Today is one of those days where supporting what’s going on out there on stage ain’t happening. From seeing the toxic division in my own city – where I am in fear of being ME simply for the pov I have due to others online including some I know of threatening anyone who supports the president in any way and threatening attacks on anyone who doesn’t support the child trans agenda and similar.
Today I ask for financial support to get me through the end of the month. I finally see a job coach on Monday. I’m intending to get some assistance to help me with a program I want to study so I can turn around and teach/help others. And yet – when I share this – a voice within says “I don’t need to justify what I am doing in order to receive love and support”.
So many tears inside – a person can only take so many toxic arrows thrown their way. I need someone to talk to. I’m tired of building myself up only to get torn back down again. I wish people would “get it” instead of gaslighting me away with “go pray” or “go for a walk” – as though I don’t already take care of myself to the best of my ability. It hurts.
