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4.11.25 ~ More info on the plane crash in NY, OB’s WH Portrait removed. 17 References in the vibe… and other early day finds

 

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“17” person investigation team.  We have to remember that “they” have long engaged in false flag ops – where not everyone “dies” as is promoted.  Could this be a mirror tactic?

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Interesting – first thing I thought of “when a plan comes together”………

Hudson River helicopter pilot ID’d as Sean Johnson, Navy SEAL veteran

The pilot of the doomed helicopter that crashed into the Hudson River was a Navy SEAL veteran — and posted chilling video of himself last month proudly flying in the same type of chopper over Lower Manhattan.

“When it all comes together…,” Sean Johnson, 36, wrote next to the now-eerie Facebook footage, which showed him in a Bell 206 helicopter March 27.

 

I found this – possible connection to the above but also the find below – just interesting timing/connection……….

 

 

 

 

More 17 references……..

 

This – yes.  CH and RUSSIA Prez working w/POTUS.  If they weren’t, we would be in WWIII by now….

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DOJ Releases 700 Pages of Crossfire Hurricane Russia-Russia-Russia Documents – FBI Informant and Crackhead Stefan Halper Featured Prominently | The Gateway Pundit | by Jim Hoft

 

This is HUGE news:

Trump Moves to Gut NOAA’s Climate Research

 

Gonna rather miss having our own little time zone here:

Trump calls for permanent daylight saving time

 

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A VERY COSTLY EVENT – Gematria:

The Calm Before The Storm (i know we are fed up hearing that phrase – my feel – when the [controlled] storm is shown it is quick in duration)

Nikola Tesla Reincarnated

Last Day Under The Sun

For Love To Set All Free

A lot of kennedy references in this one too

 

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PROMOTION TIME: Painter/Artiste’

 

She’s a patriot and a fighter for Freedom from the Netherlands.  The art world has been hit hard as she says, with evil, perverse images selling more than what is Pure.  Here’s one of her pieces she is looking to sell.  If you’re interested, I am also including her Twitter handle for you.  I know she would appreciate the support!

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She says the size is 40x50cms

Here is her X handle:  (2) QGateKeeper (@QGateKeeper1) / X

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4.10.25 ~ We hitting that Easter Timeline – THIS YEAR?!?! Maybe? Yes?! Dead Cat Bounce (trap)

 

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Greenland………….After JD’s visit………..hmmm…………

BREAKING: Greenland Space Force Commander Relieved of Command After Sending Email Undermining President Trump | The Gateway Pundit | by Kristinn Taylor

 

There are still some of “them” in these agencies – I continue to see some detainment and deportations that should not be happening, imho………

BREAKING: Federal Judge Allows Trump to Require Illegal Aliens to Register in Online Database or Face Prison Time, Fines | The Gateway Pundit | by Cristina Laila

 

And yet we wait for Epstein info…………JFK…………..9/11……………

WATCH: Pam Bondi Announces “No Negotiations” for Tesla Terrorists Facing at Least 20 Years in Prison – “Huge Arrest” Incoming in Next 24 Hours | The Gateway Pundit | by Jordan Conradson

 

 

You mean the truth will finally be revealed – we already know………this info has been available for a good 20 years…………

HHS Secretary RFK Jr. Says by September We Will Know What Causes Autism Epidemic in the US | The Gateway Pundit | by Jim Hᴏft

 

 

Trump Signs Executive Order Reviewing Pentagon’s Weapons Acquisition Process – Any Project More Than 15 Percent Over Budget or Behind Schedule May Face Cancellation | The Gateway Pundit | by Paul Serran

 

 

Siemens AG is a global technology company focused on industry, infrastructure, transport, and healthcare, known for its electrification, automation, and digitalization solutions. 

My first thought on the above company was jabs……Yeppers:

Vaccine production: Marburg has the right stuff – Siemens Global

One of the vaccines that provides particularly good protection against Covid-19 is BNT162b2 from Mainz-based biotech company BioNTech. To scale-up the manufacturing capacity further, the company has begun production in Marburg – and relies on the expertise available at Siemens.

 

 

 

 

This is how we save IS RA EL for last……………9/11 files……….

 

 

 

There goes Elon with his 69 number again (that and 420)……….

 

 

 

 

 

When I saw him speak positively about her yesterday, I knew – “she’s controlled”…………

 

Easter timeline…..

 

I LOOOOOVE this:

 

 

That’s a nice lookin’ loaf of bread………..😄🥰

 

 

 

 

Does kind of feel like that – just today I was cleaning the floors, thinking of all I wanted to do today and my mind said, “THERE IS NOT ENOUGH TIME ANYMORE to do what I used to do in a day”.  And while it has been back and forth – as in some months feel stretched waaaaaaay out while others are like “huh?  month’s over already?” – overall we have been in an experience where that “time” program is absolutely not on the same frequency as it was years ago.  

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Promoting a truther/anon/friend

 

This is my friend D – aka “DontDrinktheKoolAid”.  I don’t remember how we connected, but I’m grateful we did.  He’s always been supportive of my work, offering a listening ear now and then as well.  He has a knack for putting out awesome videos – always focused on sharing the Truth.  A Patriot, Anon and Truther to his heart and Soul – he’s in this awakening to the end.  So, if you’re looking for someone who doesn’t spin b.s. to suit a clickbait narrative – someone with integrity, check him out.  He is on rumble, telegram and twitter.  Here are his handles:

DDKZ 👻 (@qnn17_z1) / X

Telegram: View @Dontdrinkthekoolaidz

DontDrinktheKoolAid17

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A check-in/interesting experience: I GOT THE POWER. And some finds/headlines ~ 4.9.25

 

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This is a fun experience to share.  I had to do a phone call with my healer today as her area was under an unexplained power outage.  It was a good call – very high energy/vibe.  At the end I felt a nudge to ask what was up with the power outage.  She said she didn’t know and just as I began to say “you shouldn’t be having one” BAM the power comes back on.  She got excited, said how funny it was it came on just as we talked about it.  After the phone call I turned on some music, started singing along, “I GOT THE POWER”.  Moving and grooving.  Walked over to my laptop to look something up, opened up the top and there on my screen (where I have a stream of ongoing pictures of my own that circulate) was a split: on the left side was an image of Jesus, on the right, a picture of the transformer on the pole outside.  lol

SERIOUSLY?!  I got a good giggle out of that one.  Thanked the Universe and went about my day.  But not before I changed up the lyrics, singing, “I got the power in me.  You got the power in you.  Together our power creates our Destiny.”

Here’s what I’m seeing.

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Victoria

 

A “missing data/black gap” line…….All at the 17:00 hour too….

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BREAKING: Trump to Revoke Chris Krebs’s Security Clearance — Orders DOJ Investigation into Role in ‘Stolen’ 2020 Election | The Gateway Pundit | by Brian Lupo

 

BREAKING: House Passes Rep. Darrell Issa’s No Rogue Rulings Act to Limit Rogue Activist District Court Judges – One Republican Votes “No” | The Gateway Pundit | by Jordan Conradson

 

Toilets should be next up……….

High Flow Shower Heads Are Back! Trump Signs Executive Order to End War on Relaxing Showers – Drops His Best Line Yet! (VIDEO) | The Gateway Pundit | by Jim Hoft

 

The Art of the Deal: Trump Pauses Tariffs on Countries That Didn’t Retaliate, Causing U.S. Stocks to Skyrocket — China Tariff Now at 125% | The Gateway Pundit | by Jim Hᴏft

 

DHS Revokes Status of Almost a Million Illegals Who Entered US Through CBP One App- Send Message Users Via App to  Leave “Immediately” | The Gateway Pundit | by Margaret Flavin

 

I’m still on the fence about this one.  Recently got called a B. Gates idiot for even talking about it on my site.  😂🙄  I was like dude, seriously?  If anyone is an idiot, it’s you for you clearly have no clue who I am.  Anyway, T never spoke of this particular treatment – it got pushed big time by some big accounts – and I just always felt off.  Then there’s the whole “what is a virus” topic – which is another rabbit hole I’ve peaked into off and on over the years.  “they” lie about everything.  There is one thing I do feel strongly about – solidly I will say – when it comes to any sort of inflammation in the body that originated from stored trauma(s) – you can’t supplement it away.  I’ve tried.  You can supplement for support – but to heal requires the releasing/reprocessing of that stored energy using specific somatic based practices.  And I KNOW this to the core of WHO I AM: “they” gave us “their” dna including that “reptilian brain” which enables trauma to stick.  I don’t know how many times I’ve been told that the brain more or less holds on to negative experiences – and thoughts.  It takes several repetitions of positive thoughts to change that – but funny only one negative experience – especially in childhood – can stay put.  Yeah, fuch “their” hijack.  Frequency event to return the diamonds.  (today on a nudge while in that good space, i opened a book of mine – there looking back at me was the simple phrase: “HERE COMES THE SUN” – showed a rainbow starting to cover the sun)

Idaho Legislature Clears Way For Ivermectin To Be Sold Over The Counter | ZeroHedge

 

This is powerful:

I know of people who have totally rewritten past events……….Brain is a supercomputer……..”You could create enough of a visualization for yourself and build that ability….at one point would think it’s so true that the world would meet you and put it into your life.”

 

Read it?  We live it:

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4.8.25 ~ End of day Finds ~ Tariffs now officially in place (4/9)

 

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When I was up early this morning, I saw 2 trillion had been added (making me think the usual – who put it there?).  Several hours later, it was gone.  Back and forth goes the crazy clowns on the crazy train…

S&P 500 rebound collapses in biggest U-turn since at least 1978. Investors can’t shake tariff jitters. – MarketWatch

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Asia atm:

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Trump teases targeted tariffs on overseas drug manufacturers – MarketWatch

 

Trump believes iPhones can be made in the US, says White House | The Verge

 

President Trump Says Top Team From South Korea “On a plane Heading to the U.S.” to Discuss Trade, Tariffs, and More, Hints at Deal with China – Press Sec Says “It was a Mistake for China to Retaliate” (VIDEO) | The Gateway Pundit | by Jordan Conradson

 

Up to 70 countries Have Contacted White House Since Tariff Announcement – Press Secretary Karoline Leavitt Says “Countries are Falling Over Themselves to Reform Their Unfair Trade Practices” (VIDEO) | The Gateway Pundit | by Jordan Conradson

 

 

 

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The One Big Beautiful Bill…..

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Gematria: THE ONE BIG BEAUTIFUL BILL

The Phoenix Rising

Buckle up Buttercup (i don’t like that phrase)

Something Big Is Coming

Three Days of Darkness

As The World Turns

Trust Sessions

Mass Injection Event

Got to say – there are some very personal phrases in there for me, including my birthday, which when that happens, I find intriguing….

 

 

 

I needed this.  I see I am at that space where I can surrender and know that Love will always show up – but I also continue to feel I’m still waiting on “something” to change out there.

 

Social media “friends” list went down today – mostly of my own doing.  After being called a deadbeat mom, after being told I offer nothing of value to inspire people to donate, after having religion pushed on me while ignoring my boundaries as I state that is not my thing – after being unheard after my specific requests for the specific kind of help I seek – and if I share how that hurts I become the “problem”.  Oh yeah?   Well…..I. have. had. it.  Gloves are off – anyone who crosses those boundaries again with me – they. are. removed.  No second chances with me now.  And it has surprised me – shocked me actually – how these have been women doing this.  As women – as sister’s – we are supposed to be SUPPORTING each other – not attacking.  No criticizing.  Listening, not overpowering and silencing.  It’s a shit show out there – it’s hard on all of us.  Kindness goes a long way as does compassion.  Even if someone can’t help – show that kindness and compassion.  I know what feels safe.  And as F. Gump said – “I may not be a smart man, but I know what love is.”  Indeed.  And I give deep thanks to those who did show up today, hearing me, holding space.  

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A share

So here I sit in the living room another night of restless sleep. I took a huge dropper of CBD did nothing.

I feel and continue to feel lost and alone. I have intended and requested and stated what I need for so many months and have yet to have my needs met. Instead what I have been receiving is unwanted and unneeded advice. I have issues I have a dysregulated nervous system that I am continually working on healing with the help of the counselor I see.

It is painful to experience not being seen for who you are and where you are. Humanity seems to have lost the ability to see others where they are rather people seem to see others from their own vantage point instead of Through The Eyes of the other person. And I think this is the number one reason why so many people are drowning now. People don’t just fall through the cracks quickly or quietly. I’m a very vocal person and in spite of my challenges I am still capable of determining what it is that I need as well as stating those needs. I need a miracle I need support system I need friends to check in on me to see how I’m doing without waiting for me to do the checking in giving my schedule and how distracted mentally I’ve become. When I say I’m not doing well I mean I am not doing well. I have so many gifts to offer and the world just doesn’t seem to want them aside from a handful of people.

I’m worried for myself and I am worried for my girl. Why don’t people understand that I can’t do this on my own? Why is it I see others who are in similar situations at least financially and they share their needs online and they get their needs met? Are some people just more valuable and more important? It makes me wonder more where the hell I really am. I’ve always been willing to help other people from where they’re at I have always been willing and have asked people what do you need what can I do for you and it pains the f*** out of me to see to know that I simply have not had that experience come back to me in the way that I know I need and deserve.

I know I can’t keep putting my heart out there and receive silence. I could have been helped in the way that I needed if people would have just come together. Nobody makes it here on their own I don’t care who you are. When somebody when a person is drowning that is when they need the most support. I feel like I am in a fighting battle with something that I have no desire to battle with something that is pushing me to become one of the homeless. Or certainly to stay trapped where I don’t belong or where I don’t want to be. I will admit I’m scared out of my f****** mind right now.  Financial stress is causing me too much mental anguish. And the pain in my heart that I feel after how diligently I have been putting myself out there in new ways with new work along with this work for the past year and a half and I have gotten absolutely nowhere. When I say I need help I don’t know I just I feel so alone and lost and I don’t know what to do different. And I am this way because I have had to go this alone and I keep saying I can’t do it alone and that is not me being negative in myself talk it’s because I know the reality of what it takes especially in today’s world. I see others in my situation who are able improve their lives and that only happens because other people have stepped in and help them.

I am not discounting any of you who suppirt what I do here.  I see others reach out on social media and have a swarm of people gather.  Or some will say hey we need to help this person and a tribe is born.  That would be a nice experience.  Maybe put an end to what my girl has been saying lately which is for me to just stop…stop trying.  people are not going to rally around you mom.

Mama disagrees.

And on that note I will end this piece.

4.7.25 ~ RFK endorses the MMR measles vax royally p’ing off his supporters………Trump “PANICAN” and a GEMATRIA…..What’s up with October 7?

 

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Today I’m simply asking for prayers for healing and abundance, focusing on my girl for something beautiful and positive to show up for her.  I hit a point in the last 24 hours where I feel I’m out of options and simply don’t know what else to do and that brings up a level of inner insanity and raging grief that honestly scares me.  And for the love of god – please if you read this – at least share my work and say a few words about me.

Recent synchs/comms on a personal level – seeing 88 and a youtube channel we listen to that plays vintage music had a recent title “THE CALM BEFORE THE STORM”.  Woke up this morning thinking about October 7 and why T has referred to it along with the words of Rose and LMH about a global $$ market prior to an exit.  See gematria below for a correlation on that.

Here’s what I am seeing today.

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We have another WTF moment today:

Robert F. Kennedy Jr. endorses the MMR vaccine to fight measles, and his supporters aren’t happy: ‘You pushing vaccines is NOT what I voted for’

Robert F. Kennedy Jr.: Robert F. Kennedy Jr. endorses the MMR vaccine to fight measles, and his supporters aren’t happy: ‘You pushing vaccines is NOT what I voted for’ | – The Times of India

 

This was a much more appropriate response:

Original was one of “them” – this one of those “they won’t be safe walking the streets” call out?

 

PANICAN……..

 

Gematria for PANICAN

Nesara

Xrp

Exit

Hammer

 

Markets today for the states:

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Florida Authorities Bust Massive Global Child Pornography Ring — Over 1M Videos Seized, Including Infants Sexually Assaulted | The Gateway Pundit | by Jim Hᴏft

 

How about the rest of the states………

President Trump Signs Executive Order To Make DC Safe and Beautiful Again | The Gateway Pundit | by James Rose

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/political/canary-sick-blackrocks-fink-says-most-ceos-telling-him-were-already-recession

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/military/uss-carl-vinson-steams-through-indian-ocean-join-war-against-yemen

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/political/supreme-court-sides-trump-over-venezuelan-deportations-requires-due-process-each-case

 

https://www.zerohedge.com/geopolitical/trump-stuns-saying-us-direct-talks-iran

 

Nearly $160 B since the 40’s……….

https://www.zerohedge.com/political/bibi-washington-first-foreign-leader-negotiate-removal-trumps-tariffs-person

 

 

 

Wondering if this focus on eggs indicates an Easter thingie/timeline….

 

 

I literally have no CLUE as to how this is all going to end up looking like – as i have huge dreams and big expectations as to how i want this to look like in the end…..mixed in with this concern that I may just look at it at the end and think “wait, that’s it?” – looking around the theatre thinking what a waste of my time………..anyone else?  i hope i’m wrong.  i mean are they going to crash the market when it’s nothing but a ponzi scheme and a way of the upper and richie riches to get even richer.  anyone else feeling like you’re being left out in this “plan”?  

 

 

TRUTH in a meme:

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Blinking Lights phenomena continuing.  Any of you experiencing this?  Noticing some strange things w/the computer’s and phones in recent weeks but nothing w/the street lights……

The sky looked SERIOUSLY weird! Came out of NOWHERE!

 

 

 

I love this:

 

 

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Markets are a’changin…………Monday going to be black swan? Manic Monday?

 

This is not my forte – but the comms and signs are everywhere that jig is up for the giant ponzi $cheme…

 

Investors should brace for another 7% to 8% drop in the S&P 500, says Morgan Stanley – MarketWatch

 

Tesla Stock Tumbles. Price Target Slashed 43% Amid Musk’s ‘Brand Crisis Tornado.’<!– –> – MarketWatch

 

Europe:

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China:

 

Hong Kong:

 

 

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Sitting in my car in the rain under a tree

Trying to give it all over to God.

Inspired by something I saw that said when you don’t know what else to do just lay in bed look up at the ceiling and give it all to God speak it all to God.

And so I am. I don’t know what to do anymore with myself with my life. I don’t know how to build my tribe anymore. I don’t know how to reach my daughter or give her what she needs. I don’t know how to heal. I don’t know how to improve my financial situation. I don’t know how to find sleep in peace in the midst of the Unwanted stuff in which I am dealing with. I feel angry I feel confused I feel trapped I feel unseen I feel unwanted I feel unloved I feel like I’m not being taken seriously I feel misunderstood that’s a big one I really feel misunderstood. If I had a dollar for every time I had to reshare what it is I am facing.. that’s something I can no longer afford to do I figure those who care enough know and they know not to ask much less OfferUp unwanted advice when I specifically said I don’t want unwanted advice unless it’s actually a real opportunity. I don’t have it in me anymore I told God to venture down another path and give this a try only to fall flat on my face.

In a nutshell I feel like a big epic failure and I wonder why the hell I’m still even here. I haven’t been able to see any sort of future for myself no matter how at peace I have been and this has been going on for months. I look into my future and I see nothing.

When I say I am burned down I’m not exaggerating I’m actually concerned for myself now. I’m still not sleeping I got way too much on my plate I got no one to hand it over to. Creditors are starting to harass me now. And it’s still all comes down to the one little part of myself where I know who I am I am here to share my voice. I am here to share my ideas. I am here to share those ideas over and over again until it creates a wave a ripple that starts to make a difference out in this reality. And I do that here and I do that on my buy me a coffee site. It’s what I do it’s what I’m best at it’s all I am able to do at the moment.

And my heart continues to be confused as to why it’s not more supported. Why I am not more supported in that. I am confused as to why when I ask people to share they don’t understand that all that means is take my link and put it on your social media account s. If you like what I do and like me enough say a few words about that as well. It’s very simple it doesn’t cost a dime. We’re all on social media we all share things and recirculate things that’s all I’m asking for. Next what I’m asking for is anybody with a job pay me 1 to $5 a month fir my work…that is a very doable and very reasonable request. And to be honest it’s really discouraging and disappointing that I can’t seem to get that message clear and that it has not happened in the way that I need and deserve.

I don’t know what else to say.

🙏

Victoria

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