This.
Yesterday my girl and I rode into a new neighborhood. It was quiet (at first) – beautiful homes. So many trees. I noticed how at peace my body suddenly was. I listened and realized I had given my body what I most craves: NEW. Beauty. Quiet. I noticed as we headed home my body shut down again. Nothing I could speak to her changed that.
I also noticed something interesting – honestly quite a life long experience but something that used to happen only on a rare occasion and now seems to be almost a constant: feeling invisible. There were people walking around this new neighborhood and I tried to make eye contact, smile and most just went right on by – as though I – we – weren’t there.
How do you find connection inside of a matrix – especially a simulated experience that seems to be breaking down?
What I crave is NEW – where there is REAL CONNECTION – with everything around me. I got online this morning and was relieved to see others sharing very similar situations this week. You will see those below.
For now, it’s the ongoing stress of money. While my pursuit of education and all that this entails is ongoing, that is “down the road” – so I am trying to sell more of my stuff. Given nothing yet is dropping in price here, bills like payment plans, credit cards – those are going to have to be on hold – which I don’t like as it makes me uncomfortable. Fear response I am just going to have to say “screw it” and prioritize what’s important: staying alive.
Getting triggered seeing those who could very easily help – even just with promotion for they promote others – that “f” word (amily) – but who simply don’t because in their world I do not matter. And that is a hard truth to swallow and that disconnecting pain sucks – and the past week has had me in an emotional level of discomfort – but as we say in da matrix: “accept let it go and move on.” I thought I had until this place showed me something different. Perhaps what it is, is we can let go – but if something shoves us back inside of that room – we can get sucked back in – especially if those around you are trying to push you back into that room.
For now, having one of those days where I plead “NEW NOW” and take those steps to get there while the sim. continues. At least I now know if things happen as I have seen for so very long, I could easily step into it and let the old go.
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Victoria
Raise your hand if you feeeeeeeeeeeel/relate. I am experiencing that same thing – go out – want to come back inside – but think “no get out there” – join in with the others – and I do and want nothing but to get back to my personal space. Do not want to be bothered by this place. And oh my god how tired I am – i can’t keep my eyes open today. No appetite. I wish I truly knew just what is going on – with me. Because today I don’t know. How can I go from feeling so energized and up one day to – well – *THIS*.
I can show you hundreds of videos just like this one. The earth is shifting and normies have no idea why they are feeling like they do.
There were thousands of comments under this one video feeling exactly the same.
A week feels like a day
A month feels like a week
A year… pic.twitter.com/dIe4iBHtFD— Capt Kyle (@CaptKylePatriot) June 2, 2025
Ah, screw it – going to put this up now. Other finds shared later. I figure someone needs to read the overall sense of this piece.
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