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This day has challenged me on many levels.  Money.  Faith.  Health.

I am doing the best I can.

Recently I reached out and asked for marketing help on an ascension community board and was told to read an article on healing the self and if interested, I could pay for some of her healing services.

???

Did I ASK to be healed?  Noooooo.

So before I receive promotion help, I have to be healed?

WHO MAKES IT ON THEIR OWN?

Seriously?

Is this what this ascension community is about as well as the 3d system? Do it on your own?  If you can’t, that’s your issue not mine?  Aren’t we supposed to be in UNITY here??  Returning to Unity?

I’m not seeing it.

That has been part of my problem.  I have done MUCH of this 3D living on my own, certainly in the areas of promotion.  Creation.  As my mate says “you have tried so many things year after year on your own” about my efforts to make a decent income.

So do I have something deep within that is telling me I am not worthy?

Sure I do to some degree.  But I sure as anything work on it, work on myself.  Daily.  THAT IS NOT THE ONLY ISSUE.

Who doesn’t have inner issues?

Don’t we ALL have inner shit, some of which we’re not aware of?

YES.

What gives these people who are promoting their own services the right to tell another “you have to do this alone” or imply “you don’t really need marketing help (meaning you don’t know what you really need – only I do).  What you need to do is read my article.”  Oh and after that, pay me for my services.

I’m telling you folks, I am putting on a real happy face some days on this site, especially since I was criticized for being real and authentic with how I feel and what I think about this 3D system.  Criticized and then not offered anything in kind.  If you’re going to judge me and claim I need to do x y z then you sure as hell better offer me help with that.  Other than that, you’re just another mouthpiece for the very system in which I speak out against and yes, rage against some days.

THIS IS PART OF WHO I AM.

I don’t know what to do at the moment – on these issues that keep popping up in front of my face to look at yet again.  I really don’t.  Today I’m yelling at them to go the fuck away.  Other than my child, I can’t seem to satisfy or please much of anyone.  And yes I know, please thyself.  I get that.  I do.

How do I heal from this money issue?

I think of song lyrics that inspire me.  Shoe the children with no shoes on their feet.  House the people living on the street.  This is not complicated. You don’t tell them to go heal themselves first.  And you don’t assume you know best for them.  Spiritual Ego is rampant in the ascension community. If you really are of Source, you ASK what is needed and if you can provide, you do it.  If not, you STFU.  As I like to say when it comes to business, mind your own and stay out of mine.

Maybe my struggles with money aren’t just all due to my own thoughts (which I admit have been a part of this struggle).  Maybe I am to be used to share these conversations on money.  On helping people for whom financial struggle has caused such unnecessary struggle and suffering by being a voice.

This is one topic the masses need to talk about, get real about.  Now. Including those in this spiritual community.  In my area, just to rent one room will cost you $550/month – and that’s without utilities.  For just ONE ROOM. I saw a chart that said the MINIMUM wage people need in each state just to afford a one bedroom home/apartment.  The average was $14-$16/hour.

Then there are utilities, which our electric company conveniently jacked the kilowatt rate.  We have no say – doesn’t matter if you petition your legislature.  Speak out about it.  (both of which I have done, btw)  They do whatever the fuck they want to do.  Then the water rates were jacked and more taxes-disguised-as-fees were added.  Totally illegal, btw (these “fees” – as it did not include a citizen’s vote).  So we speak out.  Nothing changes because again, they get to do whatever the fuck they want to do. Without consequence.

Oh but let’s attack those who are struggling and experiencing all the unnecessary suffering as a result of the burdens put on them/us by these very criminals.  Why?  Because it’s easier that way.  It’s easier to say “pull yourself up jack” than it is to do what’s right – and that is to show some LOVE.

Then there’s food prices.  Those keep going up.  Gotta eat healthy and we do.  We spend a god awful amount of money on organic foods.  Fresh.  We don’t eat out.  I cook 99% of all of our meals.  From scratch.  I make my own bread.  We have a garden growing.  To help keep the vibes up and to have good health it’s imperative, especially when health insurance is limited and in some cases, non-existent.  I need glasses.  I have no vision coverage.  I have very limited dental coverage.  My mate has none and he recently had a dental emergency so add in another bill to the collection.

I am so tired of being told it’s ME when so much of it is the god damn fucking system that doesn’t ever seem to change.  WHY CAN’T THE PEOPLE IN THE SPIRITUAL COMMUNITIES AT LEAST ACKNOWLEDGE THIS??  Do I have to be the only one??

I hesitated to share this given some of the comments I received from others.  The criticism.  How sad it is that not only are there people who behave in such a manner instead of using that energy productively by asking hey, what do you need?  But equally sad that I let myself get affected by such comments.  And yet, I don’t know anyone who wouldn’t. Unless you’re a machine.  Or fully awakened.

I am neither.

And I do not apologize for that.

 

Interesting how the read went from more of a sacred geometrical type of pattern to a sine wave and now, this.  And coincidence it occurred on the Solstice?  Hmmm….

Thank you!  ♥

Editor’s note:  BUCKET LIST!

 

A picture sums it up better than words…

 

 

…that you all do not think when I speak of Unity Consciousness – a return to Source Oneness – does NOT mean I speak of the hive mind nor does it mean I speak of the concept of surrendering yourself, your individuality. Nor do I mean to stop “thinking”.  As I say, we are One but we are not the same.  We will continue to have our own experiences and perceptions.

At least that is the reality I am creating.

♥

 

Ok peeps.  I have a security program (free version) for my site that has a program that monitor’s my web traffic and I have noticed a growing trend of people in places like Thailand, China, India and Russia (yep in this case the Russian’s indeed did it – ha!) are attempting to hack my site.  Daily now.  At first it was an occasional attempt at logging into my site.  Now this practice has become daily, hourly at times and added into this mix are individuals who are now attempting to send me malware.

It’s insane!  Apparently my site is now considered one of those “oooh scary spooky they are telling the truth” sites and hence, the targeting. I have the option of blocking the IP addresses, which I immediately do when I spot this.  However, these outfits simply create a new IP address and are back at it.  It is impossible for one person to keep track of.

I need to upgrade my security to the paid version but will only invest in that if I have regular financial support from my readers.  I also noticed my web hosting fee has almost doubled.  !!

And remember, aside from donations I also have products (book/journal, room and deodorant sprays) where you can get something in return for your $$ support.  A win-win, right?

Thank you peeps!  ♥