Month: August 2018

received a few things in the shower.  i can now say i feel we are in the event. not pre-event but the real deal.  how long this lasts, well supposedly up to 4 weeks.  for myself i have felt 2 weeks for many months now.

one of you, i think it was sword, who spoke of your gi system acting the way it does when during the holiday’s you eat too much rich food.  very good description.  peppermint tea and a bite of banana are giving me grief.  seriously??  well i did have a feel the closer i got to transitioning i would spend a lot of time sleeping and right now given how i feel that is all i want to do – either that or just sit and stare at the trees and clouds.

had another experience of feeling like i was going to fall over.

i also thought of this whole “Q” thing ~ and had this thought that, at least for some of us, this is just one final movie we are watching on our way out. it’s one heck of a movie i will admit but i am starting to feel like it’s one of those movies that keeps going on and on – and you feel it should have ended by now.  here you are yelling at the screen saying “END THE DAMN MOVIE already!”

speaking of Q ~ there was a drop tonight about something BIG is about to drop.  there was also a post on reddit that spoke of no Q signs at tonight’s rally on pennsylvania.  i have a social media friend who said she was at the rally and the SS confiscated her Q sign and all others she saw.  i had a feeeeeling that this was for safety.  did any of you happen to see the brian williams piece on MSNBC about the qanon movement?  i will not fill up this divine space with that filth so if you wish to watch it, look up MSNBC on youtube and scroll through until you find the qanon conspiracy video.  it was posted yesterday (the 1st).  after the info these people shared, i can understand why the SS did not want the public much less the media to see people holding these signs.  given the threat already in place against POTUS, safety first.

sooooooooo speaking of movies i feel like i am at the end of the movie “war games” and after all of the chaos and trauma, the computer asks if they would like to play a “nice game of chess”.  that sounds quite lovely.

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v.

thank you to all of you who have written and commented.  about 20 minutes after i shared my lamenting piece, i suddenly felt a calm come over me.  it was quiet.  i felt as though someone/others had sent me some loving energy. i thought of you all and smiled.  thank you!  and….as i went to the store today, i could feel so many of you ~ i felt like we were carrying each other energetically.  that’s a first and it was a wonderful feeling.

i feel a little better ~ off and on strangeness in the body.  i got some mineral water to help.  craving for a watermelon and some ginger cookies so got those as well.  on the way to the store i turn on the radio and Purple Rain is playing.  at the store i decided to ask the clerks how they were feeling.  the words “weird body aches/tired/just feel weird” ~ indeed spaciness from one of them i witnessed.

as i got into the car, i asked for a gift of song.  i turn on the radio and the triumph song “magic power” came on ~ “she’s young now, she’s wild now, she wants to be free”.  in my heart, yes i am young and yes, i want to be free.

my child has fallen 3x today – continues to burp a lot.  the energies have not really been impacting her much – now i see they are whether she is aware of it or not.  forced quiet time/meditation is called for regularly now.

computer wonkiness too ~ perhaps i will have to stop this for awhile.  i have 2 backup computers i can use.  just weird electrical stuff going on.  i have heard others having the same experience.

we noticed the live meteor’s feed went crazy wild for at least 30 minutes.  a non-stop, loud signal.  i came home from the store and my mate is saying “come here and check this out!”  i recorded about 45 seconds of it – will upload and share here later.  it’s still showing a signal although it is weaker. so far only myself and another have commented ~ each saying essentially WTFrig??  lol

we are not in kansas anymore.  we are going Quantum – and quite quickly i would add.  thank you ~ all of you ~ for your love and support and for being part of my tribe on this journey.

victoria

wow ~ these body pains ~ unbelievable!  this is not normal for me.  i went to bed early and slept almost 13 hours.  still needing to sleep.  lower back ~ frig! mind tired.  heart heavy.  i cried for a long time this morning purging (again).  E N O U G H!  ok ENOUGH!  i am finding no joy here.  done with the waiting game.

making a meal.  shaking my head and wondering what the purpose of any of this is.  oh – of interest perhaps – as i lay in bed this morning crying i kept saying “i’m sorry” – over and over.  it was all i could say.

and that is all i feel i need or want to say now other than S O S!!

love,

v.

p.s. ~ anyone else gassy??  burping a lot??  even my girl is – burping a lot and she rarely, if ever, does this.