To those still reading. Cannot believe how little I am being seen these days. When I say I need people to check in on me and see how I am doing, I am being serious.
My daughter just informed me I don’t look good – that I look like a skeleton.
Stress. Scratching my neck like crazy lately – I look like I’ve just been through a battle.
ATM I am having to come up with money to get an electrical outlet issue taken care – personal reasons I won’t go into.
The system is giving me grief – although I finally made headway with one person – but did find out she is referring me back to the SAME DAMN AGENCY (for one program) that has given me the runaround for months.
I have a friend undergoing big changes in her life – and she had the same experience w/these agencies – when no one else would help her it was her only outlet. As she said “it was making me lose my mind” – so she was blessed to meet a woman who helped her out. THAT is what I need and THAT is what I have intended.
I’m just exhausted you guys. No – I am burned out. And mentally not doing good. It’s like no one is hearing me. No one is asking what I need. I’ve gone to support boards, put out my requests online – either get “same boat” or advice or “give it to God don’t rely on people”. WTF? PEOPLE are what I need.
I’m burned out with this awakening. Burned out every day I come here and hope someone will leave a comment – burned out when I see my Telegram channel shrinking in size – burned out that for some reason people expect ME to do all of the reaching out – which I have done – but today I need that coming back to me. I’m burned out with my life. I’m burned out with it all. I feel like that girl from Ferris Bueller’s Day Off – Jeannie – who has called the police to report an intruder – and the police don’t believe her. Female in need of help – she’s asking for it – and not being taken seriously.
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I’m sorry you are in so much stress. I am sending you all my love! I would send a little bit of money but I only have a few dollars in my checking account until my wife gets paid. I always look forward to your finds but I think you may need to take a break from it. I know I have to sometimes because I get so angry. It’s noticeable too when I am angry because my wife will ask “are you okay?” and I will have to try and distract that thinking. I pray everything works out for you and your family soon.
You are wonderful. Thank you for your kind words. Love to you and your family.