I awoke last night at 1:17am to the experience of the bed shaking/trembling as well as my entire body. I had this same experience about 2 weeks ago at the same time only with this previous experience my mate was in bed with me and also experienced the same thing. I know I wrote about it here. Just can’t remember the title post or where I put it. Aye aye aye…
Last night my mate wasn’t in the room yet and later said he didn’t feel anything. Unlike last time, the experience only lasted a few minutes and as I lay quietly, focusing on allowing the energies to pass through me, I quickly went back to sleep and had some new, interesting dreams. I did awaken a lot though, trembling at times. I just went with it and let myself return to sleep.
So…..things are processing quite a lot right now and I know are very intense for all of us – whether consciously aware or not. It’s as though all of that “junk” inside is being forced out, at times seemingly quite blunt as Higher Self takes position again, saying “let’s get on with this process my beautiful human and let go that which isn’t US as I’m coming home to stay”. Unity begins with US after all.
There is absolutely no more hiding.
Interestingly enough, when I awoke this morning and checked my social media, the first post that came up showed other people who also noticed a huge shift last night, some saying they were jumpy and trembled all last night. Validation.
At least I can say I’m peeling more layers of the onion ~ and tonight, as I sat in my chair, massager wherever I could get it on my body (from what I read, photons were incoming today and that is the energy class that seems to cause pain in my muscles), I went inward to the sore, tender parts of my body and asked what needed to come out.
Many words and stories came to mind. I did not judge. I let them speak and share. As I continued deeper, what came up was my loneliness and feeling of separation ~ from everyone. What an awful, horrible feeling. The pain cut deep. I wept big time tears over that one, then thought back to my experience earlier in the day….
After a trip to the store, I drove my daughter and I around before heading home. As we finished up listening to one of her stories on CD, I decided to turn on the radio. The U2 song, “One” had just started playing. A beautiful moment of synchronicity as I have been thinking of this song quite a bit, especially hearing (and using here in my writings) the line “We’re One but we’re not the same”. I knew I was to listen and absorb the song, which I did. Lots of tears were released, cleansing me. I looked around at other people. The construction workers working on a house. The young guy driving a bit too fast in his car. The mail carrier delivering mail. I sent love ~ the real deal ~ to each of them. I saw and felt our connection. I saw Source in each of them, all playing out their physical roles as we each do, day after day.
I have had these experiences before so it wasn’t new to me. However, tonight in my chair, massaging my achy muscles, I got something new:
We are meant to have this as a way of Being and not just in moments here and there.
You know when you hear words and know they sound true but you need the rest of you to catch up for it all to Align? That’s what happened to me tonight upon receiving that message.
I thought back to a conversation I was having with a friend earlier. It just felt flat. I wanted so much more. How painful it has become at times to have those kinds of conversations. How I long to have juicy, in depth, vibrant (or quiet), completely connected conversations. The kind of communication and connection that fills every fiber of my being with Source yumminess.
Do you know what I mean?
And it serves me no purpose to expect others to make the first move. I have to start making those conversations happen by being Me. At the very least what I can do is be honest and say I’m feeling disconnected here from you and I want to try something new to feel connected right now as we talk. Yeah, sounds strange. Who talks like that?
Pure, honesty does. Scary! But that’s what I am/we are here to do.
So another layer of the separation was peeled away tonight. And oh god, how extremely grateful I am for it.
I thought back to how many lifetimes this has been missing, not just for me but for ALL of us. We sure did become good at faking it. But we can’t do that any longer. We are returning to Self, to Source.
The feeling I had in the car earlier today ~ feeling ME ~ feeling Source ~ feeling the connection with everyone I saw ~ is the most beautiful, wonderful, natural feeling/experience I can imagine having. Came straight from my heart chakra area. And I give deep thanks to Source and Higher Self and all of the assistance that is here right now as we make this transition back to Unity Consciousness.