Nothing much is aligning.  I’m just feeling rather “numb” to everything – reconsidering – once again – my choices.  Is the choice to keep holding firm to what I want – or do I just toss it in and say screw the waiting – and do a little bit of selling out (more than I already have that is).  You know – “if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em”.

Everything is feeling like a lie.  A narrative.  These alleged messages from home – all sound like AI to me.  Wouldn’t a real response from family/friends who are working to liberate their loved ones, etc. be “we are doing everything we can.  Have faith.  You are not alone!”  Instead we get this robotic sounding b.s. or the “raise your vibe/go within” nonsense which does NOTHING to change the parameters.  Could it all be so we stay complacent and thus vulnerable and isolated?

Who the eff knows.  T was allegedly on Fox tonight with Dan Bongino (who did he boink to get that position??) spewing the same words about the jab – how it’s safe – encouraging people to get it but still saying freedom of choice.  I swear they’re all sounding like a bunch of controlling psychopaths at this point.  At least today/tonight.

Maybe it’s the energies.  I don’t know.  I don’t care.  Energy this.  Energy that.  In the interim life continues to pass on by.  And yet it also feels more restrictive than ever before.  There is that spike protein shedding issue that we are sensitive to so doing normal things feels more challenging – for obvious reasons.  Hell if their plan is to kill us all anyway, why not just live a little and take a chance.  Enjoy things while we’re still here and give a big FU whatever to the consequences.

Some are saying big things to happen in DC this week.  And yet big WHAT?!  All revealing OR lockdown by the commies nationwide prompting riots and further chaos and military arrests/controls as we are seeing in Sydney.

I wish I were a hobbit.  I wouldn’t have to deal with this bullshit.  I never consented to any of this – ever.  And yet – what control have I had?

Yep.  Z E R O.

So ok then someone give me a reason – a real reason – something I can SEE that everything is going to be ok and there is a benevolent plan – albeit it messy and violent – to end this sheot show.  And a “when” would be so helpful to my weary Soul.

Heather’s paperwork – still sits –  nothing happening.  Nothing moving.  Years spent in jail for nothing.  All of her work – and maybe 10 people out in the world of awakened journalism – know OF her.  Although I gotta say – after hearing her say “ALL ON” for the last 3-4 g.d. years – I’m even tired of that narrative.

And now we have this alleged new PM of Canada who is self-appointed.  Who the “f” does that?  Aren’t dictators self-appointed?

Good people out there trying to remove criminals in office – protesting – creating paperwork – and honestly what good is any of it doing?  Until the military is fully backing the people – and the police and sheriff’s too (instead of this being the minority it needs to be the majority) – until the courts are once again legitimized and lawful – we’re screwed.  Spinning our wheels.  Eating a never-ending dangling carrot.

And I am tired.  I am so tired.

No more carrots.

If there is a Divine God – if there is something good outside of this space – it’s time to step in and do.

Looking for some new book series to enjoy.  Anything to distract me.  Since I don’t have a bathtub I can’t “calgon take me away”….Fantasy book – take me away.  And enjoy the weather coming in.  Looks like rain….