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O.  M.  G.

And I deeply fully completely say O.  M.  G.

I woke up feeling sooooooooooo spacey and floaty and very blissful.  Now if I had stayed in bed and slept as my body/being required of me, I would have not felt as I do now:  hyper-vigilant/alert to any and ALL outside distractions.  I took a quick trip to the store.  It’s very warm here, the car was hot and the sun is very bright – all of these combined only heightened my sensitivities.  Even opening the car doors and getting the car started was a challenge.  Unlocking only worked on 3 of the doors and I could not get the key into the ignition or the car out of park.  At first I thought it was a block to keep me home so I said if attempt 2 doesn’t work, I’m taking the message.  I got out of the car, locked it back up again – let it sit then got back in.  Second try was successful.  Energies and a dissolving matrix is all I was able to feel/hear.

Speaking of………it was sometime last night or early this morning I was tuning into the matrix.  This was not a conscious thing but rather something within quieted me so I could tune in at some other level.  It was really a trip and all I can say is I had an experience where I could feel the frustration and the knowing within the programs that they are expiring.  I know – strange – and as I said – not an experience I said “hey this would be fun let’s try this”.  It just – happened.

Dreams last night – I had one that went on and on for a long “time”.  I was helping someone I know – helping them to remember – letting them it’s ok – it is time.  They can let go and I was willing to help them.  I was a safe person for them.  That’s the basic message but there was a lot of visits and connections during the experience.

So back to my effort to go pick up a few items.  Upon arriving in the store it is, naturally, packed.  I see someone in front of me and her energy immediately repels me – and her appearance as well.  I made the choice to go down another aisle – I kept running into her.  I tuned in to find my peace – change my thought forms so I could find a neutral connection with her. This worked until it was check out time and the only aisle available had her in it – with me being next.  Again, I remained neutral – until she began to speak.  Her voice – her voice was so loud and the vibration was harsh.  I literally took a step back and put up a bubble around me. Everything within me said “STAY AWAY”.  So I took another step back and remained until she left.  (not my monkey to figure out – just accept how my inner energies operate)

Then I felt I could breath again.

Wow.  Talk about sensitivity over-drive.

I did notice however the clerk (whom I know) – her energy was softer and more open.  We interacted on a new level.  It was lovely.

So I feel I can conclude by saying that ALL are opening and expanding but some are softer and some more “roughly”.  Is this due to those who are truly heart-centered and those who aren’t as I keep hearing/reading (but am having a hard time fully aligning with)?  Or maybe it is because some of us are from Original Earth and others, elsewhere.  Oh well….We align with whomever we align.  I like soft energy.  Gentle.  Strong in who one is but still, gentle.  Flowing.  Quiet.

And as I love myself, it is important to accept myself for who I am.

That is all.  Let me know how ya’ll are doing.

Love,

Victoria

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I had (for me) a long conversation with friend/reader/soul sister D tonight. I reflected on this later in the evening.  Normally I am not one to speak on the phone – certainly not comfortably and for such a length of time.  Tonight though, as I am now noticing, the experience was flowing so nicely.  The call energized me.

Most phone calls end up draining me.

This is what the Flow does.  This is what it’s like to be IN the flow – in an experience that Aligns.

AND ME WANTS MORE!  lol

I have the same experience when I play the piano.

I experience this when I snuggle with my girl or engage in activity I enjoy with her.

I experience this when I have a late night conversation with my mate on current happenings, the event, home, etc.

I mostly write about my insights and reflections.  When I share them in spoken word, it is mostly with my mate.  And there is something empowering/solidifying when taking a written word and sharing it as a spoken word with another – especially when the other Being aligns energetically with the thought/insight.  It’s like hearing myself say the words solidifies the truth in those spoken words.

Tonight’s phone call also clarified for me that when something is out of alignment with me now, the feeling is immediate.

It validated my knowing of the reason why most of us are scattered throughout the realm.  It has nothing to do with this “holding the light” nonsense as that is NOT what this movie ending is about.  It’s about ending the damn movie.  Yes, that involves us remembering and awakening TO the experience we are in but this thought that we have to hold the light and be selectively placed here and there is just rubbish.  We were energetically manipulated/controlled to be scattered so we would have more challenges in our acceptance of our awakening.  It’s much more of a challenge/struggle to awaken when you are the only one around you having the experience. We know the saying:  Whenever two or more of you are gathered in The Name (of Love/Truth)…. The controller’s knew this game was ending.  They just wanted to stretch it out and make our experience of it more challenging. Poke to the end.  ’tis what they do because that’s just who they are….

And speaking of challenging, I am not really finding it easier to connect with all of humanity.  I am finding it more of a challenge to truly be with anyone who isn’t “awake”.  As such, I have become even more energetically and naturally selective with whom I connect.

And……tonight, for the first time in my experience in this physical vessel, I told a guest in my home to “get the hell out of my house with that crap”.  I absolutely could not energetically tolerate what I was experiencing.  I was being given a narrative about JFK Jr – how he caused the plane crash because he did cocaine.  Utter rubbish.  Now normally I would just simply say something like “That is not how I view it” and perhaps share my perspective.  You know-the spiritually correct way of speaking.

Tonight?  Something new in me came out.  Inner roaring Truth.  I felt a mix of emotions as a result.  Guilt and yet this inner freedom.  It was – LIBERATING.

Liberating to speak without stopping to censor myself.

Perhaps this is another step in my awakening.  The ability to say what I REALLY WANT to say even if it comes out not wrapped in a pretty, spiritually correct package of perfection.  And this person, this guest who was in my house (uninvited I should say – not to judge – they just came into the house looking for another guest who had been invited) – this person has little sense of boundaries and I often have to remind them there are little ears listening.

So it is empowering for me as I have held my tongue far too many times with a select few people in my experience.  And when I have chosen to speak, as I said, I use care in how I speak.  Not to dismiss that….it’s just sometimes, for me that is, it is liberating to just speak it and go with that inner flow.

Me – being REAL – in the moment.

Which is what I did tonight with my authentic experiences of REAL conversing with my like-minded/like-hearted Soul Sister and with one of the bots.

(and yes lest i offend others with the term “bots” – i know they are being’s too deserving of truth and freedom.  i want ALL free of the experience of deception.  just don’t really want them IN my experience any more.)

Love,

V.

 

I am feeling a mix of agitation/frustration and calm.  The agitation/frustration has the storyline that goes something like this:

“I was NOT planning on doing another summer here – another summer where all of the local events have thousands of people – heat – loud music – all of those things that send my particular body into over-drive.  I don’t want to do another summer with kids running in and outside of the house – asking for food and drink and us not having the money to be able to feed them all what they want/need.  I don’t want to do another summer in this area where all other parents have very good incomes and take their kids on vacations and sign them up for camps and all sorts of other things.  That pressure is just something I do not wish to feel or experience.  I was SERIOUSLY NOT PLANNING ON DOING THIS!  UGH!….  I feel like the grinch – the noise. The noise.  The noise!  I am in my heart as much as I can be and this damn system keeps on going and keeps on poking away at me telling me reminding me I don’t have enough I am not young enough I don’t have enough energy to do the things I am supposed to do as a parent today.

I want to be where I have seen for so very long.  With my family. Beautiful house of our dreams.  Close to the beach.  In the woods.  Very small community.  Peaceful.  Quiet.  TOTALLY RESTORED.  I.  Just.  Want. To.  Be. There.  Already.  Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuc.

And until then, I just want to be in the quiet of my own home – left ALONE – until I DECIDE to engage.”

The calm says “be yourself.  Trust.  None of this is permanent.”

Ugh!  Not so helpful at this point.

I was feeling more into the concept of “simulation”.  What exactly does that mean and what can I do to break out of it and change how I approach it so I can have the best possible experience while I am still here?

If this really is a literal simulation and I am not even in a “real” body – real as in Original but a dumbed-down version of the Original – what now?  Keep unplugging?  Refuse to play ANY role that doesn’t align?

I was thinking of those who are homeless – how there is a sense of freedom to that – in spite of the horrors they face – having to find shelter – being harassed for building a shelter in a space someone says is not “allowed” – having to focus on where to sleep and how to eat and how to bathe and how to protect oneself from the elements.   Then there are the homeless being’s who are whacked out on meth or alcohol or heroin and use force and violence to take from others who are, otherwise, peacefully without homes.

Where is the WIN WIN situation here?

There isn’t one.

As I recall from the movie “War Games” – it IS best not to play certain games.  And the “go back to earth and pay to live and be controlled and confined by others definitions of how to do so and be attacked even more when you dare question it all” – that is a game I just don’t consent to.  And it is my inner knowing I NEVER HAVE CONSENTED TO IT.  Nothing within me feels I said “sure, let’s play this one!”  I got trapped.  Temporarily lost and thus confused.

And playing this role and this game is something I simply do not agree to play any longer.

How much longer until this game is over?  And what can I do to hurry it along?

And what – do I do NOW – as I said above – to best experience this?

What I’ve always done – do the best I can.  Remain in my heart.  Know my stories.  Love and forgive.  And if I have to inconvenience others or violate some social expectation to take care of my needs because what this system offers just absolutely does not work for me, so be it.

That is all for now.

Love,

Victoria

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