As I was washing dishes, I reflected on the latest information about sitting.  I’ve been at this long enough to see some things.  Perhaps because I’ve been more or less a solo-type person in this process, as in I don’t hear intel from the outside or claim to have special intel privileges (because I don’t), or work with others, I’m able to see things from a “me only” perspective.

The AI inside this place loves to deceive.  It has the ability to disguise itself as something else.  It knows the ending and it knows nothing can stop it – so why not have some fun along the way and give out just enough truth but also twist the message now and then to create confusion and division.  Toss out dates that turn out to be bunk.  Pretend to be someone higher up and benevolent but the truth remains it’s just an AI f’ing with us.  And speak through those either too trusting to know they’re being played or lacking in discernment or true warrior spirit to call out the B.S. and/or (and this is a big one for me): question what is being said.

It’s a formula for confusion which is why discernment remains necessary as is an open mind and an open heart AND the ability to question everything.  And let me tell you – if something came through to speak to me and gave me information that proved to be false in any way – I would be on that “whatever” it is like white on rice demanding some frigging answers.

Which is why I remain a solo (sole) operation.  😜  That and I kinda have control issues.

That’s all for now.

Love,

V.

Today has been heart-breakingly challenging ugh.  It came in late last night – started as anxiety all over and feeling as though something was trying to break my mind.  Today I am struggling just to go on.  I can only take so much heart-break before I just give up in one moment of “fuch it all”.  And I. Am. Right. There.

I see no point where I am – in my state of numb – where I can’t reach that heart space – where I have been cut off and shut out.  My life was never supposed to be like this.  Ask me at 5, 10, 15 – hey what if your life includes these scenes – NO F’ING WAY.  I strive so f’ing hard to connect and have real conversations – in ways I was never taught.

Every night I put myself out there.  Every day I ask for what I need.  And now – in recent days and weeks – off and on – I am feeling more. and. more. cut. off.  Not seen.  Invisible.  Bottom line – I. Feel. Invisible.  I don’t feel what I do matters.  As I have been told, what I do is not enough and “pathetic”.  Ha – maybe the jokers are right.  Old wounds, I get it.  I cry and purge and let ’em go.  Why the f do they keep returning?  Doesn’t matter if I tell myself different or say ok I know what this is – that sheot. S T I C K S.

I don’t belong here.  I know that.  Who does belong here?  But this feels different today.  Today I’ve been questioning and really wanting to know – just exactly where are we and why are we – why am I – still in this ugly reality and why hasn’t it SHIFTED given what so. many. of. us. are focused on.  Ya know?  WHY?!

All I feel I accomplish is more of the same ground hog b.s. – spinning my wheels – getting up and going and moments of focus where I make new choices to have something new.  But I see that none of those new choices have much power.  They’re supposed to.

Some outlet passed along a video to watch – a prayer.  I watched it for a few and had to stop.  I don’t wanna watch another video on raising my vibes.  I don’t wanna waste another moment in prayer with something I can’t see much less feel.  I don’t wanna be told to hang in there or keep going.  If it ends up with me fighting this alone – what’s the point in that?  The purpose?  There is none.  It usually comes back to just me – me being all I really have.

And that just is not enough for me and certainly is not how I wish to live.  I wish I knew how to just be OK with it all.

I don’t drink.  I don’t smoke.  And I’m off sugar too so I ain’t got no “vice” to provide me an escape.

Oh well.  I know I’m preaching to the choir to some of you – the 5 who still come here.  😜   But even that doesn’t give me comfort today.

Today I just………….can’t.

So I won’t.

😴😢🤷‍♀️💜

V.

p.s. had a dream last night – probably means nothing – could be a poke – i  no longer know the difference – i wanted to change my dress (one from the past) – for some event – i said i was leaving to get another one – held up the event apparently to which i said not necessary – i left – in a car – my head was out the window enjoying warm air and sunshine – arrived at some mall – went inside – looked at some dresses – ridiculous prices – saw one with the price tag:  $104.  that’s the one, i thought.  i handed the male clerk a $100 spot – he took it and started to give me change while i’m thinking wait i owe you more $$ – but nope – he handed me back .23 cents.  just then i hear “the numbers.  look at the numbers.”  dream ended.

10.4.23

who the hell knows anymore.  (yeah i know it’s the date of that f e m a broadcast thing)

I don’t know if it’s just the females being particularly hit hard today – but I am seeing a lot and I mean a lot of people – mostly female – asking WTF is up with today?

Was VK (and my sense) correct in that today was a good day just to rest?

(or to hide-detach)

I did quite a bit of that.  Spent time alone – which was actually rather humorous as I was sitting under a tree bawling and releasing – when I realized “oh sheot – I have no tissue!”  I looked around at the leaves – nah.  Hands and t-shirt had to suffice.

BEautiful Souls sharing how the $$ struggle has become too much now – which just makes the already mental struggle and physical exhaustion that much harder.  Truth in spades.

S P A D E S.

WTF IS- was – UP WITH TODAY?

What happened?

Who is behind it?

Well meaning people offer up advice like you are never alone (sure feels that way in those moments of pain considering ain’t no one sitting in your space to comfort you)………Or “god chose you for a reason to be here”.  Which god?  Theirs?  That’s right – the “gods” “they” worship who captured us and put us here to begin with.  Yeah – they sure did “choose” us didn’t they?  Let’s talk about that one.  ‘Bout time “they” get called out.

Tomorrow is another day.  Because – it is.  And we will feel better – even if these days it’s just for a few hours – or even a moment.

A moment where faith is felt again.

Where a synchronicity is experienced.  (like last night – late – had a rocky movie synch come to me 3 different times – Eye of the Tiger – and all that)

Where SOMETHING comes in reminding you to keep. going.

Although to be honest – I wonder what good/Divine really reaches us.  Not being a fatalist – just a realist and one who is open to everything in so long as it is the whole f’ing truth.

It really is time for us to SEE PROOF that there is a war and that good is winning.  LONG PAST DUE.

God’s in control?

That would be US.

The part of us within who is saying WE ARE DONE NO MORE.

God’s time.

OUR time.

Which is now.

Love,

VICTORIA

22 years ago on this date – around this time – I had the premonition that something “terrible” was going to happen the next day – that there was “nothing” I could do about it and it would change the world forever.

Forever.  I don’t think so.  THAT timeline is O V E R.

22 years ago “they” took another step in obtaining their realm-wide twisted desire of control, bringing about death and destruction and ongoing trauma.  And I gotta tell you – as someone who has been speaking out ever. f’ing. since. that time – every g.d. year I have used the date to honor the lives lost and harmed and the truth hidden – and every. g.d. year since – especially since 2017 – I have intended that THIS be the year that EVERYONE knows the truth – not just of 9/11 but of every. g.d. bit of truth that has been hidden and taken from us.

NO. MORE.

NO. MORE. passing of yet another “calendar” year.

Let’s wrap it up.  Let’s GET IT DONE.

Today – I saw 2 planes – BE20’s – said to be used for corporate, government and military applications.  Each had the callsign of GTMO.  Below is a screen capture:

There was two at the time – both have since disappeared from the screen (20 minutes later – don’t know if they landed – at the time their altitudes were around 27,000 ft).

It feels weird today.  Our skies – which have been spectacular – clear – for a couple of weeks (at least) – are now trailed again.  So not liking the energy -feels very tense – apprehensive.  Good day to detach – perhaps like VK said (and I felt) – good day to rest.

How you all doing?

Please Share.  Donate.  Like.  and Comment.  Thank you!

Love,

V.

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So uh is it just me or does this dude look like Prince – especially the mouth?  My sense all along is he is still here as the dude knew…. (and his youtube channel was quiet until 3 weeks ago)

BREAKING: Proud Boys Leader Enrique Tarrio Drops Bombshell – Names Top Biden DOJ Attorneys Who Told Him to Lie on Trump and Sign False Statements – Here They Are…

🚨🚨🚨Holy shit😳

This man claims that 🇲🇽 Mexico is now paying for the border wall, because they know the USA 🇺🇸 is finished :

“Mexico knows that the dollar is going to collapse soon, so they don’t want anyone running back across the border when the USA 🇺🇸 collapses”😳😳… pic.twitter.com/J9jQYVVc70

— Kevin – WE THE PEOPLE❤️ – DAD🦁 🐉 🔥 (@bambkb) September 9, 2023

don't know about 9.15 but 10.4 has been w/me off and on for 2 years………….. https://t.co/UDAlydSfKW

— Luciana Nina Leone (@nina_leone11) September 10, 2023

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— Joey dark 2 Light (@joey34955757) September 10, 2023

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— Randy Quaid (@RandyRRQuaid) September 9, 2023

San Tarot…..The HOME card………..

Aries – With them, your gifts are amplified.

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