The stress I am under is huge.
H U G E.
Keeping me up at night for weeks on end.
My concentration is shit.
Focus? In da toilet.
Chronically tense. Yoga etc offer temporary relief.
Do I continue to trust that a new world/new system is coming?
When?
I really need to know the WHEN part.
For I have a life to plan.
For my daughter.
Who wants either an end to the infiltration in the school system or to go to a private school.
To the tune of $30k/year.
It’s so painful when you can’t give your kiddo what it is she wants – much less needs.
It’s traumatizing daily to my entire being trying to keep her safe but involved.
Being a parent in this awakening is just, you know.
But I am also incredibly stubborn resilient and refuse to give up.
I want and need help.
AND I want to help others too.
Organize – together.
There are so many of us in similar situations.
There are just as many who are doing ok.
Some are doing quite well.
All it takes is for one person to start something.
Like an organized group – online – like a micro version of Modest Needs.
The format is simple: What Do You Need.
Go from there.
There’s a conversation going on at X about how to help people – especially the one who are disabled and financially at the poverty/low income level.
I am in that category.
But I am also willing to help.
So many of us have talents going unseen.
Waiting for this plan to bring forth justice.
Waiting for the plan to return our wealth.
Waiting.
Waiting, waiting, waiting.
I lost interest in waiting earlier this year.
Going it alone has not produced the results I want.
I want to UNITE with others in a common mission to ensure no one slips through the cracks.
To ensure people’s stories and needs are seen and provided for.
That’s how we build that new earth.
Whether it’s already there waiting or not.
We can at least begin the DOING now.
Thank you for listening to my rant.
💖
Victoria
