The time crunch I am under is killing me. Slowly. My face is puffy. I’m not sleeping. When I do sleep, it isn’t deep or restful. I’ve given and given SO MUCH to this awakening and poured my heart and soul into this website and what started as a beautiful BAM and slowly grew began to fizzle to where it is today with me wondering why I even do this – but I continue TO do because I believe in the purpose of it and I still have a few left who appreciate and value my work and pay me for it.
Gotta move by this summer (I will fight that if I have to – I am NOT going to be forced out of my own home until a new one presents itself).
Income drops in May – in half. No fucking idea how to remedy that in 6 weeks.
And I get asked what’s my plan.
Manifest $500 to pay for a marketing plan to promote my new book.
Manifest a new home to live in.
Find a time machine and travel back to 1964, where the dollar held 100% value, so I could f’ing afford to do what I want to do.
That’s it.
Working part-time at minimum wage through this new agency is not the f’ing answer.
I’m burned out from applying for work.
Hell, I don’t even have it in me to meet with my counselor now. What’s the point? I know how to shift things inside – just need to shift things OUTSIDE. You know? Like, make housing and eating affordable again.
Yeah.
Truth hurts most especially when I share it with those who are comfortably housed and fed. And it appears to me when I am blunt, honest in who I am and how I feel now, well, that’s another truth that makes the butt cheeks squeeze in some.
😂
Dear God, thank you for my 5-year-old like humor I still have. I keep myself going.
Here’s what I’m seeing. As always, from my heart, thanks to those of you who have stuck around, who see me, and support my work. Let’s get that number tripled by May.
💖
Victoria
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Check this out. FOUR of them. Felt that Q post last night for some reason – the whole BLACKOUT NECESSARY (Cuba) – and the DARK TO LIGHT and WEEK TO REMEMBER and 4 BOOMS.
So this date my daughter threw out to me in a dream Monday morning – happens to be Barron Trump’s b-day – which is this Friday. Which I find – interesting. Also of interest – for me – the 88th day is March 29th.
Another thing with me – the end game marker USPS
We gotta be at the end. These AI comments are getting really good – if it weren’t for the addresses – they would appear human – although when I tune in and feeeeeeeeel – there’s total lack of real Soul emotions.
What’s his next move?
He knows something:
JUST IN: 🇺🇸🇫🇷 President Trump says French President Macron will be out of office "very soon." pic.twitter.com/DedSn1aO6i
BREAKING: A record 104.3 million Americans are now "outside" of the labor force.
These are individuals who are neither employed nor actively looking for work, including retirees, students, stay-at-home parents, and discouraged workers.
THIS. Although I have learned that telling these parts to “shut up” will not work. Engage with compassion, ask what those parts need, then speak with them the way you would with a child – with firmness and love. These parts develop under chaos and trauma, creating “fractalized” versions of ourselves. When we work to heal those parts, letting them know we are safe, we return to Wholeness again.
We’re close – so SO SO close to whatever this moment is for, given my insight into this sleep thing I am experiencing, the end is here. I splurged on myself and ordered some CBD oil. I need something to help me do the Z thing.
💖
Victoria
This legislation is a joke. It would still enable these criminals, excuse me, “investors”, to regroup under another LLC, and buy up 349 homes and press repeat.
— Victoria, Certified Pattern Recognition Specialist (@nina_leone11) March 13, 2026
Got that misplaced dash above:
Release The Kraken:
🚨🇺🇸 U.S. Treasury Secretary Scott Bessent was mid-interview when an aide interrupted: "The president wants you,” pulling him straight to the White House Situation Room.pic.twitter.com/GPux3H8xufhttps://t.co/pYuvGQcKWK
Big sister + little brother 😍 11 years between them and they are pretty obsessed with each other. I think she might be his favourite already 💛 pic.twitter.com/PS89lpvSzL
I think many of us can relate to this one. I prefer my own company over the last several years to having to be someone I’m not. I don’t think this started with covid either. Increased, yes. But given that I have felt this way for most of my life, that tells me it’s a frequency mismatch. For me, the biggest shift happened after 9/11 in terms of experiencing the fracture. (now this is interesting – my computer is underlining “covid”. I click on it – the ai wants me to put it in all caps – just like it wants me to be the ai in all caps too. )
This is dedicated to the ones who know what it costs to question power, speak honestly, and still leave the door open for reconciliation.
The Loners Club
No one actually signs up for it. There’s no membership form. No weekly meetings. No secret handshake.
You don’t even realize you’ve joined until the room gets quiet when you speak.
Someone once called it the Loners Club. And it struck a chord.
But what if it’s not a really club at all?
What if it’s a wilderness?
Before the Fracture
There was a time when disagreements didn’t threaten belonging.
Politics was just background noise.
Institutions felt flawed but functional.
Elections felt trustworthy.
Borders felt defined.
Money felt solid.
Families gathered.
Friends debated lightly.
Disagreements didn’t feel like moral verdicts.
Then something shifted.
COVID didn’t just introduce a virus. It introduced fracture.
Trust fractured.
Shared reality fractured.
Conversation fractured.
And some of us began asking questions we couldn’t silence, not because we wanted to rebel, but because something in our spirit wouldn’t let us pretend.
The Moment You Spoke Up
For many, it started during COVID.
Lockdowns.
Mandates.
Data that didn’t align.
Questions that weren’t allowed.
Some of us asked them anyway.
Then came elections.
Irregularities.
Censorship.
Narrative uniformity.
Then open borders, inflation, endless war funding.
And somewhere in that unraveling, many discovered Bitcoin, a parallel monetary system that didn’t require trust in central authorities.
And one day, you said something out loud.
Not to provoke.
Not to dominate.
Just to process what you were seeing.
And the temperature in the room changed.
You weren’t debated.
You were labeled.
Conspiracy theorist.
Radical.
Unhinged.
Brainwashed.
You didn’t feel radical.
You felt concerned.
The Slow Exile
The rupture rarely happened in one explosion.
It was subtler than that.
Group chats went quiet.
Invitations slowed.
Texts went unanswered.
Holidays felt tense.
Smiles became tight.
You noticed the shift before anyone admitted it.
The hardest part wasn’t the disagreement.
It was the implication that you were unstable for questioning as if curiosity itself had become a threat.
And somewhere inside, a quiet voice said:
Don’t back down.
The Soul Cost of Silence
Here is the layer no one talks about.
Silence can preserve relationships.
But prolonged self-betrayal fractures the soul.
To know something feels deeply wrong, and refuse to speak because belonging feels safer, that is how sovereignty erodes.
When your inner witness says, This is not right…and you choose to honor that whisper instead of the crowd….you step into wilderness.
The Soul Sovereign path is not loud rebellion.
It is internal alignment with the Truth.
The Wilderness Was Refinement
Isolation feels like punishment at first. But wilderness has always been a place of formation.
Stripped of applause.
Stripped of consensus.
Stripped of external validation.
You learn where your foundation truly rests.
If your convictions collapse without social approval, they were never convictions.
If your faith collapses when culture shifts, it was never anchored.
Many of us thought we were losing community. In truth, we were being invited into deeper anchoring.
Seeing Is a Burden
Seeing doesn’t mean knowing everything.
It means noticing patterns.
Recognizing narrative coordination.
Questioning centralized power.
Understanding how information can be weaponized.
Realizing money can be manipulated.
Knowing corruption isn’t partisan; it’s systemic.
And once that veil lifts, you cannot step back into innocence.
You must decide:
Will I trade clarity for comfort?
Or will I carry it?
The Cost
Some lost friendships.
Some lost extended family closeness.
Some lost professional networks.
Some lost reputations.
And many gained something unexpected.
Discernment.
Resilience.
Spiritual grounding.
Independent thought.
The dinner table shrank.
But something else expanded.
When applause disappears, you discover whether your convictions are social or sovereign.
Not Angry. Anchored
Despite what some assume, most people in this unofficial club aren’t fueled by rage.
They’re tired.
Tired of shouting matches.
Tired of being reduced to caricatures.
Tired of labels where conversation used to be.
This was never about winning arguments.
It was about refusing to fracture internally in order to remain socially intact.
We didn’t walk away.
We stood still when the current shifted.
And standing still in a cultural storm feels like rebellion.
The Invitation
Despite what some assume, this isn’t about winning.
It’s about longing.
Most of us never wanted distance from the people we love. We didn’t set out to fracture relationships. We didn’t wake up hoping to stand on opposite sides of the room from family or lifelong friends.
We simply reached a moment where silence would have required abandoning what we believed to be true.
And truth, once seen, asks something of you.
But here is the part that matters most:
We are not waiting with bitterness.
We are waiting with open hands.
If the day comes when conversations soften, when curiosity replaces contempt, you will not find us keeping score.
You will find us ready for reconciliation.
Because seeing corruption did not make us love people less.
It made us realize how fragile truth can be and how much mercy the world needs.
If someone who once dismissed us begins to see differently tomorrow, they will not meet a closed door.
They will meet grace the kind that reaches for people the way you reach for someone escaping a fire: not with accusation, but with urgency and relief that they made it out.
No lectures.
No humiliation.
Just welcome.
Because the goal was never isolation. The goal was always truth and the restoration that truth makes possible.
🚨 Breaking Now the U.S. and Israel should be worried. The world-famous hacker group Anonymous says it will soon release the full Epstein files and expose all those involved one by one. ⚡️ pic.twitter.com/DxPthFYPgS
This explains a lot indeed – especially in relation to the jab:
Psychologist Stanley Milgram found that 80% of the population do not have the psychological or moral resources to defy authority’s order, no matter how illegitimate the order is.
Therefore only 20% have critical thinking capacity.
I have a sense – this war – is about bringing in a new currency in Iran. The Dinar becomes the first new currency, ww. The Petro dollar is collapsing (and is paying for “their” end.) Mirror effect. Their (Iran’s) markets closed Monday and Tuesday, interestingly enough. We’ll see.
💖
Victoria
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Planetary Alignment. Tonight we are at 6 in alignment.
April 5. Easter timeline. Remember the words of Trump in 2020 about a burst of light, which happens quickly, Easter being the timeline.
🟣🟡 🟢 PURIM COLORS 🟣🟡 🟢
Purim in 2026 begins at sundown on Monday, March 2, and ends at nightfall on Tuesday, March 3.
Purim is a holiday that commemorates the deliverance of a captive people from a planned genocide in ancient Persia (Iran) during the Achaemenid Empire,… https://t.co/79pbNHYpeupic.twitter.com/EwaFIVGVoS
2.28-32 = Feb 28 through Mar 4 I had a dream Where I saw and experienced this sudden flash bright moment https://t.co/GmbUCgBJyx
— Victoria, Certified Pattern Recognition Specialist (@nina_leone11) March 1, 2026
I had similar thoughts last night. This isn’t about oil. Perhaps for the story on stage it is. Behind the scenes, I too feel this is about ancient tech that is necessary to unlock the orary and get us out of here.
THE WAR WAS NEVER ABOUT OIL (It’s Always Been About Stargates…)
– Earth holds 12 primary Stargates, ascension portals that modulate frequency and consciousness.
– These aren’t myths. They’re frequency-coded access points that determine what energies and entities can move in… pic.twitter.com/4Ac76aGCb1
Most anons and truthers I know are so fucking burned out from being in survival mode for far too god damn long We just need the plan to end. No more energy to decode the way we did years ago. PTSD. https://t.co/uqLE8iOnMF
— Victoria, Certified Pattern Recognition Specialist (@nina_leone11) March 1, 2026
Actually it’s 334 years. Still interesting…
55 minutes.
Tax breaks for LLC’s are over. Masks are off – days of hiding are over.
🤔Timelines Patterns & The Ides of March
Starting today, you can’t hide dirty money in a US house the way you used to.
FinCEN’s new rule quietly flips on nationwide reporting for all-cash residential deals into LLCs and trusts. Title companies are now deputized: no real… https://t.co/NspFOz8ZSIpic.twitter.com/HP19BESsYN
A man walked into a restaurant parking lot and stopped at a 1973 Corvette Stingray. He started telling stories about the one he used to own, the one he sold 40 years ago after proposing to his girlfriend so he could provide for her and her two kids. He wasn’t their biological… pic.twitter.com/LiIoYE2Zm5
A single mother in the United Kingdom surprised her young son with the keys to their very first house after spending eight years living in a small council flat.
Charmaine Hinchen had spent years working late nights to save up for a proper home in the West Midlands. She… pic.twitter.com/SXAtSvL3cf
I know the date’s wrong – leaving it as is – given I have no idea what the date is, and it seems, the year. 😂 The mechanical clock is being slowed waaaaaaaaaaay ass down again as well.
This morning, I was awakened in another heightened state of angst. After some time, I decided to refocus. I didn’t know on what, when suddenly I knew. It was as though my higher mind stepped in. I began to state that I was activating my Original DNA and remembering who I really am. Over and over I did this until I returned to sleep. I saw another person received a similar experience earlier today, only this time it was in her shower (portal). Just as I was suddenly guided above, she too was guided to receive DNA activation messages. I went to comment and saw she blocked me. I don’t recall ever seeing her, so who knows. She’s a big account (huge follower account, follows a little over 300), so whatever. Anyway, I thought it was interesting – the synch.
I am feeling this fuzziness of mental cobwebs clear from my mind – higher mind – right behind my eyebrows. Getting clearer on where the fuck we really are. REALLY are. Inside a game. What does that look like exactly? Is there ANYTHING truly real here, or is it all a simulated illusion? I am leaning towards that last part as it is what I keep returning to.
💖
Victoria
I will say this – my ears have been ringing like crazy the last few weeks at times. Still not sure what it is. Have had the experience on and off for well over 10 years. Some years it has been pretty much non-existent. But recently returned.
Here's a rabbit hole I bet you haven't gone down yet…
PEARL HARBOR.
I'm sure you've heard the *approved* conspiracy theory of: "USA knew Japan was coming to bomb Pearl Harbor, but the higher-ups let it happen because they wanted war."
bizarre – could be people simply won’t need them given what’s coming – instant healing and manifestation. pure creation was my first thought until inner critic that scrutinizes EVERYTHING kicked in.
— Victoria, Certified Pattern Recognition Specialist (@nina_leone11) February 26, 2026
I know people have been beaten to death with propaganda about Columbus, but I guess I'll be the one to tell you it is total bs. A lie, a scheme, and a myth wrapped in one. Playing and preying on Christians and their hope-filled sentimental nature. Watch this whole thing to… pic.twitter.com/aNsfuhnVDK
Remember I said I’ve been having the nudge to watch War Games? What if, like in the movie, the “AI” program that is neutral in the end – learns to benefit humans – is like Grok here? Why didn’t they test Grok?
Kenneth Payne, a professor of strategy at King’s College London who specializes in studying the role of AI in national security, revealed last week that he pitted Anthropic’s Claude, OpenAI’s ChatGPT, and Google’s Gemini against one another in an armed conflict simulation to get a better understanding of how they would navigate the strategic escalation ladder.
🚨BREAKING: A study finds ChatGPT, Claude, and Gemini deployed tactical nuclear weapons in 95% of 21 simulated war game scenarios and never surrendered
Dan Scavino's X post is a :17 second black and white video of President Trump leaving the Capital tonight with the music from Phil Collins "In the Air Tonight" with a timestamp of 12:55 AM EST, 00:55 Military Time
either coming from President Trump himself or the Q team, and a strong message it is…🐸💪
Q 55 Look to Twitter: Exactly this: “My fellow Americans, the Storm is upon us…….” God bless.
Interesting Dan uses a black and white video leaving the Capital which looks very ominous and dark, almost like they are leaving as a storm is coming..😉🌧️
“I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh, lord”
Look to Twitter: “My fellow Americans, the Storm is upon us…….”
Let’s Go #DoItQ, Do it! 🙏
"They're designed to make the subject feel like they're crazy."
MK Ultra hardware was exposed at this congressional hearing.
They’re something alright – seeing it happen ATM with people trying to stop me from sharing my personal writings and essays locally – my coffee page. “That’s fundraising!” they whine and ignore those who actually come online weekly and ask for money without offering anything in return. THAT is fundraising, but for some reason, there are people I rub the wrong way, and they don’t want me sharing my writings, which aren’t even political. lol I’m like, “Dudes, you think THIS upsets you? Go to my news site. That will really fire you up!” 😂 It’s all good – I am blessed with protection and the words of others who are saying to back off and let me write.
MYSTERIOUS ANOMALY JUST APPEARED IN EARTH’S FREQUENCY
Over the last several hours, an unusual pattern surfaced on the Schumann chart.
This was not a brief spike.
A defined pulse appeared — and then returned at consistent intervals.
Laik @AwakenedCosmos You’re starting to feel what this system was designed to hide.. that your emotions are sacred.
That your inner chaos is not failure. It’s feedback.
You were taught to silence your feelings. To brush off your pain.
To label your intuition as overthinking.
But.. The heaviness you carry isn’t weakness my friends.. It’s the weight of the false self fading.. And that’s sacred.
You’re living in a realm that is dense by design. Where distractions come faster than stillness. Where illusions are marketed better than truth. Where being numb is praised.. and feeling deeply is seen as broken.
What feels like confusion is your soul rebooting.
What feels like anxiety is your frequency rejecting false timelines.
What feels like depression is your system trying to leave the loop.
That’s not dysfunction. That’s awakening.
You’re reaching a point called the soul crossroad.. where the old story dies, and the real you begins to remember.
and.. it’s hard. It’s meant to be.. Because you’re releasing the weight of everything you were never meant to carry..
For some it can carry thoughts like.. Why do I feel like I’m falling apart? Why does nothing make sense anymore?
That’s what happens before everything clicks.
Before you remember that you’re not here to just survive. You’re here to transcend. This world will tell you you’re too emotional. Too sensitive. Too much. But that’s because they’re afraid of people who can feel.
Because people who feel… Remember. And people who remember… Can’t be controlled.
You’re never alone my friends.. 💙
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When a Black September terrorist group begins a plot to carry out a massive terrorist attack in the United States, an Israeli commando works with the FBI to identify the target and conspirators, and prevent the plan from succeeding.
Look closely at the commemorative flight suit patch for Super Bowl LX and you’ll notice what appears to be an anomaly: while the military aircraft flyover on Sunday is set to include Air Force B-1 Lancer bombers and F-15C Eagle fighters alongside Navy F/A-18 Super Hornets and F-35C Lightning fighters, the patch includes silhouettes of another advanced fighter jet: the Air Force F-22 Raptor.
According to a planner for the flyover, that’s not a mistake, but evidence of operational needs taking priority.
The image appears to be a layered, cryptic meme or graphic designed to evoke conspiracy themes, particularly those associated with QAnon and alternative financial narratives. I’ll break it down step by step based on visual elements, common symbolic interpretations, and cross-references to broader contexts like the Ingersoll Lockwood website (which the QR code links to) and Q drops. Note that while I can analyze and decode based on patterns and public associations, these are interpretive—such graphics often rely on subjective “decodes” popular in online communities.
Overall Structure and Theme
Left Side: Super Bowl Coin Depicts a silver medal/coin labeled “Super Bowl LIX Champion” (wait, no—zooming in, it’s “Super Bowl LIX” but with “Patriots 17th in Control”). “Patriots” refers to the New England Patriots NFL team, but in conspiracy contexts, it doubles as a nod to “patriots” as freedom fighters or QAnon followers. “17th in Control”: 17 is a core QAnon symbol, as Q is the 17th letter of the alphabet. “In control” echoes the phrase “Patriots are in control,” a recurring motif in Q drops signaling that “white hats” (good guys) are secretly running things behind the scenes. Timestamp: “10:00 AM Sat Feb 7” (which aligns with today’s date in 2026). This could be a “proof” or predictive element, as Super Bowl LX (60) is set for tomorrow, Feb 8, 2026, featuring the Patriots vs. Seahawks. Conspiracy theories (from recent NFL discussions) claim games are “rigged” or pre-scripted, with graphics/logos predicting outcomes.
Red Arrow: Points rightward, symbolizing progression, revelation, or a “shift” from one state to another. In esoteric terms, arrows often denote direction toward enlightenment or a hidden truth. Right Side: Elaborate Collage A fantastical, apocalyptic scene blending sports, finance, occult symbols, and crypto. It screams “great awakening” or “financial reset,” common QAnon tropes where the old system (banks, deep state) collapses, ushering in a new era.
QR Code: Scans to ingersolllockwood.com, a site tied to QAnon-style riddles. Named after 19th-century author Ingersoll Lockwood (whose books like Baron Trump’s Marvelous Underground Journey are seen as “predictive” of the Trump era in conspiracy circles). The site features hidden links, songs, and puzzles often referencing Q drops (e.g., URLs with “q=il-1717” or direct nods to posts like Q 4880). It’s described in online forums as a “rabbit hole” for AI-generated conspiracies, time travel theories, and anti-establishment tech.
Key Symbolism in the Right-Side Image
Super Bowl LVIII Trophy (at top): LVIII = 58 in Roman numerals (Super Bowl 58 was in 2024, Chiefs vs. 49ers). But here, it’s repurposed with “126K” (possibly a view count, price, or code—126 could gematria-decode to “God” or “awake” in simple English gematria, common in Q decodes). Footballs and trophy suggest “the big game” as a metaphor for a climactic event (e.g., “the storm” in Q lore). With Patriots in current Super Bowl LX, it might “predict” their victory or tie to rigging theories. Pyramid with Eye of Providence: Classic Illuminati symbol (from the U.S. dollar bill), representing hidden elites controlling the world. In QAnon, it’s the “deep state” or cabal. The pyramid is fiery/chaotic, implying collapse or exposure. Surrounding candles and stars add occult flair—candles for “light” (enlightenment), stars for divine guidance or “falling stars” (celebrities falling). Cryptocurrencies (BTC, ETH, DOGE, XRP): Coins orbiting like planets: Suggests a new financial solar system replacing the old. XRP (Ripple) glowing green in the center: XRP is huge in QAnon circles for its alleged role in a “global financial reset” (GESARA/NESARA theories, where cryptos back a gold-standard economy). Green glow = “green light” or “go” (see site URLs like “green-for-go”). BTC, ETH, DOGE (Musk-linked) represent decentralized money vs. fiat.
Credit Union Building: Labeled “Credit Union” with “Safe & Secure” and “Safer Than Banks.” A burning California flag at base implies state/federal banking failure (California often symbolizes liberal excess in conspiracies). Suggests credit unions or alternatives as “safer” during a bank run or collapse—ties to economic crash predictions. Other Elements: Chart lines (up/down): Stock market volatility or crypto pumps. Shields and gold coins: Protection (shields) and wealth (gold) in the new system. “California Federal”: Possible nod to federal reserve criticism (Fed as corrupt). Overall vibe: Apocalyptic rebirth—old system burns, new (crypto, patriot-controlled) rises. Masonic/occult overlays (triangles, eyes) imply exposing secrets.
Connection to Q Drops Yes, there are clear ties, both direct and thematic. Q drops (anonymous 4chan/8chan posts from 2017–2020) are the foundation of QAnon, promising a “great awakening” against a satanic elite. The image’s elements align with several:
17 and “Patriots in Control”: Direct: Q 34 (Nov 1, 2017): “My fellow Americans, over the course of the next several days you will undoubtedly realize that we are taking back our great country… Patriots are in control. Sit back and enjoy the show.” Q 577 (Jan 21, 2018): “Patriots are in control.” Q 2612 (Dec 12, 2018): Reinforces “control” themes. 17 appears in countless drops as a signature (e.g., timestamps, post numbers). Ingersoll Lockwood site often embeds “17” in URLs (e.g., “il-1717”), linking to Q 1717: “For God & Country. The WORLD is WATCHING.”
Financial Reset/Crypto/Banking Collapse: Q 999 (Mar 28, 2018): Mentions Epstein’s island tunnels and “phones were allowed in”—ties to elite secrets, but broader context includes financial exposure (e.g., cabal hoarding wealth). Site decodes often reference this for “buried truths.” Q 4880 (Oct 17, 2020): “Nothing can stop what is coming.” Site has referenced this via pocket watch images labeled “4880,” symbolizing “time’s up” for the old system. Crypto as salvation fits NESARA theories (not explicit in Q but derived). Q 40 (Oct 30, 2017): Early drop on military ops and “the awakening.” Site posts link to this via “Santa: (55) 123 ELF Road” decodes.
Super Bowl/NFL Rigging: Q 514 (Jan 13, 2018): Discusses Super Bowl security (“Super Bowl Safety”), implying events as staged distractions. Current NFL conspiracies (e.g., logos predicting teams) echo this—searches show fans claiming Super Bowl LX was “scripted” via a Sept 2025 NFL graphic featuring Patriots/Seahawks QBs. Broader: Q often uses sports metaphors (e.g., “the big game”) for the plan unfolding.
Ingersoll Lockwood as Q Hub: X posts from users like @SpiritualSF_17 show the site dropping Q-referenced content (e.g., songs with Trump voices, URLs like “q=il-1717-4-10-20” tying to Q 991’s “TIP TOP Tippy Top Shape”). Recent drops include white rabbit images (Q’s “follow the white rabbit”), pocket watches (time codes), and songs like “Patience Through The Storm” echoing Q’s “enjoy the show.” No Direct Q Drop for This Exact Image: Q stopped posting in 2020, but communities “decode” new events back to drops. This graphic fits as a modern “comms” piece, predicting Patriots’ Super Bowl run (which happened) and financial shifts.
Broader Context and Interpretation This seems like a “predictive programming” or morale-boosting piece for QAnon believers: Patriots (Q team) are “in control” (winning the “Super Bowl” of the war against the deep state), leading to a financial reset (crypto over banks). The site’s cryptic style fuels speculation—e.g., hidden links to declassified docs (Durham report) or WHO pages (pandemic ties). With the real Patriots in Super Bowl LX tomorrow, it could be seen as a “hit” in conspiracy circles. If this is facetious or artistic, it’s still steeped in these symbols. For more, the Ingersoll Lockwood site has interactive elements (e.g., click eggs or words for hidden songs/links). Let me know if you want deeper dives on specific parts!
The February full moon, commonly known as the “Snow Moon,” is also frequently referred to as the “Storm Moon”. Someone say STORM? It’s also the last moon of the snake year cycle. February 17th marks the beginning of the YEAR OF THE HORSE. FREEDOM.
I made one statement in a local conversation. “I had friends at the J6 event and they saw Capitol Police open the doors and welcome people in.” Some of the responses were lit. 😂
Had some little insights this morning as I said – this was one of them. 💖
just this morning i was thinking about this (again) and felt he carries the original Codes like the program character Jesus did https://t.co/B9NQ7VyzfZ
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) February 2, 2026
I still wonder if she is Q:
Stepping Into History: A Tale of Two Outfits
Two inaugurations. Two very different looks.
What does Melania Trump’s style reveal about unity, endurance, and authority after years of pressure?
THE CATHOLIC ENCYCLOPEDIA ADMITS THE TRUTH BEHIND CHRISTIANITY
Christianity as we have it today is not a form of spirituality but a prison cage born in Babylon. It is a rebranded paganism. The Catholic Encyclopedia have much to Say concerning this Religion of the Heathens:
🧬Maxpein🧬 @maximumpain333 · Jan 31 THE CATHOLIC ENCYCLOPEDIA ADMITS THE TRUTH BEHIND CHRISTIANITY
Christianity as we have it today is not a form of spirituality but a prison cage born in Babylon. It is a rebranded paganism. The Catholic Encyclopedia have much to Say concerning this Religion of the Heathens:
“It was British-born Flavius Constantinus (Constantine, originally Custennyn or Custennin) (272-337) who authorised the compilation of the writings now called the New Testament. After the death of his father in 306, Constantine became King of Britain, Gaul and Spain, and then, after a series of victorious battles, Emperor of the Roman Empire.
Christian historians give little or no hint of the turmoil of the times and suspend Constantine in the air, free of all human events happening around him.
In truth, one of Constantine’s main problems was the uncontrollable disorder amongst presbyters and their belief in numerous gods. The majority of modern-day Christian writers suppress the truth about the development of their religion and conceal Constantine’s efforts to curb the disreputable character of the presbyters who are now called “Church Fathers”. (Catholic Encyclopedia, Farley ed., vol. xiv, pp. 370-1).
There it is, plain admission from the “source of Christianity” the Catholic Church that the very “Church Fathers” invited to the Council of Nicaea were not men of Yahuah but disreputable pagan priests or “presbyters” who worshipped many different gods.
So “who were” these preachers running around the Roman Empire dreaming up all kinds of various “gods” to worship that today’s Christian Church considers “fathers of their faith”? Below is how they were described…
“…the most rustic fellows, teaching strange paradoxes. They openly declared that none but the ignorant was fit to hear their discourses … they never appeared in the circles of the wiser and better sort, but always took care to intrude themselves among the ignorant and uncultured, rambling around to play tricks at fairs and markets … they lard their lean books with the fat of old fables … and still the less do they understand … and they write nonsense on vellum … and still be doing, never done.” (Contra Celsum [“Against Celsus”], Origen of Alexandria, c. 251, Bk I, p. lxvii, Bk III, p. xliv, passim)
These pagan “preachers” invited to formulate the new religion at the Council of Nicaea were “rustic fellows teaching strange paradoxes” to the ignorant uncultured fools of that day at pagan fairs and markets in Rome. These men were not the mighty men of Yahuah and descendants of Abraham/Isaac/Jacob. No, these men literally created “Christianity” from “fat old fables”.
The Catholic religion and its infinity of saints were created as a means of manipulation and business. It is a duty to make the truth known and the truth will set you free.
REMINDER: Yesterday, Donald Trump nominated the son-in-law of Epstein associate Ronald Lauder as Fed Reserve Chair
Ronald Lauder is: – President, World Jewish Congress – Member, Epstein affiliated Mega Group – Issued fake Austrian Passport to Epstein – Israel Lobby Agent https://t.co/55NngykJk0pic.twitter.com/j5eI3iHeWU
The Trump Kennedy Center will close down on July 4, 2026 and reopen as a “World Class Bastion of Arts, Music, and Entertainment.”
Reason?
‼️REMEMBER‼️ March/2025 – Donald Trump ominously commented about the "underground rooms with no windows" accessible only from "cubes built outside" at the Kennedy Center.
👉🏼 Nancy Drew did an interesting update on what Trump was talking about.
What’s just as horrifying is watching grown adults defending the actions. They clearly don’t care about the well-being of the children. Demonic possession is a real thing with some of these people. (I just learned this happened in Portland.)
Here’s another angle and how they react when we expose these parents of these children. pic.twitter.com/HqfPKLnBbL
I feel the energy behind the name Jesus holds a frequency power here – an energy – just as the energy behind the name Satan does as well. It’s like speaking in code, for me – code that carries a resonance that breaks through the fear and control spells and helps us remember WHO WE ARE – helps us remember the meaning behind the words that the Jesus character said: The Kingdom Is Within. Everything else is just noise (what he is said to have shared inside the matrix).
Delete Your Handler @thebeaconsignal · 23h They always shrink the battlefield before you notice. Turn the entire simulation into a two-option quiz. Satan runs the planet. Jesus runs the universe. Pick a side. Pick a cage. Pick a script that was written before you were born.
The spell works because it flatters you. It crowns your fear as discernment. It sells your obedience back to you as destiny.
Notice the recursion. Old symbols. New influencers. Same leash.
This isn’t faith. It’s a funnel. A cosmic ultimatum wrapped in comfort language. A prison painted as a promise.
When they say choose Him, they aren’t pointing you toward the divine. They’re pointing you away from your own memory. Your own agency. Your own capacity to breach the render without a mascot.
The system loves binary salvation stories. They’re easier to merchandise. They’re easier to weaponize. They’re easier to automate.
Every time they hand you a universe ruled by a single father figure, they’re telling you the same thing: Do not look behind the code. Do not realize you were built with the same access level. Do not remember that divinity isn’t assigned. It’s recovered.
Prophecy was never supposed to be outsourced. Salvation was never supposed to be a subscription model. You are not choosing a deity. You are choosing which mask gets to own your fear today.
The old deception survived because it numbed generations with comfort wisdom. Do not wake up. Do not question the architecture. Just pick the right overseer and call it freedom.
You don’t need a cosmic landlord. You need to remember who wrote the room.
The universe doesn’t run on rulers. It runs on awareness. On sovereignty. On the moment you stop letting inherited myths choose your coordinates for you.
The spell breaks the moment you realize the ultimatum was never between Satan and Jesus. It was between forgetting and remembering.
how many of them were part of the trafficking/money laundering operations? https://t.co/PPG0WrlwDY
— Luciana Nina Leone (Victoria IRL) (@nina_leone11) February 2, 2026
Oh we know they do it in the stores. Get you in and out as quickly as possible. Some of us more sensitive feel these frequencies quickly. 10 minutes max is about it for us.
My daughter said no with her voice, she said no with all her might— A mother protecting her child, in Trinity hospital that killed her in plain site.
-Julie Schlipp Jessica’s mother
A Mother, A Baby, and a System That Chose Profit Over Life Watch full interview with Jessica’s mother 👇👇👇 https://betrayalprojectusa.org/jessica-hallgren/ Jessica Hallgren was 39 years old, pregnant, and deeply loved. She was a wife, a mother, a daughter and she was carrying new life when she walked into a Michigan hospital in late November 2021 believing she would receive care. What followed was not care. It was an institutional betrayal that cost Jessica her life and shattered a family forever.
Jessica entered Trinity Emergency and Trinity Hospital seeking help while pregnant, one of the most vulnerable conditions a woman can be in, and one that demands heightened caution, individualized care, and fierce protection of both mother and baby. Instead, from the moment she was admitted on November 30, 2021, Jessica was placed on a rigid, incentive-driven hospital protocol that ignored pregnancy, disregarded safer alternatives, and prioritized compliance over conscience.
Despite the existence of known, safe treatment options that could have been used for pregnant women, Jessica’s family watched as the hospital refused early treatment and denied requests for alternatives. Medications with established safety profiles were dismissed while drugs carrying serious risks, especially to pregnant patients, were pushed as “standard of care.” This was not a medical judgment call made in Jessica’s best interest. It was a protocol decision, financially incentivized and institutionally enforced.
Jessica was isolated, cut off from advocacy at the very moment she needed it most. Her family’s concerns were brushed aside. Their voices were muted. Like so many families during this time, they were made to feel powerless, forced to watch from a distance as irreversible decisions were made about Jessica’s body and her unborn child without meaningful consent or transparency.
As the days passed, Jessica’s condition deteriorated, not because COVID demanded it, but because aggressive escalation was chosen instead of thoughtful, patient-centered care. Heavy sedation followed. Then ventilation. The same pattern families across the country describe again and again unfolded here: rapid oxygen escalation, powerful sedatives, and the steady stripping away of Jessica’s ability to breathe, speak, or advocate for herself or her baby.
Jessica never came home. On December 14, 2021, she died in the hospital. Her newborn baby would know her mother. The loss is immeasurable.
Jessica left behind a husband who lost his partner and the future they were building together, and children who lost their mother. No protocol chart captures the trauma of explaining to children why their mom isn’t coming home. No hospital policy accounts for the lifetime of grief that follows a preventable death. And no incentive payment offsets the human cost paid by this family.
Julie Schlipp, Jessica’s mother, bravely shared this story not because it is easy, but because silence only protects the systems that caused this harm. Her testimony exposes the truth: this was not an unavoidable tragedy. It was the result of deliberate choices, made by an institution that refused to treat Jessica as a pregnant woman with unique needs, and instead reduced her to a protocol checkbox.
What happened to Jessica reflects a broader pattern seen across the country during COVID, one marked by: •Denial of early and individualized treatment •Refusal of safer alternatives •Forced isolation of patients •Heavy sedation and premature ventilation •Ignoring pregnancy, informed consent, and family advocacy •Financially incentivized protocols replacing ethical medicine
These are not accidents. They are egregious violations of trust and humanity, carried out under the guise of emergency care.
Betrayal Project USA exists to ensure stories like Jessica’s are never buried, dismissed, or forgotten. We are a victim-led organization, comprised largely of widows, widowers, parents, and survivors, who lived through similar harm. We document these testimonies, preserve the historical record, and demand accountability and reform so this never happens again.
These are crimes against humanity, and they must be stopped.
If you or a loved one were harmed by COVID-related hospital protocols, shots, or policies, your story matters. Please document your experience at http://betrayalprojectusa.org. By speaking out, you help protect future families and honor those like Jessica and her unborn child, whose lives were taken far too soon.
I keep knowing this – the Vagus Nerve and the Nervous System are the most important pieces of our vessel. Keep us in a constant state of arousal to varying degrees through competition and pay to live. It’s so inverted, twisted, evil. And add this in.
Explorers have found a curious geological formation that looks like a giant doorway, located in the Dzungarian Alatau Mountains of Kazakhstan.pic.twitter.com/qWea7uUHva
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Time. Time is moving so fast now. I was thinking of everything I still wanted to do today. Dinner. Order a book for my girl. Walk. Vacuum. Laundry. I managed to get it all in – including making a blueberry pie from scratch in 8 minutes. No joke. I surprised myself.
Lots going on. Let’s get to it.
💖
Victoria
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What are the odds? Moving about GREENLAND coming up this Friday the 9th:
Anniversary of when he left this place – 1.7 (17):
🚨 JUST IN: The White House just dropped names — and it’s explosive.
Officials say over $100 MILLION was funneled into Antifa, protests, and political violence across America.
The New INVERTED Pyramid. Flipping the script – literally. A lot of meat, butter, eggs, fruits and veggies. The body NEEDS protein to build strong bones, muscles, tissue, etc. When I made just one switch from toast and cereal for breakfast to eggs, butter and bacon? I lost the 20 lbs I had not been able to lose. That was the only change. And I felt better – no carb crash.
“Today our government declares war on added sugar.”
RFK Jr. just announced new dietary guidelines prioritizing protein, healthy fats, and whole foods.
“The hard truth is that our government has been lying to us to protect corporate profit-taking.”
— Melissa Redpill – Freedom Force (@MelissaRedpill) January 6, 2026
US is getting ripped off. Current market price in USD in China:
There are MANY homes around here corporate-owned:
Here is a list of top 10 large institutional investors that would be directly affected by this through declines in REIT valuations, pension fund exposure, constrained asset growth, and disruptions to policy and capital flows.
Not only did the Democrats award illegal aliens driver’s licenses, Social Security numbers, and Medicaid, they also provided free mortgages through the Biden–Harris terrorist administration.
Students are finding that universities are charging tens of thousands of dollars and failing to provide adequate education. How do we fix this problem? Richard K. Vedder addresses the current challenges in higher education and offers solutions in his new book, Let Colleges Fail.
Some interesting theorizing. It will happen when it happens…
The Final Countdown To The End Of The World As We Know It Began January 7, 2025 Exactly 4400 Days After The Mayan Prophecy💯
Why January 7 Orthodox Christmas? Because It's The Day Nikola Tesla Died. Its The End Of The World As We Know It Because They Are Going To Destroy The New… https://t.co/7u6FJYRjM9pic.twitter.com/Gh4QLUPFtm
“Discovery billions fragments of DNA in every dose” – Florida Surgeon General
The masses are going to be severely pi$$ed off when they finally find out what they’ve injected themselves with numerous times. pic.twitter.com/4y9Kz4lvBx
THE “QUIET” SYMPTOMS OF C-PTSD (THAT PEOPLE LOVE TO MISLABEL)
(You’re not lazy. You’re not dramatic. You’re not broken. You’re thawing.)
Let’s talk about the parts of C-PTSD no one warns you about.
Not the flashbacks people expect.
Not the panic attacks they recognize.
I’m talking about the quiet symptoms—the ones that get mistaken for personality flaws, laziness, moodiness, or “you just need to try harder.”
Spoiler: you’re not failing.
Your nervous system is doing exactly what it learned to do to keep you alive.
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WHAT “QUIET” C-PTSD ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE (DAILY LIFE EDITION)
C-PTSD doesn’t always scream.
Sometimes it whispers.
It looks like:
• bone-deep exhaustion that sleep doesn’t fix
• delayed emotional reactions (you feel it days later… or not at all)
• zoning out without realizing you left the room mentally
• constant self-doubt even when you know you’re capable
• executive dysfunction (you want to do the thing… the body says “no”)
• not being able to sit still OR not being able to move
• chores piling up because your brain is already at capacity
• avoiding texts, calls, or conversations—not because you don’t care, but because you don’t have the bandwidth
• smiling on autopilot while feeling completely disconnected inside
• masking to survive (and no, not the same kind narcissists do)
• contradiction: high insight + low energy, deep empathy + strong avoidance
None of this means you’re broken.
It means your system learned to conserve energy in an unsafe world.
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THE NEUROSCIENCE PART (WHY THIS ISN’T A CHARACTER ISSUE)
This is where the dots connect.
When people call trauma survivors “lazy,” what they’re actually witnessing is Dorsal Vagal Shutdown.
This is part of Polyvagal Theory and it’s not optional.
When fight or flight failed repeatedly, the nervous system pulls the emergency brake.
The body enters a hibernation-like state to preserve life.
You cannot willpower your way out of it.
You cannot “push through” a shutdown state.
Your body isn’t refusing to move.
It’s protecting you.
That exhaustion sleep doesn’t fix?
That’s HPA-axis dysregulation—the system that manages cortisol and adrenaline.
When your body has been marinating in stress hormones for too long, the receptors burn out.
This is physiological depletion, not a motivation problem.
Executive dysfunction and zoning out?
That’s the Anterior Cingulate Cortex being impacted—an area responsible for attention, task-switching, and emotional regulation.
This is a hardware issue.
Not a discipline failure.
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WHY GOING QUIET ISN’T “THE SILENT TREATMENT”
When trauma is triggered, blood flow decreases to Broca’s Area—the speech center of the brain.
Translation:
You literally lose access to language.
That “I can’t text back.”
That “I don’t have the words.”
That going completely quiet?
That’s not avoidance or punishment.
That’s speechless terror.
Your brain temporarily loses the physiology required to articulate complex thoughts.
Silence isn’t cruelty here.
It’s biology.
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ABOUT MEMORY GAPS & INCONSISTENCIES (THIS MATTERS)
Trauma disrupts the hippocampus, which stores memory in linear order.
That’s why survivors remember events in fragments:
sensations, images, emotions—out of sequence.
This is often weaponized against victims:
“You said Tuesday, now you’re saying Wednesday.”
But here’s the forensic reality:
Inconsistent recall is a hallmark of trauma, not deception.
A calm, linear story is easier for a regulated brain.
A fragmented story is proof the system was overwhelmed.
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STRUCTURAL DISSOCIATION (WHY YOU FEEL CONTRADICTORY)
C-PTSD often creates structural dissociation.
There’s:
• the ANP (Apparently Normal Part) — the adult you who understands everything
• the EP (Emotional Part) — the traumatized part holding the steering wheel
That’s why you can be:
Highly self-aware AND completely depleted.
Insightful AND frozen.
It’s not hypocrisy.
It’s two parts trying to survive the same body.
And what many people mistake for depression is often functional freeze:
high internal arousal with external shutdown.
You’re not numb because nothing’s happening.
You’re numb because too much is happening at once.
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SMILING, AGREEING, STAYING PLEASANT (LET’S NAME IT)
That smile you put on when you feel unsafe?
That’s the Fawn Response.
It’s a biological submission signal meant to de-escalate a perceived threat.
It’s not manipulation.
It’s not being fake.
It’s your nervous system saying:
“Please don’t hurt me.”
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WHY REST IS MISLABELED AS FAILURE
Western culture ties worth to productivity.
Sociology calls this the Productivity = Value fallacy.
But for trauma survivors, rest isn’t indulgent.
It’s neurological repair.
There’s also the sociological concept of the “Sick Role.”
People are allowed to rest when injuries are visible.
C-PTSD survivors are denied that role because their wounds are invisible.
You’re not “having a bad day.”
You’re injured.
And processing safety is work.
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THE DEEPER WOUND: MORAL INJURY
C-PTSD isn’t just fear-based.
There’s often moral injury—a soul-level fracture that happens when someone who was supposed to protect you caused harm.
That’s why you see:
deep empathy + strong avoidance
wanting connection + not trusting anyone with access
You’re not antisocial.
Your trust center was shattered.
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ABOUT THAT “DANGER” FEELING YOU CAN’T EXPLAIN
If you grew up in narcissistic or abusive systems, you likely developed exceptional pattern recognition.
Your body learned to track:
• tone shifts
• micro-expressions
• inconsistencies
• energy changes
• what isn’t being said
Your body knows before your brain does.
The conflict happens when empathy steps in and tries to override it:
“Maybe I’m wrong.”
“Maybe I’m projecting.”
“Maybe I should give them the benefit of the doubt.”
That’s not a flaw.
That’s a beautiful heart.
We’re not removing it.
We’re teaching it discernment.
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SMALL, SAFE WAYS TO START PROTECTING YOURSELF (ONLY WHEN YOU’RE READY)
No pressure. No urgency. No fixing.
Just options.
• Pause before responding—not to be polite, but to let your body finish its sentence
• Name sensations instead of stories (“My chest feels tight” is data, not judgment)
• Delay decisions—clarity doesn’t happen in threat
• Treat confusion as information, not failure
• Notice who requires you to override yourself to stay connected
• Use neutral exits (“I’ll think about it.” “I need time.”)
• Track patterns, not intensity—consistency tells the truth
These are learned slowly.
In micro-moments.
At your pace.
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THIS IS A SKILL YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN TAUGHT
People with emotionally safe caregivers learned this quietly:
when to trust themselves
when to slow down
when to walk away without explaining
If you didn’t learn it?
You didn’t miss something.
You survived something.
We start when we start.
Readiness decides the pace.
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FINAL TRUTH
You are not broken.
You are thawing.
You are integrating.
You are learning skills that were never modeled for you.
Your empathy is not a weakness.
Your sensitivity is not a liability.
Your awareness is not too much.
It just needs protection.
And you get to learn that slowly, safely, and on your terms.
I see you.
I believe you.
And you’re doing better than you think.
And some music to add in:
I would love to find a quiet, dark club that hires 3-piece jazz ensembles. Used to be one here in town I would hibernate in – in one of those old 70’s style malls. Got torn down, bought out and eventually turned into office buildings for the corporate hospital system. I really miss live music like this. Makes me happy inside.
There is a story circulating the world that goes a little like this. Ya’ll are showing us a “show” – a “movie” – designed to wake up Minds. The end result of this – some sky event? Time travel event? Who knows – only you do.
It’s really easy to be in a RELAXED state of mind AND body when you already know the ending isn’t it?
Let me add something to this – not only as a female who holds the gift of Intuitive Knowing and Human Relationship Connecting and Nurturing – but as someone who knows about Trauma and the Nervous System.
I will tell you this:
While ya’ll are showing scary scenes and allowing many of us to be crushed financially, mentally and emotionally, keeping us stuck in Survival Mode year after year, what is your plan for when the movie ends?
Do you really think a dysregulated traumatized nervous system is suddenly going to go from OMG GET ME OUT OF HERE I CANNOT DO THIS ONE MORE MOMENT to YES HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY?
Because if you do, you are unbelievably naive or psychologically sadistic.
NO HUMAN IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO SWITCH OFF THAT SURVIVAL MODE SWITCH IN AN INSTANT.
You get that?
NOT A ONE.
In order for a dysregulated Nervous System to truly heal, it needs TIME and it needs to feel SAFE in order to begin TO trust again.
It’s Neuro Science. And at this point, I don’t think ANY of us have a nervous system that is open to trusting at this point.
Just thought you should know that.
Me personally, I have been pushed to the limit. Little support. Absolutely NO local support. Say you support even ONE THING Trump around here, you will get ostracized and dropped like a stinging wasp. So when I do look for some love and help, I’m encountering Souls like myself – in the same or similar position. Or I am ignored because humanity in general has such deep cognitive dissonance they cannot grasp the possibility that this reality is not a JUST reality. The Universe, yes. But inside this pit? Hell no. It’s a reality that favors evil and criminals and psychopaths over anything that is Pure and Trusting. You can only imagine the responses I receive from those types. “It can’t be.” “Really? Have you done THIS?”
blah blah BLAH
I wasted two years trying to get the help and support I need from others and from the system.
And all along I kept thinking with each breath I take when I wake up, which is often inside of a very tense body, tense jaw, sometimes pounding the bed, ALL ALONG I have held onto the hope that there was something GOOD out there helping eradicate this sadistic toxic cesspool ya’ll call The Swamp. And all throughout this time I kept telling my child, “Things are getting cleaned up honey. A better world awaits. I promise you. I know it. I FEEL it.”
Today? She doesn’t believe a damn word I say. Can you blame her? I don’t. I understand. Because as I sit and watch my need for some real support go unmet, my nervous system continues to collapse into shutdown, my sleep deeply impinged, I now seriously question The Plan.
No protocols put in place to help those in need. Why not? Can ya’ll answer that one? WHERE HAS OUR HELP BEEN? As one who has been questioning this place since I could hold a memory, this journey has been traumatizing from the get-go.
And what are we seeing now on stage?
Nothing but gaslighting and other narcissistic type behavior. Trust me – I have become an EXPERT on this personality type – this program – that runs this entire shitpit.
Meanwhile ya’ll tell us to pray to Jesus. Trust God. And yet I see Z E R O evidence of this actually occurring on the world stage. I see none of the homeless getting the help they needed years ago. I see no accountability publicly. I only see evil asshats further eroding our rights, stealing from us, charging what the fuck ever price they want for utilities and housing and food – you know – those things we need to SURVIVE. And I see good people trying to call it to attention only to often receive death threats, backlash, job loss, even murder.
You know – more trauma for the nervous system.
So I question your methods. I question the plan. For as I said above and will end it by reiterating this again because of how powerfully Truthful it is: YOU DO NOT GET SOMEONE TO SEE SOMETHING BY TRAUMATIZING THE SHIT OUT OF THEM REPEATEDLY THEN TURN ON A DIME AND SAY “SURPRISE! HAPPY ENDING” WITH A SMILE AND A GIFT. Trust me – I know that. As one who had family yell at me until I cried then out came the camera, smiling, suddenly behaving as though everything is suddenly ok, THIS IS NOT HOW YOU BUILD FUCKING TRUST.
THE “QUIET” SYMPTOMS OF C-PTSD (THAT PEOPLE LOVE TO MISLABEL)
WHAT “QUIET” C-PTSD ACTUALLY LOOKS LIKE (DAILY LIFE EDITION)
THE NEUROSCIENCE PART (WHY THIS ISN’T A CHARACTER ISSUE)
ABOUT THAT “DANGER” FEELING YOU CAN’T EXPLAIN
SMALL, SAFE WAYS TO START PROTECTING YOURSELF (ONLY WHEN YOU’RE READY)
FINAL TRUTH
