The energy today is challenging as he!!. Woke up shaking – having to spend double time soothing the inner Me. Had to go into the matrix – phone calls that sort of thing and WOW was it hard. It felt like I was sucked into a totally different reality that felt very draining to my body. I felt it lift some in the portal. But still the energy out there – feeling it and not wanting to. Angst. Frustration and impatience. Trying to get into that “good” space timeline. If ever there was a feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels like flip it is now – the energy is that intense.
V.
Yeah – THAT 7.11 – that one Elon and VK were showing us 2-3 years ago with those pictures of the 7/11 image. Looks like Flynn was dropping truth comms yesterday………(and remember – sentencing doesn’t mean jail – part of this movie)
(when i woke up this morning – or maybe it was in the portal – soooooooo frigging tired i can’t remember lol – but i did get a flash of a vision of people attempting to take it to the streets and riot big time – but it got shut down – then thought of the above #34)
41 died on 11.30 = 11.3 41 Funeral on 12.5 = D5 41 = They know everything = Sang like a bird. EVIL has no place here = [They] Fooked. pic.twitter.com/CtepPQkmxg
– Begun jamming GPS signals near the de-facto inter-Korean sea border in the West Sea – Fired multiple ballistic missiles – Reportedly sent trash, poop filled balloons to South Korea
First the petition. If you’re sensitive to these things, please sign below and share. There are certain areas in which it would be impossible for me to live because of these hazards. We rode by just one area today and I immediately had to turn around – it was that over-the-top. The chemicals are still in my nose, on my clothes and in my hair – after just 30 seconds of exposure. They should be against the law and removed for their toxicity alone. I still struggle to understand how people can live with these smells and be ok. Are they even human?
The above allows me to pause and consider about how much power I have. Some things simply take away our power and our rights here and that is one of them. I never consented to them, I’ve spoken out about them – tried to educate people in my area (many use them and most question the “science” behind their toxicity – eye roll – THE SMELL ALONE omg) and I certainly never consented to being sensitive to them. I pause – laugh a bit – because the truth is toxic is as toxic does. Remote and rural is where I need to land. Please help me create that by supporting my work(s). This site. Medium. Buy me a coffee.
Here is what I’m seeing – as always – looking for markers that the end of this matrix is now.
Love,
V.
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shot heard around the world……….kennedy moment……..who knows:
NEW: US is hit by radio blackouts caused by powerful solar storm – and NOAA predicts more disruptions are on the way – Daily Mail pic.twitter.com/EnmTlfnIzz
— US Debt Clock .org (@USDebtClock_org) May 29, 2024
JUST IN: 🇸🇦 🇮🇱 Saudi Arabia says it strongly condemns the genocidal massacres committed by Israel on the Palestinian people. pic.twitter.com/04ZrG9is2w
ALERT 🚨 North Korea fires multiple short-range ballistic missiles hours after Pyongyang sent hundreds of trash-filled balloons across the border to punish South Korea https://t.co/ddFyM6Nutjpic.twitter.com/cytNridI1X
BREAKING: Members of the media from the hush money case courtroom believe the prosecutors have LOST the vote of at least half the jurors. Here's a conversation between reporters
“Steinglass has lost the jury. I’m looking at them. They look lost. I’m counting 7 not guilty votes.”… pic.twitter.com/80W6ITYE4s
🚨Texas Nexrad Radar Tower CAUGHT During Severe Weather! 👉Right in our faces! (Please Share!) We caught this in real time on MULTIPLE weather sites! -Even MSM is now getting involved! The more you watch the more it becomes clear! 👉ARTICLE linked below!#Texas#radar… pic.twitter.com/IVtUMu0G4h
Today I spent some time sleuthing – for housing opportunities. I’m always open to and calling in and holding that space in my heart that there are GOOD people out there who are prosperous and who are motivated by KINDNESS instead of money. Even after all this time of searching and looking – I still believe that. I know it. It’s something I hold in my heart. I say the words to others who say otherwise. So….. Universe – time to comply.
Until that moment shows up, it is as it is and I am where I am/we are where we are. In the search today I typed in the current affordability number – for my entire state I found 3 that aligns with our income and needs.
T H R E E.
And none were livable homes but instead storage units or spaces in which to place your home.
I look at people I know who have had help getting where they are. I have seen it myself – in the end we rescue ourselves, but no one makes it alone. No. One.
Some seem to forget that.
My circle that is changing – the more I stand firm in my boundaries – the more I say with full authority: this is what I need (and that I’m a package deal here – I have a child – if you see me you see her too. And vice versa too. No deals on that one). Those who respect me – truly care – have heard – have listened.
Those are the keepers. 💖
Moving on………..trauma.
Oooh boy, is that a loaded word. A lot of talk about it – most don’t know what the frig they are talking about when they do – including the “experts”.
Currently, I am looking at the spaces in my body – what is going on when I feel stuck – frozen – what thoughts are showing up. I’m telling myself all sorts of phrases – statements. Then something will happen – something to trigger something still stored in my body – and the flooding happens usually leading to frozen.
That is the nature of working through trauma.
I don’t like it – I wish it were easier – quicker indeed – but that’s how “they” designed these bodies. I went the “cognitive approach” when I first faced a big phobia. I faced that fear – but only using my mind – slowly bit by bit – while completely ignoring my body. BIG MISTAKE. But the woman I was seeing at the time told me this was the way out of the phobia/fear/trauma response.
W R O N G.
So I faced that fear – every day – for a few months – growing more comfortable and stronger overtime.
I was convinced the fear was gone from my mind – gone from my entire body/experience.
W R O N G.
One day, while in a similar visual situation only in a different geographical area AND a different time of day, the panic came in suddenly and in full force. B I G emotions leaving me shaking and sweating quite profusely (normally i glisten lol). I resisted at first. Did my best to stay neutral. Munched on carrots, turned on the a/c. Nothing was working. So….I then finally just succumbed to it. The defeat I felt after that was overwhelming at first. It’s like working diligently with your entire mind heart and Soul on building your perfect dream home – listening to the advice of an alleged home builder expert – only to realize one day your foundation was all wrong and you would have to tear down the entire house and start again – only this time on your own. And when you ask the “expert” what went wrong they simply shrug their shoulders and blow you off.
I spent many years after that asking “mental health experts” including those who used the phrase “trauma expert” in their bio asking what I did wrong. Why did this panic episode return when I had already faced the fear. Again, all I received was the “I don’t know” response.
It wasn’t until this past year I was told the following: You did not include your body in this work. The trauma energies are not stored in your mind – they are in your body. To heal you must respect your body first and foremost – listen to it – it will guide you – then using your mind and somatic tools and cognitive talk can you release and heal it. (relief – but frustration as it would have been nice to have been told that 25 f’ing years ago)
I am seeing what the experts in this field say is true: The Brain Follows The Body. When it comes to trauma – absofinglutely. That cycle can be stopped – slowed down – once you are able to get yourself out of flood (or for me mostly it’s frozen). It’s a process – and it’s a lot of f’ing work – made more challenging under certain conditions.
— Luciana Nina Leone ~ Z (aka VICTORIA irl) (@nina_leone11) May 28, 2024
I still try and trend things like #ENDTHEFINGMOVIE…..
On my quiet walk tonight – just me and my thoughts – I thought about this one – and other happenings – and go by what my heart speaks to me: this reality being spoken of – the public arrests and all of that – the currencies – the maga stuff – none of it resonates with me. I mean none. of. it. And knowing I am not alone in this just tells me yet again that this creation on that part of the timeline isn’t for me. My reality will be different. Our reality will be different. As always – I follow to see how close we are to the end of that “movie”.
BREAKING: Donald Trump says he is giving “very serious consideration” to pardoning WikiLeaks founder Julian Assange.
THE BIDEN ADMINISTRATION IS ASSESSING WHETHER AN ISRAELI AIRSTRIKE IN RAFAH, WHICH KILLED AT LEAST 45 DISPLACED PALESTINIANS, VIOLATED PRESIDENT BIDEN'S "RED LINE," WHICH PROHIBITS STRIKES CAUSING MASS CIVILIAN DISPLACEMENT IN RAFAH – RTRS
— Luciana Nina Leone ~ Z (aka VICTORIA irl) (@nina_leone11) May 28, 2024
It is absolutely absurd. Nothing I consent to. I am ready to have full control of my reality – and for it to happen quickly and easily. The way I know it is supposed to. (that’s why “they” throw traumatic situations at us – it creates a conflicting energetic situation in the human energy field – something “they” also know as well – oooooooooooh i am seeing it all now clearer and clearer)
Why do I feel like I’m forced to cheer on some impending doom event in order for the masses to “wake up”?
How frickin absurd is that?
Crimes against humanity have been committed. Start mass arrests.
I actually lived in the same town he did for awhile. My friends and I would ride past his house – hoping to stop him. We never did. He was one amazing center. Loved it when the Blazers took the championship in 1977 – one of my best childhood memories. I’ve spoken of it here before – the entire state went wild. I remember going into town to get ice cream – people honking, hooting and hollering. Warm and sunny. Sweet memory. See below for some fun highlights.
I’m pretty much left to looking like this after seeing some headlines on GP:
So I won’t be sharing.
you know what he does – he calls evil out on stage. that's what i feel he's doing now with this crypto talk – esp. bitcoin – we know that was "their" currency involved in their "dirty doings" https://t.co/KKt5nq12aY
— Luciana Nina Leone ~ Z (aka VICTORIA irl) (@nina_leone11) May 27, 2024
🚨IMPOSSIBLE! – (Please Share!) 🚨 Armenia Floods PREDICTED! 1 day After the Antarctica Anomaly! Just MILES form where the Iran President was Killed in a Helicopter crash#Armenia#antarctica#Flood#Iranpic.twitter.com/fSP37DywNc
For the first time since the early 2000s, the Treasury Department will launch a series of buybacks targeting seasoned and harder-to-trade debt this upcoming week.
— Luciana Nina Leone ~ Z (aka VICTORIA irl) (@nina_leone11) May 26, 2024
I love this kind of music – this is the version my mom has in her collection of 1950’s 45’s (my favorite, btw)…….it would be fun to be an evening DJ – play an eclectic variety of music from the 30’s through the 50’s……they just don’t make music like this anymore – time to bring some back……start having dances again too…….dancing always puts a smile on my face and heart. #MakeDancingGreatAgain
The Polish Air Force has announced that Aircraft have been Scrambled and are conducting Combat Air Patrols over the Southeast of the Country, in order to Protect the Airspace of Poland from the ongoing Russian Missile Attack on Targets in Western Ukraine. https://t.co/B8Hlc4rDMK
i don’t eat those things – but this is a good metaphor for what food has done…….utilities too……was thinking my water bill was around $85 back in 2020. today? $130.
A quarter pounder from McDonald's in 2020 was $2.29 and now it is $6.69!
BREAKING: Renowned American attorney Tom Renz testified before the Ohio Senate, alleging hospitals and doctors were “incentivized” to “murder” their patients to create the illusion that COVID-19 was a significant threat to public health.
Isn't it interesting that Airbnb &other stores listed June 6th for their policy updates? Lol…. The planet line up is scheduled for June 5th according to this corrected tweet Interesting… pic.twitter.com/W11mNmP5Ss
My day began by seeing the following – first thing on X:
Most people pray before bed, & last night I prayed, blew out the candle, then rested laying down to meditate. Drawing the image of white light above my head, to pull into the crown. Only things didn't go so well. First, I couldn't 'see' the white – everything was black. And,…
Last night I went to bed – did my usual intention, body work, relaxing, etc. Fell asleep fairly quickly and deeply. But suddenly was woken up with a sharp jerk followed by a choking sensation and a powerful but quick vision of “something” (or plural) trying to place a metal cage/box over my head. I shook it off – relaxed – and tried to return to sleep. I couldn’t. I started to shake with anxiety – again tried shaking it off doing my stuff. Nothing was working permanently – when I would stop my “magic”, this unwanted anxiety would return. Then the mental prodding began. It felt like something was trying to squeeze my brain (total mind attack). It didn’t hurt – but it was very uncomfortable. For a few moments I thought I was going to lose it mentally, so I began to fight back, as allowing it to just be was absolutely not helping. I remained firm and as detached as I could – but I suddenly knew I was in some sort of a personal, targeted battle. I resisted the impinging thoughts that were being thrown into my beautiful mind (because they were absolutely not mine). I finally began to call in Jesus. Then Heaven. Then Home. Not a damn thing worked – not until I called in Mary after having this feeeeeeeeeel that this was an attack on me because I am Female and I needed a strong Female who “got it” and would come in and clear this unwanted sheot.
It worked.
So, seeing what Rose shared above was something I could resonate with – but didn’t want to. For obvious reasons.
Then I spoke with a few others and saw others (all but one are female) saying the same – current attack going on – mind and/or heart.
I sent a message to Sister Deborah and she called me – both of us in absolute agreement on the following thoughts: This is bullsheot and we’re f’ing done with these unwanted attacks. It’s time to TALK about them – openly in that no-nonsense style I employ here.
It’s like walking down the street minding your own business having some unwanted parasite throw rocks at you or nasty words or taunts. Fill in the blank. You power up and do what you can. Often when you reach out to others of like mind you’re told to power up or ignore it. Or you’re told that it is your thoughts creating this and to choose a new thought.
Blah blah f’ing blah.
This. Is. War. On. Us. PERIOD. Our minds – consciousness – our Soul energies. Who cares if once we get out it all feels like a f’ing dream – or IS a dream. It’s still very. real. to. these. bodies here now – to our minds.
Conveniently, and likely by design by “them”, not everyone experiences these attacks – which makes it easy for those who don’t to toss out useful words of unwanted and pointless advice. Matrix loves to make us look crazy. Keeps “their” division going. But if we’re truly on the conscious journey of awakening, that includes listening to everyone’s experience in it. One vast consciousness experiencing many different realities inside this prison.
Sister D and I spoke about the why – why is this happening to us? I mentioned part of a convo I had had with LH earlier today about all of this – where we both said we have had this ongoing sense that we are very special here – powerful – but something about being “special” – not in a “i am better than you” but just special – definitely different than the enemy. It’s something that I have felt for awhile now – and she – LH – said she has had that experience/feel herself as well. D and I agreed it’s time to stop discounting just how f’ing powerful and special we are. This is WHO WE REALLY ARE.
I recall first hearing about mind control and targeted individuals about 20 years ago. This is real sheot and, for me, it doesn’t matter where it originates from. Inside. Outside. Technology. Real organic entities hiding in one of the dimensions here or humans controlled by them. Unless you’re living it, you can’t “get it”. But you can try and show some understanding and compassion. For inside this simulation, ANYTHING is possible.
If you’re having similar experiences, feel free to comment. In the very end we each rescue ourselves – however – none of us get there alone. And why should we even have to?
