Today’s Reflection~Feeling “forced” into someone else’s experience

 

i am starting to feel very off about something i see currently being shared – the idea that all is merging back into One.  i under and inner-stand that. what i don’t align with however is this idea that we all have to be on the same page.

really?

if this is about Freedom – which i feel it is – freedom from all controls – then doesn’t that include the right to have your OWN experience?  love is inclusive however that doesn’t include being forced into sharing the experience of another.

i continue to align with this very basic concept:  all merges back into One and in that ONE are a myriad of experiences.  spheres within one Sphere.  just as there is a vast difference in physical forms – there are differences in experiences.  in choices.  in our freedom TO choose whatever that experience is.

i do not align with nor consent having to wait because people refuse to awaken.  i also feeeeeeeeeeeel many of these “people” aren’t real in terms of humankind.  they are serving a purpose – to keep the construct going.

and these messages of “we have to wait for x y z” – yet again – feeeeel to me to be just more matrix programming – from the very controllers themselves who do not wish to give up control and be seen.

we have more than one plan playing out and yet all is connected.  this is how i see and feel it.  Trump is working with a myriad of people/being’s and has utilized off-world tech to ensure his/that particular plan goes off smoothly and is guaranteed a success.  to do that involved using this said tech that allowed for them to plan for every possible obstacle and outcome.  has Q ever said words like “we didn’t anticipate people would refuse to awaken?” of course not because they KNEW ahead of time.

so why would off-world beings from an alleged “alliance” show surprise for how some are refusing to budge?  wouldn’t they have already SEEN this? aren’t they, after all, in the space of “no time” where ALL exists and ALL flows in the Now?

and all of this being said – wouldn’t there be help and/or the use of tech to help awaken those who aren’t able to for whatever reason?

whose plan is this?  don’t those of us who are awake (as much as we can be in this given frequency space) get to have a say?  play a role?  this is impacting ALL so ALL get to have a role.  perhaps that’s why the recent dreams i had of meetings i and others i saw who are in form here were saying “NO DEALS”.  and as type these words i feel this also includes “NO STALLING” esp. when this stalling is being used to protect the very ones who created this game.

am i missing something?  or am i on to something?  a bit of both?

i realize i don’t have the entire picture here and thus i go by my inner Truth Radar.  and she raises up immediately these days when i feel something that does not align with me.  and such messages as i share above are setting Her off – at the very least – giving me the opportunity to go within and feel this out instead of just taking someone else’s word and their request that we just trust THEM to carry this out.

trust us as we tell you “no you cannot have this experience quite yet”.

we have heard those words before haven’t we – from the very being’s who create and control this very system we are dismantling.

this leads me then – to conclude – that there WILL be what seems like, at first, a “split” when in truth it is still ALL transitioning away from this experience but for those not able to awaken or comfortable to the ideas of Freedom (full ability returned to create ones own experience without ANY power over) – will have that while the rest return to our Original Humankind Experience.

that feels more loving to me than allowing more struggle and suffer in order to bring all on board.  that “leftist” agenda of include all and force fit that if need be.

NO THANK YOU.

love,

victoria

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Trump comment on Clinton and Epstein Island “a lot of problems coming up….

 

appropriate timing to share this one given the domino that fell today…

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Angela Merkel shakes AGAIN during official ceremony (VIDEO)

 

Concerns for German Chancellor Angela Merkel’s health grow once more as she was filmed struggling to keep her composure and visibly shaking during an official ceremony for the second time this month.

The incident happened during the formal appointing of the new justice minister in Berlin’s Bellevue Palace on Thursday morning. The chancellor began shaking while standing next to German President Frank-Walter Steinmeier, who was delivering a speech. The shaking stopped and resumed several times.

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Today’s News in a Reflection

 

more of the same.

continuing to see more of the insanity – same story-lines – just recirculated…..

more people dying who “know too much” (again – why not assign them bodyguards??)……..we see no proof of swamp creature arrests (only to be told to trust the plan)….chemtrails continue….and now POTUS has agreed to make it easier for GMO’s to hit our shelves.  WTAF?!

i’m not saying change isn’t happening………everything in my body is saying this is happening far.  too.  slowly.  those of us who align with Home feel it and know it.

it’s like i’m on alternating timelines as well.  a nice, pure, beautiful one that aligns and resonates with me.  i see and feel the change……then BAM onto the other one that is showing signs of the same still going on and amping up……it feels heavy and stagnate and utterly oppressive……

is this the west and east scenarios?  is that possible?  perhaps i will ask rose her thoughts on this one.  i know the “the chaos continues until the end” and the “soon” narratives no longer feel right.

my sensitivities continue to heighten……..i can spot mutual “star seeds” quickly  now….it’s subtle but immediate……..certain foods continue to leave my diet……beans in particular lately……..fruit continues to be my staple food…….ground hamburger, chicken, eggs and butter for protein……..(no judgment from the vegan crowd – i give my body what it says it needs)………sensitivity to the environment in general – dust, pollen, temperatures…….my body craves and needs neutrality – extremes i can no longer do comfortably or at least as i once could…..

anxiety anyone???

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yesterday i was like the being on the left……..mate returned from a doc visit with more tests needed and some rather discouraging results from recent tests…..and not like they can heal him of course…..so yeah – no one will be telling me to be “patient” anymore……we have been patient….most of his health issues – along with every one else here – were created by those who have controlled this perverse realm…i’ve known of real repressed cures for 20 some years……and currently available alt cures come at a cost that are not in our budget…most especially now given we have taken a near $200/month hit since january….i intend….release………..allow……….begin to receive.

then get hit.  and the cycle repeats.  no g.d. more.

the most powerful, the most bright, the most beautiful, the most all knowing and the most Pure get targeted the most here.  i hold absolutely NO doubts on that one now.  

NEVER once thought/felt this charade would still be playing out by summer……..and yet – here we are………..

my dreams continue to change……i am seeing more people from my “past” who have passed – having brief conversations with them….

so yes….the waiting “game”…..some don’t have that desire or ability…….the waving of the carrot – “look what’s coming” – needs to stop….the coded messages we are expected to figure out on our own…….i see how such a game would align with some…….but for myself and for others – i/we don’t play games……authenticity is what we want……..transparency……….i never consented to this system………i tried to make a life in it (by faking it – keeping real me quiet)….and i failed miserably lol (as compared to others who have had careers, homes, societal definition of “success”)……

so uh………ok………CAN WE GO HOME NOW?  curtain open…….event now. thank you.

love,

victoria

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Today’s Share ~ 6/7/19

 

Energetically, today was – new.  It’s late afternoon and I sit here – rather amazed – baffled – at how much I accomplished.  And I didn’t feel stressed or rushed.  I did more than I do on most days, too.  And these doing’s included things I enjoy, including playing the piano, which I will share my pieces later after I upload.

It’s as though I was in the Flow – but not just the Flow that we experience here.  I cannot describe this. It’s a subtle – but noticeable – shift.  Perhaps it’s due to my strong assertion last night and again this morning that I command Home Energies and Experiences Now.  And I found my center again after playing the piano and punching my bag.

Is this experience of “how did I do all of this and have so much ‘time’ left over for the rest of the day” permanent or just a preview?  I don’t know.  For now – I am grateful for it.  Thank You More Please!

Speaking of “Home” I am seeing this longing is particularly strong right now.  Are we getting more connected there and more disconnected here? That’s my feel.  When I attempt to tune in “there” I am feeling silence again after having some experiences where I felt more connections.  I attempt to pull my attention away and focus here and now – but that pull for Home never leaves and continues to come in waves.  It’s like sitting at a table of dishes and none of them are appealing to you – no matter how you make the effort to convince yourself to the contrary.  And you sense/feel and have had visions of another table of dishes that align completely with who you are. You want what resonates – at least the Freedom to sit at the dang table.

For now it continues to be as it is.

On to the last share.  Money.  I pause…laugh a bit.  It’s my least favorite topic imaginable to discuss.  (Ask my mate to confirm that statement.  ha!)  But it remains one of the most important factors of this experience.  I have mentioned we took another $ hit last month ($45) – that is permanent.  So as always, any and all donations help out greatly.  You can also help by ordering some of my rather awesome Tooth Powder or if you are using CBD Oil or considering using, I am an affiliate with a great company out of Portland, Oregon, SELECT.  I am also going to be signing up with another business whose products I use and value (a mineral make-up – Vegan – awesome product line and VERY economical).  I will link that once sign up (just discovered that late last night they offer an affiliate program).  Links to all are below.

As always, THANK YOU to all of you for reading and supporting my work.  I have love and gratitude for every one of you.  And a special “Hi ya’ll” and “WELCOME!” to my new subscribers.  After a lull, I have experienced a sudden flux of newbies.

Much love,

Victoria

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Today’s Energy captures and Photo captures

 

protons continue to spike quite intensely….and the MIMIC Array (Version 2) – is showing those white-out images again.  the first MIMIC (version 1) was essentially completely whited-out in February of this year after weeks of white-out images increasing.  after this occurred, they updated to a Version 2.  well as many say, no amount of system tech can stop nor hide what’s coming.  Source/Truth rolls that way.

i thought i would share a couple of pictures from my walk tonight.  the colors are so vibrant around here – our gardens doing amazing as i have mentioned.  i am noticing changing landscapes too.  i think i mentioned in our yard the dandelions disappeared and instead we have little white daisies.  i have wondered where the dandelions have gone.  tonight on our walk my girl and i noticed this small patch of moss that we love to walk on in our bare feet in the warmer weather.  we’ve done this for years.  tonight we noticed it is now covered in dandelions.  no joke.  program changes obviously.  question is – WHO changed that particular program?

my dreamstate experiences continue.  all new.  feeling movement – lots of changes.  last night i was in a restaurant-type environment.  subdued lighting.  i felt i was there waiting for something/someone to make an appearance.  i also remember i was drawn to focus on one being in particular – male – 40’s – kind of burly/bulky – unshaven – wearing a wool stocking cap.  he had his elbows on the table (the tables were wooden) and he was drinking a beverage, sitting by himself.  i felt i knew him but it was not yet time to talk with him so i observed for a brief time and the experience ended.  interesting to later hear from brother rick later in the day today and he said he too was in a restaurant last night waiting for someone to speak.

that is all for now.

love,

victoria

 

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Today’s Reflections ~ 5/17/19

 

Happy “Q” Quantum day!

I awoke this morning carrying the frustrations of yesterday only at a more intense level.  The desire was to jump out of my skin – at least out of my clothes- and just run….run until that energy was removed.  Released.

We had our daughter’s birthday celebration today – a house full of children. It can be easy to forget how sensitive we have become.  The most sensitive of the children became overwhelmed (including our girl) and tired so we wrapped things up early and I took the most “busy” children home, thus allowing the most sensitive time alone to play.  The old program of “now include all Victoria” kicked in but I ignored it and did what needed to be done for the ones obviously needing quiet.  Another program – include ALL. Inclusiveness – even when that means creating stress or harm for others. The whole “pick a side” – “black or white” – which I witness regularly on the left and right.  Life is a myriad of shades – and a paradox – and thus truth is found in every nook and cranny.

I had a lot of thoughts go through my mind during the celebration – and in the downtime after.  I thought about the hours children spend in public schools each day – how draining that is for the most sensitive of them.  The programming of the left hemisphere while the rest of the Being is left to slowly close up until…..

I thought of the program of time the matrix creator’s placed here – which was interesting as earlier this evening I saw a social media MEME that said The Universe is in no hurry – no rush – and we must be patient.  That time thing, I thought.  The Universe – that Consciousness – does not experience time.  We in this prison however do, which is why we DO become impatient because it is UNNATURAL for our Creative Pure Being to HAVE to “be patient”.  That is not our natural program – but only one of the forced programs here.

Earlier in the day I had some moments of body weirdness – woozy/dizzy and some moments of inner body pains that were unusual.  The longing for Home was more intense today than it has been in months.

I dislike discussing money and continue to hope pay to live ends like yesterday – but we took another hit today.  One of our sources of income dropped by $45 – which is a lot to this family.  I was upset for just a few moments though.  It is as it is and not worth my time to stress.  Any of you wish to help out with that I would appreciate it!  And remember I also make/sell my own tooth powder (found under the products menu) and I am also a Select CBD Affiliate (hemp-derived CBD oils and other products) – link here.  And I still have a myriad of hand-crafted, beautiful Triskelion necklaces for sale.  Inquire here fmi.

I am still trying to figure out what is showing up on LASCO.  The cluster on the left is the Pleiades.  That object on the right though is still up to discussion.  It may be Mercury – however my research continues to show the next transit to be in November 11/12 of this year – and it shows up as a tiny black dot.  And if it IS on approach to the sun it is going very fast (and what are those lines coming through and out of it?)   When they do transit in May (for this century) it is between the dates of 7-10th. source

For now I am finding my center again after a wonderful but very exhausting day.

Love,

Victoria

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Today’s Energies and a personal share

 

sometimes a picture best describes how one is experiencing a particular day. here is how i felt today:

at one point i had to ground and say “stay awake and stay in the body”….i had a couple of waves of something come over me….dizzy feel a couple of times….they kinda come in and go out these days….feeling like i was suddenly hmmm not able to walk straight?  yes – that is how i want to describe that…i keep thinking i should exercise but that feels like too much work….just moments ago i was looking over at my mate and he was patting his belly and i just knew he was thinking the same thing…i giggled as i watched him as i had just finished doing the same…..we are both just SPENT. P E R I O D.

did i mention i am also ravishingly hungry suddenly again?

i know i had other experiences but i cannot recall them….so i will pass along this personal share….it MAY line up with something the Cat’s had to say….or it may not….i share this with zero zip none nada attachment…

last week i had something come to me…..about this weekend…..our girl recently had a birthday and she is having the party this weekend….for some reason as i thought about this in the shower one evening i recalled the first “home” dream i had some 12 years ago – about 3 years before i was pregnant with our girl….in the experience i had a feeling we just arrived…as i have mentioned before, in the dream there was a group of kids i was feeding and one i knew was ours – a girl (who looked like our daughter now)….so i wondered why i had that recall and thought this weekend – her party – had something to do with the event….not that her party triggers anything of course – but that this could be a correlating event – something for me to put together WITH a mass transition/energy event….that’s what i thought at the time but didn’t want to share it because i have this ridiculous lingering #)$%! program about jinxing things if i share a hunch…….BLAH there finally said that out loud for the world to see perhaps now i can destroy it for good….

so reading the Cat’s latest about this weekend (the full moon is saturday the 18th)…i’m thinking perhaps there IS something to connect this upcoming birthday party and the event – or something associated WITH it….

so there you have it………i leave it here and walk away while saying “i own none of this material it just came to me from Source Me do with it what you will”……..lol

speaking of Source i awoke hearing “The Force is with you”……..cool huh? then thought the Force is a perfectly created word that combines Flow and Source.

The Force be with You all ~

Victoria

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Today’s Reflection: Energies. Site issues. Moments of humbleness…

 

Well the day began with the notification my site’s hosting service had been deactivated due to a violation of their terms of service.  The violation was due to loading speed, causing lag time on their servers, affecting other customers who share the server w/me.  I contacted my host – first via chat – and with their patient help, assisted this tech-challenged person with making some changes to the site to help increase the loading speed.  I was then told the admins had to verify what was done to fix the issue and thus reinstate my site which would take up to 48 hours.

Hmm, I thought.  Why wasn’t I notified of this?  This is a money-generating site and having it down was something that, well, scared me (more on that later).  So I phoned them up after the chat and spoke to another awesome CSR who agreed – I should have been notified of this issue so we could work together to resolve it rather than just shut down my site and leave me in the dark.  So I got that taken care of and now I am up and running again – with a lot of plugins being removed.  Next step will be to see the cost of working with a sister agency of my hosting service where people much more skilled than I can help me determine the best plug-ins to use, themes, security, etc. For now all appears ok.

This brought up issues of fear for me, as I said.  I feel there were a couple of influences at play.  One the matrix poking me.  Love doesn’t “poke”.  Love presents – without judgment – and always with the assistance to help.  I also feel this poke also included a tap from higher self that said “let it go and trust in ME”.  No surprise I also have been having repeated dream themes the last week.  Many fears arising now.  I’m seeing the need to face them as they are without judgment – and love every one of them.  Do the best I can in this environment – in this realm – these frequencies and mostly with the deception.

All those aspects of me.  The wounded child.  The wounded ego.  Limited programming – limited in that I am ALSO so many other characters of Greatness.  Beauty.  Love.

And all of the challenging personality behaviors and beliefs/thoughts/stories that come up with them.

How I dealt with the website issue was another good indicator of my need to allow.  Trust.  Release.  And respond (w/o the drama of reacting which is exactly what the matrix wants and which is also why those old programs hooked into us poke).  I missed that mark for a little bit – until I hit it by simply responding and letting what will be – BE.

I know what to do.  I just have to WANT to motivate myself TO do the “doing”.  Make sense?

Take a breath.  Step back.  RELAX.

So I spent time reflecting on this as I waited for the site to come back up – which was not a guarantee.  I found that peace in all of it.  Small – but it was there.  A start.

In my experience of being humbled by seeing me – I bring out my Greatness.

So onto these energies…..Something is up and it isn’t just the protons and isn’t just the plasma density and speed(which you will see below).  I was tuning in as I watered out front earlier.  Our ground looks as though we are in mid summer.  Dry, cracked – deprived of moisture.  We just came out of a long cool, wet winter so this makes no “sense” to the logic.  What I felt was this is proof we have been moved – this realm in which we reside.  Or it could be a result from the chem’ing – creating an effect of dehydration for nature.  That also brings about a sense of perplexity for me as just a few weeks ago I could smell mold/mildew which thrives in damp environments. Now the smell seems to have disappeared.  How could this switch happen so quickly?  Other than we have been moved closer to the exit – again – recently.

That could explain that ring around the sun which some are now also agreeing with my feel – at least aligning with it – that this looks like a stargate.  Yellow Rose has been saying we get pulled out of this realm then the sun goes NOVA.  And that perfectly aligned ring indeed looks like a stargate.  So I am staying with this perception/feel for now.  And perhaps as well these pokes can be used in a way to strengthen us to respond to the pokes – so we leave the old drama behind.  I had the visual of a strainer – the “good” stuff makes it through – the residue gets left behind.  What is no longer needed.

I’m ready for that.  I’m sure you are too.

Love,

Victoria

 

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Today’s Experiences/Reflection and some energy reads

 

today was…..strange.  feeling not altogether “here” but in a new way.  i absolutely did not want to get out of bed so getting myself up and out i was quite crabby.  i was able to get myself going albeit it not up to par.  then around 2:30pm (pacific time) i was hit with a very strong wave of nausea and weird head/dizzy thing.  at first i thought it was just something going on with me until i learned moments later my mate experienced the exact same thing.

an hour or so later, i was outside doing some gardening.  mate and child were gone so i was able to hear myself think.  i felt guided to fast/go easy this week to allow for an easier acclimation to the huge, massive energies i was feeling were incoming.  no proof – just a feel.

so interestingly enough, doing some research later on, i see that the Cats were saying the same thing in their latest.  i will link that next.

the sun gave out a huge burst – according to BPEarthwatch, it hit the earth within 8 seconds.  amazingly fast.  the protons have a spike like i haven’t seen before – off the charts.  a rise in the electrons.  lasco c2 and c3 are back online (you will see the blast leaving the sun and some big ‘ole tube-shape craft).  and the lattice pattern is back on the schumann.  sharing some images below.

i slept hard for about 20 minutes before dinner tonight.  normally don’t crash out that early but i did.  still feel the intense need to sleep so an early night for me.  my body is needing to stretch and elongate – which i did earlier in the day.  just feeling the need to baby myself.  something is going on – a “something” i haven’t felt for quite some time.

i will leave it at that.  let me know how you’re all doing at this moment.

love,

victoria

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