i am having that exact same discussion with myself – i want and need a new home – a new location – and need the income to do that. and yet i feel i am knocking myself against a wall that really doesn’t want to move in my efforts to work with the system and get the resources i need to create that need of mine. that voice within me says to just let it be – let it go – don’t look for answers within the very system that is crashing – that i want to end – because the end of this shit pit is upon us. and yet i’ve had that longing FOR that end for years – and i don’t have years to wait for New. so i’m kind of in a bit of a battle with myself atm you could say.