Don’t feel you’re alone. The els and Nordics..nephilheim..they had tech and apps they would use that would push into the mind, all those negative thoughts. It goes on ceaselessly all day, all night. Sleep deprivation is a form of torture. They’re sadist and like driving people to suicide. In the past, suicide was high service to self and marked you as SET’s share of the division. In other words, if you killed yourself, they got to keep you. That’s the past consequences for suicide, its not there now, but they are still sadists. I don’t think you neglected your life. It was your job to go down those rabbit holes. Most are not here for a ‘learning lesson’ they are here because of the war. So when you hear in your head, “negative mental self judgement” noise…understand…that isn’t your ego, your id, speaking. It is in fact something targeting you with those thoughts to make you feel ‘low’. Low vibration is what they attempt to keep you at so you don’t raise up to the vibratory rate of the exit. They can make these thoughts sound like ‘your voice’…present it like its a daydream you came up with on your own…but its really not. One way to catch them out, is their lack of logic..doing or saying, something you know isn’t truth. They particularly want you to accept blame for something. IE you had fight with someone, or did something, and they’ll put in your head how you were bad to do or say that to someone. And you know for a fact, initially (before they create doubt), that you DIDN’T say or do anything bad, you were standing up for yourself or were in otherwise righteously angry over something. Or in example, you’re thinking about someone you know you love..then you’ll hear things of ‘whats wrong with that person’.. they’re lazy, they talk too much, they’re never there when you need them..negative thoughts. That’s an app usually..they are out of real people that used to do it for them. Most of their people are dead now. All the few people they have, have left, are the apps, and some tech. They used to ‘boo’ me, like at a bad movie and the crowd yells ‘boo’. This wasn’t something physically heard, but it had an emotional effect of making me feel like everything I did was wrong, not good work. Know this..every single action or word they take or make is all designed for the purpose of denying you the exit. If they cant get you to cop to a crime that they can point to and say you admitted to or did (which would force the Judgement against you to make you stay/not exit), then they attempt other things. So tell them they lost the war. Say it outloud (when you can). Make sure the “All” hear, that you renounced them for these things. And, on the bright side of things…these apps and other things are being killed off inside, pretty fast. It was always stated they’d never stop, we actually have to exit before it stops. Take heart, millions know how you feel. So do the people outside, ‘upstairs’. They feel sympathy for all of us.