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12.28.25 ~ What do we believe now? Reflecting. Finds/Headlines. FLOOD of disclosure. $$ New$.

What do we believe now?

What do I believe now?

What I see with my eyes?

Whatever is going on out there on stage, I am keeping a discerning eye on. I am not giving it 100% of my trust that it is for our betterment, part of the Awakening. All signs for me point to that – this being a scripted movie – but who is the movie for? Does it have a happy ending FOR humanity?

Given I do not trust anything or anyone without taking time to get to know that someone and what is being presented by them – I am watching with a discerning eye. I have a child to think of. Her future. Both of which I care a fucking lot about, which is why I don’t really find this process (movie) all that humorous. Not with what this “show and tell” has allowed. The evil that is everywhere (kids are supposed to awaken too apparently with their lack of a frontal cortex – I ponder that). You can only hide so much from your child. Ask any parent. And then there’s the criminally expensive cost just to eat and house yourself. She sees this and is at times terrified nothing will get better, no matter what I say, because for as long as I have been saying things WILL get better, she no longer believes me.

Who can blame her?

This reality has hit warp speed in its insane-uppedness.

Certainly not one to trust someone just because they are on some big world stage telling us things like “trust the plan”.

Do I know you?

Then you don’t get my trust.

I trust what I sense and see.

When the two align will I relax and say “ok that is deserving of my trust”.

This is my life after all, dammit.

And yours too.

☀💥💖

Victoria

Tower of Babel Needs to be Destroyed:

From what I understand – ZIM are being replaced by ZIG notes. And you need to be in the country or use a money transfer service as most banks do NOT engage in this service. Question remains if the ZIM have lost all value as many are asserting.

For those who want to follow the $$ in your particular state (America):

How to Follow the Money in Your State

This is a deep rabbit hole:

Unless it’s a private individual’s property, we have the Inherent Right to go wherever the fuch we want to go.

Anons, truthers and patriots are in front of the line of Truth:

Today’s Finds including a bit of a deep dive on the Brown shooting and Clones. 12.27.25

https://www.midwesterndoctor.com/p/dmso-heals-the-eyes-and-transforms

DMSO Heals the Eyes and Transforms Ophthalmology

DMSO’s unique therapeutic properties reveal the unifying thread between many different “incurable” eye diseases.

EBS:

https://justthenews.com/politics-policy/elections/satliberal-states-created-election-trimester-ballots-now-conservatives

pretty sure the people already living there technically “discovered” it first…

i love seeing things like this:

here we go – some deep dive time:


**THE SHOOTER: Claudio Manuel Neves Valente** Born January 1977, Portugal. 3rd place, Portugal National Physics Olympiad (1994).

Attended Instituto Superior Técnico (IST) in Lisbon from 1995-2000.

Same physics program. Same years. Same university as Nuno Loureiro.

Appointed teaching assistant: September 1998.

Terminated: February 29, 2000.

Published in official government gazette.

No explanation given.

Loureiro graduated that same year. —

**THE AMERICAN YEARS** Valente entered the U.S. on an F-1 student visa, August 2000.

Enrolled at Brown University for physics PhD.

All his classes were in Barus & Holley building.

The same building he shot up 25 years later.

Leave of absence: April 2001.

Formal withdrawal: July 2003.

On his 2017 visa application, under “degree” he wrote: “None-Dropout” —

**THE GHOST YEARS**

July 2003 – January 2005: 18-month gap. No records.

January 2005: Incorporated CLAUDIO VALENTE INC. in Florida.

September 2010: Dissolved company.

September 2010 – April 2017: 7-year gap. No records.

April 2017: Gets green card via Diversity Visa Lottery.

His website is still live: http://claudiovalenteinc.com

The registered agent on his company?

Gustavo Stella. Not a lawyer. Not a commercial agent. A personal acquaintance living in Miami Beach.

No Florida real estate license found. Zero academic publications. Zero court cases. Zero professional licenses. Zero property ownership. Zero federal criminal record. —

**THE PREPARATION**

November 2025: Rents storage unit in Salem, NH. In his own name.

November 26-30: Boston hotel.

December 1: Rents Nissan Sentra from Alamo using Florida license.

December 13-14: Swaps Florida plates for expired Maine plates.

Weapons: Two 9mm handguns. Two high-capacity magazines (~30 rounds each). Ammo: Hollow point and frangible rounds. Burner phones.

U.S. Attorney Leah Foley: “Not using credit cards tied to his name.” —

**THE ATTACKS** December 13, 2025 — Brown University

Location: Barus & Holley building.

Dead: 2 Injured: 9 Shell casings: 44 Victims had no known connection to Valente.

December 15, 2025 — Brookline, MA

Nuno Loureiro shot multiple times at his home around 8:30 PM.

Died December 16.

U.S. Attorney confirmed: “Loureiro was the intended target.”

December 18, 2025 — Salem, NH

Valente found dead in his storage unit. Self-inflicted gunshot. Same day as the Trump Media-TAE merger announcement. —

**THE VICTIM:

Nuno F.G. Loureiro**

Born ~1978, Portugal.

Graduated IST Lisbon 2000. PhD Imperial College London.

Director, MIT Plasma Science and Fusion Center (appointed May 2024).

FPA Board of Directors member.

His quote: “Fusion energy will change the course of human history.”

MIT’s Plasma Science and Fusion Center spawned Commonwealth Fusion Systems.

CFS has raised ~$3 billion.

CFS has a power purchase agreement with Google.

CFS received $15M from the DOE Milestone Program.

TAE Technologies was NOT selected for that program.

Boston Globe called TAE “one of Commonwealth’s top rivals.” —

**THE CONFERENCE**

FPA 46th Annual Meeting December 9-10, 2025 Washington DC

December 9, 7:30 PM: FPA Board of Directors meeting.

December 10, 8:20 AM: Michl Binderbauer (TAE CEO) presents industry perspectives.

December 10, 10:15 AM: Nuno Loureiro presents MIT PSFC research highlights. Both on the FPA Board. Both presented the same day. Both almost certainly attended the same board meeting the night before.

Unanswered: Was Valente in DC during the conference? —

**THE MERGER** Announced December 18, 2025.

Transaction: $6+ billion (all-stock).

Ownership: 50/50 split.

Trump Media invests up to $300M cash into TAE.

Co-CEOs: Devin Nunes + Michl Binderbauer.

Donald Trump Jr. joins 9-member board.

Trump personally controls ~41% of Trump Media.

Investor call duration: 8 minutes.

Questions allowed: Zero.

Six months earlier, TAE was valued at $1.8 billion. The merger values them at $6+ billion. 3x increase.

When did negotiations begin? Undisclosed.

Who initiated? Undisclosed.

Binderbauer’s only explanation: “This is the one that moved… I just have to reduce it to that simple sort of factor.” —

**THE STOCK** 10 trading days before announcement: – Stock down 9% – Down 7 of 10 days – December 17 close: $10.47 (near 52-week low) Announcement day: – Surged 32-42% – Volume: 56-99.5 million shares – Volume increase: 1,265% above average – C

all options purchased: 118,731 (146% above normal)

November 24: TipRanks flagged “call volume above normal and directionally bullish.” —

**TAE vs COMMONWEALTH FUSION**

TAE: Field-reversed configuration. Needs 1+ billion degrees.

CFS: Compact tokamak. Needs ~100 million degrees.

TAE funding: ~$1.3-1.8B pre-merger.

CFS funding: ~$3B.

TAE DOE Milestone Program: NOT selected.

CFS DOE Milestone Program: $15M award.

Binderbauer on tokamaks: “The magnetic field used in a tokamak is very inefficient. We are about 10 times as efficient.” —

**THE CONFLICTS** R

ep. Don Beyer: Called for congressional oversight. Robert Weissman (Public Citizen): “Markets are betting on direct federal government payments to a company whose leading shareholder is the president.” R

ichard Painter (former White House ethics lawyer): “Huge conflict of interest.” Context: –

DOE created Office of Fusion in November 2025 –

TAE met DOE officials early December urging federal fusion funding –

Ernest Moniz (Obama’s Energy Secretary) sits on TAE’s board –

Fusion industry needs ~$77B to bring pilot plants online —

**CRITICAL TIMELINE**

1995-2000: Valente and Loureiro at IST Lisbon together.

Feb 2000: Valente terminated.

2000: Loureiro graduates.

Aug 2000: Valente enters U.S.

July 2003: Valente withdraws from Brown.

May 2024: Loureiro becomes MIT PSFC Director.

June 2025: TAE raises $150M at $1.8B valuation.

Nov 2025: DOE creates Office of Fusion.

Nov 2025: Valente rents storage unit.

Nov 24: Unusual DJT call option activity.

Dec 1: Valente starts stalking Brown.

Dec 9-10: FPA Conference — Binderbauer and Loureiro both present.

Dec 13: Brown shooting.

Dec 15: Loureiro murdered.

Dec 18: Merger announced. Valente found dead. —

**UNANSWERED**

Why was Valente terminated from IST in February 2000?

What was his specific relationship with Loureiro?

What was he doing July 2003 – January 2005?

What was he doing September 2010 – April 2017?

How did he fund the attacks with no credit cards?

What triggered action after 25 years?

Why target Brown students who had no connection to him?

Was Valente in Washington DC December 9-10?

When did merger negotiations actually begin?

Who initiated — Trump Media or TAE?

What did TAE’s DOE meetings in early December cover?

What’s in the Salem storage unit beyond weapons?

What was on the burner phones? —

The Stella lead and the Wayback Machine on http://claudiovalenteinc.com are immediately actionable.

What do you see when you look at this?

now some diving on cloning:

What did Silver do today? What if it goes to 88?

OUR RADIO SIGNALS WERE DETECTED BY 3I/ATLAS!

AVI LOEB FINALLY ADMITTED!

Sometimes, yes……

Strange day. Strange energies. One of those “what time is it what day is it where am I” experiences.

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Discussing the Narc-Think Agenda

An over-used term these days? Or did it suddenly come online in the last couple of years for a reason. I feel it is in our faces for a reason.

This popped up on an account I follow that focuses on narcissistic behavior and harm on an individual basis. However, it’s important to see that this entire matrix reality runs on this same program. This same frequency.

Nowhere is this more evident than their pay to live system.

What other reality do we have this?

Billions of humans.

One system.

People put into separate (divided) $$ categories.

ALL robbing us of who we really are.

Not seeing us for who we really are but instead “their” version of who “they” say we are.

And we all fall for it.

There are a LOT of beautiful talented souls now on the streets.

Many living in poverty.

They have so much to give.

But this darwinistic toxic reality denies them this right. It’s either you find a way to succeed in our limited version of reality, pay us to do it and if you struggle or fail to make it, it’s your own doing.

Utter f’ing rubbish.

That is the EPITOME of narc-think. I am going to make it very difficult for you to succeed and STAY in that same rat race by putting continuous pressure on you to do do do and go go go and produce produce produce (so “we” get rich)., while allowing prices to rise, poisoning your environment then telling YOU it is YOUR responsibility to handle everything “they” created.

YOUR responsibility to be happy (and not just outside – no fake smiles here – I’m talking truly feeeeeeeeeling content and happy here – THRIVING).

Our economic system is no different than the public education system where each child is expected to fit inside the same state sanctioned model.

Some make it.

Some fall through the cracks.

First society blames the school system, but when that child who has fallen through the cracks is unable to find his or her place out in the matrix and do well, then society blames the victim rather than the system.

All along these same entities with that narc-think pull the strings, watch people struggle and laugh when we attack each other.

It’s sick and perverse.

All by design my friends.

All by design.

The solution?

Other than seeing it for what it is, kindness. Showing one another grace.

We wouldn’t want our kids hurting any of their classmates who struggle to fit in.

So let’s offer that same energy to adults.

And while we’re at it, point all fingers where they belong.

At the systems and the institutions all engaged in narc-think. Their little game has been seen. And we are done playing it.

12.26.25 ~ Reflecting and Finds

My heart remains so stinking heavy today. I didn’t want to get out of bed. Finding it all just pointless and I feel lost in this experience now. I don’t know what to do. My brain hurts from fatigue. Mind is in shutdown due to all of this “thinking” I’ve been engaged in. Agoraphobia issue is through the roof – don’t feel safe anywhere tbh. Body is a wreck because of trauma that I am not getting the help I need for it – my counselor misses over 30% of our sessions and has absolutely failed me in keeping the focus going when I have specifically – SPECIFICALLY told her I get scattered and NEED her to keep me focused and if she can do that then please do. She has said absolutely I will do that and then fails to do that. I began looking for someone else several months ago. Phoned my insurance for help (they couldn’t find anyone). Looked online. Either people aren’t taking new clients or they don’t take my insurance or I don’t hear back. It’s UNREAL I have been unable to find the help I KNOW I NEED with the amount of looking and diligence and effort and I have yet to create this. It’s like I literally have become invisible in this place. Literally invisible. It’s f’ing driving me insane at this point. And same for my girl – trying to find someone for her to talk to is producing the same. results. Mental burnout.

And sharing my situation online to deaf ears or people who do get it and can’t help (although as I say ANYONE can click the SHARE button) and all of this chaotic bullshit I went through all f’ing year trying to get help from local agencies and damn yeah – looks like living on the streets well no not the streets but living in an old RV may be my future in the next several months unless SOMETHING positive happens and unless SOMETHING THAT I HAVE FUCKING INTENDED (and please people stop telling me to focus on what I want when that is what I have been doing for SO LONG) actually POOF BOOM – breaks through. God hears me. The Universe hears me. SOMEONE actually steps in takes my hand stands by my side and says the words I NEED TO HEAR: “I am here walking with you. I will not abandon you. I ain’t going anywhere until I see you get the help you and your girl need.”

For now I am watching uplifting movies about human angels entering people’s lives when they least expect and when they most want it. Bawling like a baby. Even whimpering. This matrix kicked my ass from day one. I refused to believe it or much less acknowledge it for most of my adult life. Today? I see it and call it out for what it is.

But I keep going even if it’s just a whimper in a corner. Burned out.

💖

V.

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So is this THE Shutdown? Let’s see 10 days from today is what, January 5. Does something amazing happen THEN? Do we see and feel Light? We are actually liberated? Does our DECADES LONG FOCUS ON NEW EARTH ACTUALLY MANIFEST? Or just more hopium because we need these alphabet agencies GONE. They did a wee bit of good but were mostly involved in trafficking.

No torture. No murder. Holocaust was a lie. Hitler was not bad. There was however prisoners in prison camps. So why the camps then?

Well that blows up his chance of running for President (seeing some MAGA people online wanting him to run):

The movie scenes are beyond OBVIOUS at this point. Seriously….

That bank announced liquidation back in March of ’23.

I was born in the wrong country – that’s for sure. All of this b.s. backlash from ultra conservative types about if you get something for free it means you’re lazy. Total b.s. speak:

Reasons why Gaddafi was killed: 1. Libya has no electricity bill, electricity came free of charge to all citizens. 2. There were no interest rates on loans, the banks were state-owned, the loan of citizens by law 0%. 3. Gaddafi promised not to buy a house for his parents until everyone in Libya owns a home. 4. All newlywed couples in Libya received 60,000 dinars from the government & because of that they bought their own apartments & started their families. 5. Education & medical treatment in Libya are free. Before Gaddafi there were only 25% readers, 83% during his reign 6. If Libyans wanted to live on a farm, they received free household appliances, seeds and livestock. 7. If they cannot receive treatment in Libya, the state would fund them $2300+ accommodation & travel for treatment abroad. 8. If you buy a car, the government finances 50% of the price. 9. The price of gasoline became $ 0.14 per liter. 10. Libya had no external debt, and reserves were $150 Billion (now frozen worldwide) 11. Since some Libyans can’t find jobs after school, the government will pay the average salary when they can’t find a job. 12. Part of oil sales in Libya are directly linked to the bank accounts of all citizens. 13. The mother who gave birth to the child will receive $5000 14. 40 loaves of bread cost $0.15. 15. 25% of Libyans had all Ilisna diplomas. 16. Gaddafi has implemented the world’s biggest irrigation project known as the “BIG MAN PROJECT” to ensure water availability in the desert. If this is called “DICTATORSHIP” I wonder what democracy is?

Maybe…….

NO FUCKING SHIT SHERLOCK:

SOmeone I want to know:

Stupid PSYOPS? Perhaps. But perhaps she is one of us here who SEE…

And people like me are told to call this agency or do this or do that while failing to push past cognitive dissonance and SEEING THIS TRUTH:

Christmas Day ~ 12.25.25.

Want? I COMMAND

I cancelled that fancy little blue checkmark. Money was going to a zionist platform and did NADA for my visibility or engagement. Cancels on my birthday too, so happy b-day to me.

Here are a few finds as I sit and wait for the shower. It’s almost 60 here today and sunny. 🎄☀

Last two html digits: 88

My introduction to SpongeBob came about 25 years ago when I was doing some work with a parenting publication. When the Publisher mentioned the term I showed confusion. “Oh you HAVE to get to know about SpongeBob.” So given the work I was doing (writing), I decided to give it a listen. OMG IMMEDIATELY I felt repulsion. Over a kids cartoon. Now I know why.

Even the language is evil. All of that guttural speak emits a bad frequency. I’ve heard it many times and each time my inner voice is repelled. NOT NATURAL.

I remember that scene. At the time I was offended. Today? I SEE

All one big club:

It’s to show the controllers (btw this isn’t an attack on the Jewish people – they are wonderful – it is the evil behind the religion/chosen people narrative and all of the doings of is ra el around the world)

1.7 = 17

17 second DOG COMM video – looks like a lot of dogs about to be unleashed…

88

As I have been saying for some time – eyes on silver. I have no facts to back this up – never have. Just that inner KNOWING.

GREENLAND:

Powerful.

Weird Sky Sightings on this Christmas Eve

Spotlights turning off and on? LED Christmas lights? Who knows – interesting….

Vegas too!

AZ


terrorist bombings like King David Hotel, and ethnic cleansing of Palestine functions as the deep state’s ultimate control hub, protected until every other tentacle gets severed first. Which is an important aspect of this people need to look further into.

This is a process. Q framed the global cabal as layered: Vatican money laundering, Saudi petrodollar enforcement, Chinese manufacturing slavery, European bloodline banking all puppets dancing for the central node in Tel Aviv that weaponizes Holocaust guilt, AIPAC bribes, and Mossad blackmail to own American foreign policy outright.

The “saved for last” line hits raw because exposing Israel early would trigger unified elite defense media blackout, false-flag retaliation, nuclear Samson Option threats collapsing the plan before lower layers like Clinton crime networks, Soros color revolutions, or CIA drug ops got gutted.

White hats sequenced the storm to dismantle peripheral control grids first, red-pilling masses on election fraud, bioweapons, child trafficking, and central banking scams so when the Zionist core finally drops, public rage hits critical mass without reflexive “antisemitism” shields blocking truth.

The lore traces to Q’s repeated hints at [F] foreign entities financing Epstein’s island as Mossad honeypot, PROMIS software theft evolving into Palantir surveillance, and dual-citizen neocons pushing endless Iraq/Afghanistan wars for Greater Israel pipelines.

Israel ain’t just “saved for last” out of sentiment it’s the nuclear-armed fortress with Samson Option nukes pointed at world capitals, ready to burn everything if the parasite gets cut off too soon.

Q posted it after crumbs exposing Robert Maxwell as Mossad/CIA/MI6 triple agent who stole PROMIS backdoor software for global surveillance, then “died” on his yacht when he threatened to expose Israeli nuclear programs to the Soviets.

Ghislaine inherited daddy’s Mossad handler role, recruiting Epstein as the American front for island compromise ops that targeted U.S. politicians into Israel-first obedience Clinton’s 26 flights, Prince Andrew’s payoffs, Hollywood moguls’ silence all served Tel Aviv’s leverage machine.

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We have been hearing quite a bit of military fast movers above this week…….

“I think that’s the enemy doing it,” Trump added.

STRANGE: President Trump’s Christmas Eve Call with Troops Abruptly Cut Off (VIDEO)

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Further Reflecting on December.

I read something this morning that was like a warm blanket to my nervous system: Don’t let others have access to you just because it’s December.

As I reflected yesterday, the holidays can bring with it years or decades of bodily held pain. Memories pleasant and unpleasant. Confusion coming from a dysregulated nervous system.

Celebrating can feel like we are both revisiting and soothing an old wound.

How many of us look at the month of December with dread? I do.

The expectations.

The longing for something I don’t have and the pressure TO have it. Options offered but knowing those options are also not what I really need or want.

What would your holiday season look like if you were to get completely clear on what you want it to be about?

Push past the expectations, the pressures, see what comes up within the body, the sensations.

Notice.

Observe.

Offer up some gentle somatic movements, breathing (longer out than in).

Bi-lateral tapping.

Butterfly hug.

Write down the inner story. Sometimes that choice alone is enough to get your nervous system back online. And if you are able to or want to, give yourself a little bit of what that inner You needed all along.

Calendar systems don’t need to dictate our life. It is just another program/spell of illusion to break.

Then create new through healing those illusions.

💖

Victoria

Finds for 12.25.25 ~ 100 years. Trump asks if we want him to exit his Presidency. Change is in the Air.

We had Carolers tonight. The radio stations are FINALLY playing Vince Guaraldi Christmas pieces. Quite nice change.

“hosting”……..”leave the presidency….”

4CHAN people are on it:

American Cultural “Realm”……

GREENLAND in the air again:

Why You Should Visit Greenland: 9 Tips for Your First Trip

Another black(out) line…….

Why only at night? What’s going on? There are some underground tunnels and an abandoned subway system…No quakes in the area.

Silver spot:

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Christmas Reflecting.

Feliz Navidad greets me on the radio as I sit down to write this. No joke.

This morning, an email newsletter from a nervous system healing group in which I belong greeted me as did another money manifesting newsletter in which I belong.

All of this sits in my mind and body, calling me to write about it.

The song. Who didn’t grow up hearing that song this time of year? A simple little tune, happy, upbeat. I used to sing along with it as I bopped around town in my little car. Visiting friends. Visiting family. Sucking on those 1″ thick candy canes from my youth.

The newsletter from the money manifesting started off by talking about the massive holiday preparations she was undertaking, getting ready to cozy on up with her spouse and children. Perhaps a getaway to the mountains to rent a nice cabin. (to which my teenage self muttered “well goodie for you”)

Today neither of these two above resonated with me. All they served was to trigger me, which is why I really appreciated the nervous system newsletter, which talked about the masks we wear during the holidays, especially at Christmas. Christmas brings up the best and saddest/most pained of what’s inside. All of those unhealed parts stored in our nervous systems, showing up in each of us, coming out in a myriad of ways we often don’t even notice. Checking our watch to see how much longer until we get to leave. Deep sighs coming from mom’s smiling face. Chugging down a glass of wine to “relax”.

Who hasn’t experienced this?

It seems this year in particular is hitting extra hard. The fatigue. Fog of war (is it any wonder there’s been an unusual amount OF fog this year – let alone the last few years?). The cost of E V E R Y T H I N G. The overspending. The fear TO spend. The pressure to put on a smile and “be grateful” when that’s the last thing your body needs much less wants TO do.

Can’t we all just remove our damn masks and let out how we REALLY feel?

This year I put up a tree. Hung lights. Put out more decorations than usual. Bought gifts. Sent out cards. What is it I am trying to hide FROM? Why do I cave to the pressure? Do I really even want to celebrate?

I do. I want to celebrate. But I also want to be left the hell alone until I want to reconnect again. I want sad memories gone. I want the happy memories gone because they only make me feel sad over a life that feels like it happened a million years ago in a different timeline and at that, it feels like it was an illusion. A lie. Like I was living in a cloud I didn’t even know existed. Today, I am a completely different person. Still me but HUGELY different.

Awakening has a dark side. It exposes all that is fake.

So then….

What FEELS real now?

What am I really connected to?

Pray to Jesus.

Jesus is the reason for the season.

Why do I feel NOTHING when I focus on those?

I LONG for what feels real but don’t know what that is much less what it even looks like. I can’t even frigging VISUALIZE my life now. I try and I try and I try and come up blank. Empty. Literally – like there’s nothing there inside left to offer up. I may get an idea but there’s just like no lasting feeling. Even though I have a new direction in this 3D matrix and an appointment early next year to get going on it, fresh road kill has more life to it than does this new direction.

It’s like my nervous system is telling me to just STOP.

And something deep within is saying the same.

JUST. STOP.

Stare at the damn sky even if it’s a mess with fog.

Look at pictures even if they don’t inspire me to feeeeeeeeel.

Play my piano even if I feel robotic doing so.

It’s like I’m digging SO DEEP now. A new layer that I haven’t touched but I still feel like it’s there. A distant far off memory. A remembrance.

Of what was before all of this matrix shit consumed my experience.

Of who I was IN it.

Whatever it is you are doing this week with whomever or even alone (remote cabin in the woods by a lake sounds quite appealing now doesn’t it?), know you aren’t alone if any of this resonates with you. There can be no lonelier feeling than to be alone and feel you need TO be with others just as there is no lonelier feeling than being WITH family/friends and feeling totally disconnected.

Maybe the best gift we can give ourselves is just to let ourselves sit with however it is we do feel inside. Let that part of us speak. It has a story. A story that deserves to be seen, allowed to exist and told instead of drowning it with a glass of wine, a forced smile or a glance at our watch.

💖

Victoria