At this moment I am grateful (if you can call it that – perhaps relieved is a better word) for the task of folding laundry.  Mundane – but it gets my mind quiet – at least focused on something other than what’s going on “out there”.

And today – my mind is being seriously intensely pushed to bust up into a billion different pieces.  I’ve spoken with several of you and again, it’s collective.

Aren’t we tired of hearing that?  Gawd knows I am flipping worn down from saying it/typing those words.  It’s collective…..Makes me do this:

I tuned in – in a moment of quiet and calm – and felt “they” are seriously pushing the doubt program.  Doubting our hearts.  Our intuition.  Our senses.  Doubting our ENTIRE experience of awakening.  I continue to know that anything deceptive that misleads any of us regardless of our age or gender or level of awakening holds the onus of responsibility for that doing.  All we can do is – well, I don’t know at this point, do you?  Regroup.  Recenter.

Even THAT feels like groundhog day.

I don’t need to just take a step back and regroup.  I need a f’ing NEW EXPERIENCE in which to DO that and have it manifest into something that I desire.  I create.  I CONTROL.  Control is ONLY an illusion in an experience of enslavement and deception and INVISIBLE controls.  We are being pushed to the absolute brink and all I know to DO is take care of my body.  Sleep.  A lot.  When I can.  Move the energy.  Dance.  Jump up and down.  Punch pillows.  Throw eggs (like Denise says though throw ’em at people and not on the floor as I suggested because well, you know……….lol)

Gotta have humor to keep the mind SANE in these moments.

So…………..I remain trusting in only WHAT I WANT.  What is right for me.  And honestly what is right for me is right for all – which is Freedom.  You do you.  I do me.  You choose what YOU choose and I choose what I choose.  And in that energy space we support one another the entire process.

Right now I am feeling a TON of distraction.  The 355 movie.  The russian rocket (which allegedly splashed down “somewhere in the pacific”).  And I just heard – another rocket – Lemur-2-djara – also came down today – landing in the southern Indian Ocean (where the “f” was the coverage of that one??).  T making a big feather ruffling over first doing a presser tomorrow then cancelling yesterday.  What is good?  What is evil?  I don’t know.  How can we?  If this truly is The Art of War type of psych/physical war, it’s largely deception on both sides.  Question remains:  Are either side working for us and Freedom?  Or is just another “came coin different side” that we’ve been living under for eons?

I.  Don’t.  Know.  I go by what I sense – what I intuit – and I use logic as well.  I also go by what I see and hear.  I have seeeeeen increase in military in our skies – in our area – beginning in 2018 – and a big increase in the past 6-10 months.  We have heard military fire – fire AND return fire – that one occurrence with no police sirens following.  And we have heard loud explosions/BOOMS coming from the Pacific when “earthquakes” were registering.  So something’s afoot and has been for a few years.  NO ONE can deny that.

So…………….I have no useful advice now.  No real truth to share other than what I have here.  The end result – how much of this are you and I creating with our own inner energies?  Is our awakening having an impact in creating that desired result of Freedom we all seek?

Again – that remains to be seen.

But I will say this….

If evil wanted to put us under a spell to make us think THIS time we’re actually getting benevolent/truthful help in removing them altogether – why would this awakening been allowed to happen?  And why is there so much resistance in our push for our Freedom?

Just something I ponder these days – in an attempt to keep my mind focused and in tact.

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Love to you all….

Victoria

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