Not all here mentally atm.
I called another agency whom I was referred to for help with job training and getting the healing help I need for my ptsd/trauma-related issue. It’s a minimum one year just to see someone.
One. Year. Minimum.
I asked if there was any way around that. Priority list.
There is a priority list – based on the severity of the issue – those who have the most debilitating, serious diagnoses are placed at the top of 3 tiers. Those at the top have the minimum one year.
Last time I used this service was over 15 years ago when I lost my job. At the time I got in within days.
DAYS.
Same city.
Population is more or less the same.
I also heard from an attorney about another option (in which I was advised to apply for) for me – an option I do not qualify for atm because combined income in the house is too much. I asked to just use my own – not an option under the circumstances.
When I feel the way I do now – needing someone to be a backup brain – and seeing myself where I am now – unable to take in new situations or roadblocks without mental collapse for a time – I kinda weep and ask God to just please help keep me going.
Going out “into the system” when there’s nothing else is not the answer it once was. I can attest to that. I see how long it took me just to get into one program – months – months of me calling, texting, emailing. I would have been lost in the sea of people in the same position if it weren’t for my persistence. I am still waiting on filling out paperwork to apply for fund$ for schooling.
The frustration – I want to increase my income. I am open to options. I am WILLING TO contribute. What I am best at – writing. Researching. What I do here and at my buymeacoffee site. And I need help with promoting and marketing. SEO. All requires money. Catch 22 loop I am busting wide open and refusing to be in anymore.
It’s a paradox on days like today – where I don’t have the mental capacity to wait or ironically reach out again/try something different – much less answer questions from well-meaning people wanting to know where I am on xyz anything new. But I know I will rest up and get back in the saddle. Just needing more days like that and less days like today where I long to do nothing else but cover my ears and cry, needing to be left alone from b.s. intrusions.
JUST IN – Trump, Zelensky, and European leaders' meeting ends after only 1 hour and 40 minutes.
— Disclose.tv (@disclosetv) August 18, 2025
JUST IN – U.S. DOJ will provide Epstein-related records to the House Oversight Committee starting Friday, says Congressman James Comer.
— Disclose.tv (@disclosetv) August 18, 2025
Finnish President @alexstubb: "I think in the past two weeks, we've probably had more progress in ending this war than we have in the past three and a half years." pic.twitter.com/7Mysp1DE4d
— Rapid Response 47 (@RapidResponse47) August 18, 2025
Woke up thinking about this “R” today too……..
And @WarNuse has that missing "R"… https://t.co/dzniS0B5gf
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) August 18, 2025
It’s not illegal in America to burn an Israeli flag.
Another fake story. pic.twitter.com/OSu5UlMOVs
— ĐⱤØ₲Ø🇺🇸 (@KAGdrogo) August 18, 2025
NOW – Trump: "If we don't have a tri-lat, then the fighting continues… [Putin's] expecting my call when we're finished with this meeting." pic.twitter.com/CIXxeDzixN
— Disclose.tv (@disclosetv) August 18, 2025
BREAKING: Washington, D.C., is now under “serious investigation” for providing fake crime numbers, per POTUS.
— Leading Report (@LeadingReport) August 18, 2025
is ra el for last………
We should also have extradition rights and stop letting Jewish American pedophiIes evade justice by fleeing Israel. https://t.co/ps2jvYrA6T
— ĐⱤØ₲Ø🇺🇸 (@KAGdrogo) August 18, 2025
JUST IN – Starlink is currently experiencing a significant outage. pic.twitter.com/JMJQ500AoF
— Disclose.tv (@disclosetv) August 18, 2025
BREAKING: President Trump to sign executive order to “help eliminate” mail-in ballots and voting machines before the 2026 midterm elections.
— Leading Report (@LeadingReport) August 18, 2025
more good sleuthing https://t.co/ztcNbaNLWd
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) August 18, 2025
Feeeeels….. https://t.co/hBMTMGgvEq
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) August 18, 2025
This is Trump sending coded comms. BELA = BELARUS. BELARUS is the hinge between NATO & Russia. BELARUS is the gateway where the war started… and where it will [END]. Trump hosts Putin in Alaska… → neutral ground. Peace deal on the table… → but how do you give Putin a “win” without surrendering Ukraine? → Belarus is the key. → Lukashenko is the joker card. → Neutral zone / buffer corridor = path to peace. But here’s where it goes even deeper… In the Bible, “Bela” shows up in two critical ways: Bela son of Beor = the first king of Edom [Genesis 36:32]. Edom = red. The “red king” ruled first… but his reign was temporary. Bela (Zoar) = the refuge city spared when fire rained on Sodom [Genesis 19:20-22]. The small place of safety when judgment fell. Think about that pattern. BELA = the fall of the red king and the path of refuge all at once. Now think chess. Black moves first → Russia invaded. But the game flips when WHITE makes the decisive move. “BELA” literally translates as WHITE. Trump just told us what square he’s playing on. Think about it… WHAT IF Belarus is the secret piece no one’s watching… but the ENTIRE PEACE PLAN pivots on it? WHAT IF “BELA” is Trump signaling the WHITE move… the [ENDGAME] board shift before the world sees the deal? WHAT HAPPENS WHEN the war [ENDS] not in Kyiv, but in Minsk? “FOR THOSE IN RIO LINDA…” “BELA” = Belarus. The hinge between NATO & Russia. The piece no one’s watching. The Biblical marker: red king falls, refuge survives. The WHITE move on the board. Minds aren’t ready for this one… but the chessboard is. Think about the 5D Chessmaster who controls it. Scripture already mapped the pattern: the red king falls, and the refuge remains. “BELA” wasn’t a typo. It was the move. [CHECKMATE] incoming.
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