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Well, what an interesting week this has been.  There have been some challenges for me, as I have shared.  And I am processing and dealing so that I may let go.  Today, over my left shoulder, I heard “it’s ok to love yourself and be gentle with yourself as you heal from this”.  I felt my Higher Self embrace me.  I immediately softened.

My internal dialogue, after I have been hurt, is something like this:  “Why did this happen?  I don’t understand!  Why?….Ok, why did you let this happen to you?  What’s wrong with you?”

Obviously none of that is helpful.  lol

So today, after I wailed on my punching bag, I took some deep breaths and went about making lunch for the family.  That is when I heard my Higher Self speak.

Healing from my pains must include being loving and gentle with myself. No exceptions. 

The challenges of this week surrounded boundaries.  And I had begun to backslide into self-blame (after I went through the anger stuff) on this issue until one of my awesome readers pointed out that there are people who will simply be unable to respect the boundaries of another, even when the individual has made their boundaries clear and solid and consistent.

I was very grateful for those words of Truth.  For this was most indeed my experience, overall, this past week.

And it was no coincidence these experiences cropped up in such a big way after the energies that began last weekend.  The dark is clinging onto all it can, likely finding pieces of our ego’s that are still in doubt and fear to grab onto and try and provide sustenance to those seeds of doubt.

See through the Illusion.

It’s all bullshit.

Make care-taking of YOU #1.

LOVE YOURSELF.

Be so Authentically Bright, others will either repel and run away or will be inspired.

Gaia is goin’ up.

And we are going up with Her.

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I will be working on a new piece this week on Lemuria.  I had another experience last night while I slept ~ this time I left my body and traveled back to that particular time period and saw myself.  I received such profound information, I know it is meant to be shared with those of us who resonate with this “Lemuria Is Calling” experience.  It was a very moving experience.  Anyway, look for it this week sometime.  

I had an experience last night with a neighbor, for whom in many ways has felt like family to us since we moved in.  However, this past year he has shown his dark side with me and I made the decision today to pull back and away.  It is more important than ever, at least for me, to protect my personal space, which means I am not interacting with any person unless I have to and if I choose to, only if they are of my vibe tribe.

On one occasion last summer I was showing him a chemtrail, which he insisted was a normal jet contrail.  I attempted to explain my point of view and he turned hostile and told me flat out I was wrong and when it was shown how I and others are wrong on this issue, we will owe him an apology.  I shook my head and said “no it is folks like you who will owe us an apology.”

During the election, he was a staunch Hillary supporter.  He knew my thoughts on her and on Trump and on the whole swamp that is DC politics.  I finally told him the conversation was not open for further discussion.  Put my foot down.  Was not going to partake of his grilling. One afternoon, as I headed out for a walk, he stopped me and while we exchanged the normal neighborly pleasantries, he laughed and said “ok so WHO are you voting for again?”  I said “knock it off – you know I’m not going there” and as I turned to walk away he says “if I held a gun to your head and you had to make a choice, who would you vote for?”  Wow!  I spun around and said “Fuck you.  That is a horrible thing to say to me.  I would never say something like that to you.”  He smiled and said quietly, “I know.”  I put up my hand and walked away.

A few days ago he made reference to my cooking (of which I have cooked for him on several occasions as he is elderly and widowed) and it was not a compliment.  Later in the evening he came to apologize.  I said “thank you for that.”  But then he ruins it by saying “You seem to know how to take it.”

I know how to TAKE IT??!!

WHAT??!!

The urge to punch him right in the face was overwhelming.

Take it?

I HAVE TAKEN IT MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE CYCLE!

I told him not to mistake my passivity in the face of such encounters as a sign of knowing how to “take it”.

He is not going to be receiving anymore of my home-cooked meals.

And next asshole response, if there is one, I will not be holding back on my gut instincts.

Where do these people come from?  A fucking hole in the ground? I seriously do not resonate nor understand such behavior.  Soulless perhaps?  So controlled by the dark they cannot see light?  I am fucking fed up with getting attacked.  FED UP.  I can stand up for myself now but I SHOULD NOT FUCKING HAVE TO.  God damnit.  Be kind.  Be thoughtful.

As “time” continues on, I withdraw further from the fray of society. Unless I vibe with another, I prefer solitude.  Nature.  My mate and child.

And this little virtual world here.

Speaking of, any one of you care to swap homes w/my neighbor?  Or move into the vacant house a block away?

This emotionally void town could sure use some more Light.