asked to hear only to be laughed at and criticized”.

So I nursed my heart and ego.  As I did so, I began stating “I Am Free.  I Am Source.  I Am Powerful.”  Something happened though.  I felt/heard “Go beyond that.  Go to where We Are.”

Now I have been intending to go beyond the beyond lately.  Just came to me as an impression one day.  I felt it out and thought “yes let’s explore”.

I Am more than I Am.  We are ALL ‘We Are’.

Not the same ~ but One.

I have spent a lot of time in doing my “I Am” intentions and remembering.  At least enough time on making that my sole focus.  It is now time to incorporate the We Are aspect.  Quite the challenge for me some of the time as I still hold this disdain towards the populace at large. I am a part of THEM in some way?  Ooooh, I don’t think so.

And yet part of me Beyond the Beyond knows different.

‘We Are’ goes beyond words.  Goes beyond beliefs. It really is that space of just Being.

One of the things I was challenged on today was how we can have a society where we are self-governing, where we agree to allow one another to live and let live ~ in the true spirit of the term.  I was receiving a barrage of questions on my perspective.  I was getting flustered at this point.  A trigger for me is being questioned ~ grilled actually ~ as though I am on trial.  I had that in my childhood so I am familiar with the tactic adults do when faced with a new thought they don’t wish to consider so instead they pick apart the thought with all sorts of attorney-like questioning.  It annoys me to NO END!  I have trained myself to respond differently and say something like “I am not comfortable with this line of questioning.  How about you take some time to contemplate what I have said and we can continue this conversation later.”  I was in no mood to take this approach today.  And I was quite exhausted and had a child nagging at me “i want to go hoooooooome” so the only answer I could come up with when asked “how is this even possible?  this way of living you suggest?” was a rather exasperated “Higher consciousness think”. What’s that, I was asked?  Oh good lord, I thought!  Guiding my child out the door I said “google it”.

Yes….  Sometimes I am more than happy to hold the hand of another, meaning I will explain fully certain thoughts, phrases and the like.  Other times, not.  Today I was absolutely uninterested in hand-holding.

I thought about this exchange thoughtfully later on.  How I could have spoken differently.  And how CAN such a diverse group of beings ever really unite together?  I wanted to smack this person on the head.

Well, within I hear the guidance.

Drop the stories.

Drop the beliefs.

Drop the judgments.

Drop it all.  All the garbage that creates separation.

Dump it out until you are just pure Being Space.  Where all just IS.  When we are in that space, we do no harm.  And we accept.  And allow.

A very resonating, pleasant space to be ~ a space I feel more and more until I forget or get tired or just don’t have the motivation to find it again.

Until I do find it again.  And the more I find that space, the more my ego is willing to relax.  Let go the need to explain, be right, etc.  Be in that space of just chillin’ (I knew there was a reason I loved using cannabis back in the day).  For this isn’t about silencing the mind or the stories.  This is about going BEYOND that space.  This is about knowing we have another option ~ another option besides just ignoring the stories or telling myself to let them go.  Those are still stories, still words.

This is about going BEYOND the words.  

I don’t have “words” really to describe it ~ I just know when I touch it and experience it.  And it is in THAT space where truly there ARE NO WORDS.

And no desire to do harm to another.  For I know ~ We Are.  

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Flatlined

 

Wow.  Entire family is lambasted today ~ including the youngest member. A definite “move slow/take-it-easy day”.  Really needing to communicate telepathically today as other’s voices are grating on me, including my own.  Desperately needing silence.  Prepping energetically/spiritually for the eclipse energies.  Here’s a quick video by Allison Coe, QHHT out of Portland reminding us to stay focused on the reality we Desire.  At the moment that desire is rested and fully restored/healed.  Quite interesting to me the eclipse finishes up here in Oregon at 11:11.  A number of importance for me for 25 years.

 

What Are You Going To Feed?

 

Words of wisdom spoken to me by my Highest Self.

What are you going to feed in this moment?

Observe your thoughts.  How are they making you feel?

Feed love.

Feed belief.

Feed courage.

You got this.

You are remembering.

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A bit later, I thought of a friend of ours who has cancer.  Shall I say ~ had cancer.  All signs indicate she is free and healthy.  She has this amazing faith.  At first I thought she has this amazing belief system, but really it’s faith she has.  Yes, she follows a religious structure.  But it goes beyond that.  She has this VERY strong faith that she is not alone.  She not only thinks it and believes it, she KNOWS it.

I could feel in my body the difference between belief and faith.

Belief comes from outside of Who We Are.

Faith ~ within.  It IS Who We Are.

Transcend belief into faith.

I rather liked that one.

 

Emotional Roller Coaster Ride

 

I was so grateful for the latest piece by Jennie Schiltz, where she speaks of this emotional roller-coaster experience many of us are going through. One day we are in calm states, often escalating to experiences of bliss and then the next day we are afraid, angry, apathetic.  Such is the process for merging again with our Highest Self and Source.

Yesterday I was, overall, pretty neutral.  Regaining my balance state again after the previous day of purging more old stories.

Today ~ calm.  Creative self full of new stories and insights.  It began after a night of some amazing dreams which I will share in another piece.  Too good to keep to myself.  Even my neighbor, who is a Hillary supporter, thought they were “very intriguing”.  He knows who I am.  Heck, most of my neighbors know I am “one of those”.  When the crafts appear more noticeably and all signs of change come into view, this house will be the go-to place for some answers and maybe even some reassurance.

This calm state slowly morphed while my child and I were out and about getting some flowers for the yard.  I didn’t do much with the yard this year.  Normally I have pretty little flower gardens.  This year ~ leftover primroses took up the space along with a sad looking, lone pansy.  Last night the yard spoke to me ~ please add some color.  I hesitated ~ money issue.  Best spent on food.  But when my girl said she would put forth some of her money, I decided to take her up on that.  Normally whenever she offers such a sweet gift, I turn her down.  She was so excited to help though, I decided sure, why not.

So we scored some 99 cent deals and headed home.  Peter Frampton came on the radio.  I love his music.  Show Me The Way.  This feeling began to grow inside of me.  It continued to expand.  The lyrics “I can’t believe this is happening to me” play.  I thought the same thing for I knew what was and is happening.  I can’t believe this is happening to me.  Another leap in awakening.

Remembering.

Feeling ME.  The way that is Natural.  Meant-to-be.

Feeling Source.

I could feel the presence of so many who have helped liberate earth all around me.  Around us.  Waiting to walk among us.

“You are magic,” I heard.

We all are.

I wanted to shout it for all to hear only no one was outside.

So I shouted it to the trees.  The birds.  The people inside their houses.

It is happening.  And it is only going to continue, overall, to get more beautiful.

Words to carry close to my heart.

Maybe Now Is The Time To Listen…

 

Maybe now is the time to listen.

To listen to the cries of the black race who have stories to tell of oppression and mistreatment.

To listen to the demands of the Natives who have had enough of the government telling them where they can live and what they can do with their sacred land.

To listen to the silent tears of the children who have been abused, tortured, bought and sold by the most horrible of people.

To listen to the false cries of bravado by the masculine who has been mislead into believing they are the dominating, controlling gender all while completely forgetting their tenderness and vulnerability.

To listen to the far-too-often timid cries and stories of the feminine who has been suppressed and controlled while completely forgetting their power and right to control their own Being.

To listen to the cries of the neglected and abused animals who just long to live as we all do ~ freely, with dignity and love.

To listen to ALL of our stories.  Man.  Woman.  Black.  White.  Rich.  Poor.

We all have them.

And it takes a very open heart and a silent ego to be brave and willing to listen to the painful stories of another while recognizing our own triggers and be as brave and willing to put them aside, just for a moment, to Listen.

We see the collective rage.  We feel the collective pain.  We hear the collective screams of NO MORE.

We are in this Together.

Something magical happens when one truly feels listened to and heard. We’re inspired to heal.  We’re inspired to begin the process of forgiveness and letting go.  And we’re inspired to start telling a new story while seeing the truth ~ they are all stories.  And we all have them.

So maybe, just maybe, instead of spending all of our time screaming our own stories, we use a little bit of that time to Listen to the stories of another.  For nothing is more beautiful to me than the act of listening in silence, authentically, to another as they share their story.

Maybe it is time, Humanity.

Maybe it is time to just Listen.

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Reminder To Focus On The Timeline/Reality We All Want This Week and Into The Eclipse

 

This is a highly charged energy period.  I “feel” the dark ones are putting out frequencies to keep us low right now.  It is no coincidence that I read so many people speak of feeling anxiety or rage or extreme sadness today. Is that purely our collective cleanse or something else?  Or perhaps a bit of both.

This feels so important to me, I may write several pieces in the upcoming week to keep us all (myself included!) focused on creating the New.

Feel what it is you want.  Please.  Intend this new beginning in this Now moment.  Keep at it all week.  Daily.  Hourly.  Take little breaks to refocus and regroup.

A mass beautiful cleansing energy.

A full awakening and remembering of Who We Are.  Full Awareness.

A full return to Unity Consciousness.

A full return to individual freedom and sovereignty.

To Walk Fully Aware In My Truth and All Knowing Power.

To be fully immersed with the energies of gratitude, compassion, grace and awareness.

Forgiveness for self and for all Higher Self deems necessary for my personal healing and ascension.

A new earth realm with clean, pure air, water and land.

A full return of our abilities ~ teleportation, telepathy, telekinesis, instant manifestation, full instantaneous self- healing.

A release of all technologies that are healing and beneficial to all life.

These are my desires that I intend in this NOW moment.

I tap into these magical energies of highest love frequencies of creation and healing to intend all of the above into this Now moment.

I end this by stating I Intend The Timeline Of My Heart’s Desire.

I Am Divine Source Essence In This Amazingly Glorious Physical Body.

I Am The Creator Of All Of My Experiences.  In All Ways.

Always.

It is done.

And so it is.

 

 

Weird Phenomena and Today’s Blessings

 

A new neighbor/mama is sharing this strange experience as well.  What is this strangeness?  Not only NO desire to cook, but dinner/meal ideas no longer appealing.  And nothing new comes to mind or if it does, holds no appeal.  When she told me this I was floored and excited.  ME TOO, I said.

I am facing this daily now.  It was random for awhile but not anymore. Looking up new recipes used to be an obsession.  Now I hate it.  lol

Obviously I come up with something or else people around here would starve (rolling my eyes), but damn…  NOTHING food-wise seems to appeal to me.  Eating is becoming a chore instead of a pleasure.

Where am I headed?  To a state where I no longer eat?

To a reality where food replicator’s are provided for all instead of suppressed as they are in this one?

Whatever this “realm” I am in – this in-between stage – well it just sucks. I am ready to leap to the new.  Now.

I can give much thanks however to the miracles that did occur today – in spite of my not intending them.  In fact I resisted at first – but then was a little bit inundated with several in a short period I had to let them in.  And now I just want to punch my punching bag and cry and scream while giving thanks.  A rather paradoxical state to be in.

First miracle ~ dragonfly that kept showing up.  Always a message of love from spirit.

Second miracle ~ as I was stuck in my “white men” thought train (sorry my male readers – just being honest with old thoughts that were, honestly, understandably created at the time) ~ two guys drove by and waved at me.  One I had no idea who it was but it was such a sweet smile and wave…. and the other guy I know and he NEVER waves.  I always receive a frown/scowl.  While I received no smile, I will take a wave as an acknowledgement.

Third miracle ~ Talking with our wonderful neighbor who is family to us, I was lamenting my pain over my broken relationship with my father.  I just want him to feel proud of me.  To show me and tell me he loves me. To connect with me emotionally.  Accept me for who I am.  Show interest in what I do – especially my latest venture with this website.  My neighbor said he’s probably doing the best he can.  I know that, I said.  But my heart still aches for more.  I have never felt I am good enough in his eyes and mind and heart (wherever that is) and certain things/words he has tossed my way have made it clear what he really thinks of me.  My eyes welled up with tears and my neighbor said “well you can call me Dad and I will always listen to you.”  Voice cracks as I say “thank you” and give him a hug.  He means it.  He is not the type to say something like that unless he is sincere.

So releasing more old crap today that I wish I knew how to fully let go – purge out.  All at once.

And seeing where I am blessed and loved.

Just takes the heart awhile to make the switch it all.

Intense Energies Causing Intense Emotions

 

I have so little to say and yet so very much to say at the same time.  It has been a day.  Child fell off her bike, busting a cable.  More money to toss at that.  Then she stubbed her foot, cutting open her big toe.  I spent last night on the couch throwing up a meal I bought prepared because I was too exhausted to cook (and my intentions of creating an angel who just brings me a home-cooked meal just because has yet to transpire).  Trader Joe’s Spaknokita or something like that. Far too many onions.  The food was not tainted with anything as my mate and child ate the same thing w/o consequence.

Still feeling like shit today.  Body hurts.  Still waiting for things “out there” to change.  Still intending the same desires for myself.  The nightly meditations.

While inside is a giant FUCK YOU brewing wishing to be unleashed.

I’m kind of at a loss on how to create anything worthwhile, that I desire, in this reality anymore.

I am used to the struggle.  But never before has it been like this.

I surrender and let go.  Then what?  More “void”?

No thank you.  Spent far too much of my adult life in that “void”.

I know what I desire.

And I am tired of advice that doesn’t come backed up with authentic help or the question “what can I do for you”.  Does no one do this???  Unasked for advice repels me when it isn’t backed up with such a statement.

Are we gonna create a true authentic space of Unity or more of the same? More superficiality?

I opt for Unity and authenticity, myself.

For now, I am going to nurse this sore, ick-feeling body, put some more boo boo cream on my little one’s big toe.  The song lyrics “it don’t come easy” just went through my mind.  Not.  Funny.

Certainly not today.

A Message Found In A Notebook

 

I picked up a notebook to do some sketching earlier today.  A brief message popped out at me.  It was written earlier this year when I was out in nature, doing some stream-of-consciousness writing.  “Victoria ~ release your thinking from that of division/duality and you will ascend to the timeline of your heart’s choosing.”

 

Today’s Energies

 

So at first I thought this schumann spike today was not affecting me.  I was wrong.

Ringing in the right ear.

Tears flowing.

Powerful urge to watch Field of Dreams.  Did not pursue that urge.  TV music channel was on earlier.  Something said “go to the tv now”.  I did. Theme from Field of Dreams was playing.

Will watch now.

It is 3:05pm, pacific time and I just noticed I had not made sure my kiddo’s hair or teeth were brushed.  Sorry, mama doesn’t know where she is today.

When we eat meals now, it is now that – a meal.  I no longer define things by breakfast, lunch, dinner.  Nor do I define the day of the week.  Or time.

It is now.

My little one’s teeth and hair ~ cleaned.

And it is now time to make a meal.

Lost in Cosmic Space.  With a ringing right ear.

How are ya’ll doing?