Month: August 2018

the following is a true story.  i am typing it with a bag over my head for the embarrassment i feel in sharing it.

earlier today i was having a texting convo with brother rick.  he said he saw a video update by Linea who said it is going to take 6 months to incorporate the energies that came in this month.  transition time:  march 2019.

i went from 0 to 10 in seconds.  “false intel”, i said.  my mind began to scream “I AM NOT DOING THIS FOR 6 MORE MONTHS!”

it was like the last several years flashed through my mind.  i totally walked away from the whole “new earth” and “ascension” stuff in 2014.  i just stopped.  let it go.  i decided to get real and focus on other things more “logical” and “realistic”.  so while i focused elsewhere, my mate actually dove into the whole concept and began sharing all sorts of info with me.  i dismissed it.  however a growing calling within began to bloom and it would not go away.  it wasn’t just about calling me back – it was calling me in a new way.  “start your website” i kept hearing.

nope.  i kept on with my own agenda.  i even tried to start a housecleaning business.

nothing.  happened.  in fact every plan i had made for myself during that time fell flat.  completely.  given my personality i was, of course, quite upset and felt totally defeated.  however because i also occasionally listen to my higher wisdom, i decided to surrender it all (at the time i likely said something like “fuck it ~ i give up”).  when i decided to start this site in the middle of the year 2016, BOOM i found a website developer who was open to trade/barter and BOOM i got some articles published immediately (including the weary starseed human one that went on In5d and rather catapulted me in a nice way).

anyway…..so hearing this news today had me thinking back to all of this and wondering “is this all a fraud?  have i fallen for a fraud?  have i been guided into just another trap?”  for all of the “NO’s” i put out on new earth and ascension type stuff – and for my human self attempted creations – a soft nudge kept calling me back to the dreams and visions i have carried for some 25 years.  have i been mislead???

ok, i thought next.  so if this is all just a fraud, i will just have to start over again.  so i began to make a plan.  immediately.  on the spot.  (that is how i roll – even though i resist change i am quite efficient in picking myself up quickly and saying “ok change course”).

well as this happened, i began to hear a higher voice/voices calling my name.  it wasn’t just me – i felt like it was my team – and clair.  my name was being said repeatedly.  telling me to calm down.  telling me brother rick’s message was a misunderstanding (on his part).  seriously calm down, i kept hearing, ignoring it until my phone literally flew out of my hand, fell onto the walking path and broke open, tossing out the battery.  (i still have NO explanation for how that phone just slipped out of my hand and went flying the way it did.)

my first thought was “oh WOW – so that’s where the battery is!”  i have had the phone for several years and have always wondered where the battery is and how to get it out.  my next thought was “oh SHIT!  my phone is broken.  i don’t have the money right now to get another phone!”  and wouldn’t you know it – earlier today i had canceled my land line service (to save money).  lol

oh this story HAS to get better, right?

it does.  [wp-svg-icons icon=”smiley” wrap=”i”]

so as i am thinking “my phone is broken for good” i then heard my name being called again and heard “your phone is fine.  you needed the distraction to calm.  down.”  calm down was emphasized.  the tone was serious but also i could sense compassionate humor.

so i put the battery back in, turn on the phone and wala ~ it worked (and works) just fine.

in time i return home and check for this video he referenced.  she had no updates either.  neither did lisa harrison.  so i share this with him.  well as it turns out, he said he found the 6 month info on my site – via the link i provided to linea’s comment today (at the end of my daily notes piece).  and for him at least, the link took him to a video she put out in march of 2018.

2 0 1 8.  EIGHTEEN.

lol  he had seen the title included “march” and somehow missed the 2018 part and so thought she meant transition would be in march 2019 – which is 6 months from now.  kinda saw the 8 as a 9.  when he got it he said – oh yeah – i didn’t see the 2018.

damn number 8!

i laughed.  good to have that settled (although i still don’t understand how that linked comment takes him to that particular video – it doesn’t do that for me on my end ~ it takes me to the video she put out yesterday – it’s a highlighted comment).

so a little bit later he tells me how clair and team were having a good laugh at me earlier.  i shared with him what had happened at the park and at first was like “hey that was NOT FUNNY!”  but then i opened up and suddenly i began to laugh.  it was funny.  i totally went from calm and having faith to thinking FRAUD!  LIARS!!

i am sure i was quite the scene in the ALL.

being a human here is hard, isn’t it?  it IS difficult to know who to trust ~ especially when much of this experience, indeed the concepts of transition and/or ascension or whatever term resonates with you feels so out of our hands.  faith is a funny thing, and isn’t easy to maintain, especially in this “prove it” and “logic above all” system.  and i have one of those “show me” personalities.  as rightful i should – and we all should be at times.  and there are the moments in between when we have no other option but to trust and surrender and allow all to unfold ~ as my mate told me tonight.

yeah, i know, i KNOW.

so i end this laughing, having understanding and empathy for myself and some humbling to help soothe the embarrassment.  oh well ~ it’s the reddish irish hair.  my feistiness has been an integral and at times absolutely necessary part of my experience here in this realm we call earth.

love,

victoria

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