So my mind is fucking blown right now. I have always felt different my whole life, I even got a tattoo on my arm that says “riding the outer ring of my own private saturn” (slug anyone?). Anyways, I guess you could say Ive had a pretty rough go of life so far, and recently (like the past 6 months) I have been hit with all these feelings of anxiety and being unsatisfied with no reasonable cause. I go on these crazy thought benders, that I literally cannot de-rail; all pressing issues about society and worries about the state of humanity. Every time, I come out of it so frustrated because I cannot find a solution that seems reasonable or maybe its more of a doubt in the masses. Regardless, all of this led me to look for answers as to why it seems like I am the only person (that I know) who are faced with these deep existential crisis’s on the daily, and actually get in the way of life. I ended up concluding that I had ADHD (although I never fully concluded, more of a settlement lol). I just recently got diagnosed and started taking light doses of ritalin, I don’t really know if it is helping me or not. Anyways, I was staying up late (insomnia) and watching some music videos on youtube and was reading comments to get other people’s ideas on the art, and someone name-dropped starseed. Naturally, I was curious so I looked it up, and what I found literally brought me to tears, in what would also be a prolonged state of “WTF!?”. Literally every single symptom and characteristic, hit so close to home to all of these feelings that I was never able to fully express (which has been causing me a lot of frustration). I have always felt like I have trusted in some sort of blind faith, like I am special (even though I try and stay away from that sort of mind-frame bc fuck ego amiright). Anyways, I believe that I have been awake for my whole life (or the majority of it), but I do also feel like I am now finding my purpose, and that this is the time in my life where that foggy forgetfulness has been lifted and I am surprising myself with how much I instinctively “know” or am randomly confident in my opinion about. Lately, I have been feeling very discouraged, like there is an invisible language barrier between me and other people. Like I am moving at a speed of 10 and the whole world is content with their 4, and are blind to the benefits of being “awake”. I’d really like to talk to some people who I can see eye to eye with (hopefully). Hit me up.

My awakening in this incarnation came at the age of 13, I am now 73. My awakening came as a result of a N.D.E.. During this NDE, I was taken to my home universe, which was many universes from this one. I was taken to stand before my council, where I was given instructions for this lifetime. My council was made up of 17 members.

I have incarnated on many planets from the very beginnings of this universe. Some of which have been war torn and battle scared and destroyed.

On earth I have incarnated periodically since humanities beginnings, as one who inspired ascention. In this particular life, my purpose here is not as all yours to heal humanity and the planet, but to observe! Observe as a school teacher would by marking the exams of the class!!

We as a general consensis are all weary, its been a long ride… It is soon time for a class to graduate, not all will pass!!

Is not Thoth the god of wisdom? The creator of all technology?

yes – many of us feel weary of this “be patient” mantra. i read something today about that – lisa brown (she has her own internet site) and she discusses the patience issue. as we ascend we become just pure Being – which means patience, which is a human ego trait, gets more or less left behind. or perhaps just molds/becomes one with our higher selves. still have to process that one before i can give it a “yes” or not. but if i can free myself of the patience/impatience issue, i would be quite happy. 🙂

Thanks!