My beautiful, thoughtful girl sent me some work-at-home sites – one in particular is for writers/bloggers like myself – especially for someone my “age”. So I took some time to fill out an application. I spent over 20 minutes coming up with my pitch and was feeling really good about it. I was actually starting to look forward to writing for them. This particular site was PERFECTfor what I am seeking.
Then I see – they require a paypal account.
I wanted to scream.
I could literally feel the blood rising in my brain.
How the FUCH am I supposed to change my life when I continue to get pushed out by the system because I was WRONGFULLY censored and have had NO RESTITUTION? When will I have the right to be heard? When will I be given the right to defend myself?
I was looking through some analysis passed on to me about this awesome website of mine. Google continues to throttle me. For example, google claims my load-time is too slow. I pay top dollar for excellent hosting. And I have ZERO pop-up ads (for now). My content and site are so basic – there is no logical/technical reason why my site shouldn’t come up in under 2 seconds. That is my experience when I type in my url. It’s instant. So that tells me it isn’t my site – it. is. google. And if I am to succeed further with this venture and increase my income with it, wtf are my options in terms of search engines?
While there are some things I can do different to help promote myself and become more visible, when the main search engine is also engaged in censoring you, again, wtf am I supposed to do?
I am being denied the right to earn a living – in the way that works. for. me. and. my. family. I am so worn out from what this “awakening/war” has done to me.
When in the holy f’ing blinkin’ blinkin’ stinkin’ BLEEP will I be able to earn the kind of living I need and deserve?
One thing I ask for – and am really going to be pushing this one – is for every one of you who comes here – if you are truly supportive of this site – if you really want to see me succeed – if you want to help – then please SHARE my site. Encourage your friends to visit. Like and share. Those two actions are so critical to helping me succeed in the way I want and need.
That’s all I got for tonight. Gonna take a shower and a breather and intend the Universe brings me what I seek. I’ve been putting myself out there so much the past 6 weeks or so – something beautiful and miraculous has. to. break. through. for me.
So the water in the shower portal tells me these two goodies in the past 12 hours:
Our ego’s were created by “them” to make sure their fear programs stick hence making it a challenge to stay in the heart (Our natural state). Anyone else fed up and finished with having to clear and re-clear then protect and re-protect? Another rinse and repeat behavior. Sound familiar?
Time. I saw it as a locking mechanism – ultimately. “They” created time to keep us locked inside of their frequency – denying us the right to be in the natural state of alignment with the Universe (i.e. the real frequency we are all used to and were created originally for) which has made our ability to manifest instantly and easily so complicated thus bringing about “their” need to bring in new age garbage that tells us we aren’t doing it right or the religious program of “you’s gots to get right wiff Jesus” while failing to talk about all of the other little hidden goodies in those dimensions that are all around us that we can’t see or gain access to – unless in a drugged state which makes us vulnerable as u know what.
I see it all so much easier now. It makes sense. We’re all POW’s here. Compassion and love are how we get through this. (and the occasional meltdowns, cries, both ugly and beautiful, punching pillows, screaming out to the Universe, cursing evil, etc. etc.)
Here’s what’s happening. (p.s. – spoiler alert- it’s more of the same)
Love,
V.
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About 210 atm. 3 hours ago it was 377. Still at 175 at 10:30pm EST
END GAME – Hurricane Lee is becoming a Category 5 monster!
Forewarning: Cities under threat are New York, Boston, Massachusetts among others particularly in the Northeast Megalopolis. pic.twitter.com/JaFClqlyQr
As I said – more of the same. More finger pointing. More obvious crimes revealed by JB, etc. More “we must hold congressional hearings” (aka at the swamp factory)………”we must hold them accountable” (while we see nothing play out on the world stage that is in any way significant)
Well yes, back in the day, more than once, I claimed my child had the right to breathe – just like the rest of us. Oh my the triggers……
Wait a minute – didn’t that big account Jack Straw on twatter say under a COG (continuity of government) – EO’s could only be extended twice? Yes, I believe he did and I believe I shared that here earlier this week.
LOL Executive Order 13848, extended 🔥
“For this reason, the national emergency declared on September 12, 2018, must continue in effect beyond September 12, 2023. Therefore, in accordance with section 202(d) of the National Emergencies Act (50 U.S.C. 1622(d)), I am continuing…
Current discussion on twatter: if this is about the children – then where the fuch is the protection of those children still being injected w/the jabber wocky poison? And you cannot have a plan that is just about the children – this plan has to be about ALL of us – without the parents there are no children. I try hard to see the deeper truth in this – but seeing children poisoned – STILL – tosses any alleged logical explanation out the window.
Went to sleep – fast and easily – feeling peaceful.
Woke up 4 hours later pounding my bed.
I continue to take steps to change myself and my experience.
Currently hitting a wall – again.
Thoughts of money – again.
To get well and to heal and to do x y z requires that. A lot of it.
Where I am now – if it isn’t free – I ain’t considering it.
I can’t.
Or maybe let me pay $5/month.
My site will have to return to basic (free) security. It’s an order of priority – eat, keep utilities going – then other things follow. Or this month – keep the car “legal” (g.d. car registration – which of course jumped up again).
WHEN DO I HAVE A SAY AS TO WHAT I CAN AND CANNOT PAY?!
Thinking and intending “oh this will switch by this time” when this time comes and goes.
I ain’t getting – understanding – anything. 12:34pm.
Just another number to remind me I’m in a giant computer.
I watched a movie last night – The Notebook. So beautiful. Their Love created enough magic for them to leave this realm together (at the end of their experience – both were suffering/struggling with horrid health conditions).
Money has made “the world go around” long enough. Why can’t we make LOVE do the same?
Do you struggle to feel safe – to feel the Universe (much less others) have your back?
Do you struggle to feel Love truly can solve everything?
Love in action?
Some moments I am there.
Now – I feel so worn down. My mind – fractured. My Soul – weary. My body………never mind about that. lol
How much longer do we have to continue to purge and release and power up and protect?
Why aren’t I allowed an answer to that question (or the other myriad of questions I have)?
Who is running this place?
And most importantly – how do we take back control and f’ing change it already back to WHAT WE WANT – ON OUR TIMELINE AND TIME FRAME?!
Today was really different. I’m seeing the waxing in of the experience I want and today left me happily surprised with a particular situation that, last week, I thought I would have to shift away from. But she and I spoke and came to a new level of connection that left us both in tears. … Authentic communication – where both are being honest in how they feel, presenting it such a way that is respectful, where we each owned how we felt, our responsibility for those feelings – which aligns with my recent desire to expand into new ways of communicating.
Conversations – even when there is a difference of opinion – when done RIGHT – is expansive. If it leaves me drained, it isn’t authentic convo. It’s dramatic bullsheot. Fighting – defensiveness – refusing to see oneself in an honest way – that experience is overfor me.
Other than that – I had some moments where I felt I was elsewhere – walking sideways. Something continues to build “out there” – waxing inside this space. We’re in “something” – whether it is finally actually IT – remains to be seen. But we are in something at this time.
Here’s what I’m seeing. Please remember to Share…Donate…Comment….Subscribe & Like. Thank you!
Ep. 22 Larry Sinclair says he had a night of crack cocaine-fueled sex with Barack Obama, and that Obama came back for more the next day. Assess for yourself. Here’s our interview. pic.twitter.com/R6CXwKv6gs
at the moment it is 32, 904, 574 … … gone up about 2 billion since last night……..
Not predicting anything, but on average, if we add $1 billion per day to the National debt, we should hit $33 trillion in early December. pic.twitter.com/8Kv8WN2BIS
Stuck somewhere between moving but feeling like I’m going no where Like everything is happening but nothing ever happens. Becoming the Best I could ever be bust trapt in who I always was. Making leaps every day but too afraid to jump. Doing so much but never enough Deserving of… pic.twitter.com/jNiEZLYVHp
So I’m seeing the show continue to play out in its insane format of stewpid, with T and others talking about how much better this place (the states) were under his rule. Seeing him and others talk about all of these things that will be coming back including tariffs and easier access to pharmaceuticals and gas powered cars. My mind hears “blah blah blah NO”.
None of it aligns. NOT. ONE. BIT. I try and pretend – fake it – bring it in – as it’s all that is being offered to us. But it is all just a lie to myself – making me wonder – again – wtf I am doing here…
I know what I want – I keep seeing it and bringing it in.
But………….there’s this:
So either the narrative that we all get out and we get to frigging actually CHOOSE (the way FREE CREATOR BEINGS DO) the reality and experience we want……….or we’re gonna be stuck in another pay to live system of competition – just a cleaned up version. (see above again for how I feel about that)
Where is OUR narrative? Where is the narrative storyline about HOME and REAL healing and DNA restoration and RETURNED memories and REAL ORGANIC NATURAL LIVING AND BEING? It’s in our hearts and out of the mouths of those who channel. That’s about it. Where are these things in the awakening movement headlines?
Or am I just being too impatient? (again)?
Today was another challenge day energetically. I saw the condition of my brain and the trauma in my body (that I continually now clear as best as I can). On a walk today – my girl and I – she suddenly sees a snake and screams “SNAKE!” I about jump outta MY skin – and it took me a few minutes to literally regain my composure. Then about 15 minutes later we’re walking back up in the same area – and she’s saying watch out for the snake – and I said “we are protected” and as soon as I say that – she decides to open up the water bottle and spill out some on the concrete walking path which sounds just like a frigging snake. I jumped yet again – and this time I had to walk to a bench and compose myself before I could finish the walk. I was shaking all over.
So………..I held it together until I couldn’t anymore. I release the embarrassment and shame and guilt I hold in asking for help – a lot of help. I am accountable for me – but I am not taking on the full accountability for how this reality has allowed for the unhealthy conditions in which I have been in. All I can do is love me for me and purge what I don’t want or need and keep at it and pray and intend that the experience I want and need is ready to burst wide open and through for me. And ditto that for any of you whose life experience here has been less than stellar and supportive – and for whom you need some extra extra’s atm. Who the fook doesn’t?
So much to go around – too much hoarded and controlled. Why can’t we all just stop what we’re doing in an organized fashion – and for one week – unite and say ENOUGH. WE DONE. NO MORE CONTROLS. We ain’t budging or supporting your sheot until you step off the stage.
???
Remember the movie – Risky Business – where his character had just had it with his life at that time – he felt he had nothing much left to lose or to hide – and he put on those sunglasses – said that famous line?
You try to do the right thing – over and over and over. You DO the “right” thing – over and over and o v e r. Then “this place” happens – over and over. You fall down. You get back up. You get smacked down again. (omg – being asked why can’t you use paypal i don’t get it……or why did you get banned on social media? why does google censor you? i don’t get it…….)
A R G H!!!!!!!!!!!
The cycle repeats until sometimes, in some moments, you arrive at this place where morality gets tossed out the window – you no longer care about what is “right” or what some system b.s. rule or law says – and you just gotta take care of yourself #1 and do what you need to do however you need to do it.
And screw the rest.
Here’s a gematria. And whatever else……….
Love,
V.
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The fact that THIS is being allowed to happen …….Seriously – who can justify this now? Oh, ignore it – yeah just like we ignored it when children were trafficked or pick a topic. How much longer we just gonna stay in our bubbles quietly? We gonna have to go into civil war? Where is our line in the sand? How long do we trust in the plan? How long we wait until we see what we all want to see? Tough questions but someone has to ask them.
Ok I could possibly get a wee bit excited about this one – as I’ve been posting here for a few years how T said at a rally the magic number 33………Any of you with knowledge: how long would this take to get to 33T? (this was 2 hours ago………now it’s at 32, 904…….ok so i asked – someone said it goes up 1 million every 30 seconds (confirmed – i misread the numbers – got the billion confused w/the million – thank goodness i never made a living in the stock market, eh? lol)
Executive Order 13823, CIC Trump’s revoking of Obama’s to shut down Gitmo, still not revoked by “Biden” as he promised.
Also, it wasn’t me who reported Military Tribunals for mid-2023, it was the New York Times, which are under a Wartime Code 47 USC 606, for those who cannot… pic.twitter.com/is4LSTqd0Z
This is interesting………..my understanding is they can be reauthorized as often as they are, well, reauthorized………but someone said since we’re in COG (Continuity of Government) – allegedly they can only be reauthorized twice……..so if that’s true then END maybe finally??!!
On Monday, September 11, the Trump Executive Orders (EOs) are set to expire. These EOs have already been extended twice and cannot receive further extensions.
Furthermore, on Friday, September 15, 2023, Executive Order 13848, signed by President Trump, will also expire (in 11… pic.twitter.com/fCtXu1x6AJ
We are stardust……….we are billion years old………..getting back Home….
San Tarot…..we being told by higher selves and home who we really are…..interesting – trying to have a psychic breakthrough – i was focused (too much i realize) soooooo hard today on having one of those…..this is a nice one………very much resonating……….
One thing I’ve always tried – and wanted to do – learn how to communicate in a way so that my perspective is shared and understood – and to have connections with those who seek the same. Communication is a skill that none of us are taught. Well, taught well. I would say half of communication is talking and the other half, listening. Given that insight, given the level of conflict in our world, I would say most of us have failed to truly learn how to communicate. It isn’t easy – that’s for sure. The more easily triggered we are, the more trauma, the more effort it takes on our part to move past our triggers and truly SEE and HEAR.
And understand.
People get locked into their communication styles. And when that happens, if you are seeking to speak in a new way, there will be shall we say gridlock.
I have a bucket of “pipe dreams”, with effective communicating, that I plan on blowing with those who wish to join in with me.
We’re building up to something significant and reality altering. I woke up this morning – again – feeling anticipation and anxiety. Something is shaking it all up now. Shifting energies – releasing old – to make way for new.
Here’s what I’m seeing. Please remember to share, donate what you can and let me know what you’re feeling/thinking and how you are.
Love,
V.
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This one feels – significant:
Perhaps?
3332 May 12, 2019 8:10:40 PM EDT Q !!mG7VJxZNCI ID: c616d2 No. 6482574 BOOM WEEK AHEAD. Treason doesn't pay well in THE END. Q https://t.co/YGJxqhIGoX
🚨 Bill Gates’s car gets surrounded by very angry people – I think that people know he’s one of the driving forces behind the #Depopulation#Agenda2030 :
“MURDERER!!! We know who you are you son of a bitch!!! Arrest, Bill Gates!!!!!”
My first dog – I went along with everything the vet said – including the food choices. I was in my 20’s. She got cancer – aggressive – and died at 10. She was a small dog. I knew this was due to my choices – which nearly broke me for awhile. Instead I used it to research holistic veterinary medicine (I was already into holistic/natural/organic living). Next dog – no jabs. Organic food supplemented with homemade food and treats. She lived to 14. She was a medium sized dog. THAT is the difference.
🚨🚨🚨This absolute HERO of a human being, Dr James Robb speaks out against #Vaccines for animals :
“Every day there is thousands of pets dying because of these #Vaccines!!! While we sit here today, probably 5 or 6 dogs DIED from the rabies #Vaccine☹️🥺
Been waiting to see a picture of the two of them together……….she’s merging back lately……….with the latest intel/info she spoke of dropping yesterday……….
In 1994 the world watched in awe as two formidable personalities, Donald Trump and Princess Diana, dined together. This meeting took place on September 4th, a date forever etched in time when their worlds briefly converged, leaving an indelible mark on history. pic.twitter.com/CWPYCwRqQn
9.3 continued to suck and my patience to endure is still tapped. Seems to be collective atm – again. More and more of us pushed to the brink. Desperation is setting in with me – especially financially. And dayem is it hard with a teen who doesn’t think about these things and consumes – a lot. lol I laugh – but I’m still fighting desperation/pushed to the absolute BRINK in this place. Just so f’ing weary hearing “God’s time”………”soon”……….and “be. patient.” This time sure as frig is not MY time.
I spent time alone tonight – just had to get out – went for a drive to a local park. I swear there are programs everywhere to be seen now – people – SAME DAMN PEOPLE I saw the last time I went there – wearing same clothes walking the same way/same pattern. Only in a computer game. Anyway, it wasn’t really enjoyable so I was grateful I brought cookies and biscuits. THAT – was enjoyable. Sometimes food is my source of comfort.
Is it a slow news day? I’m not seeing anything – feeling a pause in happenings. So I’ll go exploring for a few – see if I can’t find something worthwhile and useful. For now – it’s gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr DONE.
So apparently there is no confirmed interview…………..Is he fake? Perhaps. Is he calling out truth? Yes. Disinfo necessary? Controlled now by WH? Stay tuned………some day we’ll have the f’ing truth………(btw – Tucker is calling out Obama atm – and the current Tucker twatter profile has since removed the Ukraine flag….)………..
So there will be a lot of haters on this thread. But calling out @ObamaMalik as fake. Why did he delete the post saying he will be on tucker? Tucker never confirmed it? Why does he constantly throw up symbolism and post about his book, the 33 number guy and the Barack… pic.twitter.com/FZnYWQsUn7
Ok…………So………..This one feels like the only one really worth sharing as it aligns w/my quiet little puzzle piecing and inner visions and synchs………..Earlier this year – “Elon” said his b-day was 69 days after April 20th (4/20). Given his following count went to 420 today (9.3) – go out 69 days into the future from today and we land on: 11.11.23……… That 17 post that said Humanity would be united on 11.11.18. (justputtingthisoutthereleavingitrightheredowithitwhatyouwilliamwalkingawayslowlyandquietly lol)
I thought it would feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel different today. I’m trying to get into the good space. Doesn’t take much these days to get my brain to shut down.
Hit with more $$ surprises. My security license for my site is due this month (I thought it was expiring in December – but what do I know – I can’t remember my child’s name some moments these days) – it jumped about 20%. Usually these things lower as time passes. Apparently not. I didn’t budget for this (thanks for giving me a measly 7 days heads up). Back to school stuff means, you know, curriculum – new stuff. Books. Clothes. Teenage years have become about makeup and skin care, etc. etc. I still have a ripped up ‘ole comforter I was hoping to replace over the summer.
Didn’t happen.
Cost of living after all has become SO doable for all of us – especially those of us already hovering around poverty. 🙄
What isn’t going up?
I’m supposed to be (SUPPOSED TO BE) saving money.
I’m supposed to be finding and landing increased job and income opportunities.
This system gonna switch or not?
T’s promise of helping families like myself (school expenses) – pipe dream for some future moment when I need it like NOW.
I struggle to make it across the f’ing finish line so masked up asshats can SEE?
Clothes are starting to bag on me – new clothes.
F U C H
Drama in the house – too much.
I intend the opposite.
Days like today I think “just stay in bed until it’s all over”.
Of course – I would need someone waiting on me…
Be nice, you know – to be pampered for awhile until I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL well.
Have someone pay my bills.
Running my sites (haven’t done anything with the latest one as I am too blank in the mind to come up with anything to post).
Cooking and cleaning and educating.
Scrubbing the shower and toilet.
Picking up the messes left behind.
Answering the myriad of questions I am asked.
Listening to the lamenting and gripes.
Playing referee.
Organizing. Keeping track of this and that. (that’s a joke now – when I’m asked “uh what’s this” I fire back “figure it out”)
Any volunteers?
This world – all in it – does seem to come down to survival of the fittest.
Alot of nice words – spoken by those who haven’t a clue what I am dealing with here and do not grasp how f’ing. t i r e d i am.
I don’t need words.
I need a big fat pile of cold hard f’ing cash to change my life.
Many synchs today – especially with songs/music. Had the experience where I heard a Guns And Roses (GNR) song on the radio – didn’t align – turned the station – there was another GNR song – nope – fooled around with the radio some more – heard a third one – this one was good (Paradise City – Take Me Home). But still – wasn’t really quite what I felt I was looking for within. Later on – headed out to an estate sale for fun – turned on the radio – GNR – “Patience”. That was it – the song I needed to fulfill that space within seeking “it”.
Really into the whole aging – or anti-aging – as in restoration to the age in which I know I truly am – eternally youthful energized. Spoken with two people this week who are also feeling this – focused on it. LMH has a new one below – talking about this very thing.
Working on a song that came to me today – after a several year dry period of no musical creations – got one on Home. Will share when it’s completed.
Here are some finds. Please remember to share my material and donate what you can – and let me know what’s what and how you’re doing.
Love, as always,
V.
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Hmm………perhaps this is what is meant by saving israel for last:
And according to the CDC, the latest variant of the virus – BA.2.86, “may be more capable of causing infection in people who have previously had COVID-19 or who have received COVID-19 vaccines,”
Best for last. SAN TAROT…..Seeking new adventures – making a big, sudden, unexpected move. Wealth. (interesting – i shared an image of myself on social media this week and said i was seeking new adventures)….
Today felt floaty. Timelines waxing in and out – the better one was around today. Hurricane in FL was more or less a nothing burger. Had a soaker day of rain that helped with fires. Back to beautiful weather with a hint of fall in the air.
Love,
V.
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WWE event tomorrow: PAYBACK. Tonight’s WWE smackdown event has 17,000 people in the audience.
So….bring back face diapers (masks) is trending on twitter – but isn’t for the reason people think………it’s the people’s REBELLION against saying WE WILL NOT COMPLY.
More disclosure………..what if there are only 100k or so real ones here? Like – what’s the percentage? How many AI/clones/NPC/Projections compared to how many (original) human (captors)?
VK posted two clips from the movie 300. Both clips dealt with King Leonidas being requested to surrender. 3 hours and 15 minutes later, Trump included NEVER SURRENDER in his Truth post.
