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Government Agencies (Social Services) Are NOT the Answer

This is my story. I am not alone.
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When you see anyone suffering, do not tell them to call one of the myriad of government agencies. Not if you can help them.
These agencies are not only overburdened and understaffed, but they also refuse to see their incompetence.
I gave up going this route after almost a year of neglect, which includes a large local agency that completely dropped the ball on me numerous times.
Community Services Consortium
Right here in my area. This is my story.
I began by contacting them mid-Spring of last year (2025), inquiring as to what services they could provide me.
I shared my situation and what my goals were. This was a difficult call for me to make. I felt vulnerable, and it took a lot for me to share such personal information.
I went through FOUR employees who each dropped the ball on me (as in forgot about me – which included one who said “I really want to help you and I will come to you if I have to” – never heard back from him either). After weeks of this, I had to contact the Supervisor who put me in touch with a new person.
This person was not able to help me (although she was good at communication).
So back to the Supervisor I returned, who put me back in touch with the ORIGINAL person I spoke with, who never got back to me, even after a phone call conversation stating she was going to help me.
This was around late May/early June of last year.
After some more “dropped ball” moments, we finally connected via live remote meeting in July and discussed the scholarship I had been told about. I was to finalize the program and place of study, then get back to her.
Which I did.
We had another virtual meeting where she went over the scholarship process.
She told me there was still time to submit (the process opened up in June) and while she wouldn’t guarantee me the award as it was first come first time (meaning TIMELY SUBMISSION), she saw no reason I wouldn’t be approved, barring me making a mistake (which is why she was working with me to avoid any mistakes as she sat on the frigging board that approved scholarships so she knew her stuff).
After that meeting?
She disappeared on me.
I mean no contact. AGAIN.
No return calls.
No return emails or texts.
Even contacts with her Supervisor went unanswered.
I was also unable to submit my application because she was supposed to send me additional paperwork, which she never did.
I lost almost FOUR WEEKS in a process that is timely and competitive because of their failure to communicate.
After a month, I heard back from her.
Sorry – family emergency – can’t help you anymore, so I will pass you off to this person.
UGH!!! Why wasn’t I told sooner? No answer for that very basic question.
So I got assigned a new person, made an appt to finish up the application process, which we did, and on October frigging 5th, it was FINALLY submitted.
After I began the process in EARLY AUGUST (and had tried since April TO get help to begin with).
I got denied.
NO ONE TOLD ME.
I had to make several contacts to the last person who helped me, who told me the funds had already run out.
Which means I DID NOT GET MY APPLICATION IN ON TIME.
Again, which was NOT MY DAMN FAULT.
So I wrote the Agency Manager.
Documented everything. Emails. Dates.
I clearly showed there was a gross lack of communication on their part which denied me the right to submit my application in the necessary timely manner.
The end result?
The agency says they did not do a thing wrong and “followed proper protocols”.
Apparently, PROPER PROTOCOLS includes failure to communicate. Failure to NOTIFY clients that their person is no longer able to help and FAIL to provide a new person in a timely manner.
And now?
Now they have the f’ing audacity to tell me they are there for me.
So I asked: If this is true – WHY HAVE I NOT BEEN ASSIGNED A NEW STEP MANAGER after the LAST ONE quit back in October, again NO ONE TOLD ME OF THIS, and I wasted SIX f’ing WEEKS trying to connect with this person.
But nope.
She quit.
No one told me.
And no one has yet to apologize for this, OR assign me a new case manager, OR know if one will even be assigned TO me.
But they are “there” for me.
Like hell they are.
So let this serve as just one story in what I have been seeing are MANY (including a friend of mine who received the same type of treatment): THESE AGENCIES that receive GOVERNMENT FUNDING are just an extension of the government itself.
INCOMPETENT.
UNCARING.
THIEVES BOUND UP IN RED TAPE.
And the program they operate under?
Narcissistic (as in refusal to own behavior).
People in need are in need of real people’s support.
AGENCIES ARE NOT THE ANSWER.
Capiche? For now, I am right back where I started from last year – trying to get funding to increase my education so I can change my life for the better. Heal. Move on. BASIC HUMAN NEEDS. Talk about a slap in the face. After being told to “call this agency, go here” – essentially being put off by real people either unable or unwilling to help me out – my faith in humanity is pretty damn low at this time.

1.21.26 ~ COMMS Everywhere. Silver. What’s Going On With 3I Atlas? Trump References Chemtrails? Eyes On Japan.

Dobsonian Power:

This thing (if authentic) is looking like one world splitting into two:


IT’S A FREAKING SPACESHIP NEAR THE SUN!

KP is on the decline…

(much higher than this):

Watching Japan. Remember Rose said years ago to watch Japan as an end-game marker – especially $$ speaking.

https://www.abc.net.au/news/2026-01-19/japan-prime-minister-calls-snap-general-election/106246400

Japanese Prime Minister Sanae Takaichi says she will dissolve parliament on Friday and call a snap ⁠election for February 8.

Ms Takaichi will seek voter backing for increased spending and a new security strategy that is expected to accelerate Japan’s defence build-up.

The snap vote will decide all 465 seats ‌in parliament’s lower ‌house and ‌mark Ms Takaichi’s first electoral test since she became Japan’s first female prime minister in October.

Remember, Japan is the largest holder of US Treasury Bonds. Wonder whose bonds were sold off….👀

On January 21, 2026, Japanese financial markets experienced significant volatility, characterized by a sharp, partial rebound in bond prices after a massive sell-off, while stocks continued to decline for a fifth consecutive session. The market turmoil was driven by fiscal concerns, a tumbling yen, and anxiety surrounding a snap election and potential trade tariffs. 

I wonder what’s going to happen next.

He said it – Operation Warp Speed was a MILITARY FEAT

Chemtrails.

Earthquakes at Doomsday Glacier DETECTED ! A TICKING TIME BOMB is ACTIVATED with HUGE consequences!

While specific 2026 projects aren’t detailed in the snippets, the University of Virginia (UVA) is actively involved in Antarctic research, focusing on glacier dynamics, sea ice changes, and deep ocean processes, often collaborating with national programs like the U.S. Antarctic Program (USAP) to understand climate change impacts, building on prior work like studies near the Thwaites Glacier, with researchers contributing to new discoveries about hidden ecosystems and modeling future sea levels. 

No official quakes since Jan. 15th – not your typical earthquakes, it sounds like:

For those who check out the above website – there are currently 1690 PAGES of arrests.

https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/business/story/2026-01-21/fcc-says-equal-time-rule-applies-the-view-jimmy-kimmel-live

is ra el for last:

FIRE AND FURY:

Reports from early January 2026 indicate the Trump administration discussed offering direct payments of up to $100,000 to each of Greenland’s approximately 57,000 residents to encourage secession from Denmark, though this was a discussion, not official policy, and was firmly rejected by Greenland and Denmark, whose leaders insist Greenlanders are not for sale and their self-determination is paramount. 

Key Details:

  • The Proposal: U.S. officials reportedly considered offering $10,000 to $100,000 per person to Greenland’s citizens (around 57,000 people).
  • The Goal: To incentivize Greenland to break ties with Denmark and form a closer relationship with the U.S., leveraging its strategic Arctic location and resources.

She is showing us we’re in a GLOBE under a DOME:

Japan again:

Bring it! How many years have I been saying “17 SECONDS TO ANYWHERE”?

Japanese Scientists Reveal Real Teleportation Breakthrough | The Future Has Begun

(it took me literally 20 times to get X to let me share the above video)

Shared 1 weeks ago:

Japan has achieved a major breakthrough in quantum teleportation using a phenomenon known as the “W state.” This discovery addresses one of

https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=1914498219180967

This discovery addresses one of quantum physics’ biggest challenges—maintaining information integrity even when part of a system fails.

Unlike traditional quantum states that collapse if disrupted, W states allow quantum information to survive partial loss. This makes quantum communication more stable and brings futuristic technologies like ultra-secure networks and quantum internet closer to reality.

Important Details:

• Breakthrough achieved using W state quantum entanglement

• Improves reliability of quantum teleportation

• Prevents total data loss if one particle fails

• Advances quantum communication systems

• Supports future quantum internet development

• Major step in applied quantum physics

This research shows that quantum science is rapidly moving from theory to real-world technology—reshaping how information may travel in the future.

Listen to this beautiful piano that inspired me to begin saying “17 Seconds To Anywhere” – Liz Story. Imagine where you would go – in 17 Seconds. With teleportation, anyplace is possible. I told my daughter today, who, of course, thinks I’m woo-woo mom, forget planes. Buses. Cars. Trains. In the near future, we can travel ANYWHERE we want -quickly – w/o TSA groping us.

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1.20.26 ~ It’s The Energies. And the masks. And the chaos.

Inner energies and stuff.

Outer energies and stuff.

Does it matter anymore?

It all leads to this simple place for me, this space within, that quietly tells me:

I want to live and thrive. Just not here in this reality.

And it is fucking crushing me to see my kiddo suffer the same – only it’s different for her as she really doesn’t believe the world will get better. So that’s why I say fuck this plan.

I went searching for some TLC. Some kind words. Big accounts saying we have to be there for one another. Which really means: “You have to be there for ME”. Instead, I get silence or unhelpful advice about trying to be a parent in this reality, which is hard as fuch in my particular area. Have my kiddo read a book on war.

Dude – she’s read Art of War a dozen times. Me twice. Does it help?

No.

For we are far more than logic. Far more than frontal cortex reasoning. We aren’t soldiers who have had our emotions frozen out of us.

We are HEART.

We are SOUL.

We are EMOTION.

PASSION.

NEEDS.

WANTS.

And when that entire part of our Being is being dismissed and harmed and neglected and gaslighted and poisoned and controlled, plus demanding we fucking hand over our money so we can survive, no book is going to soothe that pain.

It’s like we’re all musicians being told we need to know how to perform delicate surgery in order to make it through this process. With no training.

For now the storm rages on and I am now suddenly hearing Frozen’s “let it go”.

🙄🤣😠😭

Victoria

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https://www.reuters.com/world/us/trumps-plane-turns-around-due-minor-electrical-issue-white-house-says-2026-01-21

ABOARD AIR FORCE ONE, Jan 20 (Reuters) – President Donald Trump’s Air Force One landed safely at Joint Base Andrews near Washington to change aircraft Tuesday night after crew on his initial flight identified “a minor electrical issue” shortly after takeoff.

The trip will continue on a new aircraft, White House Press Secretary Karoline Leavitt said.

So does being away from abuse – being in quiet. Peace.

He said this earlier today. This is my response. Forced institutionalizing (unless someone is a clear danger to others) is not the answer nor is drugging. We did that decades ago. Sure it kept people off the streets, but what kind of a life is it for someone who could get help but is stuck inside of a system who thinks the answer is to mask the real issues with a toxic pill that keeps ’em numbed out and dumped down?

yup – we’ll see……..

Pure evil. Put THEM in the mental institutions:

1.19.26 ~ JFK Sleuthing (All On National Popcorn Day, too)

THIS is one of the best Q/JFK/Trump/Plan sleuthing’s I have seen. She does really good work! And I am doing my own adding with some amazing synchs I didn’t even see coming until the Universe just guided me a long.

ING (LION):

“The International Netherlands Group (ING Group) is a global financial institution, formed in 1991 from a merger between Nationale-Nederlanden and the NMB Postbank Group, which offers financial services such as banking, insurance, and wealth management, but after a split in 2014, the insurance activity is now under NN Group, while ING Group focuses entirely on banking activities.”

Look at his eyes. They ain’t smiling. He knows…BAY OF PIGS…

Fragments of Forgotten Days
nsSoedropt


“In November 1998, John F. Kennedy Jr. attended an elegant party hosted by the legendary Fendi sisters in Rome, creating one of history’s most unexpected and poignant encounters when he found himself face to face with Aleida Guevara, daughter of Che Guevara, the Marxist revolutionary whose ideology stood in direct opposition to everything the Kennedy family had fought against during the Cold War. The moment carried extraordinary historical weight, as Aleida’s father had helped establish the very Cuban government that John’s father President Kennedy had attempted to overthrow through the disastrous Bay of Pigs invasion in 1961, an operation that remained one of JFK’s greatest presidential failures and a defining moment in Cold War tensions. Yet in the sophisticated surroundings of the Fendi celebration, with Alda and Carla Fendi serving as gracious hosts, these two children of famous revolutionary figures connected over the shared burden of living under the enormous shadows cast by their legendary fathers. Aleida later told The New York Times that she and John discussed the unique challenges of being offspring of men who had changed world history, and she described him as a beautiful person, revealing her ability to separate the charming man standing before her from the president who had authorized military action against her homeland decades earlier. The photographs from that evening capture something rare and precious, two people whose fathers had been ideological enemies meeting with genuine warmth and mutual understanding, proving that the next generation need not inherit the conflicts and divisions that defined their parents’ era. John’s presence in Rome that November evening, mingling effortlessly between Italian fashion royalty and the daughter of a Communist icon, embodied his unique position as American aristocracy without pretension, someone who could bridge worlds and generations with natural grace that made even the most unlikely connections feel inevitable and right.

Remember when John went to Italy on April 20, 1996 to visit the Valentino Design House? Guess who frigging died today – of all days? The same Designer who established the Valentino Design House. !!! THERE ARE NO COINCIDENCES.

The legendary Italian fashion designer Valentino Garavani, known simply as Valentino, passed away today, January 19, 2026, at his home in Rome at the age of 93, leaving behind a legacy of glamour, iconic red gowns, and dressing royalty and Hollywood stars for decades.

Looking through Q posts for April 20 – they include AS THE WORLD TURNS, which was the soap opera interrupted during Kennedy’s assassination on 11/22/63. Also included for April 20: END.

KP still elevated:

Today’s earthquakes. Check out that pattern off the western coast of Alaska:

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1.19.26 ~ Finds/Headlines For Today Plus a Check-In: The Energies – KP SKYROCKETS to a 9 METALS UPDATES And REFLECTING ON GERONIMO

I felt a shift overnight into this morning. Another one of those experiences where for days – who am I kidding – weeks I felt myself pushing through a dense, disgusting layer of unwanted fog (perhaps another layer of the “great filter”). I did a bunch of inner shifting/releasing/refocusing last night – slept pretty deeply – where I woke up feeling Lighter, more motivated, and absolutely famished. Stomach growling – which hasn’t happened in a very long time. I couldn’t get enough food in me – even after a meal, I had to eat a protein bar and chocolate.

Then I get online and see this:

Maybe the hunger thing has something to do with this – holy shizbot:

Now some reflecting on GERONIMO. I had a nudge to watch Conspiracy Theory with Mel Gibson last week. In the movie he talks about that word – GERONIMO. He says it’s an action of taking a leap of faith – an act of love – and LOVE gives you the wings to act. There are only TWO Q posts that contain the word but there’s just ONE with it used as the word itself: POST 144

TWO 100 car pile-ups:

https://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory/100-vehicles-pile-michigan-crash-snowstorm-moves-country-129359102

https://wsbt.com/news/regional/jackknifed-semi-truck-causing-closures-east-i-196-extended-time-until-cleared-winter-weather-advisory-travel-road-conditions-whiteout-zeeland-ottawa-county-traffic

SILVER:

COPPER (still out of stock):

He also re-Truthed these two:

3I Atlas:

https://avi-loeb.medium.com/are-the-three-mini-jets-coming-out-of-3i-atlas-at-120-degree-separation-a-technological-signature-ba748a017aa0

GREENLAND:

https://www.dw.com/en/greenland-updates-denmark-floats-nato-mission-on-island/live-75558976

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1.18.26 ~ Some Finds Including Jupiter’s Moon Numbers Continue to Climb and is Copper Next Onstage?

95 moons now. 2010? 60-70. In this simulation, they can add whatever they want. I’m still waiting for them to show the giant Jesus in the sky.

Now that silver is (finally) joining the stage, I decided to see about buying a couple of ounces of copper. About all I’m seeing are 1 oz rounds not coming out until next month or I am given the option to be alerted when back in stock. However, check out eBay if you’re inclined. There are people selling their collection, so not recent mint but pure .999 copper 1 oz rounds.

Gaslighting – unless he’s already a few months in the future:

Fuch their “real id”. I really wish people would refuse this.

https://www.tsa.gov/news/press/releases/2026/01/15/45-fee-option-for-air-travelers-without-real-id-begins-february-1

I’ve tried sharing similar things with locals to no avail. I did tell my mom she was watching a movie – actors – designed to wake her up to the truth of this reality. She said she just didn’t want to hear any more of what I had to say. I just shrug. Ok….

Iranians Protest and Fight Back Against Murderous Islamic Regime

Portugal’s ‘Chega’ Party Poised to Bring the Right to Power in Presidential Election – Headed to Runoff Against Socialists

State Department Freezes Visas to 75 Countries at “High Risk of Public Benefits Usage” Including Somalia (VIDEO)

And an html end code of 22:

Mysterious Tiktoks On The Internet Today! (Ep 55)

DarkWaters9

High-speed trains collide after one derails in southern Spain, killing at least 21

17th. Antarctica.

Doing some more Q drop sleuthing:

GREENLAND:

He left out an [ing] – bring(ING) – see below:

AURORA map for the 19th-20th in the U.S.

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Tuning In To The Collective: Would Someone Please Stop Shaking The Snowglobe? All I (WE) Want Is to Have Peace of Mind. For Now, We Fake It. Finding Peace in the Suck.

WHO IS SHAKING THIS DAMN SNOW GLOBE??!!

😅

Now and then, I will go looking to see what the rest of humanity is feeling. Support boards. Community boards. Local talk. That sort of thing. And I have been a bit surprised, perhaps it’s relief, to see a new trend of talk: people not wanting to leave their homes. World is too scary and crazy.

😨

I’m reflecting on this, even as I type. I feel it too – growing. As one who is highly sensitive (which IMHO just indicates you have a knowing about the hidden things of this reality and as such isn’t really a “special” title), I have long dealt with this desire to just stay home or close to home. Some call it agoraphobia. Fear of being “out there”, trapped. We are often told fear = false evidence appearing real.

Today? I say bullshit to that. Just another new age feel-good philosophical narrative designed to make those of us who ARE sensitive to the hidden evil here feel with the knowing something ain’t right about this place feel even more isolated, alone, crazy for how our bodies feel. AND a knowing we are in some way trapped inside of this snow globe, surrounded by a consciousness energy that has no compassion, care or concern for us. YUG!

I see more and more people “becoming” (Awakening) to it all, hence they too are feeling the need to just be at home where it’s safe. Safer shall I say.

For now, humanity is feeling this entire Snowglobe being shaken. For some it’s subtle (that sense will grow), for others it’s strong, almost violent. When we were told to take the 40,000 view, there was a reason for that statement. While we are inside of this space together as a collective, we can still practice being the Observer.

I’m also wondering if this “stay home/close to home” is serving another purpose – to get humanity out of the way of outer happenings for when things really “hit the fan” – AND Shift. The Sky Event moment. The moment that captures the attention of every one of us. For now it is building up leading to moments of “*%@!! would someone just stop shaking the damn snow globe?”

I just want some Peace of Mind.

The lyrics of the song are powerful in their truth:

Now if you’re feelin’ kinda low ’bout the dues you’ve been paying
Things is coming much too slow
And you wanna run, but somehow you just keep on stayin’
Can’t decide on which way to go, yeah-yeah-yeah

I understand about indecision
But I don’t care if I get behind
People livin’ in competition
All I want is to have my peace of mind

If ever there were words and a time that coincide EXACTLY where I am now, this is it.

We fake it, don’t we?

We fake being ok with this compete and pay to live b.s.

Go along with it because hey, we have to eat, right and what other options are there, really, no matter how “off grid” we go?

I’ve never been one to fake it. Because, well, it is FAKE. A fake, unnatural state of being. Doesn’t align with the Soul.

Indecision too. How many of you are feeling that indecision? I sure am. As in BIG TIME.

That indecision is a result of this place and all of its rules. Can’t go THERE because of this damn “law” of “theirs”. Can’t afford to go THERE because hey “they” decided to have this little pay to live game where some places are intentionally created to keep out others of less $tatus. Can’t do THIS even though it’s what you’re good at and enjoy because either you lack the skills “they” say you must have, lack the $$ to get yourself into that position of being seen and let’s be honest simply not enough spots because it all operates on COMPETITION.

Thinking of another song lyrics: You can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometimes you get what you need.

I never did like it. WHO is to say what it is I or any of us truly need? I’ve come to see it differently though – considering it was played at those Trump rallies. The lines were also used in a GEORGE News Publication in one of John’s Editorial Letters. Evil wanted us eliminated. But they aren’t getting that. Instead they are getting what they need – removed, eliminated. Mirror.

That said, we’re still in it, still bound by “their” rules and competition.

For now, we survive in this ever-shaking snow globe. Doing the best we can. Faking it as best as we can. Deep breathing and 40,000 foot observing. Which sucks the more one is Awake and longing for something we can’t quite fully remember (or maybe some can – I can’t seem to get into that full remembering just yet). But just like we know, the more we have Awakened, that this reality is absolutely utterly NOT HOME to our Souls, we also know this experience is temporary, we will break out of here, we are getting help in doing just that.

For now, find peace in the suck.

💖🙏

Victoria

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1.17.26 ~ Today’s Top Headlines And Other Interesting Tidbits.

Trump’s on stage pushing mid-term candidates. Meanwhile, I’m over here saying this. My days of voting are over. Casting a spell inside a system of evil in the hopes that this new person will represent us to the best of their ability and always remember who is the employer (US) and who is the employee (them).

He’s also saying this:

Metes – I’m wondering if this is a typo, or if it’s referring to justice?

The possible missing [R] could indicate RENEGADE or OBAMA. O’boo boo was a staunch parading puppet of climate change. We know there is a weather machine in Greenland. O’B made a lot of noise around “climate change”. Just wondering if the public reveal(s) of Greenland will blow up the climate change narrative and implicate all involved, including O’B. BTW, looking FMI, I found this interesting paper:

https://apps.dtic.mil/sti/tr/pdf/ADA333462.pdf

I look for my own comms. SUPERSTAR. DIVE. (SKY EVENT)

Prepping for what’s to come. Perhaps…

https://www.foxnews.com/opinion/gregg-jarrett-trump-has-authority-send-troops-minneapolis-stop-attacks-ice

Hundreds of soldiers on standby for possible deployment to Minneapolis as protests continue

The head of the snake is pitching a fit on stage:

Netanyahu Blasts Trump’s Gaza Peace Plan, Claims Composition of Gaza Executive Board “Runs Contrary” to Israeli Policy – Israel National Security Minister Calls for “Return to War with Enormous Force”

US Kills Al-Qaeda Leader Connected to Attack on US Forces in Syria

Reza Pahlavi calls for international support to end the Iranian regime (VIDEO)

It’s an opinion – not an official ruling. The Courts would make the final rule change.

DOJ Declares Longstanding Gun Restriction Is Unconstitutional and Cannot Be Enforced

The DOJ has ruled that a century-old federal ban on sending handguns through the mail is unconstitutional and cannot be enforced.

This is amazing. A convocation of Eagles.

Some weird squiggly things…lol

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Awakening Even Further ~ The Journey Within

I am seeing through the illusions of the programs, codes, and lies I have been under. I have finally seen the systemic abuse, the mind spell I’ve been under for decades by people who were supposed to f’ing love me, be my safe space.

I am allowing myself to see what this has truly done to me, especially my brain.

People like me may look fine on the outside, but on the inside, our brains are often offline. In survival mode. Freeze mode. Executive functioning has been offline, which means it is very difficult to make decisions. I see this all now. Clearly. And my days of questioning myself and judging myself are coming to an end. People say to forgive your abusers.

Fuck that.

Forgive YOURSELF for being a decent human who fell for their programmed narratives about you, for they are lies. Abusers project their own behaviors onto their victims. Awakening 101 basics here. We see it all over this reality. Blame the victim. System types create toxic realities, then blame the victim if they can’t keep up or perform to “their” expectations (which are most ALWAYS impossible to do).

No different what happens out there in that toxic cesspool of systems than what happens behind closed doors in our personal lives.

They slowly lure you in, feeling as familiar and sweet as mama’s homemade apple pie. Using tools such as psychological manipulation. Break you down slowly, where you start to question yourself and your reality. Where you question your version of events. Maybe it really IS me, you begin to think. Maybe I really am the problem here.

So you give in.

You apologize when you don’t need to.

You listen to the litany of things you are accused of doing, of being.

And slowly you start to believe it all.

When things really turn for the worse is when you stop trusting your instincts. It’s like your intuition goes offline.

Surely people cannot be THAT blind? That horrible?

Or can they?

Yeah, they can.

And pretty soon that sweet apple pie is nothing but a pile of mud on a garbage can lid while claiming it’s a tasty pie.

Those song lyrics come to mind.

I was blind.

But now, I see.

And I’m f’ing pissed the hell off.

And I am learning to love myself, probably for the first time in my life tbh.

Trusting myself.

Putting together the pieces of that fragmented puzzle and SEEING the clues I missed.

So uh yeah, the Awakening continues, for me, being less about what’s going on “out there” and much more about what’s going on inside of me.

There’s no price tag for that.

For now, here’s some excellent information on the damage done to the brain by abuse. Some of you may appreciate and need this.

💖

Victoria

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Daniel Ryan Cotler
2 hours ago
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THE BRAIN DAMAGE NOBODY TALKS ABOUT
Psychological Abuse Causes Measurable Brain Damage. It’s Time to Prosecute It.
When someone physically assaults you, they can be charged with battery. When someone sexually assaults you, they can be charged with sexual assault. But when someone systematically abuses you psychologically for years, damaging your brain structure measurably and permanently, we call it “abuse” and often don’t prosecute at all.

This ends now.

The Neurological Battery: Measurable Brain Damage
Survivors of psychological abuse don’t just feel traumatized. Their brains are damaged in measurable, documentable ways.
Hippocampal Atrophy: The part of your brain responsible for memory, learning, and emotional regulation shrinks by up to twelve percent in abuse survivors. This causes the memory problems, learning difficulties, and emotional dysregulation you experience.
Amygdala Hyperactivation: The threat-detection center of your brain becomes overactive, making you hypervigilant, anxious, and prone to panic attacks even in safe situations.
Prefrontal Cortex Dysfunction: The part of your brain responsible for rational decision-making, planning, and executive function becomes impaired, explaining why you struggle with choices and forward planning.

Autonomic Nervous System Dysregulation: Your nervous system gets stuck in fight-or-flight mode, keeping your body in constant stress response.

This Is Equivalent to Torture
Research shows that the neurological damage in psychological abuse survivors is indistinguishable from that documented in torture survivors and combat veterans.
Your psychological abuse caused torture-level brain damage.

And currently, we have no adequate legal framework to prosecute this as the serious crime it is.

Neurological Battery: A New Legal Category
In The Truth About Love-Bombing: Exposing Constructive Fraud of Intimacy, Daniel Ryan Cotler introduces Neurological Battery as a distinct crime: measurable brain damage inflicted through psychological abuse.
This category allows prosecutors to charge psychological abusers with battery (causing bodily injury) based on documented brain damage, just as if they had physically assaulted you.

Because they did. They assaulted your brain.

From Victim-Blaming to Accountability
Right now, survivors blame themselves for not recovering faster, not functioning better, not being “fixed” by therapy.
But you suffered measurable brain damage. Your slow recovery isn’t weakness. It’s evidence of the severity of the abuse.
Understanding that you have Neurological Battery, not just “trauma,” changes everything.

It changes how you view yourself. It changes how medical professionals treat you. It changes how prosecutors charge predators.

Available November 10th.
The Truth About Love-Bombing: Exposing Constructive Fraud of Intimacy — The book that makes prosecuting brain damage possible.
The voiceless are voiceless no more.

Today’s Headlines and Finds. 1.16.26

Ya’ll still with me? Been quiet here for some time. My Twitter account is still blessed to receive 10 views. 🙄

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Victoria

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CNN’s Scott Jennings Calls Out Fellow Panelists for Trying to Run Cover for Tim Walz (VIDEO)

Trump Administration Says Banks Will Soon Begin Distributing ‘Trump Cards’

I’ve been watching Japan as Rose spoke of it as an end-game piece – especially around the $$ market$.

Horrifying!

Uh, no. 🙄😠

We’re all shakin’ now:

AI (I personally believe it’s dependent upon the platform and who – or what – did the programming):

https://www.thedodo.com/daily-dodo/wild-crow-gives-family-no-choice-but-to-be-best-friends-with-her

From my own experiences to reading about others 😢

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