i had a feeling today would feel “heavy”. anniversary of 9/11. i have chosen not to mourn – not to dwell on what happened on that day. it sparked a huge new step in my awakening. each year since then i have mourned. i have felt – all over again – the loss. the anger. the rage. the lies we have been told. and 18 years later – the truth is still being suppressed – while the memorializing continues.
so – i am not participating. why give the controller’s and their human bot minions here more “free food” (energy)?
that being said – it was hard for me to escape feeling the collective dip in energy. and to add to their agenda of harm and abuse, they were at it today with their trails in our skies.
i reject it all. truth now. freedom now. now.
now.
now.
now.
enough of that. i have noticed recently that at times a correlation between an electron or proton spike and a spike on the schumann. (at the 18 hour). i see that today (see below). are WE doing this or is it happening TO us? or both perhaps?
who else is overly done of saying/thinking “i don’t really know”?
yeah me too.
for now i am investing my energy into bike rides and music. and the occasional sweet treat.
i had a lot of energy today even though i only slept about 7 hours (normally i sleep 10). then about 30 minutes ago, as i was putting dinner together, i felt something and wow – did it hit me hard. still feeling it. even felt some nausea w/this. my mate is having the same experience – can barely stay awake! i decided to check the solar wind – electron and proton reads in particular and just – wow – never have i seen this kind of a read. it’s like this realm is having a heart attack (reminds me of a crazy EKG read). anyone feel/feeling this?? (don’t know why the proton data is missing). off to sleep now.
briefly – i felt as though i was not all “here”…..it went beyond tired…..it was as though a small piece of me was here and the rest someplace else……..my mate had the same experience a couple of days ago……while both of us (and many of you) have had the experience of not being altogether “here” – for the two of us, on these separate days, the experience took on a much more palpable feel. it was very difficult for me to ground myself fully today. even with two rest periods – nothing worked. i still feel “out there”.
was it due to the protons? i’m not so sure on that. hesitant.
before i share those reads i wanted to share a dream i had last night. actually i had a few dreams – in each one there were new people and new scenes. they didn’t feel “right” so i observed and got out of most – with the exception of the last one where i hung around simply because it was “new”. (something to clean up in my mind and heart – the desperation…that creates an energy they feed on)….before i pulled myself out, i wanted to see who was watching me. i’ve been feeling the pull lately to know who is watching me. it has been said by yellow rose that each of us is assigned a “watcher” upon entering here. i have yet to feel “off” or “wrong” about this so i have remained neutral on the possibility. so in the dream experience, as i asked to see, i looked up and into what looked like a snow globe. on the other side of the apparent glass was a different environment. i saw a being look down at me – tall – skinny – and had eyes similar to those characters in the movie “they live”. i said “yeah i see you – you really are hideous” – then got out.
now for those who remember – or don’t know – the star of that movie – rowdy roddy piper (wrestler turned hollywood actor) tweeted before his death a few tidbits about this movie. below are the tweet images:
and here’s a little tidbit about me – i used to watch rowdy roddy on portland saturday night wrestling. i was often babysitting. i also had a friend whose mother worked for the tv station and it was then that i learned it was all staged. he was one heck of an entertainer – keeping this young teenage girl occupied on otherwise lonely late saturday evenings.
now that i got offtrack with a trip down memory lane, i will leave you w/some of today’s electron proton unreal whappa-doo’s.
love,
valiant verbose victoria (alter ego if i were a wrestler)
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well explains today – more inner heat and i swear purging stuff out of this vessel (lots of showers!)……even after the sun set and it was upper 60’s – it still felt very warm – to both my mate and i…….it’s 11pm and i’m still warm…….i did have a dream a few nights ago and some white substance was coming out of two fingers – one on my right hand one on my left………i didn’t feel fear – more curiosity………i observed and when there was a hesitance to not let me see or remove i said “bring it. i can do this. get it out.” who knows – real experience or a compromise……felt significant to me but then again i feel the buggers are still active when we sleep……..
so besides inner heat i have felt extreme fatigue today – followed by bursts of energy – only to return to fatigue and right now i am moments away from closing my eyes – in between “something whatever is going on” continues…
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ok i have to talk about this “planetary” object showing up on the LASCO. we still have “mercury” hanging around all these weeks (struggling to move) – then last night i noticed this other planetary object coming up fast. is it VENUS? from my understanding only 2 planets transit the sun – mercury and venus. so if this is venus (again) – it’s going to “catch up” to this mercury object – quickly. i have to conclude this is showing further proof of the construct deconstructing. … then we have these erratic/intense proton and electron spikes – along with a nice long schumann bubble of bliss earlier – and we are left feeling wonkified to the nth degree. for me it was a combination of serenity and sleepy (not as irritated today as i have been in previous days). of course then again it was 100 here today (!!) so the heat can be a bit draining especially when one is not used to it.
ok – how is everyone else doing/feeling?
love,
victoria
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on the left we have mercury….and on the right coming up on fast approach we have…venus…?? or perhaps – here’s a thought – the construct is so close to total collapse we are seeing the same object….
letting these speak for themselves………and that ship on the LASCO – never seen one that large before……….
ok so as my mate is saying – who really cares about all of this now – it’s all a distraction. maybe it is. maybe every single thing we see is fake. a simulated object. and maybe we cling to something new and different because we are so flipping overly g.d. done DONE DONE with this particular experience/movie/whatever you wish to call it.
i am also diving deeper into heather’s latest – what happened on july 25 2017? and who is this all agreed to/upon? no one asked me a thing. and seriously – how does unfettered access LOOK? my thought was i would hire a chef – and yet who would want to cook FOR some recognized “$” value? or provide healing or massage. if you didn’t have to continue to work for a living – would you continue to provide your services for humanity? that is the big question right there. i would adapt to that – easily – and yet will all? get myself healed up and i will give give give. other than that – a LOT of “jobs” will disappear. and how could any of this come online w/the current system still cranking away? for myself i continue to align with Home and Freedom and REAL ME “back”………
I haven’t shared this much lately – but wanted to share this one (a day late). Very interesting signature. I don’t recall seeing those column-like spikes before….
