Shower portal time share, friends.
Some images I’ve seen in recent weeks have been staying with me.
Images of women, mostly white, having meltdowns. Public rages.
At the time I saw this, the comments were full of “crazy white liberal women”. And yet, I saw a bit of myself in these women.
It isn’t just the “crazy white liberal women”. It’s people of all ages, all ethnicities. Who isn’t feeling the intensity of the world? Of this Awakening?
I believe what we are feeling is, in par,t our own inner trauma coming to the surface. The words we did not share. The thoughts we kept to ourselves. The emotions.
And to add to that, we are literally unplugging from a reality that had our minds held captive, where we have been programmed from birth, fed lies and illusions by the system – the matrix computer – which wanted us to believe what we saw and were told was Truth. Unplugging the mind from all of that programming is tough as hell on its own. But add in the traumas that we all experience, some far less, some far more, and you just add in more emotional intensity during the deprogramming process.
This is an inside and outside experience. Seeing truth out there. Seeing truth in here (touching my heart).
Given I can only speak as a woman, I will share what I feel is happening with many of these “white liberal women”: A lifetime of neglect. A lifetime of abuse. James Brown, as much as I love his music, that dude was spot on when he sang, “This is a man’s world.” It has been. The energies of it slant heavily towards the masculine. Competition (for EVERY fucking thing). Pay to live, which forces us to hustle every day to DO DO DO. Slay the dragon. Get ‘er done. This is how this reality operates.
And as a woman – none of this aligns with me. It all feels so unnatural. Incomplete. While men may question the system as well, they are far more biologically designed to be a part of that system. Just ask any parent: “How do you feel when your boy goes out alone? How do you feel when your girl goes out alone?” We know the stats. We KNOW how it is and who is more vulnerable to assaults, attacks, abuse.
Women are the nurturers. The caregivers. We have innate abilities to resolve conflict peacefully. We seek to connect. It’s BIOLOGY.
NONE of these energies is included in the pay-to-live competitive system.
As women, we have had to fake it.
And given the time we’ve spent hiding and pretending, the time for fake is over. And now, all of those years, those decades of frustration we have hidden and faked it just to keep up is coming out.
Add in the years we spend raising our children, being told it is REAL work while we don’t get nearly the same respect for it as a worker out in the “real” world, we’re f’ing tired.
Remember when that video came out with Trump talking about a woman’s private area with that derogatory term? Remember the rage? I pretended not to feel any of my own. Even though I supported the man, when I heard that commentary, it brought up the numerous times my personal safety boundaries were violated, and all I heard was “that’s just how guys are”.
Yeah, NOT AN ANSWER.
This is just an example, of course, but I think we need to listen to these “liberal white women” just like we need to listen to ANYONE on stage now, protesting, lashing out. While I get that propaganda can indeed incite violence, quite often there is already something within that individual, an unresolved trauma, that has been triggered that needs to be seen.
Safety.
Space held.
To know, hey, it’s ok to feel this way.
Until we start doing this, until we can strengthen ourselves up enough, see our own inner triggers, and begin by holding a safe space for ourselves, as men and women, we will continue to judge those we see as behaving in a “crazy” manner.
When maybe they have a story to tell.
Something worth listening to.
And something to teach those of us who, for the moment, believe we have ourselves all under control.
💖
Victoria
