Category: Love

Linea Faerylight Ginn~ The event 2019 After solstice How are you.

 

editor victoria’s comment ~ i as well had a “home” dream a few years before i had my child.  saw her and she looks as she did in the dream.  today i am feeling, well, disgusted – how much longer am i willing to hold onto the dream and the visions and the feelings of “home”.  can i trust them – and if not – what can i trust?  when i went to bed last night i was angry – really angry – still here.  “out there” still not aligning w/my own inner wants and desires and needs and intentions/searching/seeking.  like linea said – let’s end up this pain and suffering.  enough really is enough.  as i was sharing with my mate – who is in charge of our experience here…. it my perception about all we can fully control is how we respond to the outside system(s)……our choices limited….no freedom in that – very limited in our creative abilities here…..

linea saying – when you get threatened w/your survival needs – especially with a child – well been there done that.  had financially well off a-holes decide to kick us out of our homes in the past (yes homes plural).  parents with a child (at the time she was a baby).  no heart these people.  but we remained and remain protected. always.

the big question today for me is why do i continue to feel this quiet void and blank w/in when i tune in and ask “what do i do next?”  we began looking around for a new town – new state – several weeks ago and nothing is aligning or opening up. the search feels as bland as does my day to day experience here.

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12/12/19 ~ End of the day Reflection: A Final Good-bye

 

it is with very deep sadness that i share that our wonderful adopted grandpa don passed on at 6pm pacific time.  we received a phone call from his daughter just a few minutes after he had left.  since last sunday i had felt he would be leaving today.  his birthday was on the 12th (different month) and well, just sometimes you know and feel things.

earlier in the day my mate called me outside after getting home from the store to show me a beautiful rainbow in the sky that had been there for over 30 minutes – very unusual.  i grabbed my camera, took some pictures.  as i reflected quietly on it, i suddenly knew this was the sign – this was grandpa don’s way of saying good-bye.  when i spoke with his daughter tonight she told me about the rainbow and how she had felt this was a sign.  yes, we had the same experience i said.

he knew about my site, the work i do.  he would show amusement when he would see me outside taking pictures of the sky.  once he said he liked seeing how much of a kick i could get over a particular sunset or sky image.  there were many times i or we would knock on his door to call him outside to enjoy the skies with us.  we even saw a UFO together once – 4th of July 2015.

sigh……..

what else is there to say.  it’s been expected for a good 6 weeks now – the quickness of it though since last friday.  tonight?  there’s now the finality to it and it hurts every bit as much as first finding out the news of his diagnosis back in early november.

i haven’t had a loss like this – not with someone who was like family and who was a part of our daily life experience.  other than 2 dogs that is and those were difficult enough – w/the one i didn’t think i would get past the grief.

but i did as we all do.  he’s headed Home.  and i can only hope he will be one of our greeter’s.  all day i saw songs on the tv soundscape channel about Home.  too many to count.

for now i leave you with his rainbow – the Grand D Rainbow.  he would like that.  and of note – it started in our general area of town and ended over by the rehabilitation place in which he called home the last 6 weeks of his amazing life.  i can only wonder what amazing things he will be creating next.

love,  v.

 

 

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Adriana Counsel: Message to the parasites – your time is over

 

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Sharing a song that is soothing me today/tonight

 

the words and melody to this beautiful song began going through my mind earlier today.  i had to listen to it.  so i did – felt some comfort – then went on w/the rest of my day (which ended in yet another unexpected $$ need to take care of.  and then – THEN – i learn where our city council has voted to increase our water bill – AGAIN!  they already jacked it up by over $20 this summer and now they are at it again w/o citizen vote.  dark just keeps on sucker punching us $$.  i laugh….)  then i needed to listen to it again tonight and this time i wept big ‘ole tears – not just for myself but for all of us.  i cried over what has been done to us here.  all of the suffering – most if not all absolutely unnecessary and against our desire/will.  (whoever says “god’s will” doesn’t innerstand our will – when it comes from our Heart – IS source will).  i cried in release of the stories i have been reading in recent days of all of the huge challenges some are going through – from illness to death in the family or death of friends.  i don’t “get” (at all) why this is happening nor would i ever align w/the concept that experience has to be this way now that we are (allegedly) “at the end”.  why not go out with a soft soothing beautiful burst of Love?  that’s my focus.  for now – i hold all being’s in a soft pillow of love.  may every one of you – every one of us – have all we need and desire NOW.  love, V.

 

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