I was playing the piano earlier and decided to record myself. It’s a few originals and a couple of covers. You will have to pardon the quality ~ I used my digital voice recorder and the recording is unedited. (Truly a live performance.)
The first song is titled “Surrender”. I have lyrics for it (if anyone is interested let me know and I will share). Composed in 2004 when I was in the middle of another huge awakening.
Second song is titled “I Know You’re Out There” ~ written when I was obsessed with UFO’s. More awakening-inspired songs. Melody only.
Third song is titled “Life” and was written for a family member who was battling cancer at the time. Composed in 2004. Have lyrics for that as well.
Fourth song, my rendition of SRV’s “Cold Shot”.
Fifth song, my rendition of Elton John’s “I Guess That’s Why They Call It The Blues”.
More songs to share in the future. (There are 3 more in the right margin on my soundcloud account ~ those are better recordings – I made them on my digital piano and added in additional instrumental sounds.)
Anyway, enjoy! ♥
(linking you to my soundcloud account)
Does the energy feel different to you today? I awoke this morning, shaking almost violently. It took a good 30 minutes before I fully awoke. I was unusually groggy. It felt like I had been doing something intense before the calls of my child “MAMA WAKE UP” awoke me suddenly.
I “recovered” as best as I could. Later I packed up the car and headed to the park with the same little child who awoke me earlier.
After we arrived, I noticed the skies were brilliant blue. Puffy white clouds. Not a chemtrail in sight. I was guided to take a pic of the sun, so I aimed and took the shot. You will note a rainbow-like very defined object on the right. Any ideas?
The trees seemed vibrant, one in particular, which I took pictures of and have included in my collection below. It seemed to speak to me. I could not take my eyes off it. I sensed she was raising her frequencies. I felt a sense of joyful energy radiate through my center. I thought back to The Celestine Prophecy and how they speak of seeing the aura’s of plants and trees. I could literally see this tree shimmer. The picture doesn’t do it justice.
After a picnic and some playtime, my girl and I took a walk. We came across a deer (included in pictures) ~ a young female ~ alone. Very unusual behavior. We have seen her before on our street a few times, always alone. I then noticed a butterfly was flying all around my head, almost as if it were dancing with me. I smiled, spoke with it, giggled and took pictures (as best as I could). I finally captured it – a bit – it’s the bottom picture in the collection.
A bit later we ran into a neighbor on the walking path. He had his dog with him. The talk turned to 4th of July and he said his dog behaved in a new manner with the fireworks. This is the fourth such encounter I have heard from local dog owners, all saying the same thing: their dogs behaved in a new manner this holiday ~ all of them showing much more sensitivity than in years past.
It’s the energies. What is old and of lower frequency is simply showing itself it can no longer be. Explosive fireworks are in that category. Not only are they harmful and traumatizing to the ears of animals and some adults and children, they also emit toxic fumes that affect all life (my nasal passages included). I only went along with it this year as my daughter begged us to get some fireworks, although after her reaction (she was disturbed for the first time in her young life by the loudness and the smoke), this will be the last year for this.
The closing of a chapter to welcome in the new.
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Oh how I wish every day I could be in love and light. I wish I could just stay in a nice meditative, peaceful state and enjoy the quiet new age-y type of music I do most days.
I long for a personal reality where people don’t step all over your boundaries and throw their emotional garbage onto you.
I long to have my child play with other kids who won’t bully her or push her around.
I long for a reality where family is family. There, together, for one another, through thick and thin.
And mostly ~ I long to see myself Being this above-described Individual. Peaceful. Kind. Reliable. Tolerant. As often as I can. And I continue to reach those states, more and more.
Then there are days like today when I just want to rip apart anyone who looks at me wrong. Today was a “here I come let’s purge” day.
Letting it go……
During a bike outing, I witnessed a young child pitching a major fit. I found it rather refreshing and thought to myself “I’ll take one of those for myself.” Think of it ~ instead of a drive-up McDonald’s window of fake food nastiness, we could instead order up tantrums or love hits – to-go!
Instead, I rode home and decided to listen to some metal. ’80’s style (which back then seemed to have more of a spiritual/political/social message). Not often my style, but today, well, it fit.
Until next time…
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I had to giggle at the synchronicity of Life as I read the two paragraphs below, as part of a piece I read on a friends facebook page. It coincides with my previous piece about feeeeeling our way through this process. I also deeply appreciated the comments on feeling “stuck” and not planning for future events of a 3D reality ~ very much validated and resonated. If you have access to facebook, you can read the entire piece here.
The “transition” involves many changes inside the physical vessel, which range from neural pathways being reconfigured within the Human brain and the splitting and realignment of the DNA stranding, essentially, evolution of the Humanoid body. You are always undergoing “upgrades” of some sort, as Your Humanoid body undergoes significant change internally. For some of these “upgrades’, incubation periods/rest periods and integration periods are involved, that will reflect in outward behaviour and physical feelings within the body. Senses of being “lost” or in a “void” are common at these Times. Also, Importantly, there becomes long periods of Time, that individuals experience feeling “stuck” or “without purpose”, and even confusion, Again, this is All part of the process. This part of the “process” is merely a waiting period, a waiting period to allow others to catch up, a waiting period to allow for futuristic events to unfold favorably for You and others, a waiting period for Your 5D Tributaries to come into full alignment, to lay out before You. You do Not try to control Your future from a Humanoid logical standpoint, once You Know that You are Divine, a Soul, etc. Logic is a primitive term that does not apply to the Ascension process and the alignment of Angelics into their New Timelines/missions and Purpose. Divinity and the Universe, if You will, sets out Your course, the direction You must follow. As You become more of an “Angelic”, Your Timeline/s are constantly orchestrated in a Divine way, where nothing is by chance, there are no coincidences. Signs are given and layed out before You to follow, follow what resonates as a sure sign.
This whole “mundane” existence, is changing, and it will, for All that are Ascending to 5D. tHE “MUNDANE” Society will no longer be a part of the New, it is constantly being detached from many, as they transition into 5D Tributaries. Rational and logical thought as Humanoids know/knew it, is changing, and it cannot be applied in the usual manner, once You Know at a Soul level who and what You actually are, and importantly, surrender to Source and the Divine Plan, and accept Your prowess. So, for many, “blank canvasses” will appear as Your futures for short periods. Also, refrain from futuristic plans, as Your future will be layed out for You. Because of the power of Your thoughts, do Not project a future that is common with this Society/Humanity, for that future is contradictory to what You are and Your Ascension. This is why All of You are encouraged to live in the “NOW”, and wait patiently for Your future to align without attempting to controlling it with limited Human thought processes. All of Your essential needs are and will be taken care of, at a Divine Level, for us to better assist You, eradicate fear, instill trust and keep building Yourself within. You are a wayshower, a wayshower to a place that does not have the current enslavement and other unfavorable/unneccessary experiences, align Yourself with the path out of the “mundane” by trusting the Universe.
Forgiveness (after much tears of pain and rage… and then rejoicing). ♥
Fall of the Cabal 432Hz
This day has challenged me on many levels. Money. Faith. Health.
I am doing the best I can.
Recently I reached out and asked for marketing help on an ascension community board and was told to read an article on healing the self and if interested, I could pay for some of her healing services.
Did I ASK to be healed? Noooooo.
So before I receive promotion help, I have to be healed?
WHO MAKES IT ON THEIR OWN?
Is this what this ascension community is about as well as the 3d system? Do it on your own? If you can’t, that’s your issue not mine? Aren’t we supposed to be in UNITY here?? Returning to Unity?
I’m not seeing it.
That has been part of my problem. I have done MUCH of this 3D living on my own, certainly in the areas of promotion. Creation. As my mate says “you have tried so many things year after year on your own” about my efforts to make a decent income.
So do I have something deep within that is telling me I am not worthy?
Sure I do to some degree. But I sure as anything work on it, work on myself. Daily. THAT IS NOT THE ONLY ISSUE.
Who doesn’t have inner issues?
Don’t we ALL have inner shit, some of which we’re not aware of?
What gives these people who are promoting their own services the right to tell another “you have to do this alone” or imply “you don’t really need marketing help (meaning you don’t know what you really need – only I do). What you need to do is read my article.” Oh and after that, pay me for my services.
I’m telling you folks, I am putting on a real happy face some days on this site, especially since I was criticized for being real and authentic with how I feel and what I think about this 3D system. Criticized and then not offered anything in kind. If you’re going to judge me and claim I need to do x y z then you sure as hell better offer me help with that. Other than that, you’re just another mouthpiece for the very system in which I speak out against and yes, rage against some days.
THIS IS PART OF WHO I AM.
I don’t know what to do at the moment – on these issues that keep popping up in front of my face to look at yet again. I really don’t. Today I’m yelling at them to go the fuck away. Other than my child, I can’t seem to satisfy or please much of anyone. And yes I know, please thyself. I get that. I do.
How do I heal from this money issue?
I think of song lyrics that inspire me. Shoe the children with no shoes on their feet. House the people living on the street. This is not complicated. You don’t tell them to go heal themselves first. And you don’t assume you know best for them. Spiritual Ego is rampant in the ascension community. If you really are of Source, you ASK what is needed and if you can provide, you do it. If not, you STFU. As I like to say when it comes to business, mind your own and stay out of mine.
Maybe my struggles with money aren’t just all due to my own thoughts (which I admit have been a part of this struggle). Maybe I am to be used to share these conversations on money. On helping people for whom financial struggle has caused such unnecessary struggle and suffering by being a voice.
This is one topic the masses need to talk about, get real about. Now. Including those in this spiritual community. In my area, just to rent one room will cost you $550/month – and that’s without utilities. For just ONE ROOM. I saw a chart that said the MINIMUM wage people need in each state just to afford a one bedroom home/apartment. The average was $14-$16/hour.
Then there are utilities, which our electric company conveniently jacked the kilowatt rate. We have no say – doesn’t matter if you petition your legislature. Speak out about it. (both of which I have done, btw) They do whatever the fuck they want to do. Then the water rates were jacked and more taxes-disguised-as-fees were added. Totally illegal, btw (these “fees” – as it did not include a citizen’s vote). So we speak out. Nothing changes because again, they get to do whatever the fuck they want to do. Without consequence.
Oh but let’s attack those who are struggling and experiencing all the unnecessary suffering as a result of the burdens put on them/us by these very criminals. Why? Because it’s easier that way. It’s easier to say “pull yourself up jack” than it is to do what’s right – and that is to show some LOVE.
Then there’s food prices. Those keep going up. Gotta eat healthy and we do. We spend a god awful amount of money on organic foods. Fresh. We don’t eat out. I cook 99% of all of our meals. From scratch. I make my own bread. We have a garden growing. To help keep the vibes up and to have good health it’s imperative, especially when health insurance is limited and in some cases, non-existent. I need glasses. I have no vision coverage. I have very limited dental coverage. My mate has none and he recently had a dental emergency so add in another bill to the collection.
I am so tired of being told it’s ME when so much of it is the god damn fucking system that doesn’t ever seem to change. WHY CAN’T THE PEOPLE IN THE SPIRITUAL COMMUNITIES AT LEAST ACKNOWLEDGE THIS?? Do I have to be the only one??
I hesitated to share this given some of the comments I received from others. The criticism. How sad it is that not only are there people who behave in such a manner instead of using that energy productively by asking hey, what do you need? But equally sad that I let myself get affected by such comments. And yet, I don’t know anyone who wouldn’t. Unless you’re a machine. Or fully awakened.
I am neither.
And I do not apologize for that.
I have yet to say that this morning, around 11:30am, something told me/urged me to “check out livemeteors now”. That’s around the time this signal began being noticed, at least recorded by others I should say. I didn’t listen as I let myself be more focused on doing the morning routine. Around 1:30pm is when we first checked it out and well, ya’ll know the rest. The story, I am sure, will continue… We are feeling as though we are at the edge of an Event.
Interesting how the read went from more of a sacred geometrical type of pattern to a sine wave and now, this. And coincidence it occurred on the Solstice? Hmmm….
Thank you! ♥