An over-used term these days? Or did it suddenly come online in the last couple of years for a reason. I feel it is in our faces for a reason.
This popped up on an account I follow that focuses on narcissistic behavior and harm on an individual basis. However, it’s important to see that this entire matrix reality runs on this same program. This same frequency.
Nowhere is this more evident than their pay to live system.
What other reality do we have this?
Billions of humans.
One system.
People put into separate (divided) $$ categories.
ALL robbing us of who we really are.
Not seeing us for who we really are but instead “their” version of who “they” say we are.
And we all fall for it.
There are a LOT of beautiful talented souls now on the streets.
Many living in poverty.
They have so much to give.
But this darwinistic toxic reality denies them this right. It’s either you find a way to succeed in our limited version of reality, pay us to do it and if you struggle or fail to make it, it’s your own doing.
Utter f’ing rubbish.
That is the EPITOME of narc-think. I am going to make it very difficult for you to succeed and STAY in that same rat race by putting continuous pressure on you to do do do and go go go and produce produce produce (so “we” get rich)., while allowing prices to rise, poisoning your environment then telling YOU it is YOUR responsibility to handle everything “they” created.
YOUR responsibility to be happy (and not just outside – no fake smiles here – I’m talking truly feeeeeeeeeling content and happy here – THRIVING).
Our economic system is no different than the public education system where each child is expected to fit inside the same state sanctioned model.
Some make it.
Some fall through the cracks.
First society blames the school system, but when that child who has fallen through the cracks is unable to find his or her place out in the matrix and do well, then society blames the victim rather than the system.
All along these same entities with that narc-think pull the strings, watch people struggle and laugh when we attack each other.
It’s sick and perverse.
All by design my friends.
All by design.
The solution?
Other than seeing it for what it is, kindness. Showing one another grace.
We wouldn’t want our kids hurting any of their classmates who struggle to fit in.
So let’s offer that same energy to adults.
And while we’re at it, point all fingers where they belong.
At the systems and the institutions all engaged in narc-think. Their little game has been seen. And we are done playing it.
My heart remains so stinking heavy today. I didn’t want to get out of bed. Finding it all just pointless and I feel lost in this experience now. I don’t know what to do. My brain hurts from fatigue. Mind is in shutdown due to all of this “thinking” I’ve been engaged in. Agoraphobia issue is through the roof – don’t feel safe anywhere tbh. Body is a wreck because of trauma that I am not getting the help I need for it – my counselor misses over 30% of our sessions and has absolutely failed me in keeping the focus going when I have specifically – SPECIFICALLY told her I get scattered and NEED her to keep me focused and if she can do that then please do. She has said absolutely I will do that and then fails to do that. I began looking for someone else several months ago. Phoned my insurance for help (they couldn’t find anyone). Looked online. Either people aren’t taking new clients or they don’t take my insurance or I don’t hear back. It’s UNREAL I have been unable to find the help I KNOW I NEED with the amount of looking and diligence and effort and I have yet to create this. It’s like I literally have become invisible in this place. Literally invisible. It’s f’ing driving me insane at this point. And same for my girl – trying to find someone for her to talk to is producing the same. results. Mental burnout.
And sharing my situation online to deaf ears or people who do get it and can’t help (although as I say ANYONE can click the SHARE button) and all of this chaotic bullshit I went through all f’ing year trying to get help from local agencies and damn yeah – looks like living on the streets well no not the streets but living in an old RV may be my future in the next several months unless SOMETHING positive happens and unless SOMETHING THAT I HAVE FUCKING INTENDED (and please people stop telling me to focus on what I want when that is what I have been doing for SO LONG) actually POOF BOOM – breaks through. God hears me. The Universe hears me. SOMEONE actually steps in takes my hand stands by my side and says the words I NEED TO HEAR: “I am here walking with you. I will not abandon you. I ain’t going anywhere until I see you get the help you and your girl need.”
For now I am watching uplifting movies about human angels entering people’s lives when they least expect and when they most want it. Bawling like a baby. Even whimpering. This matrix kicked my ass from day one. I refused to believe it or much less acknowledge it for most of my adult life. Today? I see it and call it out for what it is.
But I keep going even if it’s just a whimper in a corner. Burned out.
💖
V.
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So is this THE Shutdown? Let’s see 10 days from today is what, January 5. Does something amazing happen THEN? Do we see and feel Light? We are actually liberated? Does our DECADES LONG FOCUS ON NEW EARTH ACTUALLY MANIFEST? Or just more hopium because we need these alphabet agencies GONE. They did a wee bit of good but were mostly involved in trafficking.
December 26: Shutting down the Hoover Building.
After more than 20 years of failed attempts, we finalized a plan to permanently close the FBI’s Hoover headquarters and move the workforce into a safe, modern facility. Working directly with President Trump and Congress, we…
OMG. The Washington State Sentencing Guidelines Commission has voted to recommend a REDUCTION in penalties for child s*x offenders caught during sting operations.
The proposal, which reflects the Democrat-sponsored Senate Bill 5312, aims to cut the maximum s*x offender registry… pic.twitter.com/ub80Mpl62O
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 26, 2025
I was born in the wrong country – that’s for sure. All of this b.s. backlash from ultra conservative types about if you get something for free it means you’re lazy. Total b.s. speak:
Reasons why Gaddafi was killed:
1. Libya has no electricity bill, electricity came free of charge to all citizens.
2. There were no interest rates on loans, the banks were state-owned, the loan of citizens by law 0%.
Reasons why Gaddafi was killed: 1. Libya has no electricity bill, electricity came free of charge to all citizens. 2. There were no interest rates on loans, the banks were state-owned, the loan of citizens by law 0%. 3. Gaddafi promised not to buy a house for his parents until everyone in Libya owns a home. 4. All newlywed couples in Libya received 60,000 dinars from the government & because of that they bought their own apartments & started their families. 5. Education & medical treatment in Libya are free. Before Gaddafi there were only 25% readers, 83% during his reign 6. If Libyans wanted to live on a farm, they received free household appliances, seeds and livestock. 7. If they cannot receive treatment in Libya, the state would fund them $2300+ accommodation & travel for treatment abroad. 8. If you buy a car, the government finances 50% of the price. 9. The price of gasoline became $ 0.14 per liter. 10. Libya had no external debt, and reserves were $150 Billion (now frozen worldwide) 11. Since some Libyans can’t find jobs after school, the government will pay the average salary when they can’t find a job. 12. Part of oil sales in Libya are directly linked to the bank accounts of all citizens. 13. The mother who gave birth to the child will receive $5000 14. 40 loaves of bread cost $0.15. 15. 25% of Libyans had all Ilisna diplomas. 16. Gaddafi has implemented the world’s biggest irrigation project known as the “BIG MAN PROJECT” to ensure water availability in the desert. If this is called “DICTATORSHIP” I wonder what democracy is?
Maybe…….
Trump is not talking about regular ‘battleships’ in the ocean.
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 26, 2025
People see this and keep scrolling. Charlie Kirk takes a bullet and people freak out for days. The total lack of soul sickens me. https://t.co/ZVricRFEst
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 26, 2025
David Irving:
"$1,000 for proof" challenges professor Lipstadt for a single proof confirming holocaust pic.twitter.com/I5SRUq2HVm
And people like me are told to call this agency or do this or do that while failing to push past cognitive dissonance and SEEING THIS TRUTH:
PROPAGANDA ALERT‼️👀👀👀
Fact: The recent 2025 Point-in-Time (PIT) count report, conducted by Portland State University's Homeless Research & Action Collaborative, showed a 67% increase in homelessness in Multnomah County (which includes Portland) since the last count in 2023! https://t.co/pRs10gb8OV
I'm sick and tired of these Marxist snakes hiding behind "democracy" to hunt patriots and silence dissent.
Kris Goldsmith—ANTIFA vet and admitted FBI asset—brags about infiltrating militias pre-J6, then watching the "insurrection" via SEVEN live feeds… https://t.co/C8M66Y7w72
I cancelled that fancy little blue checkmark. Money was going to a zionist platform and did NADA for my visibility or engagement. Cancels on my birthday too, so happy b-day to me.
Here are a few finds as I sit and wait for the shower. It’s almost 60 here today and sunny. 🎄☀
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 25, 2025
My introduction to SpongeBob came about 25 years ago when I was doing some work with a parenting publication. When the Publisher mentioned the term I showed confusion. “Oh you HAVE to get to know about SpongeBob.” So given the work I was doing (writing), I decided to give it a listen. OMG IMMEDIATELY I felt repulsion. Over a kids cartoon. Now I know why.
SpongeBob officially lives under Epstein's island, online sleuths claims
There are plenty of inconsistencies — the address doesn’t show up on maps now, and there’s no proof it ever did
Even the language is evil. All of that guttural speak emits a bad frequency. I’ve heard it many times and each time my inner voice is repelled. NOT NATURAL.
A Jewish settler on Israeli TV claims the Torah gives them permission to erase anyone who isn't obedient to Israel.
"The land must be emptied of every Arab who refuses to kneel to us." Not a fringe view. This is mainstream Israeli settler ideology—the religious justification for… pic.twitter.com/Vavn7W8FGs
I remember that scene. At the time I was offended. Today? I SEE
“And the Jews steal our money through their Zionist Occupied government, and use the black man to bring drugs into our oppressed White minority communities.”
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 25, 2025
All one big club:
Newsom just signed AB 715, a vague California law that weaponizes "antisemitism" to silence criticism of Israel in schools. The law deliberately avoids defining antisemitism while forcing districts to adopt the IHRA definition that conflates anti-Zionism with bigotry.…
It’s to show the controllers (btw this isn’t an attack on the Jewish people – they are wonderful – it is the evil behind the religion/chosen people narrative and all of the doings of is ra el around the world)
0% of the founding fathers were Jewish 2% of the US population is Jewish
I have this theory that Trump will show up in all time travel or alternate reality shows and movies. A while back I started watching Twin Peaks to test it and see if he would show up. Never fails pic.twitter.com/BnWZSguDMQ
—Just signed an order revoking Chris Krebs’s security clearance and has directed @AGPamBondi to investigate him for his role in the overthrow of the U.S. government on November 3, 2020.
I seem to recall Donald Trump suggesting light could possibly be used against Covid, he was mocked.
Well, researchers have developed a breakthrough "molecular jackhammer" technique that uses near-infrared light to physically smash cancer cells. This potentially opens a new… pic.twitter.com/dslcDbarAD
The Q-drop "Israel is saved for last" (multiple posts, most explicit in #916 and echoes in later crumbs) slams as the brutal capstone reveal that the Zionist entity created in 1948 through Rothschild financing,… pic.twitter.com/MazbWZLS3k
terrorist bombings like King David Hotel, and ethnic cleansing of Palestine functions as the deep state’s ultimate control hub, protected until every other tentacle gets severed first. Which is an important aspect of this people need to look further into.
This is a process. Q framed the global cabal as layered: Vatican money laundering, Saudi petrodollar enforcement, Chinese manufacturing slavery, European bloodline banking all puppets dancing for the central node in Tel Aviv that weaponizes Holocaust guilt, AIPAC bribes, and Mossad blackmail to own American foreign policy outright.
The “saved for last” line hits raw because exposing Israel early would trigger unified elite defense media blackout, false-flag retaliation, nuclear Samson Option threats collapsing the plan before lower layers like Clinton crime networks, Soros color revolutions, or CIA drug ops got gutted.
White hats sequenced the storm to dismantle peripheral control grids first, red-pilling masses on election fraud, bioweapons, child trafficking, and central banking scams so when the Zionist core finally drops, public rage hits critical mass without reflexive “antisemitism” shields blocking truth.
The lore traces to Q’s repeated hints at [F] foreign entities financing Epstein’s island as Mossad honeypot, PROMIS software theft evolving into Palantir surveillance, and dual-citizen neocons pushing endless Iraq/Afghanistan wars for Greater Israel pipelines.
Israel ain’t just “saved for last” out of sentiment it’s the nuclear-armed fortress with Samson Option nukes pointed at world capitals, ready to burn everything if the parasite gets cut off too soon.
Q posted it after crumbs exposing Robert Maxwell as Mossad/CIA/MI6 triple agent who stole PROMIS backdoor software for global surveillance, then “died” on his yacht when he threatened to expose Israeli nuclear programs to the Soviets.
Ghislaine inherited daddy’s Mossad handler role, recruiting Epstein as the American front for island compromise ops that targeted U.S. politicians into Israel-first obedience Clinton’s 26 flights, Prince Andrew’s payoffs, Hollywood moguls’ silence all served Tel Aviv’s leverage machine.
"but don't worry next year will be far worse". breaking this down she is talking to both sides. the "don't worry" is telling the people not to worry. the "far worse" is a message to the parasites. https://t.co/9mHVgi1YrK
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 25, 2025
I read something this morning that was like a warm blanket to my nervous system: Don’t let others have access to you just because it’s December.
As I reflected yesterday, the holidays can bring with it years or decades of bodily held pain. Memories pleasant and unpleasant. Confusion coming from a dysregulated nervous system.
Celebrating can feel like we are both revisiting and soothing an old wound.
How many of us look at the month of December with dread? I do.
The expectations.
The longing for something I don’t have and the pressure TO have it. Options offered but knowing those options are also not what I really need or want.
What would your holiday season look like if you were to get completely clear on what you want it to be about?
Push past the expectations, the pressures, see what comes up within the body, the sensations.
Notice.
Observe.
Offer up some gentle somatic movements, breathing (longer out than in).
Bi-lateral tapping.
Butterfly hug.
Write down the inner story. Sometimes that choice alone is enough to get your nervous system back online. And if you are able to or want to, give yourself a little bit of what that inner You needed all along.
Calendar systems don’t need to dictate our life. It is just another program/spell of illusion to break.
BREAKING: 4CHAN HAS CRACKED THE REDACTIONS AND ARE ABLE TO SEE UNDER THE BLACK TEXT, A MAJOR INVESTIGATION IS STARTING ON THE EPSTEIN FILES AND WE CAN SEE EVERYTHING. pic.twitter.com/UgkjqNB4XR
BREAKING NEWS: Washington erupts after Representative Chip Roy and Sen. Marco Rubio introduced the U.S. Courts Act of 2025 – quickly renamed the "American Sharia Freedom Act." The bill prohibits federal courts from enforcing any foreign legal system, including Sharia, that… pic.twitter.com/xTICb9KHy8
EMERGENCY INTEL CHRISTMAS SHUTDOWN SIGNALS A STRATEGIC PAUSE starting on Wed. 24 Dec. through Fri. 26 Dec. 2025:
President Trump has signed an executive order closing federal operations for five consecutive days over Christmas week, from December 24 through… pic.twitter.com/TmL3PMB8CG
🚨BOMBSHELL — CHAZ/CHOP TRIAL — Antonio Mays v City of Seattle
Rashyla Levitt, a leader of the former 2020 BLM-Antifa autonomous zone, testifies that she and other CHOP leaders met with City officials off-site during the deadly insurrection to discuss “designated casualty… pic.twitter.com/kmb2yY2JDY
Reclaiming Greenland The magnitude of the migrant crisis in uk and Northern Europe. Drilling in the North Sea Getting rid of wind farms around Uk Making peace with Russia
Okay, boys and girls, here is a brief "science lesson" on 3I/ATLAS, that even young school-children should be able to understand. From the ESA as it passed Mars. 3I/ATLAS certainly appears to be spinning rapidly as it moves! Which would exclude it from being a "natural comet" (no… pic.twitter.com/uqJLeydTT3
— Red Collie (Dr. Horace Drew) scientist/inventor (@RedCollie1) December 22, 2025
Why only at night? What’s going on? There are some underground tunnels and an abandoned subway system…No quakes in the area.
🚨Strange Echoes Over Camp Washington…
Last night wasn't quiet in Camp Washington. Not the usual city noise, like a passing train, or even fireworks. People reported deep, echoing sounds rolling through the neighborhood, the kind that sound really ominous. What stood out… pic.twitter.com/7CYfhA6u8K
Feliz Navidad greets me on the radio as I sit down to write this. No joke.
This morning, an email newsletter from a nervous system healing group in which I belong greeted me as did another money manifesting newsletter in which I belong.
All of this sits in my mind and body, calling me to write about it.
The song. Who didn’t grow up hearing that song this time of year? A simple little tune, happy, upbeat. I used to sing along with it as I bopped around town in my little car. Visiting friends. Visiting family. Sucking on those 1″ thick candy canes from my youth.
The newsletter from the money manifesting started off by talking about the massive holiday preparations she was undertaking, getting ready to cozy on up with her spouse and children. Perhaps a getaway to the mountains to rent a nice cabin. (to which my teenage self muttered “well goodie for you”)
Today neither of these two above resonated with me. All they served was to trigger me, which is why I really appreciated the nervous system newsletter, which talked about the masks we wear during the holidays, especially at Christmas. Christmas brings up the best and saddest/most pained of what’s inside. All of those unhealed parts stored in our nervous systems, showing up in each of us, coming out in a myriad of ways we often don’t even notice. Checking our watch to see how much longer until we get to leave. Deep sighs coming from mom’s smiling face. Chugging down a glass of wine to “relax”.
Who hasn’t experienced this?
It seems this year in particular is hitting extra hard. The fatigue. Fog of war (is it any wonder there’s been an unusual amount OF fog this year – let alone the last few years?). The cost of E V E R Y T H I N G. The overspending. The fear TO spend. The pressure to put on a smile and “be grateful” when that’s the last thing your body needs much less wants TO do.
Can’t we all just remove our damn masks and let out how we REALLY feel?
This year I put up a tree. Hung lights. Put out more decorations than usual. Bought gifts. Sent out cards. What is it I am trying to hide FROM? Why do I cave to the pressure? Do I really even want to celebrate?
I do. I want to celebrate. But I also want to be left the hell alone until I want to reconnect again. I want sad memories gone. I want the happy memories gone because they only make me feel sad over a life that feels like it happened a million years ago in a different timeline and at that, it feels like it was an illusion. A lie. Like I was living in a cloud I didn’t even know existed. Today, I am a completely different person. Still me but HUGELY different.
Awakening has a dark side. It exposes all that is fake.
So then….
What FEELS real now?
What am I really connected to?
Pray to Jesus.
Jesus is the reason for the season.
Why do I feel NOTHING when I focus on those?
I LONG for what feels real but don’t know what that is much less what it even looks like. I can’t even frigging VISUALIZE my life now. I try and I try and I try and come up blank. Empty. Literally – like there’s nothing there inside left to offer up. I may get an idea but there’s just like no lasting feeling. Even though I have a new direction in this 3D matrix and an appointment early next year to get going on it, fresh road kill has more life to it than does this new direction.
It’s like my nervous system is telling me to just STOP.
And something deep within is saying the same.
JUST. STOP.
Stare at the damn sky even if it’s a mess with fog.
Look at pictures even if they don’t inspire me to feeeeeeeeel.
Play my piano even if I feel robotic doing so.
It’s like I’m digging SO DEEP now. A new layer that I haven’t touched but I still feel like it’s there. A distant far off memory. A remembrance.
Of what was before all of this matrix shit consumed my experience.
Of who I was IN it.
Whatever it is you are doing this week with whomever or even alone (remote cabin in the woods by a lake sounds quite appealing now doesn’t it?), know you aren’t alone if any of this resonates with you. There can be no lonelier feeling than to be alone and feel you need TO be with others just as there is no lonelier feeling than being WITH family/friends and feeling totally disconnected.
Maybe the best gift we can give ourselves is just to let ourselves sit with however it is we do feel inside. Let that part of us speak. It has a story. A story that deserves to be seen, allowed to exist and told instead of drowning it with a glass of wine, a forced smile or a glance at our watch.
I find my part in the Awakening as an inside and outside doing. The most important part, for me, is the inner Awakening.
Obviously.
What often begins on the outside – seeing the deception. The evil. The lies. All of it – everywhere inside of this place. What begins out there at some point returns home – Within. Because outside has lied TO us and inside voices of lies have deceived me as well.
And man is this happening to me.
YEARS and YEARS of keeping things to myself out of fear of being abandoned or attacked – it’s all coming out. That process really kicked on about two years ago when I got snapped awake by something my daughter said – something I NEEDED not only to hear but to hear her say – and it’s been a tidal wave of inner verbal volcanic Truths coming out, leading me to this point where I no longer care. I don’t fear NEARLY as I once did at being totally transparent with my life experience.
I let my own fear consume me and keep me small and afraid.
Now and then when I found the voice to defend myself, that has come out at times sounding as horrible as the original attacker.
Which then gives them reason to say “I” am the problem.
Psychologists mislabel the phrase as “reactive abuse”. When one has been pushed over and over again for a period of time, at some point you snap. It’s instinctive. And often when that happens, as I said, you sound like the one who has been abusing you. The difference is key: What is referred to as an argument leads to behavior change, ownership, the desire is to connect. The opposite seeks to CONTROL.
Control or connect.
I only choose connection – and I need to feel safe to do that.
Even though I know I learned TO overly control things as much as I could as it was the only thing that felt safe to me given my lack of connections with those I wanted most to connect with.
If that makes sense.
So I am highly selective now – probably for the first time in my life.
After a life long belief that I should allow anyone and everyone into my life, lost in a false pollyanna belief that the Universe would never let anything bad happen to me, that everyone was good and could be trusted (or I should give them many chances and/or stick around if they were kind at times even if the rest of the time they were treating me like crap) I woke up and saw this reality for what it is. It is not a place for blind trust. Discernment is key. Going SLOW is key. Taking my time to get to know others – utterly essential.
And I can’t do ANY of that effectively until I KNOW MYSELF.
The ME before the expectations and the pressures and the harm and the horror.
For most of my adult life I’ve had the fear that I am the problem. I am the reason why some have just seemed to gravitate towards me and work to break me down while not owning A N Y of their behavior.
But I don’t have that fear anymore and nor do I have the belief that I and I alone am the problem.
I do the inner work.
I go within.
I will own my b.s. when I feel I need to.
I talk with others.
I want to KNOW myself.
I want to heal.
I want to understand.
I want to create peace AND I want to understand my fears of it.
I want to hold safe space and to have safe space held for me as I seek to heal and understand all of my gunk and junk that has clogged up my beauty.
I want to connect and build.
That is what I’ve longed for my entire adult life.
I just didn’t have the courage to believe I could have it. The lack of trust in myself.
Well no more.
My days of being involved in ANY situation or relationship that does not focus on the actions of connecting and building are o v e r.
DONE.
As in put a f’ing fork in that part of me that is DONE.
I will not be silent.
I will be ME.
This is our Awakening. It’s messy for awhile. But in the end? It’s f’ing beautiful.
💥🎇💫
Victoria
Today’s scripts and movie scenes (don’t know about you but I feel more and more attached to this – as though something else is more important):
🚨BREAKING: Now that the Epstein files are out, Democrats have turned, saying that Donald Trump "is not on Epstein's list" but is "protecting somebody."
"There's nothing in there that's really damning about Donald Trump. What's Donald Trump hiding?"
JD Vance walking out to 'Long Cool Woman In A Black Dress' by The Hollies 1951. You should take a look at the lyrics.
"Charlie said, I hope that you're able, boy 'Cause I'm telling you she knows where it's at Well, suddenly we hear the sirens And everybody started to run… https://t.co/yRke4SZjN0
Zionist Christian pastor Rob McCoy says he cannot understand why young Christians are turning away from him and from Israel, or why he is now being linked online to the assassination of Charlie Kirk.
He claims he is worried this shift is turning into what he describes as “hatred… pic.twitter.com/WoZmPFC8It
Trump is blaming me for a bill he eventually signed, while defending his banker friends, Bill Clinton, and “innocent” visitors to rape island. Meanwhile Bondi is working fervently to redact, omit, and delete Epstein files she is legally required to release under our bill. https://t.co/aCtS6DQC35
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) December 22, 2025
The interest on our $38 trillion dollar national debt has now reached $1 trillion dollars but they are pitching a $112.1 billion dollar plan to rebuild Gaza with the U.S. supporting half of that in grants and debt guarantees.
Dan Scavino, under his personal account at the time, was posting pictures of HORSES.
According to GROK: “Yes, Dan Scavino (primarily via his account
@DanScavino) has posted multiple images of horses over the years, mostly from around 2013–2015. These include: Photos of rescued horses from Lucky Orphans Horse Rescue (e.g., groups of riders on horses, individual horses grazing or in stables, and therapy-related images). Collages and photos related to famous racehorses like American Pharoah (Triple Crown winner) and California Chrome, often featuring the horses in races or victory poses.”
I also decided to do a GEMATRIA: YEAR OF THE HORSE Which is a 888
(Hebrew GEMATRIA) 888
Divine Plan
Presidents Day (which is Feb. 16, 2026 – ONE DAY before the official onset of THE YEAR OF THE HORSE)
Goodbye Deepstate
Enough Is Enough (from Q posts of which there are 7)
Imagined myself in all sorts of wonderful places, playing for people. Small venue’s.
I tapped and intended.
I ate a piece of chocolate.
Went for a walk.
Wrote down current goals.
Did yoga.
I CANNOT SHAKE THIS HEAVINESS. It’s like right there, all around me.
Just like this damn fog someone keeps injected into this place – a fog that seems to be in many places now. Today I stood outside for some fresh air (if you can call it that) – and commanded it lift. Commanded the return of the Sun.
Nothing. Nothing happened.
I wanted to cry and sleep.
So I cried.
And rested.
The Heaviness remains.
The ENERGY of THEIR doing’s is here now in full. And it’s so oppressive.
What’s strange is in decades past – for me – I could still feel it but it was quite muted. And only on the rare occasion.
But now?
It’s frigging constant – ever present (even if in the background at times – I still. feel. it.)
O M G it is HORRIBLE.
I don’t know how to escape it.
Anyone else?
Please tell me I’m not the only one – even though I wouldn’t want anyone feeling this except for pedo’s and the like.
If this is the real energy out there, then it has to serve the purpose of being forced into seeing – like a child with a drawing they want you to see and they will shove it in your face while saying “mom, seeeeee? SEEEE? MOOOOOM SEEEE!!”
Only of course that’s adorable, albeit it a bit annoying at times.
Feels like this entire petri dish is being shaken up too.
Shake shake shake.
See see see.
“they” are outing themselves – in one giant script. Person after person. Media. Hollywood. Politicians. Literally right in our faces saying we support evil. And stop looking at the pedo’s. And there are no victims here of trafficking, including children.
So I made the decision not to share any of that here – because those who come here already know.
So what can I share here?
Pretty images?
That’s a good idea, yes.
Bells. I like bells. I will share some bell sounds.
And how about a new conversation. A serious one. What do we want our reality to look like?
What do YOU want your reality to look like?
What is it YOU want?
PUt it in the comment section.
Please.
It’s too damn quiet here and I’m feeling more and more like I’m alone on this stage and I honestly don’t want to be alone right now.
I would like to be in a small little bar in NYC or someplace like that, playing the piano, friends around. Daughter and her friends. Everything is new and pure and cleaned up. Walkmans. Landlines. VHS stores and players.
Pack my bags, board a plane and just. GO.
Here are some of those images and nice frequencies. Perhaps a find or two as well. SOMETHING to show us the new timeline.
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I asked grok – why my x posts get at most a dozen views – most of the time it’s 4-6.
straight out of grok’s mouth: “Heavy suppression in truth/disclosure spaces: Accounts posting Epstein, Zionism critiques, anti-system rants, Q-related stuff, or “matrix” awakening get deprioritized hard—often 50-90% reach drops. Data from millions of posts and user reports confirm conspiracy/truth-seeker content triggers “low-quality” flags, even for Premium users.”
and because this:
OK, there are COMMS within this that are endless, and the Words and any Misspelling all have purposeful Meanings, like 'On Donder and Blitzen' instead of Donner and Blitzen (Donder = 60 and Sixty spelled out is 107, or 17, or Q)…
that this Christmas there is going to be a Miracle and that President Trump will Play the Role of Santa Claus, but Only for the Righteous, and that All those that harm others will get Reindeer Poop, which is Explosive…
So, sit back, Relax and let the Allegories begin… Down at the bottom is Mr Reagan Studios MMXXV… MMXXV = 96 in Simple Gematria, Freemason = 96, Take Me Home = 96, Atlantis = 96, Tree of Life = 96, Dodecahedron = 96, St. George = 96, Truly = 96, Freedom Day = 96, Reunion = 96… Mr. Reagan Studios = 184 in Simple Gematria, I Am Free of All Debts = 184, The Holy Spirit = 184, Resurrections = 184, Past Life In Egypt = 184, One Big Beautiful Bill = 184, The Fibonacci sequence = 184, The Fifth Dimension = 184, Lion’s Gate Portal = 184, Tetragrammatron = 184, As in the Days of Noah = 184… Mr. Reagan Studios MMXXV = 280 in Simple Gematria, Welcome to the Great Awakening = 280, Symbol with a Secret Meaning = 280, Q Plan to Save the World = 280, The Mother of the New World = 280, Lord Christ The Second Coming = 280, Do Not Eat Of Tree Of Knowledge = 280, Gifted Channeling Of Almighty God = 280… The Night Trump Saved Christmas = 340 (34 = Grace), The Divine Warrior Of Almighty God = 340, The Pen Is Mightier Than The Sword = 340, Military Operation Knightrise = 340, Returning Power to the People = 340, Profound Almighty God In Person = 340, Thirty Fifth Richest Man On Earth = 340 (JFK 35th President), The Greatest Story Never Told = 340, Faithful And Devoted Loyal And Loving = 340, The Election of Twenty Sixteen = 340, The Truth will Always Prevail = 340, Be Still And Know That I’m The Lord God = 340, Find the Most Holy Woman on Earth = 340, Call Me Seventeen It Works Better = 340…
It is All One Giant Comm, Enjoy it, Have a Merry, Merry Christmas, and Fear No Evil Anymore… Love, CF
now this happened earlier today – and this is VERY interesting:
MASSIVE 3,000-MILE RADAR ANOMALY
Long, narrow pulses stretched 3,000+ miles across radar — perfectly straight and not behaving like weather. I’ve watched radar 20+ years and have never seen this. No storms. No typical pattern.#RadarAnomaly#MrMBB333pic.twitter.com/yae4ipDb6f
This is how I feel about Christmas this year (brings me back to my high school years – I had her haircut – but didn’t know where to get those cool clothes. I was a gap girl on the outside but inside – vintage funk/punk)
