To carry on with the LOTR theme, worth bearing in mind 😉 ….

“I have found that it is the small everyday deeds of ordinary folks that keep the darkness at bay. Small acts of kindness and love.” – Gandalf the Grey

B Boru

i love this one so much – i am copying it and sharing it as its own post as it aligns COMPLETELY with how i feel. time to tell gollum to STFU – let ’em know we see them and they ain’t getting our hearts any more. aria you are grand! thank you! 🙂

B Boru – thank you! 🙏😁 I’m glad I was able to help! And LOL – you are perfectly welcome to borrow any of my totally classy hillbilly griping! 🤭

So, I had another aha moment hit me over the Gollum thing and it gave me chills, so I thought I’d pass this on to y’all, for whatever it’s worth. It was how Gollum calls Smeagol “my love,” “precious,” and claims he “looks after and takes care of him.” And is quick to remind Smeagol that he was abandoned and nobody wants him, except Gollum.

OMG. That’s it. That’s how it works. Just like a narcissist goes after an empath, except it’s in your HEAD. So you think it’s “you.” 🤯 That’s what the inner Gollum (reptilian brain?) is doing.

* Step 1: Make you feel isolated, ostracized, totally alone. (Look how the Rona and division is making this worse even than it was – living alone in a dark “cave,” hid away from everyone, barely making ends meet, when you do encounter somebody they often reject you.) Then once you’re down…

* Step 2: Love-bomb like a narcissist during the honeymoon phase. Have you noticed all those channelings tend to start with “beloved” and “dear ones,” “we’re here to take care of you,” “just be patient, my loves” (straight up what Gollum’s script is in Two Towers and Return of the King! I just rewatched) – and of course we’re so lonely and starved for word from actual Home, and actual LOVE, it almost feels comforting to hear. Even with their endless delays and then guilt trips or misdirection when people wise up and ask tough questions. But it’s not REAL! So of course, when something REAL does show up we can get behind (like all our FEELS about going Home and the split and multiple confirmations/Frodo)…

*Step 3: Attack mode. The Gollum gaslights you, makes you doubt yourself and your real FEEL-ings, and hits you with the wound that got them in the door to start with: “You’re alone. Nobody wants you. Nobody cares about you. Nobody is coming to help you. Just give up.” To lower your vibration. To make you hopeless.

So, how do we win against Gollum? When Smeagol overcame Gollum for a while, is when he trusted Frodo. That someone did care and was there to help. He saw that he wasn’t alone, and started to see and choose the good in himself. So maybe that’s it? Trust in what we feel is REAL, and self-love? 🤷 And of course, telling Gollum to shut up and get lost. 😆

Brilliant!

Thanks to you both.

Aria, summed it up perfectly with that Gollum analogy. I have shared this with everyone I know who is feeling it and they are all like…..”ahhhh right, I see!” so thanks for that, perfect 🙂

And also, I think you are completely right about what you say at end with the ‘new cage hogwash’ (haha I like that, will borrow that one if you don’t mind). The tricksters have many and varied tricks!! Nuff said.

B Boru

now that made me cry. THANK YOU! i am humbled to my core. 🙂 YES IT IS COMING FAST! steady (that’s the feeeel i have). love to you aria.

Aw! Thank you! 😭☺️🙏 💕 I feel the same about your shares, I love how honest and real they are, the profound insights you’ve had, and the “aha!” moments they sparked for me. I have resonated with extremely few people over the years, especially with any consistency, but you’re one of them and you are definitely GOLDEN and shining bright like a diamond! Thanks, and here’s putting my “manifesting” towards what we FEEL is coming up fast – full speed ahead! 🚢

thank you for that – for the validation. it is collective. we who align w/Home are so tuned in to one another – so often having the same or very similar experiences. doing my best to stay in the heart – the truth of who i am and who i want to be. much appreciation for you!

i hope everyone who visits here will read your words, aria. yes you describe that inner battle i have at times PERFECTLY! lol it is nasty for me too friend. yes we KNOW what we want. WE are the creator’s – and SO MANY of us having the same desire/longing – coming from deep within – never waivering (just getting pushed aside by the inner gollum) – is TRUTH. and yes to what you say about if you have energy to get out and help – do it. if all you can do is sit and watch the sky, do it. we ARE indeed golden. anyway – thank you as always for sharing from your heart. i always love your reflections. xo

So, I have felt a serious back and forth tug inside, between my heart feeling something positive (and resonating with what your friend said about it happening before the election, which I’ve felt for some time) and my mind angrily trying to talk me out of it. The tug of war gets pretty nasty. I hear things in my head like, ‘Hellooo, remember 2012? And all those delays? Home doesn’t care about you; if they did, they’d have brought you back by now. They chose a bunch of selfish jerks over you, and didn’t care if YOU survived as long as you kept pouring yourself out and saved THEM.’ Seriously, it’s that bad. Like Gollum trying to get Smeagol not to trust Frodo. And being so weary (that comment from Gina nailed it! Too much STO will drain and eventually kill you, I know) and ready to just GO for so long… That Gollum talk wears you down and you start to doubt. Which I’m sure is the point! So, yesterday, I put the brakes on it and just tried to focus on what I want (yes-exit!) Instead of what I don’t want (“they tricksed us, Gollum! we hates them!”). By trying to fill my own tank, by remembering who I really am, and that if no one else loves me, or wants me, here OR there, dang it, I love myself and I am good, and nothing will change THAT. Instantly, the fog and the negative chatter turned off. I felt so much better. And started to feel peace about exit again. Wow, it really is a war, isn’t it? I’ve long since made my choice, but boy, that negative reptilian brain is pulling out all the stops and throwing everything it’s got – and that (and the fact that I could so easily change my focus and switch it OFF) tells me it’s dying. But we’re constantly getting hit with doubt-grenades to try to make us jump off the train. Well, Gollum, ain’t gonna happen, so bugger off. 😂 And I’m not letting anyone guilt me about leaving, either. The way I see it, if you have a bunch of energy and passion to dig in and help, maybe that’s what you chose. But if you’re worn out and “sitting” is all you can do, you’re going home. And neither is wrong!

Anyway, long story to say, yes, the Gina comment is spot on. All that “STO til ya drop or you’re STS!” business is New Cage hogwash and an instant red flag for me. If you’re good inside and mean others well and actively choose not to hurt anyone, you’re golden. We are NOT required to serve from an empty cup.

I was going to write you a reply to tell you not to despair and that this is an inevitable feeling due to these psychopaths not wanting to give up; there is nothing more dangerous than a cornered, wounded animal; but I see you have come through the depth of despair. I too was feeling it yesterday and was on the verge of utter dejection and hopelessness. We have had horrendous (chemtrail generated) grey skies and pouring rain all week where i live and I think this also contributed (Not a coincidence, they are desperate!) but today the skies have cleared and the sun is out, still patchy cloudy but a nice stiff breeze is blowing all that away. I am going a walk to light a fire and just sit in the woods and enjoy the autumn colours.

I see you have also come back to your centre, so I think this is more vindication we are on the brink.

It is just a matter of hanging on in there a while longer and everything is going to be good 😉

Thanks for all your insights

B Boru