The “go within and be the love” message from a few nights ago continues.
Today I had several experiences, which I will do my best to share. I am so tired at the moment, having ridden another cosmic energy blast today that began a couple of days ago. These beauties are REALLY impacting me.
The first experience happened at the park. I hung out and observed while my child played. I was able to notice my self-talk and turned it around into something loving, keeping the words short and simple. I noticed as I did this, people began to look at me. A bird flew over and rested on a branch above me and began making a flurry of noise that continued until I greeted it ~ then it quieted and flew off. A woman walked over and sat down on the same picnic table (there are several at the park). Usually when I go out, especially these days, I put out the “leave me alone” energy. Today I switched that.
On the way home, we took the long way. Nice view that way and next to zero traffic. As I climbed to the top of the hill, the radio blipped out. No big deal normally, only this time I felt something shift in my body. I suddenly became disoriented as though I was in that space of two different realities. It was ~ strange. I decide to change the radio station and on comes Janice Joplin ~ “take another piece of my heart”. Love her music, so I kept it on. I pull up to the stop sign, hang a left and as I head down the street, I notice these two teenage kids walking uphill. They looked, well, out of place. The girl was in a jean skirt, plaid short-sleeve shirt and thick long straight brown hair, like down to her butt long. She looked straight out of the 70’s. The boy with her had 70’s hair, poofy and feathered, a bright orange 70’s style t-shirt w/that big white lettering schools once used and jeans. (I know these styles as I was a kid myself in the 70’s). What happened? Was this possible? I thought “where AM I??!!” The feeling continued. I get to another stop sign. My girl said “Mom look at that jeep! It looks old!” A 1970’s style jeep is coming up the hill.
Coincidence??!!
I sat there, jaw dropped open. The feeling slowly faded as I headed home, turning onto our street.
Ok, onto the next experience. Later in the day, I was in no (energetic) mood to cook the meal I had planned, I needed something easy, so I decided to go pick up something at the store. As I checked out, I told the clerk to excuse me (I tried to swipe my debit card instead of putting it into that annoying chip reader thing) ~ I was really wonky today. She looks at me and says “oh my GOSH you have no idea how many people have come in today saying the same thing! They are soooo tired and so out of it!” I told her about the solar blast we are under and said “lots of things going on now with our realm and bodies”. She wasn’t aware of any of this but thanked me. I smiled, told her I loved her scarf and hair and headed out the door.
I get into the car and turn on the radio. “What About Love” is on the radio (Heart song). The words “what about love…don’t you want someone to care about you….what about love….don’t let it slip away” blast away. I suddenly felt this energy grow within me. It was palpable, so much so I said “oh boy hold on it’s coming” and I knew what it was ~ Love. I was having another one of those just amazing expansive quantum experiences where I felt love for ALL. So I drive home, looking at everyone I can, smiling, tears in my eyes, my heart HUGE and wide open, sending everyone love or whatever this feeling I was having. It was too big to contain. I had no choice but to share it ~ which is what happens when I have these experiences.
I arrive home, go about prepping dinner (for those curious, packaged ravioli and tomato basil mushroom canned pasta sauce). Later on in the shower I spoke a lot of words and released even more tears. Pain. Regret. Loss. Feeling all is changing within me and “out there” as well and I have no control over any of it. All I can do is feel it, move through it ~ only in a way that is coming from love and not fear. I noticed where I was clinging and instead allowed ~ even allowed the clinging (by just observing and accepting). If that makes sense.
As I entered the living room minutes later to go snuggle with my girl, I decide to turn on the music channel. Here is the name of the song playing:
The Divine wasn’t finished yet. After getting my little one in bed, I decided to have some tea. Below is the message on the label.
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As I had heard and felt at the park “speak words of Love”.
Speak. Feel. Share.
Thank you, more please. Keep the reminders coming that I DO have love ~ the REAL THING ~ within me. It is still there. And it wants to be free every much as the person in which it resides.
Love,
Victoria
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