Early today I saw this question posed: Are you feeling the true zero point?it’s here. The time (at that time) said the message was posted 34 minutes ago.
Interestingly enough, about 30 minutes prior to that I was in bed – awake after a much needed nap- trying to get some answers. Something I could grab onto. A visual. A thought. A plan. An answer. SOMETHING. I couldn’t get or feel or see a thing. Not one thing. NO THING. I felt inner distress. The stories began. “I SHOULD be able to find SOMETHING. I SHOULD be receiving SOME guidance/answer.” argh!!
I felt the need to move and release and get out of me what I was feeling ~ which was the need to destroy. Tear up. Rip apart something.
Darkness. My darkness.
Of note – at the same time mate was also lying in bed doing the same – and he shared how saw dark rings coming out of him. He knew it was his darkness. He let it go.
I got up – saw the post above on zero point – shared my experience – then I began to release. Talk. Cry. All of the disappointment. The anger. Coming down to feeling how much of “ME” was robbed during this life experience. the abuse. The horrors. Trauma’s. How difficult it is for me as I have “aged” to be around Light at times for it reminds me of how that was attacked.
And then of course…the Truth….that Light never “left”. Never did get destroyed. Just hidden. Gone in hiding for fear of being Seen which in past has lead to attacks. Even today….
But what shall I expect? The dark to embrace the Light?
Isn’t it the other way around?
I shall leave it at that….
Much love,
Victoria
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it’s so easy to forget who we are and what we are and what we need and desire: love. to be love. to be loved. john lennon’s song “love” has been present within me for awhile now. “love is asking…to be loved.” “love is free. free is love.” such simple words. Being really is simple because love is simple ~ when we have an environment conducive to being in the state. and it is this whatever we call it – realm, planet (or the shit pit as i began calling it recently) – the systems of control that well ok i know i sound like a broken record but some days my body just drags and i wonder “how much longer can i keep at this?” today on my way to get some food, i heard “you are at the final stage” and as i heard that i was guided to look at a license place and the letters were FNA…
i call for the collective love energy wave to sweep over each of us. each night i go within and find where i am IT ~ connected to IT – and ask for a fill-up. and to remember ~ I AM IT and don’t need to ask to be filled up with it – but i do anyways until I am IT again – 24/7/365. sigh…just very emotional today although that began to fade and i noticed the schumann grew quiet. now i am quiet and tired, inward, reflective although the reflection is the same inner experience. i wish for the constant spike of those energies – those love frequencies. it is time we be in that State ~ All Ways and Always. [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]
You know what’s going to be uber awesome? Not needing to keep track of dates, times, hours, etc. Oooooooh bring that now please ~ not just in my brain which has almost zero sense of any of that anymore. This coming from the solid Capricorn who always knew the day/date/time, how much was in my checking account down to the penny and today? Well it just doesn’t matter much to me.
So anyway tribe…today’s experience journey actually begins at 2am last night, so officially still 4/19. I was getting ready for bed and noticed a spider in the bathroom. I was not comfortable going to bed knowing it was going to be crawling around the house (it’s just a thing with me, ok?). Normally I could catch and release but I was too tired to do that. I also did not want to squash it. So I sighed and spoke out loud. “I see you there. And I acknowledge you. You know what though? I am not comfortable with you crawling around my house and I have no desire to kill you and am too tired to catch you and let you go. So could you please just do me a favor and go back to where you came from? I would be so appreciative if you did that.”
I had NO attachment to this and had ZERO thought this would work. Because it has never worked for me.
But this time IT DID. As soon as I stopped talking, that spider spun a web, dropped itself down on top of my dryer and crawled away. Just like that!
WOW!!
I was so giddy I about woke up the rest of the house with my enthusiasm.
I need not be surprised over this though. As the energies change us ~ they change the All. And we are now becoming more in tune with our environment ~ with the animals and all sentient beings.
I had a new earth experience today ~ at the same time my mate did (unbeknownst to us both at the time). The first time I had a dream of this new earth realm, I was making sandwiches for my daughter (who at the time had not been born ~ nor was I pregnant with her yet) and a group of other kids. Peanut butter sandwiches, of which I manifested all necessary ingredients with my mind only. My mate had the same dream about a year later. At the time we were not familiar with the new earth or 5D concept and were not on the Ascension bandwagon either.
So….This afternoon our girl had a friend over and I made them sandwiches (tuna). As I began preparing, something called me to “remember this experience” and to imagine myself in the kitchen of the new house ~ bringing me back to the first dream (which was not just a dream). As I did, I could feel the wonky feeling in my body.
At this time, my mate was outside, aware I had gone in to make the kids sandwiches. As I did, he said he suddenly had this thought to “remember this experience” and to focus on being in the new earth realm ~ at our house. It was easy for him to go there. Later on, I told him of my experience and we had another “no WAY! I did the same thing at the same time!”
I am connecting with more people at this moment who are feeling this shift and feeling how fast it is going energetically. We are feeling “by June” as a time frame. That is what I have heard myself. And earlier, my friend who also communicates with Clair texted me saying he had tuned in with her and she said he most definitely would be swimming at his lake house in the new realm this summer.
I pause as I type this.
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V.
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Last night, I checked in with I guess you can now call them my “team” as I reached out to comm with Clair and this time saw a group of others standing around some sort of a holographic computer screen (it was very large and almost appeared as though they were looking through it to perhaps view this realm). She was bz. I “stood” in the background and observed. This time I had the visual of the group. It was wild! (and yes I was in the shower) She was not able to really correspond with me only to say something big had switched – changed – and I then felt she said “speeding up the process”. I asked if it would be best if I checked in later and she said “yes” waving her hand (she had her back to me).
Earlier today I checked in (via text) with my earthly team-mate (maybe it is becoming time to call him that??) ~ brother from another mother ~ who checked in with her and had also received the same message. He said he felt she said the earth magetics had switched dramatically thus accelerating our transition.
I can attest to something huge last night energetically. Well, my body can. As I went to bed, totally exhausted, I was suddenly exhilarated (as my earthly team mate said he felt he had received a caffeine jolt) – giddy – so much so I began to giggle as I thought I could run around the block a dozen times. I was also shaking/vibing all over ~ an experience that lasted all night off and on making for an absolutely miserable night sleep. My entire family experienced the same. None of us slept well. Upon awakening my mate and I both felt not only wonka-doodle, our bodies are aching more (I normally don’t experience that – my mate does daily – but today the pain was more intense).
I can say this about this realm ~ the sky was different today. Some ways I could see it ~ the color of the clouds was unusual. They also appeared to be almost closer than normal. Other ways, it just “felt” different. My mate ~ same experience. I took some sky shots that I hope show the unusual brownish/yellow cloud color. I will post those later.
Today I had a few moments where I felt so unbalanced, I felt this current energy realm was about ready to become very blurry and would be immediately replaced with a new dimensional space. I have experienced the “between two worlds” experience before ~ today it took on a more intense feel.
We continue to be a passive participant more or less, going within, questioning and yet still at the helm of larger “forces”.
I had to take a break tonight from all of this. I watched the latest Roseanne episode and may binge watch the first 5 episodes. Aye, do I need a vacation from anything and all that is demanding of my energy in any shape, form or function.
Love,
Victoria
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I was originally going to title this piece “What the F Is Wrong With People”…but I had some time to reflect and go within quietly whereby I could feel a part of me say “I am so sorry I made you come here. I did not know how hard it was going to be for you.”
You being the human version of Me.
I’m at this space of limbo. I feel I am in between this realm and the next. I feel that more fully than ever. Previously it was more of a thought and less of an internal experience. Now it is a full on experience.
And it fucking sucks. The longing for what I know to be real and the longing for what I have seen and felt and dreamed of for so many years is at some moments a tidal wave in its intensity.
I had a phone call the other night with one of the very few people I could put the label “friend” on for it is someone w/whom I can be truly myself and actually be heard without judgment. I let myself sink fully how I felt and said “I am so deeply dissatisfied with my life. I am so deeply bored. And I have no. clue. no. feeling. of. inspiration. as. to what to do to create it differently.”
NONE.
I can change my thoughts – and I do because I still have leftover programmed thoughts that say “change your thoughts change your life”. But the internal feeling experience, that truth radar, says it feels different. And no longer will I lie to myself.
I have had enough of this experience.
On our walk today, I watched the clouds. I intended with all that I am to bring an end to all that is false and bring forth all that is truth. Real. The full freedom to choose my own reality and not just my perception and thoughts OF it. I WANT THE WHOLE SHEBANG DAMNIT! In a recent conversation online, a wonderful woman commented on a video on the matrix and the event said “I intend it to HURRY for I want out of this realm NOW!!” She was questioned by well-meaning but still matrix programmed people who told her (powered-over her instead of allowing her to have her own experience) she needed to go within, to remember how she and her family created this realm so she could have this experience and why would she want to go to another dimension and does she know what’s even “out there” and blah blah bot thought blah. ARGH! I had to say something. Isn’t it our RIGHT to have the full freedom TO make such a decision to explore another dimension?
Of course it is!
We have quiet DNA within us just waiting to be turned on again so we CAN have that ability (among all others of course as well).
I read a piece earlier that stated if a majority of us focus on New Earth NOW ~ we would create that within 7 days.
Is that all it takes at this point?
7 days until the Event.
7 days until the New Earth.
7 days until we have the full freedom to live completely 100% according to our OWN CHOOSING.
Focusing all along on having the above NOW.
For as I am being completely honest, I know of nothing else to do nor nothing else I want. Although I will also be fully honest and say this Goddess Rainbow Warrior Starseed fill-in-the-blank Being is weary as never before in thinking/intending that which I desire.
But apparently that is what we have to work with. For now.
That is all for now.
Much love,
Victoria
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Even though my sleep has been interesting lately, where I seem to vacillate between near coma-like states of sleep to being wide awake wishing I could sleep, my dreams are still vivid and new (new spaces, new people). Last night I had two such dreams.
The first one I had entered the home of a woman who has a youtube channel. I was in search of her, only she was not home. So as I turn to leave, I walked out the wrong door, instead walking into another room when I had originally intended on the door being the front door. I turned around and headed out another door. Same experience. Strange room with people I did not know – and also having no desire to stay. So I tried one more door only this one lead me to a closet. A long closet made up of smaller closets. The space was so tight I could hardly move. I tried to turn around then felt fear ~ the fear of being trapped.
Core fear alert.
I have been told everyone experiences a certain level of claustrophobia, the fear of being trapped. For me, it is intense and it isn’t just about confined physical spaces. It’s being in a situation I do not consent to, which means having to pay to live, pay a bill or being told I cannot do or have something because of someone else’s rule. I even feel it if I am in need of rest or sleep and outside responsibility prevents me from doing just that ~ in the way I need (although most of these experiences manifest as a simple feeling of strong disdain).
Power over is not Who I Am. It has been the most challenging experience to me to just “do it” and go along to get along. Keep going.
Freedom and liberation is welcomed now.
While in this closet space, I heard my higher voice speak. “Slow down, breath, do not look at this space as your enemy. While you are here, remember to Breath, bless your space and slow down so you CAN get out of those situations you feel you have no control.”
So I stayed in this tight, confined space, slowed down my thoughts, did some deep breaths.
Then I said “ok, i came into this house and now am in search of the door out. I can find it when I slow down, center and focus.”
I exited the closet, walked back into the house and remembered where the front door was. I found it and as I did, the people in the room where the people I had wanted to see all along.
As that experience faded, I was then back at our house. My mate and I were hauling some stuff and placing it on the side of the house. We were leaving it there. I knew we were getting ready to leave. One of the items was the mailbox. He had taken it down because it was something we no longer needed. That system was gone. Everything had changed. I could feel it. As someone for whom late evening and early a.m. hours are my favorite because the energies of the systems and the masses are subdued, I could feel that same sense of calm ~ only it was daytime and it was much stronger and had a sense of permanence. I knew I was seeing and feeling a post-event scenario.
I took his hand and said “it took us about 20 years, but we made it.” What I meant by that statement was we have been together 20 years – precisely later this year – and it has been a long long journey. We have both felt for many of those years we were brought together to not only bring our child into this realm, but to be here for this very purpose of liberation and new earth. There have been moments when we have just wanted to give up. But we never have. That isn’t who we are.
I shared the dream experience with my mate later after we awoke. He and I spoke of the event energy. We both feel it is an inside and outside experience. Inside in that we call it forth through our individual awakening/remembering and outside in that it is indeed a new energy space we are being “moved” towards. We are passing though bands of energies as we are being returned to that in which we once resided. We both feel (for both of us have had the memories and just the cellular knowing) we have been moved from “the pit”, back to where we once lived when we first decided to come to this space where we were Beings in Physical Form, the energies in which we lived in allowing us to have the full use of our abilities.
“We’re going home to where we once experienced,” I said. As I said that I got chills and tears. And at that my mate said, “I just got chills when you said that.”
I went on to say I was getting a “feel” that these barriers of new energies we are traveling through is cleaning up layers of “dirt” – psychic debris – we have accumulated while living in this realm.
That’s what Love does.
Love doesn’t demand lessons.
Or unnecessary suffering.
Or bind another with rules of “karma”.
Source is US. Why would Source ever desire to power over Itself?
Humanity has needed a ride home (and a newly restored “vehicle” too) and that is how I see this experience.
It is different for each of us, but overall this is an experience of Love.
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Victoria
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We’re going to continue seeing more of these phenomena. Very similar to what we saw last night in the Eastern Sky at sunset ~ just one little spot that was brightly glowing ~ leaving all surrounding areas neutral.
Today was, well, a people to the nth degree type of day. I did not set out to create that experience. On top of the usual family stuff (where I began to feel I could simply not do a darn thing to please them), I had neighbors visiting unexpectedly (WHY is it some people truly think you are always available simply because you’re home with a child??). Kids coming over. I set off with my ear buds and music machine late in the afternoon for a walk. That turned into more unwelcomed, er, “diversions”.
I can see where I needed to just say “NO” to most if not all of these experiences. I was already very tired and my old program thought of “be kind” over-rode the voice inside of me that was saying JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.
I spent some time going through articles, videos. Same old stuff that feels no different to me right now than it did weeks ago. The experience was palpable today. It feels quite strong that I feel I am simply reading the same stuff, same words, just arranged differently. Yes, I could have shared it all here. I have a bunch of new subscribers (THANK YOU!! [wp-svg-icons icon=”heart-2″ wrap=”i”]) and so I have a responsibility to share a variety of articles and the like each day.
Today? Just not really up to it. I can offer a summary though: Ascension continues (quick note ~ i woke up with anxiety and shaking then had moments of bliss and ear-ringing). Waiting on the Event continues. Gridworkers and Wayshowers and the snowflakes and Trump supporters (who I believe are being called Nazi’s at the moment if I am not mistaken) fulfilling roles and missions and doing their doing’s. Oh and Gaia is flipping the frig out.
Am I into ANY of it?
NOT ONE BIT.
Not today that is.
Today….I just want to BE.
Today there is ONE person I want to spend time with (that would be ME) and I was not able to create that space in the way I intended.
Until now.
So I am off for now ~ not to work here but to BE.
Listen to some music.
Not cook a meal or make a snack or tend to some need or listen to a conversation I’ve heard a million times already or listen to someone speak of their health procedure or how they went to some dinner and were served raw chicken or arrange a playdate or plan a school day or make sure I have enough articles linked on my site or make sure I keep up with all of the happenings and blah blah blah blah blah BLAH.
Today ~ tonight (whatever the frig time it is) all of that ~ I am telling you I AM DONE.
I am going to tend to my needs. Since no one else has asked me how I am or what I need, I am going to take care of my own self/Self. She’s asking me to dance and sing and play. And I am listening.
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Victoria
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There is so much talk about The Event right now ~ I am almost inundated with videos, articles and personal experiences. I feel part of it is due to the collective 100th monkey effect that has taken place and I feel another piece in the puzzle is due to the synchronicity moments that are increasing.
I now know this is an Individual experience. That is how I am feeling it. I feel I have carved out my own perception ~ refined it ~ of how I see this event experience. I have felt it out, gathered the words of others, flushed it out through my Own Being and have come to this creative bubble of knowing and seeing. And this experience has become so SOLID within me that when I read/hear of any perception that deviates away from mine, that inner feeling radar within beeps immediately “NO”. Not my experience. It’s strange as with most any other topic, I have always been open to refining it. Perhaps that is part of this experience ~ TRULY creating our OWN experience with these energies.
There are varying experiences and interpretations and “feels” on what this Event is, in particular its “arrival”. Many are saying March 18th. Some by June of 2018. And others (very few) are saying 2024 or farther out.
I know giving a calendar date can be a hit or miss experience, especially given our calendar’s of today do not match our tracking of times in the past. Originally we had 13 months of 28 days. That is based on my research and understanding. That being said, when a large number of people say March 18th or the month of March ~ I pay some attention to that and see how it feels for me.
As I have shared previously, I was neutral on The Event until early 2017. I had read Cobra and David Wilcock and their talk on this experience, but to be honest, their information didn’t resonate with me. For years I had already been dreaming of being in a New Realm that was earth-like (but was indeed not this realm). I knew I would be residing there – in this body – in this incarnation – soon – but that’s all I knew. I did not begin to get into the Schumann Resonance until late 2016/early 2017. My focal point until I had “the event dream” was I wanted to go home. Not die – just “go” to that place that felt like home to me each time I felt it, saw it, dreamed of it.
Then I had the dream and as I have shared, I saw what the sky looked like. Being I am more of a feeling type, in the dream I also felt the energy of The Event. It was light, airy, neutralizing – bringing all into balance. I saw how it impacted people. Some were dazed and confused. Some, like my neighbor who as I have said is about as emotionally detached as a human can be, was transformed. I saw new planets around us. It was spring time (early) and I was still living in this house. I woke up and knew – I just knew – this Event was real and was coming – soon. I knew it transformed us. It removed the illusion of separation by removing our fears. The Inner I AM was fully online.
It was then that I “found” Allison Coe and began listening to her client’s sessions. Most of her clients, as we know, said the energy would be hitting our realm in the first quarter of 2018. From there, I began “finding” others who had very similar if not at times identical feelings and visions of this Event as I have had.
I have felt this one out for some time and today, I feel, I know, as I mentioned above, this will effect us differently for it is an Individual experience. A collective “gift” to be utilized based on Who We Are. And while we are One ~ we are not the same. Each Soul desires Freedom to create whatever experience he/she/it desires ~ which means Freedom to CHOOSE how we live.
And I believe this Event, along with our own Awakening, is putting forth those energies of Freedom. As I have discovered, what is “freedom” to one is not freedom to another. There are some who feel we are free. Others believe otherwise. And some believe we are a little free here and there and that is ok with them.
Me?
I want total Freedom. No impingement. No one telling me “you cannot do that”. I don’t need an outside expert ~ I have that within. I don’t need someone telling me their version is the correct version. I am very much ready and happy to leave that power-over experience behind.
I first heard of a version of Freedom over 15 years ago – which is the right to live/be/do as one wishes in so long as that choice is not interfering with another’s right to live the same Freedom. That is one “feel” and resonating knowing I have not deviated away from.
So all of this said ~ I also continue to feel we can bring forth this experience. We are, after all, co-creating this event. I know I have written of this before, and feel the need to bring it up again as I am seeing a growing number of others saying the same thing: Bring forth The Event energies NOW.
Imagine it spreading all throughout this realm.
Imagine how it will feel on your body. In your body.
Imagine and feel it removing all of that old useless programming that keeps us feeling fear and separation.
Imagine and feel this giant cosmic kiss enveloping us in pure energies of love and bliss and freedom and laughter and joy.
We thank All That Is for this return to Full Consciousness.
We Thank All That Is for this event experience.
We thank it for arriving in this NOW moment.
It is done.
Victoria
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