Not that I don’t share my personal stuff here – I do – however I do keep most to myself these days – something I chose to do awhile back – cut back and keep more things just to myself. This one I feel called to share. It’s based on my body’s inner knowing, a past life meditation and an EMDR session.
My perception of this place is of course unique and individual – as it is for us all – and being a woman, especially a mom, has changed my viewpoint as well. There has been in place that system of control and dominance – which is contrary to who we all are in our hearts – especially the feminine – which seeks to nurture and comfort – which is not supported out in the world. Who of us here goes out into the world and feels we are nurtured and comforted? Safe? Especially if you are female. Pay to live is contrary to that.
And let me tell you – that has been very. difficult. for me to do as a mom in this pay to live world – feeling safe and nurtured. This world that still puts too much focus on the big men on stage while neglecting and pushing aside mother’s who are struggling and really suffering (or anyone – males as well – unable to keep up with the patriarch expectations). All by design.
The whole transgender inverted agenda which we know is mostly focused on men trying to convince us they are women – another massive attack on women. Feminism, same thing – take the mom’s out of the homes so the state can raise the kids – denying us that innate right to nurture our children. And then there’s the bizarre hairstyles and horrid colors I see being pushed on women. A trigger for me has been the shaved head or buzz cut.
Now before I get criticized, let me share my experience on why this bothers me. First of all, remember the holocaust – at least the images of people in those camps – the women – how their hair had been cut off? Shaved? THAT is what the enemy does. Creates looks that make us all look the same – creates the styles that take away from our inherent energy of female or male (but especially female).
My body has told me my entire experience that I was taken from family or some experience – against my will. A past life meditation brought up an image I wasn’t expecting – watching women being taken, brought to a cave and raped (followed by genetic experimentation) – by beings that were not human. I saw myself hovered outside the door – trembling. My entire body responded to this.
Then a couple of years ago, during an EMDR session (eye movement desensitization reprocessing – a technique used for desensitizing oneself to a trauma using eye movements that stimulate both sides of the brain), I was suddenly above a body – mine – running through the woods. I could hear myself breathing heavy and the pounding heart. The hair stood out – it looked like the images we see of the women in the camps. Cut very short to the head. Clothing in tatters too. Then I could hear one of them – their voice was very deep – unlike any human male and all I heard was “this one is feisty. keep an eye on her.” Then I was “thrown” out of the vision. Shaking.
I believe everyone has the right to do with their body as they want. However, people need to know these agenda’s and see how “they” are pushing so much ugly – so much that is contrary to who we really are – beautiful and PURE. Yes, image isn’t everything of course and REAL beauty is in the kindness of ones heart – but I know “ugly” when I see it – it’s an energy – and many of these trends are designed by “them” to make us more LIKE “them”.
And I for one am not participating. I am female. I love my long hair. I love that I can create Life. I love to wear make up. But DAMN already – I want that reality that SUPPORTS the role and gifts and traits OF the feminine. A reality that supports mom’s and our role here which is every bit as important as any president or world leader or corporate late – MORE important actually – for without US….
…..there is no them.
V.
