(isn’t this a beautiful scene?  it is very similar to the road i have seen that we live on in the new earth realm.)

Neither do I!  Silence.

I love it!

Locked back here in the bedroom, blinds open so I can watch the trees dance as the coast breeze kicks in, making for a beautiful sunset experience.

Oh that and my mate is in another part of the house and my child in bed. Well, in her bedroom.  Good enough.  I am alone and it is quiet and that makes my inner world sooooooooooo stinkin’ flippin’ happy you have no IDEEEEEEEEEEEA…….

Quite the opposite experience I felt upon awakening this morning. Agitated.

Again.

What is up with this state of agitation, I wondered.  And the dizziness. The stomach upset.

I pulled myself out from under the covers.  (I would make a great hermit, btw.)  Got online (I usually do not do that first thing but this morning something said “go do” so I listened).  First two posts on my social media page talk of these symptoms.  Extreme agitation.  Dizziness.  Stomach and g.i. distress.

Misery loves company, I grumbled, but still appreciated the validation.

Reading further again I was reminded of the importance of meditating, grounding myself.  Facing the old emotional stuff head on – it is go time.

And yet I have a feeling these old trauma’s will be removed upon the arrival of the cosmic pulse.  I know, may sound silly to some, perhaps pie-in-the-sky, but this is what I have felt and seen.  And that inner experience is still there.  So while it may seem easier, for me that is, to just wait until then, I would much rather release of my own accord, as much as I can that is.  Ignoring the issue only makes it hurt more.

I see my inner pains and trauma’s as a scared child who very much wants to join in with me and Be and play and enjoy.  But she’s, well, traumatized.  She needs reassurance.  And love.  Attention.  Lots of attention.  And quiet.  Lots of quiet.  Rest.  Lots of rest.

I’m the type who will find anything to do to distract myself from giving myself this kind of attention.  Floor needs swept.  Need to post some pieces on here.  And oh wow what is that smell coming from the sink… that needs the vinegar clean now.

Obviously the self-worth stuff coming up.  And this driving need to produce/be/do that I have continued to employ ~ long past the years of childhood upbringing and some crappy relationship experiences of the past.

Lighten up, I tell myself.  Relax.  Let go.  It’s ok.  Life is not going to fall apart, the house won’t shrivel up in a moldy stink fest, my girl won’t suffer or starve and my mate can go it on his own just because I need a good amount of alone time to nurture my needs.

Tonight in the shower I thought about this.  I ran through my mind the list of things on my “to do” list.  Gotta order supplies to make my tooth powder and body sprays and get those hooked up on etsy.  Some pictures need uploading.  Have some things to research.  Oh and gotta send off some recorded piano pieces to my friend who is going to transcribe them for me.  (I’m actually really excited about that last one ~ but still – it’s on that list.)

Then I thought “oh yeah and I gotta figure out what my purpose is ~ I should be doing more to help the planet, to help out in this ascension stuff ~ what else should I be doing…I (fill in the blank with utter nonsense) I (fill in the blank with more utter nonsense)…….”  Oh my… how patient my higher self is.  I heard her speak quietly over my own monkey-speak. Here is what she said (again I get impressions from Her which I put into words):  “Just being aware of this ascension process is having a helpful effect.  By being in your meditative and quiet states and healing yourself, you raise your own vibrations which helps raise the vibration of Gaia and the greater All.  The more you allow yourself into these states, the more you help anchor these incoming energies of Love.”

That’s all I need to be doing? I thought.

You don’t need to do anything, I felt back.  But put it that way, yes, that is all you “need” to do.  This is not complicated.

No it’s not.  It isn’t an experience of the human brain.  Nothing to figure out.  The answers are within.  Always.  In those quiet moments.

Of which I am still in as no one, big or small, has disturbed me since I began this piece 30 minutes ago.

Although now… it is time to go deeper, beyond the words.

So I will close up and say “good night”.

♥

Victoria

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For about 20 years or so I have intended for the kind of financial abundance that would enable me to call myself a “philanthropist”.  My idea has been simple ~ I hear of people in need of help due to financial reasons and I write them a check.  No questions asked (other than to make sure there are no abhorrent behaviors or addictions creating the situation).  No strings attached.

I know each of you reading this is fed up hearing this “hurry up and wait” crap the “intel providers” continue to spew, seemingly solely for ego intentions at this point: “lookit me lookit me – I and MY people have the financial answers for YOU – but you will just have to wait”.  Same message, repeated ad nauseum day after day, week after week, month after month.  You get the picture.

Yeah.

Too many have suffered for far too long.  Too much damn struggle while well-meaning but misguided people tell such folks the answer is to change their thoughts. Such individuals need to be telling those who created this deplorable economic system and who have profited tremendously off it it and us to employ new thoughts.

So I decided I can to my part in some way.  I created the new category “People Who Need Help”.  Brilliant title, eh?  lol  I like to keep things simple when I can.  Anyway, when I see/hear of someone in financial need, I will link it on that category.  It is my wish that you then turn around and share the story with people on your social media feeds and donate if so inclined.  We can even turn this into the “It only takes $1” campaign.  Enough people donating $1 can help tremendously – when the numbers are high.  I know myself at times when I have seen others in need, I feel like my ability to contribute just $1 or $5 or even $10 isn’t enough and it this has stopped me at times from donating.  But I have since changed my perspective and I know that the $1 or $5 I feel inspired to contribute has a lot of heart behind it and can lead to great abundance when shared with enough people who hold the same intention/perspective.

You know the saying.  Sometimes all it takes is one kind word to turn a person around.

And sometimes all it takes is a dollar.

Here is the link to the first “person in need” story in case you missed it.

Blessings of abundance and thanks ~

Victoria

I had a first-time experience today ~ I had no clue what day it was.

None.  Zero.  Zip.  Nada.

Thinking about it didn’t help.  I honestly didn’t know.

For the past year or so, off and on, I have been losing track of the day of the week.  Usually I can go by the feel if my thinking brain cannot figure it out.  Today, neither feeling nor thinking brought me the answer.

My daughter said it was Saturday.

My mate didn’t know the answer.

I thought back to this past week and was able to ascertain it’s Sunday.

And yet is it really?

Where are we?  What season are we in?

My body tells me we are aligning with new physical space/realms.

My body tells me we are headed into fall.  Each year when the seasons switch, my body (in particular my nose ~ I feel the pressure change ~ I know, it sounds weird but that is my radar) tells me when the new season is entering.  My body is saying “fall”.  Certainly the smell is in the air, the nights are very cool, nippy lately.  Leaves are changing on trees around here.

A quickening.  That’s what feels like happening.  After this lull of “time” seeming to proceed (at times painstakingly) slowly, I feel it speeding up again.  Speeding up, leading to the next leap of awakening.  This one is feeling like a big one.

Buckle up, let go and enjoy the ride.  And just Be.

♥♥♥

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