6.15.24 ~ A check-in – a find or two

 

I don’t much care what’s going on “out there” – and to be honest I don’t much care what’s going on “in here” either.  It’s an odd space.  Yesterday was challenging after a good, focused start.  The challenge morphed into a rather neutral, quiet space – not great – but neutral and I have a couple of much needed/wanted phone convo’s.  All was rolling along, a rather nice pace, when late evening I was suddenly shaking again all over and ravishingly hungry.  I tried to ignore it – thinking “this wasn’t me” but my body started to rebel so I made an entire meal – at midnight – and ate like I hadn’t eaten in a day or two.  I was also suddenly highly agitated and felt the need to pound something.  Heard from Sister D who said something really nasty came in last night and attacked.

So there you go.

This morning, I feel drained – agitated (over money – the usual) – and began doing my usual inner focus – even putting on frequency bowl meditation music I often play these days – paused and said “fuch it”.  Just not up to switching things up within.  So I’m letting myself simply BE.  Energetically I am too dayem tired to change the inner feeeeeeeeeeeels so I can put on my best face and be someone I am not atm:  content and happy.

Because I am not.

It is as it is – I am as I am.

Off to give my money over to some mega corporation who doesn’t need it.

Ta ta for now.

Love,

V.

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Excellent words – EXCEPT for the “what’s done is done move on”.  If there is trauma as a result of whatever is done, your body will not move on.  Been there done that.  The body will keep the energies of the unprocessed experience within – brain will then respond now and then as though the event is still happening – which according to the body it IS.  So there is no “forget it and move on”.  That is not how the body and mind connection work.  That is how “they” designed these bodies and is also why “they” created so much horror her to give us that trauma.  “They” know it sticks with us.  Little children – so happy – so up – I was one – put on a happy face – always.  That was just me – while inside trauma built up inside of me so by the time I was in my mid 20’s I started having these things the doctor called “panic attacks” so I dove into cognitive behavior therapies and affirmations and new age healing techniques – and not once did any of these people talk about the Body and how it is the BODY that keeps the score of everything – not just the mind.  It wasn’t until this past year when I was finally connected with the right people who know about these bodies and the nervous system and trauma did I *get it*.  What do you think a trigger is?  An unhealed trauma.  If we didn’t have trauma stored in our bodies, we wouldn’t get triggered.  Period.  ‘Nuff said.

 

 

 

Weather is still odd here – cool, rainy and as always windy.  I took a pic last night of another tree already changing – will try and remember to upload it from my camera.  Not promising though – brain just isn’t what it used to be these days.

 

No surprise here – anyone seen the ingredients in these things??

 

 

 

 

 

Other headlines I saw but am too tired to go retrieve again and link:  T is debating JB on the 27th.  For the first time ever there will be no audience.  Scripted movie scene already shot just ready to roll out for whomever has the desire to watch.

The homeless in Oregon are speaking out saying they don’t want tarps and tents – they want REAL HELP.  Duh.  As I always say – ask people what they NEED and stop assuming.  Just like I take issue when others try to tell me what they think I need to be doing while not hearing me say “THIS IS WHAT I NEED”.

OMG we have to all get over ourselves and start helping at the level people need the support.  There’s a lot I don’t know – but when I know something I KNOW.  And this is one thing I KNOW.

That’s all for now.

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Major Swarm of Quakes – Antarctica – 10km

 

 

Maybe that’s why the last day has felt horrid energetically – panic anxiety ptsd triggers – “entities” being removed………

 

Four in the last 24 hours – all at 10km

1 day ago 5.9 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

1 week ago 5.4 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

1 week ago 5.4 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

4 weeks ago 4.8 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

4 weeks ago 4.9 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

4 weeks ago 5.3 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

1 month ago 4.7 magnitude, 10 km depth
Southern Mid Atlantic Ridge

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6.14.24 ~ Today’s Finds and Personal Sharing: Collective PTSD

 

PTSD was off the charts today.  This week actually.  Today I was suddenly shaking and couldn’t stop.  It’s odd too as I began the day with somatic yoga, positive/loving self-talk and felt quite calm.  An hour later, it came over me.  Breathing, etc. was not helping at all so I put out a prayer request and spoke with a couple of friends.  That helped – ended the shaking at least.

There is a collective of us dealing with PTSD – and it has been quite intense lately.  Spiritual attacks have been amped up.  This reality appears more bizarre – but it is making it easier for real humans to be seen and felt and to make those connections regardless of location.  I keep hearing the song lyric I wrote decades ago:  We have each other to hold onto when the world is unfriendly.

That’s how we make it through this – each other – because sometimes not even prayers to God/Jesus, etc. are enough.  We sometimes find that connection by connecting with a fellow human who “gets it”.

And I also see PTSD as being those fragmented pieces of ourselves that seek to be seen, loved, healed and joined back in with our God Self.

Here’s what I’m seeing.  Please remember to share and donate what you can.  Thank you.

Love,

Victoria

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Update: Judge Dismisses Infowars Bankruptcy – Alex Jones Releases Statement After Victory in Court (VIDEO)

 

 

 

 

Desperation sets in as The Awakening continues……….Me thinks this is what raises the APL to 10………

BREAKING: House of Representatives Passes Bill for Automatic Military Draft Registration of Young Men Between 18 and 26

 

 

 

WATCH LIVE: President Trump Delivers Remarks at Club 47 in Celebration of His Birthday

 

Military is the only way…………

BREAKING: DOJ Won’t Prosecute Merrick Garland For Contempt of Congress Over Biden Audio Tapes

 

 

“yuge” and “junior”………

 

Yes absolutely – very little energy to it this year:

 

 

 

Pretty much………

 

Another one:

Feds investigate Southwest flight’s rapid descent off Kauai | Honolulu Star-Advertiser (staradvertiser.com)

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What is going on with this place??

 

 

MrMBB333 has been showing videos recently of people showing skies lighting up earlier than “normal”.  Here’s the second one I’ve seen this week:

Did a UFO just land on the Earth? This night vision video will leave you SPEECHLESS!

I’m going to have to start getting up – or staying up – to see if our early am skies look the same.  I did notice – we all did actually – a few nights ago the sun was setting earlier – the sky was darker than it should be (given we’re in the longest days of the year) – and yet the sun still set at the normal time.

I’ve been talking about how weird it is here.  It feeeeeeeeeeeeels like late summer – as though we’ve already had a couple months of summer already (it’s an inner sense I can’t shake).  Some trees are turning already (began a few weeks ago) – and the fir trees continue to dump seeds like it’s fall.  And today I find out our egg folks – their hens have suddenly slowed down production – the way that usually happens during the fall.  It’s been windy almost daily for months – the temps are cooler than usual overall – temps at night have been in the low 40’s.

Nothing’s normal.

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End of day finds/headlines and personal experiences ~ 6.13.24

 

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Today it felt like I went back in time 4 years.  I saw more masked faces and more of “their” agenda in human form (after seeing nada for a few months).  Then there’s local talk again about CV – that narrative is still. so. locked. in.  I wonder if it’s due to the overall belief system around here, you know – what I suddenly started to see again?  Or something else?  I am so out of place and am so ready to simply fit in and feel comfortable where I reside.

Here are some late day finds.

Love,

V.

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That red folder keeps coming back………

 

 

 

 

 

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The White Buffalo Prophecy, Biblical Times and a Very Interesting Gematria

 

The white buffalo calf was photographed by a Yellowstone National Park visitor (Pictures: AP)

https://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/world/rare-white-buffalo-birth-fulfills-prophecy-akin-to-second-coming/ar-BB

A rare white buffalo calf was reportedly born in Yellowstone National Park – fulfilling an American Indian prophecy that is synonymous to the Second Coming of Jesus Christ.

Mainstream media is really pushing this one – as well as this “once in a lifetime” SuperNova due to happen between now and September – which ALL here will have the chance to see – tells me we have ongoing script flips – our consciousness is being prompted to SEE.

Most of us have heard of this.  However, since we are in “Biblical” times (which also shows up in a c u e post from June 13, 2020), I feel this is a good program insert.

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White Buffalo (Calf) Prophecy | Native Heritage Project

According to legend, the White Buffalo Calf Woman was a holy entity that visited the Oceti Sakowin over a four-day period about 2000 years ago.  White Buffalo Woman, or Ptesan­Wi, as she is called in the Lakota language, taught them sacred ceremonies, songs, and dances.  She gifted the people with a sacred bundle containing the White Buffalo Calf Pipe, which still exists to this day and is kept by Chief Arvol Looking Horse of the Cheyenne River Sioux Tribe.

There are several iterations of the story, but in essence, they all match except for a few details.

White Buffalo Woman warned that several other white buffalo would be born around this time, who would not live to complete the full color change cycle, before the true sacred buffalo were all born. She said when all four sacred white buffalo had returned, the people would be at a crossroads and if they took the right path, there would be a renewal of the Earth.
There have been many documented cases of White Buffalo – a list can be found here:  White buffalo – Wikipedia
I decided to do a gematria as well:  WHITE BUFFALO
Be Letter Seventeen (interesting dialogue – be like wind, etc.)
You Must Be Born Again
Seven Eleven (!!)
Code System
Elon R Musk
The Bird Is Free
Independence Day
Great Scott (Back to the future anyone?)
The Mandela Effect
World Light
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Just some reflecting – ending with some finds……….

 

The “finds” are distraction to me these days as they don’t align with my inner world, much less my needs.  Pretty sure that is how it is with most of us these days.

My space is quiet atm allowing me to tune in and actually hear.

I heard this:

Sometimes our strength is only as solid as is the support around us. 

Looking back at my life I can attest to this.  I recalled a time when I had made a big decision – which included a promise of help – and that help was suddenly and unexpectedly withdrawn – and then oddly put back in my place but only temporarily and then held over my head – which meant this big decision I had made was suddenly threatened.  I had no other solid support around me at the time, so I did what I needed to do to simply survive.

Getting to know a new friend, stories are being shared.  One of the stories included her having a similar situation only she had rock solid support during her decision to change her life – and it remained – allowing her that necessary sense of safety one needs in making such a decision.  Knowing someone has your back.  A phrase I have heard too often throughout my life by people who clearly didn’t.

Today if I hear it – I let the actions back up the words.  And if they don’t, I remove and walk away.

The more I heal, the more I see myself, the more I OWN my Worth in a way that is quiet and thus authentic, the more I level up.  The more I ask of myself, the more I ask of anyone for whom is to be in my life.  If the words don’t match the action, I move on.  If the alignment isn’t there, I move on.

It comes down to Love.  Love – the energy – the action – is what is solid – is what shows up – is what has our backs when we need it to.  I have not had nearly enough of that experience.  And that’s painful.  Really f’ing painful.  Some of it was me and my choices – taking anything or anyone who came along – settling – oh god how I have settled – plus clinging on to the whole “blood family” illusion.

Some of it was just shitty people.

While it would be wonderful to have had that true familial experience, I don’t.  Not in the way I have truly needed – which is to provide unconditional support.  As I’ve said many times here, if someone is in need, I do my best to listen and hear, ask what they need, then f’ing do it if I can.  I finally began to truly just distance and walk when I had a moment of desperation and pain and said, “ask me what I need g. d. it and I will tell you”.  Silence followed.  They were not interested in – not able.  Whatever.  Same result.  And yet all along – my inner Me knew – this was not going to ever feel ok or be Safe.  If I could go back in time and say just one thing to my young self it would be to ALWAYS LISTEN TO AND TRUST THAT INNER VOICE.

Always.

We don’t have to do this world alone.  Remember how I’ve been saying that in the end we rescue ourselves, but no one does it alone.  I wrote this rather haunting song over 20 years ago.  I can’t remember all of the lyrics but a few of the lines said this:  Loneliness doesn’t have to be – a part of the human condition – can’t you see – we have each other – to hold onto – when the world is unfriendly.

Here are a few early day finds.  Ya’ll be good to yourselves and each other.

Love,

V.

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So done with this b.s.  Similar skies for my area – ate outside and thought “nice day for some haarp music”.  Arsetwats.

 

 

I’ll give you a hint (you ain’t nuthin’ but a hound dog)………..Roseanne was right all those years ago on tv…………

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sometime between now and September“………

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6.12.24 ~ End of day finds…………..

 

 

I just saw this "You're not lazy you only have a certain amount of energy and right now you are using it all to survive" i don't know who needs to hear this but I know someone does

 

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Looks like a contact lens case……….

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

BREAKING: Anna Paulina Luna May Push ‘Inherent Contempt’ Vote Forcing Sgt. of Arms to Immediately Arrest AG Merrick Garland (VIDEO)

 

 

 

 

 

 

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6.12.24 ~ Early day finds

 

 

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I really don’t have comment on any of these – just remaining in observation mode.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Fake president”……….

 

 

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/geopolitical/suicide-drone-boat-hits-bulk-carrier-near-yemen

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6.11.24 ~ Additional interesting finds worth noting plus a bizarre experience

 

Here is (just one example) showing we live in a simulation.  Before I headed out tonight, I felt that narc program that likes to create chaos and confusion come in.  I got a bit lost in it (as in I started to shrink and go numb/freeze) so I didn’t do my usual “energy pow wow” stuff.  Driving down the road, this motorbike shows up off to my right in the bike lane, going the same direction.  He continued beside me until he continued on his way North while I turned (east).  45 minutes later, coming home, I approach an intersection and SEE THE SAME DUDE SAME BIKE – coming from the East.  He literally cut me off – he did. not. see. me.  It was twilight by this time, so I had my lights on.  He headed the same direction as I was until I said “that’s it” – I didn’t want him in my experience – so I sped up and passed him, leaving a big distance.  (ah if only it were that easy for every unwanted encounter, eh?)

Also noticed while we were out – as we walked inside a department store – there were some people but not much – but within 2 minutes – no joke – the store was suddenly very crowded and VERY loud – so much so my girl gives me a look and says, “mom let’s go home NOW”.  I agreed – but decided to stop off at one of the big obnoxious box stores – one I hadn’t been in in awhile (their CV policies were unbelievably draconian).  O M G – talk about a maze – aisles blocked off – making you walk allllllllllllll the way around here and there.  Rows of over-priced crappy food.  So we decided to leave – after it took a bit to figure out the way out.  Then walking out to the parking lot – I see people speeding like mad through the lot – then a row – a literal row of Prius’ – all following one another – gathering into another mass of cars suddenly leaving the lot all at once.  That was it for me.  I pulled over – munched on some pretzels while I waited for all of them to leave.  Once they did, I was the only one driving out of the lot and the only one at the light.

W E I R D.

Here are some additional finds.  Please help me out by supporting my work – donating and sharing.  It means a lot – whatever you can afford.  Thank you!

Love,

V.

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I woke up this morning thinking about this one:

 

 

 

 

I’m so tired of the fear-porn being pushed on this by some accounts who tell us it’s a lie or a scam or it’s to get us to go in the “wrong” direction.  I don’t know of ANYONE who has been struggling $$ for so very long that if offered some financial abundance to change their life – who in their right mind would turn that down?  With where I am in my life right now – at this moment – I GLADLY accept and receive abundance to do what I need to do.  With open arms – with an open heart and with a lot of gratitude.  And who in their right mind not to mention who in their hearts would think if someone did that, they get a bad ending or less-than ending?  Just UGH enough already!  Love is love.  PERIOD.  And it comes from the heart and intentions and goodness of the person – not if they make some choice that “higher ups” disagree with.

 

 

 

 

 

And some heart smiles:

 

 

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