I had a whole plethora of things to say – kept gathering them in my mind all day – and now? Think I can remember any of it? Nope. I was engaged in phone calls and emails, starting from scratch you could say in the financial/job area, all of the intuitive stuff just got sort of swept away.
I would laugh – but I read something today – because this struggle has become very real and it’s been bothering me. I know it isn’t just the war or the energies – it’s my dysregulated nervous system with a compromised brain resulting from being in survival mode for so many damn years. Long term abuse and trauma are behind it all. Part of that trauma is indeed being in this pay to live compete to live system of survival. Billions of people with just the one system. That there is the definition of insanity.
This shit keeps our nervous systems – our brains – always on the lookout for danger of varying degrees. And if the experience here is intense enough and challenging/difficult enough, combine that with high sensitivities, the brain changes. The hippocampus shrinks. The amygdala takes over the logical portion of the brain, making relaxation in full next to impossible, certainly not for long duration’s of time, which then makes it impossible to concentrate in full. End result? Memory issues.
This is Neuroscience.
Healing is always possible of course. Being in an environment that is supportive. Loving. Where you can relax enough and begin to trust enough to let go and allow safety in – in a new way.
But that pay to live bullshit? Yeah that has to change for ALL of us to heal and return to Who We Really Are IN FULL.
Perhaps at the end of this day, this is all I really needed TO share.
🙏💖
Victoria
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This movie is confusing as hell to me now. Figuring out who is who. Ugh. It only satisfies my ego at times much like playing a game does and wondering who will win and who will lose.
Does it nourish my Soul?
Not one bit.
We have democrats ruining cities. Republicans saying how GREAT the economy is. “Look at all of those beautiful jobs!” we hear. “See how gas prices and food prices have come down?” they blather to our weary ears.
Dystopian reality is front and center. Central casting. AI. It’s all feeling so ungawdly horribly FAKE. I want to scream at how F A K E it all is.
As I keep reminding myself – I was NEVER – N E V E R adept in figuring out who was who inside of movies – it all felt and still feels so fake. Regardless of whatever purpose it may all be serving, I don’t trust ANY of them out on stage now. They are all possible suspects to be thrown under the bus and forgotten about at this point, for me.
He did a rally today. Doesn’t it seem – and feeeeeeel – different now? Quiet? Staging area far less filled up with MAGA.
AI pushing AI. What if the purpose of this is to wake us up to the fact that we are inside of a computer brain – inside of a simulated reality run on AI? And we’re all smaller here, more dumbed down, with just a Spark of our Truth remaining within. And what if this show and tell is helping all to see enough of this FAKE reality so that when the frequency hits us taking our Spark to full on BOOM – it is much easier for the mind to let go because we have all become so desperate for a new experience.
Even though we have local cattle farms around here, most of the beef simply doesn’t taste the way it should. It’s like it isn’t finished and prepped correctly. Too much blood remains. When butchered and finished properly, allowed to age, that beef can taste wonderful. The last time I had this experience was with a local farm that was doing it right for awhile then changed. Their beef began tasting like store bought. Shortly thereafter, they just sort of disappeared. I haven’t been able to find replacement since – this after trying over half a dozen area small family farms.
Personally I have no desire to live my life as a nomad on wheels.
There’s NK again…BTW – there are 17 Q posts containing NORTH KOREA
Exposed? Or implemented?
A good replacement – Simple Mills. Ingredients you can understand. I like their cinnamon honey crackers – sweetened with coconut sugar and honey. Put a dollop of organic cream cheese in between a couple and you have a healthy alternative to whatever *this* is….
Says the Alien himself…
Putting my meme skills to work:
