Category: Daily Notes

While the energy today feels putrid – I feel ME and that ME Knows all is as it is according to plan.  President Trump is as he was in my dream the week before the election – chill.  Calm.  In control.  Today he’s playing golf as his choice instead of participating in their pandemic virtual (G20).

This morning I was able to tune in after cleansing and could really sense the matrix program on my own house – in particular the wall I was feeling into. And here’s an interesting tidbit – as I typed that sentence, the computer froze.  The AI is not liking exposure.

Speaking of – I had a restless night sleep last night.  Experiences that weren’t mine.  In between, I woke up and knew I was seeing the AI.  I felt into that concept.  Up until now, I have used that term (another computer freeze as I type lol) as just a term and have not felt into it.  Last night I did and I could feel it (more freezing).  Tuning in further this morning, I feel that this voter fraud, while part of the plan, is not what triggers the rest out of matrix slumber.  Q has said sometimes you have to SHOW the people.  I feel this “showing” aligns with the Sky Event in which we all SEE where we are and who they are.  The voter fraud allows all of these tentacles of the swamp – media, politics/government, corporations/big business, academics, medical, religious, to be gathered up and removed.  All of their systems that had their hands in this fraud will be exposed.  Although it is possible people will pop awake when they learn that we haven’t had legitimate election processes for decades.

The longing for Home is palpable today.  I remembered that where I originally come from, we touch hands to not only greet but to communicate and to feel the Truth of the Being.  I also reflected again – as I did yesterday – about this concept of being Kind.  Sometimes, for me, that has ended with me withholding my truth – putting others energies above my own – and it’s always out of fear of some sort.  When I have wanted to say something like “I cannot be around you…I cannot be around your energy” or simply to say “I don’t like you.  You are quite nasty…”….I usually just choose to be quiet.  Or when I will smile at someone I clearly do NOT want to smile at – well that leaves me feeling off.  I thought of someone in my neighborhood who has been nasty to me.  This individual never smiles.  Grandpa Don once told us this person used to work for the city and most employees had a difficult time with them.  I once had one run-in with this person.  I had reached out for help – asking them to put out the word for something my family was seeking.  It ended with them telling me I would never find that and I said “Just because someone can charge a certain amount for something doesn’t mean they should.  There are good people out there willing to give others a break,” and they threw out another contrary punch to me – along the lines of “beggars cannot be choosers”.  That sort of nastiness.  So I said I wasn’t trying to have an argument to which they said, laughing, “I wouldn’t let that happen.”

Ugh.  lol

So I walked away.  And I tried numerous times over the years to be pleasant and polite – a couple of times to build the bridge.  Nope.  Not happening.  So I saw them yesterday and rather than nod or ignore (which has been my approach), I decided to be authentic in the moment:  I gave a look and growled.  Then I giggled to myself at my bravery.

Instead of all of these labels to be this or be that – just BE YOU.  However that feels in the moment.  Not saying be nasty yourself – just authentic – from the heart and from humor.  At least that’s what I am going with.  That is what feels right for me now.  I am seeing others in this movement starting to see that.  I have seen several this week alone who have said “I am trying to stay neutral here” – clearly withholding what they really want to say.  NO.  Don’t be neutral if it doesn’t feeeeeeeeeeeeel right.  SPEAK UP AND OUT.

Call the spade a spade – not a heart or diamond.

Lots of love to you all ~

Victoria

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I AM WHO I AM.

That beautiful LynYrd SkynYrd song, Freebird, has been going through my mind for the last week.  I was asked last weekend if I could play it and I thought “not yet”.  It’s one of my bucket songs I’ve wanted to master before, you know….  My friend Sue, who passed in 2016, who I felt come through today, was often asking me to learn it.  So today I sat down at the piano and, well, I just began to play it.  “You know this song,” I heard in my mind and as I let go, I began to play.  It was amazing.  My mate and child went to the bank and were gone maybe 15 minutes and by the time they got home I took my mates hand, asked him to sit down so I could play it for him. Freebird is one of a handful of songs that make him very emotional.  It’s a song that’s been around him lately too so I felt I wanted him next to me as I played it.  It was emotional for both us.  At the end he said “wow you really learned that fast!”

Today I tuned in to how I feel here:  stuck.  duh  lol  I expanded on the feeling.  This realm feels sticky to me.  It’s as though there is some sort of metaphoric/energetic “glue” they put on us to stick us in this shithole.  My body and Soul don’t lie to me and that is what I feel has happened.  I KNOW it.

I don’t know how much longer I can do these lockdowns much less continue to stay here in the pit of oz surrounded by mask wearing beings. Energetically I am so far removed from it – so repelled by it – I am banging – screaming – on the door to get me the fuck out of here.  Who the hell says they get the final scene in this experience?  The final say?  Much less ANY sort of influence as we close down this experience?  Seriously – who let that happen?  Bring on that damn split NOW.

I remember as a child I used to watch birds and envy them.  They could fly away from predators – fly away if the weather turned inclement.  They could float on a breeze and just BE STILL.  I have always ALWAYS wanted to do that and more.  In my “What About Me” booklet I filled out in 1st grade, I was asked what I like to watch.  “Brids”, I wrote (took me awhile to learn how to spell the word).

Today as I tuned in I heard “I am awake”.  Merge me for the rest.  This bird – who will never change her desire for Freedom – is ready.

I leave you w/the song – which beautifully enough has 2.2 million views.  I have seen 222 so much today I stopped counting.

Love,

Victoria

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I awoke feeling a heavy heart and immense sadness.  I worked with it – purged for a bit (only to release – not to revisit) and powered myself up so I could go out into the world.  Given some of the energies felt “poking” to me, I did extra focusing.  On the way to the store I saw 2.2, 333, heard “I’m coming home” and “I’m free” while browsing around the radio channels.

So – I arrive at the store.  I had been inside for maybe 5 minutes when some bot walks by and says snidely “that mask doesn’t work if it’s below your nose”.

Not a good thing to say to this woman now.

So I looked back at her and said “I would mind my own business if I were you.  You don’t know who I am or what I was doing.”

That didn’t shut up this one.  She was persistent and nasty.  So I stood my ground and amped up my word choice and volume.  I am done assuming certain people here are real much less have a Soul.  And this particular type of entity has been in my life for decades.  They all look alike.  Long stringy gray hair that hasn’t seen a comb much less conditioner in weeks.  Frumpy. No color to their clothing attire much less a light from within.  And female (allegedly).  Each time I have been attacked like this during this mask insanity, it has been some “female” who fits this description.  And as I said – these entities have found a way into my experience for decades and each one has been nasty.  I have one in my neighborhood.  I know them well by now.

I told that filthy bot (to her back at this point) “I see you.  I know who you are.  You don’t scare me. You lack heart and critical thought” to which she said “I think just fine. You are the one who is stupid.”

“Yes I WAS stupid for once believing people like you are real.  That mask is making you extra stupid, btw.”  She kept walking so I said “Hey!  I’m talking to you.  Turn around and show me respect so we can finish this conversation!”  She kept on walking – tossing insults back at me as she headed to find a clerk where she proceeded to tattle on me.

So I continued on with my shopping – taking deep breathes to calm myself. I needed extra support at that moment for I didn’t know what was going to come after me after this bot tattled so I called Sister D and she was wonderful.  She talked with me as I continued to shop.  At the end of my shopping, one of the clerks asked if I was ok.  I knew she was the one who had been told of my “indiscretion” so I told her I was minding my own business, getting food for my family when I was verbally attacked by a customer for how I was wearing my face covering.  I told her of the claustrophobia I experience wearing these face coverings – I was doing the best I can – now and then I have to drop it below my nose to breath and remain calm which is my RIGHT and their store does not provide me the ability to obtain food in the way that works for me financially so this is how it must be.  I told her from now on I expect to be treated with respect AND protected from customers like the one who verbally attacked me.  She began to talk back to me in a way that was stating their stupid store “policy”  and I said I didn’t need to hear what she had to say and held up my hand as I did to push any contrary energy back at her – saying to let me be and let me finish my shopping in peace.  THAT IS MY RIGHT.

These entities don’t deserve my respect nor my kindness and from here on out they get my Power thrown back at them if they throw their controls at me.  Let them go have their experience in deception and hell.  While most around here would not engage in that behavior, there are stragglers who are, well, straggly.  Not real.  I see them and I ain’t taking it.

Carry on Jedi Warriors.  The game ain’t over yet.  Even though I have NO desire to play or watch and for the love of all of us just want to be an my experience of True Freedom always in ALL ways, sometimes you gotta stand up for yourself and be in your own Power – however that is for YOU.  After more or less a life experience of being quiet and “taking it” (with moments in between of asserting my power) remaining quiet isn’t in my basket of tools.

Love,

Victoria

So today was indeed one of those days to talk about the energies. Something came in today and impacted all members of the house.  I already mentioned the energy this morning was irritating and I woke up shaking (anxiety). Later in the day, the anxiety lifted and all I/We felt was inner shaking.  It felt like my cells were vibrating at an intense speed, which lead to feeling almost over-heated.  I also had an intense amount of energy, which I channeled by doing some work outside.  My mate had the exact same experience.   Our girl remarked at how shaky she felt inside – but she did not feel extra warm.  Her cells are far more “youthful” than her parents.

Around 5pm the energy left – leaving me with a sore, achy body and feeling physically depleted.  By 6pm, we all crashed hard.  It was a quiet dinner with all of us remarking how sleepy we were.  I crawled into bed around 7pm and fell asleep for a couple of hours.

I saw a couple of people on twitter talk of how they have been having experiences where they feel they are leaving their bodies.  More prep work? I’m almost embarrassed to talk about this process now – embarrassed because I have been speaking of this transition for over 4 years and shared the ongoing physical experiences I have had and I’m quite done with hearing about “the energies” and suddenly feeling the need to sleep NOW at 7pm (it’s always at 7pm w/me).  Is this body going with or is there a Me outside in which to merge?  Or is the only thing that’s going to change is this “new world” c u e speaks of and I “live forever” (ala George Magazine 2/97) because I have had access to those med beds?

I really don’t know.  I just don’t know.  I would like to know to prepare myself.  I would like to be able to get some glimpses of what’s coming so I can best prepare and plan my life – not just now but for the future.  I’ve been asking – commanding – at times demanding such information/feels for a couple of weeks now.  I’ve asked for “intel from Home”.

NOTHING has come to me.  (is there a lull in the Force, luke?)

So at this moment I’m sitting on the fence – needing a little respite from the insanity.  My mate began to read headlines to me today (oh god my least favorite behavior) and I put up my hand and did my “STOP” look/motion. So for now I may dive back into some movie watching.  I’m also reading The Bridge to Terabithia.  I know it’s a sad book – but I am feeling the need to cry (and recapture the spirit of my youth) as there was also an energetic heaviness in my heart area today and last night I had an ungodly amount of heartburn which even for me and my tummy sensitivities is very rare.   Perhaps I will find and watch the movie as well.  The focus – atm – is to go within.

Love,

V.

The energies today are extremely irritating.  Today I see no end to this.  I’m not liking what I am seeing.  And the holidays are here and I haven’t been able to muster the energy to get into them.

I’m tired of money.  I’m tired of seeking it.  I’m tired of trying to understand something that is evil by its very nature.  I read a tweet today that spoke of college debt not being eliminated as there is no money fairy.  Really?  WTF is the federal reserve but the money fairy for the elite?  This was by someone who is quite popular in the patriot movement.  I wonder – how awake are some of these big accounts?  It seems the biggest accounts are still pushing for many of the 3D systems here that rob us of freedom.

And then there are the little accounts like myself who have no corporate backing and rely on the few people who actually read my material to comment, like and share and donate what they can.

And honestly I am very weary of doing this.  I’m tired.  I speak truth at a level these big accounts don’t dive into and yet – where is my wealth?

WHEN IS IT GOING TO BE MY TURN?  

For 30 years I have fought to make it out in the world and here I still am – enslaved, living in poverty, an aging body, a traumatized mind.  I am spent. Pulling myself up by my own bootstraps is no longer an option I can engage in the way I once did.  Done that enough.

I AM DONE.  I need a tribe helping me out or else this experience is coming to an end for me.

So today you could say I want to stay in bed and cry all day.  Perhaps I will do that.  My mate on the other hand is saying he wants to engage in some entity removal.

Both sound appealing to me.

Love,

Victoria

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My mate and I were talking….he had something out in his man cave come to him about this place.  And it is something in which I feel is highly plausible.

Before the  hijack/war, we used to play a game.  We would lay in a bed, hook up to a machine and we would send a part of our consciousness, KNOWINGLY, into this game.  It was a fun game.  You could do anything be anything be anybody.  It was FUN.  Innocent.  Pure.  And FULLY IN OUR CONTROL.

Then when the parasites invaded, they used OUR simulation against us to hold us hostage while making us believe we were in our Original Experience. And they also designed these current physical models – which we know are not like our Real Bodies.  That is what evil does.  I can see that.  And UGH on it all.

You know the rest of the story.  Their biggest fear came upon them.

We woke up inside the matrix.

Love,

Victoria