the “nudging” synchro stuff began after i awoke. i was in my “WHEN is this transition going to happen? WHEN?” you know, i try my best to remain neutral ~ calm ~ centered and yet….
tell me to do something different at this point and i am liable to snap at you like a hungry dog. within i laugh one of those near-hysteria laughs as i think how many “outside of the box” things i have done since all of that “inside of the box” more or less said “get OUT”.
all of this stuff was going through my mind as i headed to the bedroom to do some chores. groundhog day chores. as i ventured into the room i felt this pull off to my left – it was quite strong. “go look at the tv” i was guided. i resisted for a second and the energy increased so ok then, i went. below is the pic that was on the screen (music channel we play throughout the day). “freedom”. “ascension harmonics”.
ok then.
an hour later, headed out to do more groundhog day stuff…i get into the car and am guided – again – to look at the dash. trip odometer read 177.7. picture below.
ok then.
drive a ways. daughter spots a car. a purple car. “mama look! a purple car!” unusual color purple. i laugh and think “the skies were all purple” – look at the license plate. 777.
no joke. and i’m not done yet. (i wanted to take a picture but i figure that’s a privacy thing – taking a snapshot of someone’s license place and sharing it on the internet. you will just have to trust me on this one.)
at this point i decide to turn on the radio. the song? take a guess. “the skies were all purple there were people running everywhere.” yep. 1999.
this time i had to laugh.
what does it mean? i don’t know. reassurance? validation?
fine. ok, fine. TELL ME i have all of this money coming – tell me all you want – give me synchronicities all over the place ~ and yet until I HAVE IT IN MY HANDS and can feeeeeeeeeeeeeel it and touch it and experience it – it remains a desire. and even desires are beginning to feel like groundhog day, aren’t they?
paradox. i love these experiences and yet all they do is keep me focused on the end result. i need to see the desired result manifest. there is that saying that it isn’t the result that has meaning but the journey.
tell that to the pregnant mother.
tell that to the person running a marathon.
tell that to the young person completing a college degree program.
on and on and on.
meaning is found in ALL pursuits – from start to finish. and for those experiences that are traumatizing, we ALL know in our hearts that ending the trauma – getting free of it – is where the desire is.
i came here knowing who i am. i did not need abuse and trauma to tell me otherwise nor to remind me. oh just so done with it all. the nonsense. the religion of new age.
you know what is happening though? that Me within is stronger. solid. the fear what others may think – the fear that maybe i would lose my audience here – it’s about as small now as a flea – and as useless too.
gotta be myself because no one else can.
below are the pictures.
love to you all ~
victoria
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