I purged a lot of old stuff – literal physical stuff.  And I am not done.

I went through old pictures, letters, cards, momentos and tossed ’em – keeping only a small fraction.  I feel a mixture of sensations ~ relief/lightness and sadness/regret.  I was always the “friends for life” type – but it turns out my friends from those golden years weren’t.  I reflect on that – and I see how that is pretty impossible.  Is it because of this particular reality or is it because that ain’t how natural life works?

I don’t know.  What hurts the most is seeing when these relationships ended – when I stepped off my current path at the time into someplace new.  I wanted to carry those people along with me – but you know  how it goes – you can only do YOU and no one else.  You accept, allow others to be and trust in Love and let the rest GO.

The whole friends for a season/friends for a life time – it’s just f’ing painful to this overly ridiculously sensitive clingy heart of mine.  I never did evolve much past the age of 5 in terms of – what?  I don’t know.  Controlling things?

UGH.

The whole control issue…..that was likely the driving subconscious decision of mine today (which I have been feeling off and on for a good year now) to finally PURGE and let go of the past by removing physical things that only serve to bring me back into a totally different timeline – keeping me stuck in a way.  I reflected on this in the garage – turned on the radio for some comfort and THE CHILDHOOD SONG of mine in this experience ~ Styx ~ was singing to me:  “I’ve got to be free.  Free to face the life that’s ahead of me.”

You see, that’s the thing – I have no CLUE what that life looks like now.  NONE.  I have had visions and done the intending up down sideways backwards and in between – traveled this long dusty hot cold lonely road of personal awakening/questioning/searching – and I’m still here in this space – waiting – for something.  Myself?  An opportunity?  Is this waiting about an inside or outside event?  Both?  I don’t know.

For now, my experience remains a giant I DON’T KNOW/LET IT GO/TRUST.

Anyone else having the urge to purge?

As for the rest of the experience here – dreams sucked last night.  They tried to get me into some bad situation in argentina where I had shackles on one of my legs.  I finally busted out and had some words for the guy who put me in them (after I had trusted him).  There is still so much talk about voting – getting people to vote.  I stick by my analogy I shared here yesterday and hold the position that I AM NOT THE PROBLEM.  I AM THE SOLUTION.

Anything that is not part of the solution is total bullsheot to me now.  And that includes all of this talk about things getting worse…..more violence…..more chaos………..more death.  Those focused on that?  STOP!  Those spreading those words?  STFU.  CHILL.  BREATHEEEEEEEEE.  Remember the words of Bill Wood who said the closer we got to the end – when we reached the point where we just had those 2 running timelines – the more POWERFUL we become and the EASIER it becomes for us to actually legitimately CREATE the experience we WANT.  So let’s stop focusing on “their” timeline and focus on OURS, ok?

FREEDOM.  TOTAL TRUTH.  LOVE.  ABUNDANCE.

BE.  THE.  SOLUTION.

Love,

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I had to get out of the house tonight and go on one of my drives.  I headed to a quiet park, parked the car and turned on the radio.  AFRICA (Toto) had just started playing.  I was nudged to look at the odometer:  22.  I did some reflecting ~ the lyrics “it’s waiting there for you” spoke to me.  I then heard the 80’s song “catch me I’m falling” – haven’t heard that one in a good 20 years – which reminded me of 2 experiences I’ve had the past week where I am jolted awake quite hard, hearing a loud knock (twice) in the process.  I had that happen once or twice back in 2018 or somewhere during that time so hmmm – interesting it’s happened again now.

I decided to head home as a group of teens pulled up.  I remember when I was that age – you want your privacy – at least from adults.  Driving home I heard Collective Soul, “Shine”.  As I drove the lyrics “heaven let your light shine on me” and “give me a sign” spoke to me and I felt nudged to go home a different way – up the hill and passed the small cemetary.  I’ve lived here for over 20 years and have passed by this place hundreds of times.  Tonight though, I was guided to really look at the big headstone that has sat there for years.  It said just one word:  WARRIOR.

WTF??!! I thought – I’ve never noticed that.  Thinking I had misread it, I drove around the block and back up the hill again to see it again.  Yeppers.  WARRIOR.

That reminded me of the Trump dream I had last night.  I was sitting on some low slab-like table – wearing a very long gray sweatshirt that went to my knees.  I had on boots, my hair was very long, thick, curly, blondish red, pulled to the side.  I also recall having a hat on of some sort.  I remember feeling very tired, weary, but relieved – just needing to rest and sleep.  Trump walks into the room.  I see him and motion him with my pointer finger to ‘come here’.  He walks over.  He is casually dressed.  I take his hand and telepathically send him impressions of how the war/plan impacted me.  What this experience here has been like from my perspective.  He became quite emotional – his eyes glazed over with tears – so I then thanked him for how he risked his life for this rescue and how grateful I was for him – how I wanted him to focus on that part of my experience instead.  And that was it.

So………….back to being in the car.  I’m driving Home – this obscure radio station is on and I was going to change it but something said to “wait”.  The song that comes on next?  I’m Going Home – To The Place Where I Belong.

Chris Daughtry – Im Going Home

Tired today.  I was up until almost 5am last night – anxiety, frustration I could not shake.  On it goes until it’s over, right?

Love,

V.

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