Something has come in and hit this vessel majorly. I was feeling quite good overall ~ then I took a shower and heard “mission accomplished”. I had entered the shower hungry and yet getting out I realized I was no longer needing food. I decided to eat anyway.
Wow. Wrong decision. My body seems to be rejecting what I put into it. I was then suddenly in pain all over ~ the achy “ascension flu” type experience ~ nothing new but it wasn’t too long ago I had this experience.
Putting heat on my body. Portable massager on the muscles. Letting myself release via chanting. Some personal stuff that is “eating” at me ~ an old issue ~ and I know I am compromising myself in order to give to my daughter. Just a temporary situation ~ as in an hour ~ but I know it is something I would so rather NOT do. Not out of fear ~ just a knowing of not wanting to put myself in a particular situation. It is not healthy for me.
Wow.
Being around anyone who doesn’t know me or support me in Who I Am brings up the experience of inner repulsion ~ especially when the individual has been abusive. So yes, I am compromising myself.
Being a parent while awakening is a huge challenge at times. Interacting with old 3D paradigms ~ just a challenge that at times leaves me just blank.
Time for a new approach which I am flushing out as it is simply something I cannot engage in without saying something ~ doing something different.
For now, I am nurturing myself. Seeking inner wisdom to make a shift in this situation/issue.
Love thyself ~ always ~ the highest greatest wisdom of all.
Wishing you all well~
Victoria