Went to sleep – fast and easily – feeling peaceful.
Woke up 4 hours later pounding my bed.
I continue to take steps to change myself and my experience.
Currently hitting a wall – again.
Thoughts of money – again.
To get well and to heal and to do x y z requires that. A lot of it.
Where I am now – if it isn’t free – I ain’t considering it.
I can’t.
Or maybe let me pay $5/month.
My site will have to return to basic (free) security. It’s an order of priority – eat, keep utilities going – then other things follow. Or this month – keep the car “legal” (g.d. car registration – which of course jumped up again).
WHEN DO I HAVE A SAY AS TO WHAT I CAN AND CANNOT PAY?!
Thinking and intending “oh this will switch by this time” when this time comes and goes.
I ain’t getting – understanding – anything. 12:34pm.
Just another number to remind me I’m in a giant computer.
I watched a movie last night – The Notebook. So beautiful. Their Love created enough magic for them to leave this realm together (at the end of their experience – both were suffering/struggling with horrid health conditions).
Money has made “the world go around” long enough. Why can’t we make LOVE do the same?
Do you struggle to feel safe – to feel the Universe (much less others) have your back?
Do you struggle to feel Love truly can solve everything?
Love in action?
Some moments I am there.
Now – I feel so worn down. My mind – fractured. My Soul – weary. My body………never mind about that. lol
How much longer do we have to continue to purge and release and power up and protect?
Why aren’t I allowed an answer to that question (or the other myriad of questions I have)?
Who is running this place?
And most importantly – how do we take back control and f’ing change it already back to WHAT WE WANT – ON OUR TIMELINE AND TIME FRAME?!
Today was really different. I’m seeing the waxing in of the experience I want and today left me happily surprised with a particular situation that, last week, I thought I would have to shift away from. But she and I spoke and came to a new level of connection that left us both in tears. … Authentic communication – where both are being honest in how they feel, presenting it such a way that is respectful, where we each owned how we felt, our responsibility for those feelings – which aligns with my recent desire to expand into new ways of communicating.
Conversations – even when there is a difference of opinion – when done RIGHT – is expansive. If it leaves me drained, it isn’t authentic convo. It’s dramatic bullsheot. Fighting – defensiveness – refusing to see oneself in an honest way – that experience is overfor me.
Other than that – I had some moments where I felt I was elsewhere – walking sideways. Something continues to build “out there” – waxing inside this space. We’re in “something” – whether it is finally actually IT – remains to be seen. But we are in something at this time.
Here’s what I’m seeing. Please remember to Share…Donate…Comment….Subscribe & Like. Thank you!
Ep. 22 Larry Sinclair says he had a night of crack cocaine-fueled sex with Barack Obama, and that Obama came back for more the next day. Assess for yourself. Here’s our interview. pic.twitter.com/R6CXwKv6gs
at the moment it is 32, 904, 574 … … gone up about 2 billion since last night……..
Not predicting anything, but on average, if we add $1 billion per day to the National debt, we should hit $33 trillion in early December. pic.twitter.com/8Kv8WN2BIS
So – I relied on my own brain – college courses – long ago. Anyway I actually did well in math until algebra so I think I have this figured out.
The difference between the debt clock in a 4 hour period – from the time VK shared his capture at 8pm until the time I checked again – at midnight – 4 hours later – the difference was approximately 500 million. I multiplied that by 24 hours – and get 12 billion. We are 96 billion shy of the number going to 33 trillion. Ok? That’s in 4 days – 9.10.23.
What happened here in the United States on 9/10/01? Rep. Cynthia McKinney was grilling Rumsfield on where the missing $2.3 TRILLION dollars from the Pentagon went. He admitted it went missing. The hearing went nowhere as the next day was 9/11.
WHAT IF THE DEFAULT HAPPENS IN 4 days? Once the number hits the magic number of 33 trillion – what if on that day it gets flipped.
I don’t know – it’s just something that came to me. We’ll see……….
Stuck somewhere between moving but feeling like I’m going no where Like everything is happening but nothing ever happens. Becoming the Best I could ever be bust trapt in who I always was. Making leaps every day but too afraid to jump. Doing so much but never enough Deserving of… pic.twitter.com/jNiEZLYVHp
So I’m seeing the show continue to play out in its insane format of stewpid, with T and others talking about how much better this place (the states) were under his rule. Seeing him and others talk about all of these things that will be coming back including tariffs and easier access to pharmaceuticals and gas powered cars. My mind hears “blah blah blah NO”.
None of it aligns. NOT. ONE. BIT. I try and pretend – fake it – bring it in – as it’s all that is being offered to us. But it is all just a lie to myself – making me wonder – again – wtf I am doing here…
I know what I want – I keep seeing it and bringing it in.
But………….there’s this:
So either the narrative that we all get out and we get to frigging actually CHOOSE (the way FREE CREATOR BEINGS DO) the reality and experience we want……….or we’re gonna be stuck in another pay to live system of competition – just a cleaned up version. (see above again for how I feel about that)
Where is OUR narrative? Where is the narrative storyline about HOME and REAL healing and DNA restoration and RETURNED memories and REAL ORGANIC NATURAL LIVING AND BEING? It’s in our hearts and out of the mouths of those who channel. That’s about it. Where are these things in the awakening movement headlines?
Or am I just being too impatient? (again)?
Today was another challenge day energetically. I saw the condition of my brain and the trauma in my body (that I continually now clear as best as I can). On a walk today – my girl and I – she suddenly sees a snake and screams “SNAKE!” I about jump outta MY skin – and it took me a few minutes to literally regain my composure. Then about 15 minutes later we’re walking back up in the same area – and she’s saying watch out for the snake – and I said “we are protected” and as soon as I say that – she decides to open up the water bottle and spill out some on the concrete walking path which sounds just like a frigging snake. I jumped yet again – and this time I had to walk to a bench and compose myself before I could finish the walk. I was shaking all over.
So………..I held it together until I couldn’t anymore. I release the embarrassment and shame and guilt I hold in asking for help – a lot of help. I am accountable for me – but I am not taking on the full accountability for how this reality has allowed for the unhealthy conditions in which I have been in. All I can do is love me for me and purge what I don’t want or need and keep at it and pray and intend that the experience I want and need is ready to burst wide open and through for me. And ditto that for any of you whose life experience here has been less than stellar and supportive – and for whom you need some extra extra’s atm. Who the fook doesn’t?
So much to go around – too much hoarded and controlled. Why can’t we all just stop what we’re doing in an organized fashion – and for one week – unite and say ENOUGH. WE DONE. NO MORE CONTROLS. We ain’t budging or supporting your sheot until you step off the stage.
???
Remember the movie – Risky Business – where his character had just had it with his life at that time – he felt he had nothing much left to lose or to hide – and he put on those sunglasses – said that famous line?
You try to do the right thing – over and over and over. You DO the “right” thing – over and over and o v e r. Then “this place” happens – over and over. You fall down. You get back up. You get smacked down again. (omg – being asked why can’t you use paypal i don’t get it……or why did you get banned on social media? why does google censor you? i don’t get it…….)
A R G H!!!!!!!!!!!
The cycle repeats until sometimes, in some moments, you arrive at this place where morality gets tossed out the window – you no longer care about what is “right” or what some system b.s. rule or law says – and you just gotta take care of yourself #1 and do what you need to do however you need to do it.
And screw the rest.
Here’s a gematria. And whatever else……….
Love,
V.
******
The fact that THIS is being allowed to happen …….Seriously – who can justify this now? Oh, ignore it – yeah just like we ignored it when children were trafficked or pick a topic. How much longer we just gonna stay in our bubbles quietly? We gonna have to go into civil war? Where is our line in the sand? How long do we trust in the plan? How long we wait until we see what we all want to see? Tough questions but someone has to ask them.
Ok I could possibly get a wee bit excited about this one – as I’ve been posting here for a few years how T said at a rally the magic number 33………Any of you with knowledge: how long would this take to get to 33T? (this was 2 hours ago………now it’s at 32, 904…….ok so i asked – someone said it goes up 1 million every 30 seconds (confirmed – i misread the numbers – got the billion confused w/the million – thank goodness i never made a living in the stock market, eh? lol)
Executive Order 13823, CIC Trump’s revoking of Obama’s to shut down Gitmo, still not revoked by “Biden” as he promised.
Also, it wasn’t me who reported Military Tribunals for mid-2023, it was the New York Times, which are under a Wartime Code 47 USC 606, for those who cannot… pic.twitter.com/is4LSTqd0Z
This is interesting………..my understanding is they can be reauthorized as often as they are, well, reauthorized………but someone said since we’re in COG (Continuity of Government) – allegedly they can only be reauthorized twice……..so if that’s true then END maybe finally??!!
On Monday, September 11, the Trump Executive Orders (EOs) are set to expire. These EOs have already been extended twice and cannot receive further extensions.
Furthermore, on Friday, September 15, 2023, Executive Order 13848, signed by President Trump, will also expire (in 11… pic.twitter.com/fCtXu1x6AJ
We are stardust……….we are billion years old………..getting back Home….
San Tarot…..we being told by higher selves and home who we really are…..interesting – trying to have a psychic breakthrough – i was focused (too much i realize) soooooo hard today on having one of those…..this is a nice one………very much resonating……….
I shared a piece in recent days on this date – which is everywhere – has been everywhere – in their forms of entertainment. Found another one today with more inserts. Interesting commentary from the Truman Show – where his character says the dates – given as numbers – and mentions traveling back in time to save an ancient civilization from total annihilation.
This one because a few times this week I’ve heard “have faith in humanity” in my mind – including today (in the portal room):
4746
Sep 23, 2020 1:46:26 PM EDT
Q !!Hs1Jq13jV6ID: 2481e5No. 10756928
Let the truth be told.
Political spying [illegal] less than 1%.
Have faith in Humanity.
Q
2274
Sep 23, 2018 7:43:32 PM EDT
Q !!mG7VJxZNCIID: 000000No. 294
TRUST GRASSLEY.
Q
He (Grassley) posted this image a few days ago – talking about corn about ready to harvest:
This one (there’s more – just sharing the statement that stands out):
2273
Sep 23, 2018 12:36:42 PM EDT
…….
PREPARE FOR ‘SKY IS FALLING’ WEEK.
Q
Let’s gematria a couple of things. One, SKY IS FALLING (in single quotes – which could mean a quote within a quote)….144 in simple gematria………and i have been seeing 14 and 144 and 1414 a lot the past week:
The Declaration of Independence
Take Our Nation Back
The End Of All Suffering
The Time Has Come
Remove The Curse
Drop The Hammer
Inverted Time (i.e. Time Reversal – time running backwards)
One thing I’ve always tried – and wanted to do – learn how to communicate in a way so that my perspective is shared and understood – and to have connections with those who seek the same. Communication is a skill that none of us are taught. Well, taught well. I would say half of communication is talking and the other half, listening. Given that insight, given the level of conflict in our world, I would say most of us have failed to truly learn how to communicate. It isn’t easy – that’s for sure. The more easily triggered we are, the more trauma, the more effort it takes on our part to move past our triggers and truly SEE and HEAR.
And understand.
People get locked into their communication styles. And when that happens, if you are seeking to speak in a new way, there will be shall we say gridlock.
I have a bucket of “pipe dreams”, with effective communicating, that I plan on blowing with those who wish to join in with me.
We’re building up to something significant and reality altering. I woke up this morning – again – feeling anticipation and anxiety. Something is shaking it all up now. Shifting energies – releasing old – to make way for new.
Here’s what I’m seeing. Please remember to share, donate what you can and let me know what you’re feeling/thinking and how you are.
Love,
V.
******
This one feels – significant:
Perhaps?
3332 May 12, 2019 8:10:40 PM EDT Q !!mG7VJxZNCI ID: c616d2 No. 6482574 BOOM WEEK AHEAD. Treason doesn't pay well in THE END. Q https://t.co/YGJxqhIGoX
🚨 Bill Gates’s car gets surrounded by very angry people – I think that people know he’s one of the driving forces behind the #Depopulation#Agenda2030 :
“MURDERER!!! We know who you are you son of a bitch!!! Arrest, Bill Gates!!!!!”
My first dog – I went along with everything the vet said – including the food choices. I was in my 20’s. She got cancer – aggressive – and died at 10. She was a small dog. I knew this was due to my choices – which nearly broke me for awhile. Instead I used it to research holistic veterinary medicine (I was already into holistic/natural/organic living). Next dog – no jabs. Organic food supplemented with homemade food and treats. She lived to 14. She was a medium sized dog. THAT is the difference.
🚨🚨🚨This absolute HERO of a human being, Dr James Robb speaks out against #Vaccines for animals :
“Every day there is thousands of pets dying because of these #Vaccines!!! While we sit here today, probably 5 or 6 dogs DIED from the rabies #Vaccine☹️🥺
Been waiting to see a picture of the two of them together……….she’s merging back lately……….with the latest intel/info she spoke of dropping yesterday……….
In 1994 the world watched in awe as two formidable personalities, Donald Trump and Princess Diana, dined together. This meeting took place on September 4th, a date forever etched in time when their worlds briefly converged, leaving an indelible mark on history. pic.twitter.com/CWPYCwRqQn
9.3 continued to suck and my patience to endure is still tapped. Seems to be collective atm – again. More and more of us pushed to the brink. Desperation is setting in with me – especially financially. And dayem is it hard with a teen who doesn’t think about these things and consumes – a lot. lol I laugh – but I’m still fighting desperation/pushed to the absolute BRINK in this place. Just so f’ing weary hearing “God’s time”………”soon”……….and “be. patient.” This time sure as frig is not MY time.
I spent time alone tonight – just had to get out – went for a drive to a local park. I swear there are programs everywhere to be seen now – people – SAME DAMN PEOPLE I saw the last time I went there – wearing same clothes walking the same way/same pattern. Only in a computer game. Anyway, it wasn’t really enjoyable so I was grateful I brought cookies and biscuits. THAT – was enjoyable. Sometimes food is my source of comfort.
Is it a slow news day? I’m not seeing anything – feeling a pause in happenings. So I’ll go exploring for a few – see if I can’t find something worthwhile and useful. For now – it’s gggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrr DONE.
So apparently there is no confirmed interview…………..Is he fake? Perhaps. Is he calling out truth? Yes. Disinfo necessary? Controlled now by WH? Stay tuned………some day we’ll have the f’ing truth………(btw – Tucker is calling out Obama atm – and the current Tucker twatter profile has since removed the Ukraine flag….)………..
So there will be a lot of haters on this thread. But calling out @ObamaMalik as fake. Why did he delete the post saying he will be on tucker? Tucker never confirmed it? Why does he constantly throw up symbolism and post about his book, the 33 number guy and the Barack… pic.twitter.com/FZnYWQsUn7
Ok…………So………..This one feels like the only one really worth sharing as it aligns w/my quiet little puzzle piecing and inner visions and synchs………..Earlier this year – “Elon” said his b-day was 69 days after April 20th (4/20). Given his following count went to 420 today (9.3) – go out 69 days into the future from today and we land on: 11.11.23……… That 17 post that said Humanity would be united on 11.11.18. (justputtingthisoutthereleavingitrightheredowithitwhatyouwilliamwalkingawayslowlyandquietly lol)
I thought it would feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel different today. I’m trying to get into the good space. Doesn’t take much these days to get my brain to shut down.
Hit with more $$ surprises. My security license for my site is due this month (I thought it was expiring in December – but what do I know – I can’t remember my child’s name some moments these days) – it jumped about 20%. Usually these things lower as time passes. Apparently not. I didn’t budget for this (thanks for giving me a measly 7 days heads up). Back to school stuff means, you know, curriculum – new stuff. Books. Clothes. Teenage years have become about makeup and skin care, etc. etc. I still have a ripped up ‘ole comforter I was hoping to replace over the summer.
Didn’t happen.
Cost of living after all has become SO doable for all of us – especially those of us already hovering around poverty. 🙄
What isn’t going up?
I’m supposed to be (SUPPOSED TO BE) saving money.
I’m supposed to be finding and landing increased job and income opportunities.
This system gonna switch or not?
T’s promise of helping families like myself (school expenses) – pipe dream for some future moment when I need it like NOW.
I struggle to make it across the f’ing finish line so masked up asshats can SEE?
Clothes are starting to bag on me – new clothes.
F U C H
Drama in the house – too much.
I intend the opposite.
Days like today I think “just stay in bed until it’s all over”.
Of course – I would need someone waiting on me…
Be nice, you know – to be pampered for awhile until I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL well.
Have someone pay my bills.
Running my sites (haven’t done anything with the latest one as I am too blank in the mind to come up with anything to post).
Cooking and cleaning and educating.
Scrubbing the shower and toilet.
Picking up the messes left behind.
Answering the myriad of questions I am asked.
Listening to the lamenting and gripes.
Playing referee.
Organizing. Keeping track of this and that. (that’s a joke now – when I’m asked “uh what’s this” I fire back “figure it out”)
Any volunteers?
This world – all in it – does seem to come down to survival of the fittest.
Alot of nice words – spoken by those who haven’t a clue what I am dealing with here and do not grasp how f’ing. t i r e d i am.
I don’t need words.
I need a big fat pile of cold hard f’ing cash to change my life.
