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I woke up this morning feeling so peaceful – but it felt like me on the outside.  I felt it from my center and it was so wonderful – I wanted to hold onto it.  Bring it with me.  But I couldn’t.  Not fully.  It was as though I was literally being pulled away from there – back here.  Once I hit full consciousness my first thought was “sheot – why did I get inserted back into this place?”  That was a new one (term) to come to me.

I continue to have dreamless sleep.  Daughter as well as my mate.  It’s as though that “game” was shut off.  I went from an increase in new dream experiences that were vivid and felt important – where I was in meetings, talking with others about my new life – then those closed up suddenly and now – I just sleep.  Except for when I don’t – then I wake up and usually get something to eat for I am suddenly ravenous.

Weird.

My thought on all of this – is if it is true there is a part of us on the outside – that part is awake and active.  At least knowing what happened, etc.  Or maybe I am just seeing the future of that transition.  Who knows….(someone does of course)….

I am seeing a lot of stories of the poked seeking help now that they have been harmed.  The last few months I have had a lot of empathy for them.  Now?  Those of us who made the wise choice in saying no and who have been physically harmed by these people (transmitting) – we need the help.  The compassion.  I feel more solid in my thought on what is happening – radiation.  Given my mate’s experience (where he felt he was on fire) – my experience (weird sores) and a friend’s current experience – I see the body is reacting to being radiated.  That symptom can present itself in many ways – given the amount of exposure and current level of health.  Not all are experiencing this – but enough are to make it obvious this is a real happening.  So nope – I don’t respect their “choice” – not when it is creating harm.  They are the new weapon of choice for the agenda.

This is about self survival now and self preservation.  This is war – not some game.  Illusion or not – inside here you can still get harmed – just like in the matrix.  I have been saying “this is an illusion – this cannot harm me” when I remember to do so.  That helps.  Like the matrix – Neo had to reach a certain level of awareness/awakenedness (yes that is a word now) before those bullets could no longer harm him in the matrix world.

I’m tired.  So tired.  Using my focus and energy to reach that higher level feels daunting.  Grounding myself feels fake.  Why would I give any further energy to this physical space?  Going within and finding center – here?  In this current space?  And this whole “you create your own reality” is a narrative I will not allow into my space – unless it is a large number of us engaged in the same intention together – forget it.  Nope.  After being “at this” for 30 years – I’d rather the machine just turn off and we get out.

I continue to seek a new home and am putting out the request again.  Anyone know of someone who has some home/property with an available spacious clean safe home in which to rent (for as long as we would need)?  Prefer ocean nearby – if not definitely lakes.  Nature.  Rural.  Small/quiet town (no more cities).  More like-minded people around and definitely the unpoked far outnumber the pokies.  Let me know.

You will notice I didn’t include today’s date – for good reason.  The energy feels oppressive and heavy and I am quite tired.  Continuing to read, craft and other things to escape.  And it does feel like an escape/distraction at this point.  The ability to “be” here fully present to SEE it all – nope.

Just N O P E.

That’s all I have for now.

Love,

Victoria

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A collective feeling now.  Feeling that squeeze where zero zip nada is aligning – and that feeling grows – if that’s possible – but it is.  I go within to seek answers to questions – when – what – where – feels like I am trying to find water in a dry well atm.  I hope you enjoy today’s share.

With love….Victoria

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